sorry, I took so long to write, I woke up at 5 in the morning to be able you write to you guys. my school dance got cancelled because they said it was going to snow, guess what 55 minutes of flurry that didn't even stick to the ground. I'm trying out for the talent show with my twin sister and my friend Justin, wish us luck. so I did get into the talent show and I also went to a wedding. It was on the Japanese side of my family so it was amazing to meet them and I've been sick for a long time and all I want is to see my boyfriend.

P.S. this guy in art class cut one of my pieces and I burst into tears.

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Tatia's POV : { 2 weeks after the last time skip }
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UGH. this is so hard. I put my hand down. " Caster this is impossible " I said to him. how was I supposed to grow a tree. its not as easy as it looks. " you can do it just concentrate " he said edging me on. for the last few weeks Nick wouldn't let me leave the room but for my own safety, he sent Caster to watch over me and teach me magic.

he isn't an all type like me but he can and has been teaching me forest magic. at the moment there are tons of flowers and plants in the room because it shows Nick my progress. he said he doesn't mind a little forest in his room and claims it makes his wolf feel more at home. I would do it outside but I'm not allowed to leave.

I once read in a book that werewolves were possessive and Alphas had the highest possessiveness but I see why he has me trapped here. I keep having nightmares of my old coven and every time it happens I tell him I want to leave. so he prevents me from leaving by locking me in his room all day and I don't mind that much because even if I'm trapped I still get pampered by the omegas and get company from them and Caster.

I'm not too afraid of the coven as I used to be, I have learned a lot more magic. Alice has been sitting here and recording all of the new spells and her and Grimora have become awesome friends. I picked my hands up and tried again.

I didn't feel anything and gave Caster the ' really ' face. " concentrate on something that makes you happy " he said and gestured towards the plant. " visualize what makes you happy grow " he said. what makes me happy?

a picture of Nick automatically popped up in my mind. visualize what makes you happy grow. my mind went on its own accord. I started thinking about going on dates, kissing him, getting married and even having kids, then after the mating then he would live forever with me and I will get to meet the rest of Okami's family. I felt tingles and my mind came back to the tree that I was supposed to be making grow.

it was there. a full blown oak tree. it was beautiful, I only ever knew attacks and how to protect myself and I thought that was the only magic there was, I was never shown to do anything beautiful. I never knew magic could be so beautiful.

" that's it for today " Caster said. " what will I benefit from growing a tree? Isn't it a waste of magic energy? " I asked. " not all magic is to inflect pain, most of it is beautiful and growing a tree is useful, especially when you can control the branches " he said walking away.

" wait really? " I asked excited about making it move and use it to attack. " I will teach you tomorrow because growing trees takes a lot of magic energy and its a level you're not used to yet so we will spend the next few days building up your magic endurance " he said walking to the wall.

" thanks Caster " I said. he started getting ready to do his teleportation spell when I started talking again. " when are you going to teach me the teleportation spell? " I asked him smugly knowing the answer.

" not until you're allowed to leave the room " he replied smirking as he and Grimora went into it. I stood there and decided to climb the tree. I called in the omegas and asked them to set up a hammock from the tree to the wall. " it was set up in a few minutes and I took a nap to regain my energy.

I heard the door open and I immediately woke up. had they found me? had someone given me up? " Tatia " Nick chimed. oh, its only my amazing beloved Nick. " I have to tell you something very im- " he cut off. I looked over and he stood there looking at the tree in shock.

I felt a ping of sadness go through me. I got up and walked over to him. " I can take it down, I-If you don't like it " I said not looking at either of them. it hurt to think he didn't like something I made.

" NO, no its beautiful, I just didn't expect it that's all " he said hugging me from behind. I turned in his arms and his eyes held admiration and sincerity. I nuzzled my head into his chest. " is that a hammock? " he asked looking at the one I had installed.

" yeah " I said smiling. he picked me up bridal style and I squeaked in surprise and held onto him. he laid in the hemic with me on top of him and we sat there for a second in comfortable silence. this happens everyday. I practice my magic, take a nap, then Nick gets home, and we sit there, we talk, then we sleep.

Nick spends his time running the pack and I can't be mad about that. one day I will also be part of this pack as luna and I couldn't ask for a more caring and hardworking alpha. " you had something to tell me " I said remembering what he said coming in.

I propped myself on my elbows in his chest and stared at his beautiful green eyes. " the pack wants to meet you " he said and I froze. they want to meet me? that means they know I'm here. " you don't have to tell other packs that there is a new luna do you " I asked worried.

what if a pack had a treaty with the coven or the allies of my old coven? my name could slip and they could kidnap me or worse they could attack the pack. " no, I know what you're thinking. they don't have to know your name just your first name and that isn't enough to give you away. you don't have to go to alpha meetings with me and you get to watch the pups of the pack and your pack " he said.

he started smiling and I could tell he was thinking of something. " what are you smiling about? " I asked smiling too, happy to see him content. " I was just thinking of when you'll be carrying our pups " he said his eyes full of love.

