[A/N] Aaaaand here is the last of Eros' POV for a while. Hope you guys enjoyed the mind of Eros 👍 And from that, arises a question! Who's POV do you guys like more and why?

Also, it was recently brought to my attention that KTWB hit #1 in the manxman category? I had no idea but I'm super happy and I thank you guys for all your continuous support!!

18+ warning...? Nvm (jk still a warning)

E r o s

In between all of my unreleased annoyance and stress being built up, I found myself spending the last of our time in Italy with a serious headache.

Having to explain to Alistair the situation in place of Renard who couldn't suck up his pride for five seconds to admit that he was wrong was a nuisance of it's own. Alistair took Renard off the deal but Rocco still didn't want me apart of it which was fine by me. Good riddance to him and that pathetic bastard Renard.

Eventually though, once we were back in the states it was as if that pain lifted and I felt much, much better. As soon as we got home, Jamie had snatched Harvey up quicker than we could blink, barely even welcoming Cole and I back as well.

I could understand though, I'd be the same if I were in his position.

My social battery was broken beyond repair and would take a long time fix itself, a few days away from the world was very much needed. Walking into the house felt like heaven, the comfort of our home bringing me nothing but joy as I ditched my bags at the door and sunk myself into the sofa.

I missed it so much.

"Cole, c'mere" I said as I motioned for him to come closer.

When he was within arms reach, I grabbed his hand and tugged him down on to the couch with me, arms encircling his waist while burying my face in his shoulder.

"Isn't it so good to be home?" I said and Cole nodded.

"Yeah" he said and we fell into a comfortable silence, just enjoying the other's company. We were tired from the long flight so this moment to rest was very much so needed.

If I could stay like this forever, I really would. Cole's presence soothed me like no other and I only wanted to bask in it for as long as I could.

"Oh yeah" Cole suddenly got up and I frowned at the loss of his warmth. That wasn't long...what was more important than our cuddling session?

Cole had gone over to his bags and went searching for something before taking it out. He came back over with the rectangular box, wrapped in a dark blue wrapping paper with my name written on it.

"What is this?" I asked as he handed the box to me.

"Why don't you open it and find out?" Cole said and I gave a playful glare.

"I got it done when Harvey and I went out together" Cole said as I tore the wrapping paper off.

Taking the top off of the box, inside was a picture frame with a picture of Cole and I, it was while we were in Italy and I had made him take a picture with me during one of the days we went to sight see, our smiles both being prominent in the picture.

Engraved on the corner of the frame was 'ti amo - Cole' and I could feel my heart melting into a little puddle. There was so much love for Cole pumping all throughout my body and it did kind of make me emotional.

This was the sweetest thing anyone has ever done for me.

"I figured it'd be fine to give it to you now since it's only a day early. Happy birthday" Cole said, a smile falling on his face as he peered at me.

Not even caring that I had completely forgotten about my own birthday, I placed the frame to the side before reaching over to give Cole a kiss.

"Thank you, I love it" I murmured against his lips and I could feel the smile forming on his at my words.

I genuinely don't know what I would do if Cole were to ever tire of me someday and leave. I don't know if that would happen but the thought of it just made me extremely uncomfortable.

And then there was that stray thought barging it's way to the front of my brain.

Our deal.

Would Cole really leave after the year is up? I mean, he has that right and I told him he could. A pang of doubt rung throughout me and I pulled away from Cole to make eye contact with him.

I obviously had to ask him, I couldn't just sit here and dwell on depressing thoughts, that would get me no where.

"Have you thought about our deal? Do you still want to leave?" I asked and Cole's eyes widened at the question, I had clearly caught him off guard with it.

After coming out of his shock, Cole answered.

"Yeah, I've thought about it. I've already decided that I wish to leave but not in the sense of leaving this place. I just don't want to be apart of the group any longer" Cole said and my heart was alleviated by his explanation.

"So you'll stay with me?" I said and Cole shrugged.

"Hm...who knows" he said but I could see the smile peaking at his lips so I just gave him a playful nudge which made him laugh.

"You know, you're the first person to ever ask me what I wanted to do instead of telling me what I was going to do. It really changed my view of you" Cole said as he rested his head against my shoulder.

Well thank god for my unconventional methods.

"I'm not sure what I want to do but I just know that I'm tired of living for violence" Cole said and I hummed in understanding.

"So let's change that. Screw waiting the year, if you want to right now, you can leave. You can be free to do whatever you want" I said and Cole turned his head up to me.

"But then who'll be your bodyguard?" He asked and I chuckled.

"Eh, I guess I can give Johnny his job back" I said and Cole also laughed.

"What has he been doing anyways?" He asked and I shrugged.

"He was at first covering Ian's positions since you put Ian in the hospital but after that he's just been carrying out the small tasks I ask of him" I explained and just then a yawn left Cole.

