Song: Start of something good by Daughtry

I try hard to only talk to Emily and Ava in my room so that the others don't see me talking to them, even though there are some days when I'm out in the garden that I talk to them. Living here has been a big change in my life. The people here are super nice and have been really helping me out. Hell they even remind me to take my meds at night...gold figure.

It's been a good month now and I haven't seen or heard any of the dark voices. I actually even catch myself smiling at times...even laughing. Today we have visitors and my mom is coming out. I haven't spoken to her since the day she left me here. A part of me wants to see her and another part of me doesn't. It's so hard to explain how she makes me feel.

When her car pulls up, I'm out in the garden picking some of the tomatoes for the salsa. She walks over to me and yells. "Sophie...darling...I'm here."

"Hey...I'm almost done. Would you like to help?"

"Uhm...sure why not."

I hand her a few of the tomatoes so I can pick a few more. "You look great...guess this place is working out after all."

"Yeah...I guess so. It's what you had planned right...so why wouldn't it be working out."

"Sophie please don't start...I did not come here to argue."

"I'm not arguing with you...I'm just stating the facts. So what was this really...a place for me to live forever...what you hoping I would hook up with that Andy guy?"

"Hey if you do you do...he is a really nice guy...He says you are doing amazing out here."So she is keeping up with me...of course she is.

"Does he now...what do you like talk to him every day or something?"

"Not every day...and it's not what you think?"

"Really...so you call him up and talk to him...but you can't just call up your own daughter and ask her?"

"I...I thought you wouldn't talk to me."

"So you talk to him...about me...I don't believe this shit. When are you ever going to just let me be? You don't believe in me do you...you just know I'm going to mess up and go back down that wrong road...and you are waiting for me to do it aren't you?"

"Sophie..."I walk towards the kitchen to drop of the tomatoes.

Anna sees my mom and hugs her right off. "Oh...Jessica it's so nice that you could come out today...Sophie has been an amazing help around here."

"She knows Anna...it's like she doesn't talk to Andy about me every day." I place the tomatoes on the kitchen island and walk off. I leave my mom with standing by Anna...I'm sure they will have lots to talk about without me being there.

 I go to the barn and grab Lightning's reins and pull myself up on him. I take off. I hear someone calling my name but I don't bother stopping instead I kick him in the side to make him go even faster. I just don't want to be there right now. I ride him all the way to the pond and jump off to let him drink.

Within seconds I hear the hooves of Thunder riding up and I know it is Andy."What's wrong?"

"Go ask my mom...you seem to talk to her enough."

"Ouch..." He gets down and walks over to me. "It's not like that you know."

"Really...it's not like that. I haven't talked to her since I have been here and apparently you two have been keeping up with each other."

"She's just worried about you."

"If she was so worried she would have called me...talked to me not you and why didn't you just tell me. I had to hear her tell me that you guys talk all the time."

"I'm sorry...I should have told you alright. She calls me at least twice a week to see how you are doing."

"She is waiting for me to lose it...to go crazy. She has no faith in me."

"I think she loves you more than you think she does. She only wants the best for you."

"Yes...so she sends me here...hoping that I would hook up with you."

"We have never talked about that."

"I know...it's her...the way she is...she is playing you just as much as she is playing me. She is on your good side...but you will see eventually the way I see her."

"Sophie..."

"Andy...I don't want to be rude but can you please just go. I need to think and it's hard to do that with you here."

"Yeah...ok...don't stay long, dinner will be ready soon."

"Yeah...ok."I watch as he jumps up on Thunder's back and take off.

"Your mom is never going to fully let you go."

"No crap...Emily...she is also hoping that you would disappear....but you do."

"Do you wish for us to be gone?" Ava walks around the bushes, with sadness in her eyes.

"No...you two have been with me like forever...I can't live without you two."

"You like him don't you?"

"A part of me does...is that so wrong?"

"Not at all...you need to be loved by someone...Andy is a really nice guy."

"Yes...but does he really like me for me or did she put all these things in his head about me."

"Why do you let her get to you?" Ava walks over and sits beside us. She starts to play with my hair.

"I don't know...she just gets under my skin."I wait till the sun starts to go down and then I climb up on Lightening and ride him back to the farm.

 Everyone is sitting under the covered patio and some are over on the picnic table. My mom is still here and sitting my Anna. There is an empty chair by her and then across from her. The other chair is beside Andy. Great...sit by mom or Andy.

"Sit here Sophie." Emily taps on the chair by Andy.

"Yeah...we can't to see your mom's expression when you sit by him instead of her." Ava starts to laugh. She goes over and sits by my mom just for kicks.

I walk over and pull out the chair and sit down. The only bad thing about sitting here is that she can see me head on. I grab a few chips and crumble them in my plate and then add a scoop of the taco meat and some of the trimmings...diced tomatoes, onions, lettuce, shredded cheese and the homemade salsa. I glance up at her and she is staring me down...I think she is thinking why in the hell can I just not eat the damn taco like a normal person...why do I have to make such a mess out of it. I smile at her as I grab my fork and dig in.

I hear Andy crumble up chips and do the same thing. He looks over at me and starts to smile. "What a smart idea...why did I never think of that." He grabs a fork and starts digging in.

I hear his mom laugh under her breath. I roll my eyes and giggle. Andy is always trying to find ways to make me feel good about myself. My mom takes another bite of her taco and when some of the meat falls out, Andy and I both laugh.

"See...Jessica...you should try it this way..." he takes another bite and grins.

"That's ok...I will just eat it this way."

Our eyes meet again...oh I see it see is so disappointed in the way that I am acting...and all I did was break the chips. I'm so sorry that I am not normal.

I sit back and listen to everyone talk...somehow my hand lands on his leg and he moves his hand on top of it; he gives it a light squeeze. He looks over at me and smiles again. After every one is done eating, I go in and help clean up some of the dishes and then meet my mom back outside to tell her bye.

"Thanks for coming."

"It's no problem...Sophie... I'm so glad you are doing alright. You really do look happy."

"Mom...can you just call me if you want to ask how I am doing...please..."

She smiles and reaches over to hug me when she pulls away she wipes the tears from her face. "Yes...I will call you. I'm sorry for leaving you here."

"It's alright...I'm going to be alright mom."We say our goodbyes and then she leaves. Andy is sitting out by the fire pit. I walk over to him.

 "Hey can we talk?"

"Sure." He stands up and walks beside me. We walk to the barn...maybe everyone is out by now.

"I'm sorry that I was upset earlier."

"You have every right to be. I shouldn't be talking to your mom behind your back."

"No you shouldn't be...look if you ever want to know the real me then just ask me alright."

He turns to stand facing me. "Your mom has told me a lot about you...but honestly I would really like to hear it from you."

"Really like what do you want to know?"

His eyes sparkle. "What is your favorite color?"

"Seriously...of all the questions that you could possibly ask you want to know what color I like."

"Yes..." he has a shit eating grin on his face, so wide it shows his cute dimples.

"Aqua." The moment I say it his hand finds my neck and he pulls me into him. His soft lips capture mine and before I can even breathe out he is kissing me again.When I pull away his eyes are sparkling back into mine.

"Sophie... I shouldn't have done that."

I shake my head and reach up to kiss him again.

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Author's Note: So...what do you guys think about Andy? Do you think this is a good thing or not?