I blushed and looked away. we haven't even had a date yet and he's thinking about kids. well, I'm not better I was thinking about it today as well. but the fact that he held so much love in his eyes made my heart skip a beat. but then I thought of something that made my smile sink.

what if I couldn't give him any kids. could our blood or race be mixed. would the universe allow such a child. what if the blood can't mix, what if our kinds can't be one? what if they can only be one? what if they don't get immortality. could I watch my child grow old and die? I felt myself become pale.

" what's wrong " he asked. " what if I can't give you a kid? what if these races can't be mixed? what if they ended up mortal, could we sit there and watch them die? " I asked feeling a tear go down my face. " it will be fine. I did research and there are werewolf mixed with vampires out there. they had kids. the races can be mixed but it is harder to get pregnant. which isn't going to be a problem for me " he chuckled lightening my mood.

I playfully slapped his arm. " pervert " I mumbled blushing. I was secretly really happy, I can give my mate what he deserves. something that I took advantage of, I can give him a family. " so are you going to meet the pack? " he asked. " yeah " I said. and he smiled. " and we are having dinner with my parents tomorrow " he said out of nowhere.

" WHAT?! " I screamed. " they heard and wanted to meet you " he said scratching the back of his head. I don't have any good relationship with adults. I started to panic. " what if they don't like me " I asked scared. " they will and if they don't then I won't give up on you " he said hugging me.

" I don't think I can " I said to Nick. " I'll take you out on that date I promised " he said trying to strike a deal with me. " and " I said smugly. " I'll let you walk around the pack house " he said. " but not on the days after your nightmares " he said.

so I go and I get to roam in a larger space and get to go out into the real world again. but I was stopped in my moment of happiness with a realistic nightmare. what if they find me? " what if they find me " I said worried. he knew who I was talking about. " I will protect you and I will take you to a safe place surrounded by werewolves so they can't get in without getting noticed " he said.

I took a deep breath, I'll be completely safe. " fine " I said. " what? " he said looking dumbfounded. " I'll have dinner with your parents " I said. " thank you " he said kissing my head.

with that we ended up falling asleep in the hammock that night. I woke up with a blanket around us. " did you get the blanket? " I asked him yawning ( <-- how many of you yawned at the word ). " no " he said rubbing his eyes. " I did " someone said in the room.

me and Nick looked over at Alice and Nicks beta, Rentaro. they found out they were mates weeks ago. they are good for each other. Alice is quiet and smart and Rentaro is loud and gentle even if he is beta. they get to spend more time together than me and Nick do because Alice can leave the room. she usually just goes to his office and helps him with paper work then sleeps in his room.

" thanks guys " I said not looking at Rentaro. last time he saw me I was crying and begging for death. " good morning luna " he said smugly. " wipe that smirk off your face before I sprout poison ivy on you " I said.

" calm down, I just wanted to wish you luck on meeting the pack and I hope you get the approval of Nick's parents " Rentaro said smiling genuinely. " thanks " I said getting up.

{ time skip brought to you by I have a Wattpad dad }

It was the afternoon and I was standing behind the doors waiting for Nick to signal me in. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. I chanted to myself.

" I know you have heard that I found my mate and I know that you all really want to meet her. I have to say we found each other by complete accident. I was visiting my sister but she was busy and she sent me to town. I went to a karaoke place and she was there and I admit, I chased her around a bit but I did manage to get her here, kicking and screaming. But she isn't like us or me, she is a hereitick, a vampire and mage. After we mate I will become immortal but I won't run the pack forever, I plan to give the pack to my heir but I will continue to live " he said. " you wanna meet your luna?! " he yelled.

the pack went into up roar. clapping mixing with screams of " luna and we wanna see her. " he gestured me over. I took a deep breath and walked over next to Nick. the crowd dialed down but I can still see the excitement in their eyes. it made my heart soar to think so many people could trust me and want me to be with them.

I was surrounded in love and I couldn't be happier. Nick nudged me and I looked over. He pointed the mic at me and I stood there shaking my head. I don't want to talk. I don't know what I would say. Nick leaned down to my ear.

" you don't have to say much, they want to hear your voice " he said. I felt a little more confident but hesitantly took the mic.

" I really don't know what to say. I grew up surrounded by walls. Not just real ones but emotional ones. I didn't have a chance at a childhood. I was surrounded by blank faces and hollow bodies. I only found love within my parents and a sister that I regret fighting with. I was the loneliest little girl. I only was happy reading about the outside word and creatures like you. I was betrothed to a man that I never wanted to be with. He was determined to have me even at the cost of those I loved. He lured me away one night and burned down my house. With no family and the regret that will forever live with me in the form of words I can't take back and words I wish I said, I became angry. I killed the man that linked me to the monster that destroyed my life. I've been on the run ever since. I admit, I didn't want to come here. I didn't want to stay in one place for long in fear that they could find me, but I am now surrounded by people who love me and for that, I'm willing to protect all of you with my gift of magic and will fight to the end of my life so none of you end up alone " I said.