I had forgotten just how tired we were, though I felt like I could never tire of having a conversation with Cole.

"Let's go to bed" I said as I stood up with a stretch.

The two of us headed to bed and when my head hit the pillow, I was out like a light, ready for a most decent sleep.

~ next day ~

Cole and I were currently in a coffee shop, just trying to get some drinks to go. I didn't really feel like doing anything for my birthday despite Harvey yelling at me about it, I just wanted to spend today in a relaxed manner.

"Cole?"

We had just gotten our drinks when all of a sudden, someone called out to Cole from behind us and we both turned to see who it was.

My disappointment was immeasurable and my day was ruined at the sight of who it was.

"And Mr. Azure" Nixon said as he nodded at me in acknowledgment to which I stared at him in distaste.

"Cop" was all I said and Nixon just gave a nervous chuckle.

"How have you been? I see you getting a coffee with this guy but not with me. I told you we should get one sometime" Nixon said which had me frowning.

Did it ever occur to him that Cole just doesn't want to get coffee with him?

"Sorry, I've been busy" Cole said with an apologetic smile but if you ask me he didn't have to apologize to this guy.

"It's okay, I guess it's also on me since I haven't reached out either. Work's been crazy as well" Nixon replied with a sigh at the end.

Just then, he looked to me.

"Your glaring is really obvious" he said and I just gave an empty smile.

"Good" I said.

As if wanting to die or something, Nixon suddenly drew closer to Cole.

"Does this really make you that upset?" Nixon taunted as he hugged Cole and squished their cheeks together. All the while I just stared at him with the single thought in my mind that if we weren't in public, I would have put a bullet through that fucker's throat.

"You have one second to let him go before I end your sorry excuse of a life" I said and Nixon immediately let go.

"Alright, calm down. I'm just playing around, laugh a little" He said.

"The only thing I laugh at is pain and it's about to get real funny in here if you continue to test my nonexistent patience" I said as I glared at him, my words matching my desire to kill the little bastard for putting his filthy hands on Cole.

"Sorry, okay?" he said, brushing my death threats and glares off with a wave of his hand.

"I'll pretend this never happened on one condition" I said and Nixon raised a brow.

"And what is that...?" He asked slowly.

"Give me those handcuffs" I said, pointing to them. Nixon and Cole looked at me with confused expressions but I kept a neutral one while waiting for my compensation.

"Uh...why?" He asked.

"I'm letting you live and you're asking why?" I said to which Nixon sighed.

"Alright, alright. Jeez, here" he said as he handed them and the key over to me. I smiled in satisfaction before grabbing Cole's hand, ready to blow this popsicle stand.

"Thanks, I hope you have a horrible day and that you fall down some stairs" I said before walking out of the shop, leaving behind a stunned Nixon.

As we walked away, I could feel Cole's gaze on me so I turned to him.

"Don't look at me like that, you know how I feel about him" I said when seeing Cole's unimpressed face. Cole just shook his head at me before eyeing the cuffs in my hand.

"Whatever. Seriously though why did you ask for the handcuffs?" He asked and I gave an innocent smile.

"Research purposes"

~ * ~

"This is the...research?" Cole said, his green eyes staring at me with a heavy look. His exposed chest on display was rising up and down, nipples hardened from his arousal.

"It sure is" I said, gripping his waist to keep him seated on my dick that was buried in him to the hilt. It's been at least ten minutes or so and I could tell Cole was getting antsy from having to sit still as I ordered.

His hands being cuffed behind him wasn't exactly helping either but oh well, he better get used to it.

"What's the matter, hm? It's not that big of a deal. All you have to do is sit here and look pretty, which you're doing a very good job at" I said, letting my fingers ghost over one of his nipples just to tease him and the sadistic nature in me was slightly sated as Cole shuddered.

"Were the cuffs necessary though?" He grumbled, gesturing to them by pulling at them.

"Of course they are. It adds to the experie-...I mean, research" I corrected myself with a faux cough and Cole only glared, clearly not happy with his situation.

I mean, who would? Being tied up and forced to endure light stimulation without anything further may not be fun for him, but seeing Cole struggle to stay still and writhe at the rare brush against his walls was extremely fun for me.

Cole looked like he wanted to say something but opted for staying quiet, his cheeks burning a delicious red that only I had the pleasure of seeing.

I purposely shifted in my seat and just that slight movement from me made my dick rub Cole's insides in a way that elicited low moans from him, ones that sounded like music to my ears.

Patience was definitely not my middle name at all but of course, I could muster some that rivaled that of a saint when it comes down to teasing my lover. I really did want to just throw Cole down on the desk and fuck the shit out of him but I reigned myself in, in favor of seeing Cole desperate.

