Warning?: sensitive topic?

hansol and seungkwan were seated on the floor in hansols dorm. they were trying to make a plan on how to escape, and they wanted to be able to know everything about each other

'hansol, i was abused, by my mother...' seungkwan randomly brought up

'but.' seungkwan added 'i love her so much, way to much'

hansol cupped seungkwans cheek 'awh, who would want to abuse you?' he said softly as seungkwan swatted his hands

'here, ill explain' seungkwan huffed and relaxed himself

'seungkwan- this topic is pretty sensitive- you don't need-'

'no- i want to, it's best if I do so' seungkwan cut as hansol lightly gasped from the brave boy he hasn't seen but nodded nonetheless

'lets start from when I was 5' seungkwan said

'when I was little my mom was always angry and upset! but she was loving and caring! you'd never know when she would flip! when my dad left, she started to blame things on me, her screams and swears would turn to punches and kicks, i liked to play around with her because I didn't know what she was doing was not normal

she'd always take things out on me instead of my sister, she would swear and scream at her but never or barely hit her, which made me annoyed, most of the time I avoided being in the same room as her, once she shoved me in the bath filled with hot water, she would drown me and put soap in my mouth, than the next minute she would help me pick oranges and cuddle with me, I was confused, but I loved her, a lot'

'I was 12 and I realized all the stuff my mom did to me wasn't normal, other kids at school didn't show up with bruises or burns, they talked about how cool their parents were! they'd always have new clothes and cool things! when I asked my mom for a phone she only slapped me, and said she's an only mother and that I'm selfish, but she ended up buying a phone for my sister, which I was mad about, my sister never wanted a phone! but she gladly took it, my sister was kind to me though, she said I could have it as long as we pretend that it's hers and not show it in front of my mother'

'my mom ended up loosing her job a year later, they dismissed her from work because of her actions towards a customer, so she was jobless, and my sister and i were to young to work!

my mom kept searching for jobs but didn't find anything. so she forced us to be prostitutes, my sister begged my mom to try something else but my mom showed no obligation because she brainwashed us with "we'll be homeless" "you'll have no food" which made me and my sister scared, I was 13 at the time and she was 15 at the time

life as a prostitute was disgusting, the fact that I had to sleep with old man was disgusting! people would always slap my ass and actually torture me! i would cry myself to sleep and my sister noticed my depression, my sister hated it too but was stronger than me, so she slept with more guys to get more money which sounds awful, but she reassured me that I would never have to do this again, as the time went by we were able to pay rent, eat good food, and have new clothes, all because my sister, but my sister ended up dying because of stds, you don't understand how hard I cried because now we're back to square one, and my sister was the only one who understood me'

my mom decided that there's no point of calling me her son, she took all her anger on to me, when she hit me and kicked me I could used my hands to stop her or she would say im hitting her and the situation would turn even worse than what it was

my depression came back after my sisters death, I was barely in my house and my mom finally found a job, id only come for dinner and say I would hang out with a friend but I didn't have a lot of friends except that girl down the street, who was really nice! oh and the boy samuel! I tutored him but we also became close! so I tried to hang out with them, but I can't go to their house everyday so I would just walk around the neighborhood

to wrap this up, I deserve to die and that's why I'm here, my life sounds fucked up but I deserve it, sometimes... i wish I wasn't alive....'

hansol was taken aback and was speechless, he didn't know what to say, but he knew what to do- he leaned over to give seungkwan a warm hug

than seungkwan started to cry, 'h-hansol i-im a bad p-person aren't i' he sniffed

'no please, it's not your fault, you don't deserve to die! im so sorry you had to experienced all that, you really don't deserve anything bad, you should have all the happiness in the world!' hansol cooed and buried his face into seungkwans neck

'you make me happy...' seungkwan mumbled

'im glad, you deserve all the happiness' hansol played with his hair as seungkwan lightly chucked

'your so touchy today lol'

'eww! don't say lol!'

'oh my god'

'don't say oh my god!' hansol replied as seungkwan shook his head

'oh'

'my'

'God' seungkwan said as hansol laughed and raised his hands 'okay okay you got me!'

'so what's yo-'

"joshua and seungcheol have been killed, great kill vernon! 14 days left! still 6 still alive! again! weapons will be restocked! everyone must be in there own dorm tonight! oh and soonyoung and jihoon! can you not be all gay all over the camera thanks!"

'"all gay"' hansol laughed as seungkwan frowned

'why did you kill joshua and seungcheol?' seungkwan asked as hansol shrugged

'i don't know'

'hansol i already know your an assassin-' hansols eyes widen 'do I make it that obvious?!'

'no it's just when we were reading the documents i kinda peaked at yours-' seungkwan bit his lip, 'sorry...'

'its cool, i don't care' been shrugged as seungkwan slowly nodded, 'so why are you here?' seungkwan asked

'um, for the prize'

'the money?!'

'yea' he said as seungkwan mouth turned to the shape of an 'O'

'i won't judge! its just- sketchy-?'

'im being honest!' he said throwing his hands in the air

'okay i believe you...'

'oh, um remember how I was stuck in cage thingy? i think I saw the room where they watch us, because I remember being awake and peeking through and saw a room with video cameras and a mics'

'really!! than lets go investigate!'

'but that's what we tried last time but ended up with having me taken away! we can't do that again!'

'okay than we make a plan!' hansol said

'well- okay.' seungkwan replied

'okay I have an idea' hansol said 'so basically...'

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seventeen is/was in Chicago and I'm here in Virginia sippen my tea