{ time skip brought to you by sorry for the late update, I will not quit on this book }

I sat there so scared, I was shaking. They were right there in front of me. Something touched my shoulder and I jumped.

I turned. Oh, thank God it was Nick. " it's okay, they're not going to hurt you. No one will. Just relax, don't think as them as my parents, think of them as my friends " Nick said trying to calm me down.

" so you killed someone " I heard a voice say and my head snapped up. I bit my lip and nodded, what if they think I'm some crazy person.

" thank you then " Nick's mother said. " what? " was all I could muster with wide eyes.

" I think it takes being in the dark to know that you don't want it for someone else. You know the evil of this world and seeing that, you still put the instinct to protect others over the insinct to survive and I think that's what a real luna is " she said smiling at me.

" Thank you, you don't know how much it helps to hear you say that " I said not regretting any of my decisions.

" know you might not have the best experience with the adults in your life but I want you to know that you can trust us to be there for you. I couldn't have asked for anyone better to be our son's mate " she said holding her mates hand.

" thanks, mom it means a lot to me " Nick said grabbing my hand.

" but I still have a very serious question " she said in all seriousness.

" when am I having my grandbabies!?!? " she yelled excited. I felt a blush creeping up. " honey!!! You can't ask her that!! " her husband said shocked and trying to calm her down.

" MOM!!!! ....... I don't know, I can try though " he said grinning at me at the end. I put my head in my hands to hide my blush " pervert " I mumbled.

" wait but she isn't a werewolf, can the races be mixed? " the alpha asked. " yes, I've done the research. Even if there was no prof then I would still try " he said still grinning like an idiot.

" such a pervert " I said shaking my head. He looked at me with still grinning like an idiot But he is my idiot.

{ time skip brought to you by momo con!!!! I'm gonna be there!!!! Who else is going!!!!}

I ran into the room and climbed up the tree. " come back here " Nick yelled playfully.

I snickered and stayed quiet. I felt someone grab me and I let out a yelp. I felt the sparks and started laughing, admiting defeat.

He jumped off the tree and sat down on the bed with me on his lap. I turned to talk to him, and started blushing because I ended up straddling him. He put his hands on my hips and gave a goofy smile.

" you're such a perv " I said laughing. He joined me in laughing and I enjoyed our moment looking into each other's eyes.

" don't you have work? " I asked curious. " what? Do you not want me here? " he asked with a frown " I just wanted to spend some time with you " he said looking away.

" that's not what I meant at all. Hey, I just wanted to know why your here when your usually at your office. Don't you have paper work? I really love that your spending time with me though " I said pulling his face back to look at mine.

" I took a day off. I just wanted to spend some time with you. I'm so sorry I haven't been with you the whole time you were here and it kills me. Caster sees you more then me!! I just....... I just wanted to be here for you. I should've spent more time with you from the beginning " he said with sincerity in his eyes.

" it's okay. I couldn't ask for a better alpha. You work hard and you care about those around you and I couldn't have asked for anyone better to spend eternity with " I said kissing his head.

" so about that date " he said shy and happy. " tomorrow " I said. " tomorrow " he repeated like it was an agreement. " promise " I said.

" promise " he said. " I'm gonna go take a shower, wanna join? " he said wiggling his eyebrows. " no thanks perv " I said slapping his arm and started feeling fuzzy.

Not the good kind of fuzzy. I grabbed on to Nick so I wouldn't fall. " Tatia!! Are you okay? " he asked worried.

I shook my head no. He scooped me up and placed me on the bed. My mouth started feeling dry as he called the pack doctor.

A young man, possibly 19 walked in. " thanks for coming Justin " Nick said. " anything for you and the luna " Justin said walking over to me.

" what happened? " Justin asked. " we were just walking and she got dizzy " Nick said panicked.

Justin looked at me with an eyebrows raised. " do you have dry mouth at the moment? " he asked. I shoot my head yes.

" oh, she might only be half vampire but she still needs to drink blood. How long has it been since you last fed? " he said to Nick then faced me.

He was right. I don't even remember the last time I even saw blood!!! How could I forget something so important!! " thanks Justin " Nick said as Justin left.

Nick closed the door and walked over to the bed. It dipped as he sat on it and he held my hand. He rubbed circles on top of my hand and bit his lip like he was thinking about something.

" here " he said pulling down the neck of his shirt. I stared in disbelief. " what!? " I asked shocked. " take it, you need your strength. I need you to be okay. Plus I don't want your lips touching anyone else's neck " he growled at the end.