To be honest, I just had an office room in the house for the purpose of someday getting to fuck Cole on the desk. Was I ashamed of myself for thinking such things? No, not at all. The fantasy just fueled my hope for an opportunity to arise in the future, and now my wishes have finally been heard.

"Did that feel good? I mean, it must because you're pretty much screaming for attention down here" I teased as I gripped Cole's length in my hands, thumb sliding over the tip teasingly and spreading the precum.

Cole's head fell to my shoulder with a moan and even if he was trying to hold back, it must have been really hard.

Such a shame since I was about to make it even harder for him.

"You know what, I think I have something else that will help our research" I said, reaching into the desk drawer for the little thing I'd placed in it in preparation for this exact moment.

"You can stop calling it that" Cole said and I chuckled.

"It's fun" I said and once I grabbed the little vibrator, I also grabbed my phone.

"What is that...?" Cole asked as I started up the app on my phone.

"Something that'll make you feel good" I answered vaguely as I turned the vibrator on and placed my phone back on the desk.

All I had to do was lay the vibrating egg on his nipple and there was an instant reaction from Cole, his body tensing up and moans slipping past his lips. As I continued to tease him with the vibrator, I noticed that Cole was starting to move a bit in search for some kind of friction and I shut it down with a firm squeeze to his dick.

"Cole, I told you not to move didn't I?" My voice was a low but firm whisper in his ear as I spoke, making sure that he wouldn't move again before continuing.

"Just quit it already" Cole's voice sounded like almost that of a whimper, which was bad for him because I relished in the sound.

I know that with all the stimulation going on, what with me stroking him while keeping the vibrator on his chest, I was sure Cole was pretty much at his limit

"Maybe if you ask nicely, I may feel a bit inclined to help you out" I said.

"Please...I can't" Cole said weakly, his voice was hot and low as he spoke and the look in his eyes was enough to stir even me up.

"Please what? You have to tell me what you want or I can't help you" I said as I feigned ignorance to Cole's plea.

"I want you to fuck me already" Cole's voice held a frustrated edge to it that I found just absolutely adorable. I really did feel like an evil son of a bitch by denying him pleasure but I enjoyed teasing Cole far too much.

And that's what I continued to do.

"Why should I? I think you deserve a little punishment after being so buddy buddy with that cop earlier" I said, my words not holding any real weight to them.

"It wasn't even like that and you know it" Cole said and I pretended to muse for a bit.

On one hand, I loved seeing Cole all hot and bothered but the other hand also wanted to play nice and give in to him so I decided to choose an option that would work for him and me.

"I'll forgive you but if you want to cum you're gonna have to fuck yourself on my dick because I'm not going to help you" I said as I grabbed the key to the cuffs off the desk and freed Cole's arms.

With his newfound freedom, Cole brought them up to my shoulders and gripped them a bit.

His movements were a bit hesitant as he lifted himself up before sinking back down on my dick, making the both of us groan, basking in the pleasure that we'd been denied for the last half hour.

It felt so good and although I wanted nothing more than to speed up the process, I kept to my word and let Cole control his own rhythm.

The way his heat would find and leave me as he rode me made me grip the chair arms, the feeling being all too good to resist. My front row seat and amazing view was also nothing to miss.

The way Cole's face was flushed red with a thin layer of sweat as he bounced himself up and down on my dick was a sight I always knew I needed to see. Cole was too sexy for his own good and it should probably be illegal at this point.

I know I said I wasn't going to help, but I ended up getting too carried away in thought of keeping this expression on his face as I grabbed Cole's dick once again and stroked him as he rode me.

Not expecting me to do that, Cole's hips stuttered a bit as a moan slipped from his lips.

"Keep moving my love, you're doing so well. You're almost there" I said as encouragement for him to continue and Cole nodded before continuing his movements.

The pleasure was getting to me too, the urge to cum making itself known as the heat in my stomach increased. I'd make sure Cole came first though since I did unfairly torture him.

Speeding up my strokes, I helped Cole to his finish and he came on our chests with a breathy moan as his walls clamped down on me tightly, arms wrapping around my neck and hugging me all the while.

I waited a few moments for Cole to calm down a little before lifting him up off my dick, it was still hard since I decided not to cum right there and then although that in itself was hard as fuck.

"Huh...?" Cole breathed out when I had stood up and put him on the desk.

"Oh we're not done, not by a long shot. I haven't cum yet and we still have this desk to test out" I said as I caged him in with my hands on each side of him.

"This is evil" Cole said and I raised a brow.

"Evil? Trust me darling, this is me being lenient. Evil is me cuffing you the bed with a vibrator shoved inside you on the highest setting and leaving you like that for hours" I said, all the while looking him dead in the eye so that he would know that I'm completely serious.

Cole's expression formed into one of disbelief at my words but I knew that he wasn't going to doubt me for one second so I just flashed him another smile.

"Now, spread those legs and lie back for me, my love"