" Nick. I don't want to hurt you. I don't know how much I'll need, I can't let you do that and its deadly. If I drank your blood I could die. We have enemy races, I don't know if I would be able to survive the effects of the blood " I said. It was nice to know he would be willing to give up his blood to me but I can't let him.

If I die, he will have to live without me till he dies. I can't imagine what it would be like if I lost him. Enemy races can't be mixed!! It is like poison.

" the universe put us together for a reason. I am your mate, your beloved and if anyone could hold my blood, it would be you. They wouldn't put us together if you couldn't " he said begging me.

He's right. The universe wouldn't match us if I couldn't stand his blood. " are you sure you want to do this? " I asked him. "If you take to much then I can heal it all back in an hour or two. It will be okay " he said getting closer.

" in fact, this will make it easier for you " he said placing me in his lap. I blushed harder when he took of his shirt.

" it's okay. I did this by my own choice so feel free to take as much as you need " he said putting his head to a side so I can have more access.

My fangs grew out and I hesitantly put my fangs to his neck. " do it, I'll be okay, I promise " he said.

I started to bite down and I winced when I broke the skin. I felt the blood flood my mouth and I moaned at the taste.

It tasted so amazing!! I heard him groan and he grabbed my hips. I drank like it was my last drink in all my life. I started feeling a lot better.

I really didn't want to stop but I knew I had to. I retracted my fangs and licked the would till they sealed up. I pulled back from his neck and his eyes were a way darker green then normal.

" oh my mate that felt good " he said but his voice was huskier and deeper then normal and it sent a shiver down my spine.

" Nick? " I asked confused on why his eyes were different and his voice sounded like that. " sorry, I'm Ryder his wolf. I'm sad you've never seen me before but I'm so happy to get to meet you, you're so beautiful, more than I could've asked for " he said looking at me lovingly.

" that means a lot to me to hear you say that " I said kissing his cheek. He hugs me. " I wish I could be with you all the time " he said. " thank you Ryder, remember you're two halves of one person, It makes me happy to get you guys as beloveds " I said.

" I'll see you soon " he whispered like it was a promise. I saw Nick's eyes go back to their normal green and I smiled. " he likes you a lot " Nick said shyly.

" I can tell " I said yawning. " if you need more blood - " he started but I interupted. " it's fine I'm just sleepy " I said.

I felt my eyes slowly get heavier as I slowly drifted into the darkness. Nick came over and kissed my head and told me good night.

Dream start
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I woke up but I wasn't in the pack house. I was in that tower. Well it was actually my room in my old house but I called it the tower.

Oh no. I'm having it again. The nightmare. Get me out of here!!! I don't want to see it again.

The world around me blurred. I was at the end of the tree line like I always am at this part. I saw it.

The fire. " NOOOOOOOOO " I yelled running to it. Everytime. This happens everytime. I was too late to stop the flames like everytime I've tried.

I run through the door of my burning house. " MOM, DAD, ANNA!!!! " I yelled trying to find them.

I burst through the door of the kitchen. They were all tied up and screaming. I saw my mom and Anna crying and burning while my father was in another chair watching them.

He struggled to get out of the ropes and I saw him cry as he watched my mom and Anna die.

I ran. I ran to them. I tried to get the ropes off but my hands would go through the ropes.

I couldn't save them. I looked down at the ground and saw that it was the most burned part of the house. The fire started here.

I didn't notice that the world blurred around me again. I looked around. It was the morning after and the house was in ashes and rubble.

" you refused and I warned you what would happen " I heard the voice. That voice. The one that brought me all the pain and suffering.

" Darien " I sneered turning around. He was a well built vampire. He was handsome, brown hair and red eyes, but he had a dark heart that I could never overlook.

" I warned you my princess " he said smirking. How could he have done this. This is between me and him, they didn't do anything!! They didn't deserve this!!! They didn't deserve any of this!!!

" I'm not your princess, I won't ever be!! I told you before, I'm not going marry you EVER!! " I sneered my words poisonous.

" now now my princess, you will marry me. You belong to me " he said scowling. " I will never belong to you, you don't love me, and I will NEVER love you. You only want me for my powers. As long as I breath, I will never let you have them " I said scowling.

" love. Ha, love makes people weak. Love is inessential. Who needs love when you could have power. My beloved was just an average vampire, doesn't matter anymore because I got rid of her anyway " said scoffing and waving it off like it didn't matter.

" Anna " I whispered. " your beloved was Anna " I said. " that doesn't matter anymore princess " he said smirking.

He killed her. He killed his beloved. How could he be such a monster? How could he live with what he has done? Why did she do to get stuck with such a monster as her beloved? What did she do to deserve this?

" how could you? How can you live with yourself? Why would you do that? She was made for you!! She was my sister!! You FUCKING PRICK " I yelled.

He looked shocked for a second then reverted back to his normal exterior. " she was an average vampire, but you have power. You came to my advantage and she didn't, so she had to be desposed of or she would ruin everything I worked for " he said.

In the beginning she was against Darien and I's forced marriage but after a while she wanted it to happen. She kept going on about how I would be rich and powerful. I never cared about that stuff.

I'm such a terrible sister for never seeing her words reach her eyes. She always told me to do it but in her eyes was a deep sadness I couldn't understand. But now I do.

She never wanted me to marry him, she didn't want the money, she didn't want the power. She wanted to be with Darien. If I married him then she would be forced to live with me ( due to rules on protecting the royal families ) and she would forever be close to Darien. But I refused.

And because of my stubbornness she could never be with him. But I didn't want to be with Darien for the rest of my immortal life. I want to be with my beloved. I'm so sorry Anna. I'm sorry you had to die so I could realize what you said and why.

I should have never fought with you. I wish my last words weren't " I never want to see you again." I miss you Anna. I wish I wasn't such an idiot.

I wish you could've been with him but I think he is beyond repair. I'm going to miss you for the rest of my life Anna. I'm such a terrible sister.

" you took away everything I loved " I said standing. " and is return I'm taking your life " I said lunging at him. He douged.

" now now my princess, you wouldn't want to hurt yourself " he said like I was a child. I lunged again but he caught me. I elbowed him in the stomach and tried to run.

He caught me by the back of my neck and slammed me into the ground face first. " oh princess, I told you not to " he whispered in my ear.

I shivered in disgust at his words. I didn't have any training. He has been training for years and he is stronger. I gritted my teeth, angry about losing.

That's when I felt it. The tent in his pants. Disgusting.

" you know, I was going to wait for our wedding night but I don't think I can hold it. If I impregnate you then your kid would have your powers. Maybe I don't have to marry you after all Princess. All I have to do is spill my seed deep inside you " he whispered in my ear.

I stiffened. No. Out of all the things to happen. I can't let him do this. Granted it's near to impossible to impregnate someone who isn't your beloved, but the thought of him taking the one thing I had left disgusted me.

I can't let him do this!! I can't let him touch me!! I heard the clink of him taking off his belt and I struggled for my life.

I might not have that much experience, training or muscle but I won't let him!! My body is for my beloved not for monsters like him.

My body is for the eyes of my beloved only. I have been saving myself for my beloved not a monster. He started laughing at my struggling.

I felt it. Magic. One of the kind that I haven't used yet. Tactic magic. As an all around type that means I get all kinds of magic.

Tactic magic is an magic used by Tactic mage and its usually used for wars. It allows you to predict your opponent's next move and can help you fight by having a type of energy that increases your strength.

I didn't think I would unlock it. I felt the energy move through my veins. I lifted my foot and flipped us over.

I started chocking him. He got angry and flipped us over. He tried to take off my pants and I side swipped him and I held him down. I felt the energy travel to my fist and I punch him hard in the dick.

Heard him yell in pain and I got up. I kicked him hard in the head and ran. I was running for 25 minutes till I was side tackled by a guard.

I struggled to escape but 2 more came and I knew I couldn't. They brought me to the castle and they made me kneel to the Coven leader.

" William " I sneered. " I see you have caused a bit of damage " he scowled gesturing to Darien. " I hope his dick breaks and I hope I broke his scull " spit at Darien.

I knew William wouldn't do anything because he wanted me to cooperate. He was nice in hope that I would agree to the marriage if he was.

William is a horrible man. " what did you do Darien? She doesn't usually act like this " he sneered at Darien.

He was right. I usually argued calmly and respectfully but that was when I had something to lose. I don't anymore.

" tell him Darien, tell him how you tried to rape me on the woods " I sneered at him almost tauntingly. " Darien, you agreed that you wouldn't do anything before the marriage " William scowled at his idiot of a son.

" oh well. Take her to the cells. We can't risk her getting away before the wedding. Darien, your not allowed in the cell " William said and scowled at William at the end.

" what!? " I said shocked. " I don't agree to this marriage William " I said sternly. " if you didn't reject the idea of the wedding and tried to escape then Darien wouldn't have to try to rape you " William said.

" it's your own fault " William said. I stared in shock. Are you serious !!! Are you FUCKING KIDDING ME!!!!! HOW IN GEHENNA IS THIS MY FAULT!!

They dragged me down to the cells and locked me in. " even if you manage to escape princess, I will always find you. You will be mine my princess, even if I have to kill your beloved. If you find him. You will belong to me in the end princess, even if I have to stand over your beloved's dead body with his blood on my hands " he said said smiling and walking away.

{ dream end }
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I shot out of bed. " NOOO " I yelled. I looked over at Nick sleeping next to me. I started crying, he is still here. He is still with me.

I have to leave, I have to get as far away as possible. I wish I had killed with Darien instead of William.

Because even if William died, Darien would still look for me. If Darien died, William would put a bounty on me for my death which would be better than being with Darien for the rest if my life.

Darien will kill Nick. Darien is a coven leader and Nick is an Alpha. They and even matches but Darien would cheat. Darien has lived longer.

I can't let Nick die. What if killing Nick isn't enough? What if they kill the pack? I have to leave!! I have to get out of here!!

I tried to wipe my tears but they kept coming. I got up and grabbed my suitcase. I ran into the closet and grabbed my clothes.

I tried folding them but it's hard when your crying so hard you can't see and your hands are shaking. I would scream in frustration but I don't want to wake Nick.

I cried harder thinking about how I'm going to leave him behind. I don't want to leave him, but I would rather leave him then lose him to the hands of Darien.

I felt sparks as Nick put his hands around me. " shhh, its okay. Please don't cry. Please don't leave " Nick said his voice breaking.

" N-Nick, what are you doing out of bed? " I asked sniffling. " please stop. Please don't leave me " he said. My heart panged painfully at the sound of his voice.

He sounded so desperate, so scared, so sad. " nothing could be worse then me being away from you " he said.

" but Nick I have to " I said wiping away my tears. " no, you don't. No matter what is in my way, I will do everything down to the last parts of my soul and life to be with you " he said holding me life if he let go I would dissappear like the stars in the daylight.

" but I can't lose you. If us being apart will keep you alive then I will run to the ends of the earth to not see you because being away from you hurts less then losing you. I can't live without you but you would live if I'm not here " I said crying harder.

" You won't lose me, you never will " he said. " I wish it was true but reality is that Darien is coming for me and he doesn't care if he has to kill you or this whole pack to do it " I said.

" I can't risk putting you and this pack in trouble. I can't let what you built be destroyed by me picking being with you over your life. That's not fair to you " I said.

he turned me around and held me to his chest as I cried. " so that's the name I will put on his tombstone then. I won't let him have you. I can kill him even if I have to fight to my last breath " he said.

" he's a coven leader Nick. You guys are evenly matched. But he has lived longer than you, he has way more years of training. If he knows he can't win, then he will cheat. Don't you see that he isn't a reasonable man. He will do everything to steal me away and marry me for my powers " I said feeling sick thinking about having to marry Darien.

" I don't care. I don't care. I don't care. The universe chose us. They wouldn't put us together if I couldn't protect you. I want to spend the rest of my life with you at my side,- " he wanted to continue but I cut him off.

" but it won't matter of your dead. I-I couldn't live with myself. I can't risk losing you too. You and this pack are all I have now " I said.

" that's why you can stay, we are all a part of you now. You are willing to do anything to protect them but don't realize you want to protect you too. They are willing to fight for you and so am I " he said.

He's right. It's not just me anymore. Now I have 200 more people. Well, 201. I don't have to fight alone. But am I willing to let them fight? No. Will they probably do it without my consent? Most likely.

" thanks Nick. Your right. I'm not going anywhere. I'll be right here when you wake up okay? " I asked with all sincerity.

" promise " he said. " I promise " I said. Nick swept me off my feet. Literaly, off my feet. He carried me bridal style back to bed.

He never stopped having me in his arms. He used one hand to pull the covers on us. " is this okay? " he asked.

I usually don't let him hold me to sleep. But I know he is scared I might run. " yeah " I said smiling back to sleep.

When I woke up, I heard the shower. I got my clothes and towel ready. When I got my towel, Nick came out the bathroom with a towel. Only a towel.

I blushed. I followed the water droplets from his face to his chest. he has an 8 pack and its yummy.

My eyes traveled lower to his V line and I watched the water dissappear into no man's land. Seriously, no one is allowed to see it but me.

" like what you see? " he asked. I snapped out of my dazed state and looked at him smiling like an idiot again. " pervert " I said.

" hey, you're the one checking me out " he said smiling with his hands up in surrender. I rolled my eyes at the truth and went into the bathroom.

I was almost done with my shower when I heard a knock on the door. " Tatia, I'm coming in " Nick said. I turned off the shower and put on a towel.

He walked in and sat on the counter. I walked out and saw his eyes glaze over with lust. " like what you see " I mocked.

" you don't even know " he said giving a flirtatious smile. " pervert " I huffed. He chuckled and said " you asked. "

" why don't you let Ryder out, I've known you for a month ( I think ) and I met him yesterday " I asked.

" Ryder is a massive pervert. He would mate you in seconds in what your wearing. But I wanted to go slow. I didn't want to mate you before we could even go out on a date " he said shyly.

" I don't want you going out today " he said after a while of silence. " what!? " I asked.

" we will move the date to another night, I can't risk letting you out when you have nightmares " he said sadly but stern.

" but I'm fine. I won't run. Please don't postpone the date, I want to spend time with you, please Nick " I said. I just want to spend time with my beloved. I understand why he doesn't want to do it tonight but I won't run.

" you know why. I can't risk losing you " he said looking at me, tears in his eyes. " you won't. I won't run. I want to be with you. I don't want to wait, I barely know anything about you. Let me be with you, you promised me " I begged wiping his tears.

" I'm not sure " he said. " you can double the guards, you can lock me in the room for 3 days afterwards, I don't care " I said.

" deal " he said. " what!? " I asked. That was meant as suggestions not a compromise. I saw his eyes get dark and he pulled me between his legs.

" I will hold off on the 3 days one. I'll save these days to make love to you, three days is enough time to mate you and more " he said in a huskier voice which is knew belonged to his wolf Ryder.

I shivered at his words and blushed. " oh my gosh, I am so sorry he said that " Nick said panicking.

" it's okay. I saved myself for my beloved anyway " I said blushing. " that is so sexy to think that you're all mine " he growled.

" I think the lack of experience wouldn't be of much use. Werewolves have the second biggest sex drives, I don't think it does any good " I said thinking about the book I read as a kid.

" it is amazing to know that no one else has even laid eyes on you like I will. And don't care if you lack experience, Ryder will make up for it. I think it is the happiest thing in my life to think that you waited for me " he said.

I blushed when he said Ryder will make up for it. " get ready, we have a date tonight " he said smiling walking out of the bathroom.

{ time skip brought to you by who loves Ryder!!!! >\\\\< }

The omegas brought me a dress a few minutes ago. It had a note attached.

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Dear Tatia,

I want you to wear this outfit because it's been in the family for generations. All of the future Luna's have worn it on their first dates. It brings good luck and reason they say. When the time comes I want you to give it to your daughter. Hopefully soon because I want grandbabies >~<

Love
The luna
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I smiled at the gesture of tradition even though I'm not a werewolf.

{ mini time skip brought to you by Ripper I miss taking to you }

I finished my make up when I heard a knock at the door. I walked over to it and opened it. I was shocked to not see my mate in a suit.

He looked amazing even in black pants and a black plaid shirt that fit him well. I did wear the outfit.

I wore a long sleeve black shirt with a lace back and sleeves and black skinny jeans and black knee high boots. The past Luna's had awesome style!!!!

He was speachless. " do you like it " I asked biting my lip nervously. " it looks amazing but my mom wore the same outfit on her first date. I'm just shocked " he said.

" yeah, she gave it to me. For Good luck she said " I told him. " you ready " he said holding out his hand.

I took his hand and he led me outside. This car is as beautiful as the first time I saw it.

{ mini time skip brought to you by WHO IS GOING TO MOMO CON?!?! }

We drove up to this beautiful restaurant in the end of town. It was small and made of wood. I could smell it.

The place is surrounded by werewolves. We entered and took a seat in the corner of the restaurant.

" look Nick, about last night-" I tried but was interupted " I really don't want to talk about it. You're not ready to tell me that part of your life and that's okay. Let's talk about something else, please " he said sad but begging.

" this place is beautiful Nick " I said looking around in awe. " a lot of Alphas like to come here when they visit " he said.

" why are there no humans in the woods? " I asked. I've been looking out windows a lot at the pack house and I haven't seen a single human, we are right next to a human town.

" a long time ago my ancestors told the towns people stories about the forest. Men who's bones break on command and beast the size of tigers. When they said that, the town's people told their children and so on and ever since then, no one goes into the woods. My ancestors knew that one day hunters would exist and they had to make it so that no one would want to go into the woods " he said.

" you told me earlier that you wanted to take it slow. It means a lot but when.... when will we mate if we're taking it slow " I asked.

" whenever your ready " he smiled. " what about you? " I asked curious. " I'm always ready for you " he said grinning.

" pervert " I blushed. " hey you walked into that one " he chuckled. " how long will it take to.... you know.... get me pregnant? " I asked blushing.

" depends how much and how fast I make love to you " he said smiling lovingly. " Why all the questions about our mating? " he asked curiously.

" I just wanted to know. I want to be able to give you everything you deserve and that includes a family " I said smiling at him.

" even if we couldn't have kids, it wouldn't stop me from wanting to be with you. No matter what, I will always want to be with you " he said grabbing my hand.

" you have done so much for me, more than I could've ever asked for and for that you deserve all the things that will make you happy. You deserve so much and I'm not sure I can give " I said sadly.

" that doesn't matter. A lot of people deserve a lot of things, like Darien. He deserves to suffer in the worst way possible. I don't care what I can't have as long as I have you, because nothing is worth more " he said.

" how about pups " I asked using the werewolf term for children. " okay, that's the only exception " he said.

" but what if I couldn't give you any, what if I was born a guy instead of of a girl. I wouldn't be able to give you those " I said.

" none of it matters, we could adopt. I don't want you to continue with the 'what if's. Stop worrying about what could go wrong and and start focusing on what can go right. You deserve to be happy, but you're so focused on things that could go wrong. Let me make you happy, let me help you build your life with me " he said intertwining our hands.

" thank you " was all I could say. I was crying so hard, tears of joy streaming down my face. He wiped them away and I leaned to his touch.

" I -" he looked like he wanted to say something but he stopped. " I'm gonna go to the bathroom " he said kissing top of our intertwined hands.

I watched him go and dissappear into the boys bathroom. I heard footsteps and looked over.

I saw a guy, a little over my height walk over. Black hair, green eyes, werewolf, kinda powerful, but I got a bad vibe off of him. I got a bad feeling.

" I haven't seen you around here before, do you come here often " he flirted sitting in the chair across from me.

" not as often as that pick up line has failed " I said. " ouch, I was just trying to get somewhere " he said holding his heart in fake pain.

" guess you're frozen cause your not getting anywhere " I told him. " wow, I like them feisty " he flirted.

" I've heard that line almost as long as I've wanted you to go away " I said not playing his game.

" calm down, I just wanted to find out what a hot vampire is doing in a restaurant surrounded by werewolves " he winked.

" she's on a date " I heard someone say. I turned around and saw Nick standing there with his arms crossed. He did not look happy.

" well Nick, I never would've pinned you as the kind of guy to date vampires, but once you're done can I have a piece " the guy said looking at me lustfully.

" Fuck you " I growled. " and she is a dirty talker, can't I just have her now " he said licking his lips.

" you pig, I'm not an object for you to toy with. I'm a living thing, go fuck yourself " I said glaring.

" save it for the bedroom sweetheart, save it for when I'm pound- " he didn't get to finish because he was tackled to the floor.

Nick through hard punches. I winced at how hard he hit him. I saw the guy struggle under the force of Nick's blows.

The guy smashed a bottle on Nick's head and flipped him and Nick over. He started throwing punches.

I was so shocked it couldn't move. I saw the blood start pouring out of Nick's head and I snapped out of it. I ran over and kicked him HARD off of Nick.

I saw him try to get up and I kneed him in the face. I heard the sick cracking of his nose breaking and and he fell to the floor.

I kicked him in the nuts and I summoned vines from from the ground. I used them to drag him to the wall and restrain him.

He looked at me shocked. " stay away from me and my beloved, I had enough jackasses like you to ruin my life. You're lucky I'm letting you live, I hope I never see you again. Better yet, I should break your dick in half so this doesn't happen to anyone else " I smiled.

" NO! PLEASE DON'T!! I'M SORRY, YOU WON'T SEE ME AGAIN. I WON'T DO IT TO ANYONE ELSE!! " he yelled.

" fine, I'll let the warrior wolves deal with you " I said walking over to Nick.

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Nick's POV :
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how long have I been sitting here in the darkness? My head hurts so bad!!

Okay, what happened? I was at the restaurant with Tatia when that guy showed up. He was being an asshole.
We had a fight. I was punching him and lights out.

Crap, I left Tatia alone!! What if he has her? What if she ran?

I know she told me she wouldn't but I can't risk it. Everytime she has those nightmares she wants to run.

That's why I don't let her leave my room. It hurt knowing that she wanted to leave me. I was lucky to get her to calm down this time.

Usually she will yell at me through the door, begging me to let her leave. It hurt me. It hurt knowing she runs from me.

But the biggest worry is that I let her out today. She can leave at any moment. She could leave me.

She could leave me. I could never see her again. It hurt. It hurt so bad. Sometimes I would cry thinking that she would rather leave then to stay and risk it.

I know why she does it. But it doesn't stop the pang in my chest or the tears of the thought of life without her.

I opened my eyes. I sat up quickly. I shouldn't have done that, now my head hurts more.

" don't do that. You lost a lot of blood. Lay back down " I heard a voice say.

I froze. I looked over at who spoke and found Tatia with puffy eyes. She's been crying.

She threw herself at me and held me close. " thank you so much Nick. I was so scared of losing you, don't leave me " she cried.

I was still in shock. She pulled back to look at me. Our faces so close I could feel her breath fan my lips.

I caressed her cheek with my hand and she leaned into my hand and put her hand over mine.

" you didn't run " I said. " I promised I wouldn't. I'm sorry it took so long to realize this, it took me seeing you laying there to realize that I can't leave you. I don't care anymore if Darien is coming for me, if he finds me the I will fight with you. I don't care. I will do anything to be with you for the rest of my life. I- I love you Nick, with everything I am and will be " she said to me.

" I love you too Tatia, with everything I am and will be " I said. I gently pulled her face towards me.

She closed her yes and put her hands behind my neck. Our lips touched and we moved in sync. So many sparks.

We kissed.
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I am so sorry for the really slow update. I PROMISE I WON'T QUIT ON THIS BOOK, I LOVE IT SO MUCH. I will try to update every week like I used to but don't get upset if I will don't, I have to make my Cosplay outfit for Momo con so that takes a lot of time.

If you want me to update faster then just say update in the comments. I took long to update so I wrote an extra 4,000 words. I love you all