A/N : I know most of you are mad at me right now ( not as mad as you guys will be at me after book 2 ), but its all part of the story. I'm sorry if I made someone throw their Laptop/phone/device but there will be chapters while she is in her coma. If you think i won't kill her off then you are mistaken. she can die at any minute, and because of that let's put it to a vote.

who wants her to live

who wants her to die

I know i probably sound heartless but i really appreciate your participation in this book. I hope you don't hate me.^~^ BTW if you think you can ignore these chapters and be like " I'm not going to read these chapters and wait/skip ( depending on when you're reading this ) than you are very mistaken. She can wake up or die in any chapter and you won't know when until you read it.

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Amaimon POV :~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

she could die. I let the thought sink in for a moment. when I realized what was actually happening my heart broke into so many pieces, they out numbered the stars in the sky. she could die. she can be erased from humanity and disappear in this room. all our times together would survive in my memory and the little pictures we took. my memory of her would brake my heart over and over but it would all be worth it if I could remember her face. I never even got to see her smile. There is so many things we could've done together and so many things she wanted me to do and experience, but now it will be mere memory.

If she wakes up. that possibility ran through my head and there would only be one answer. make her smile. make her see the world and just how amazing it is. I want her to see that the world is not some horrible place, but something beautiful that we can both exist in, together. I want her to see that no matter what she is, I will remain at her side. I wish I could've realized that sooner.

But even if i did...... would that have changed anything? what would have happened if I realized how much she meant to me sooner? would she not be laying in that bed in between life and death?

All I'm sure of is that, my opinion hasn't changed. I still want to be at her side. I still want her to hold on with everything she's got and if she decides to let go. If she decides that she can't hold on or being here with me isn't worth it, then I still want to have her in my arms. I don't want her to hate me but if she decides that's what she feels and that coming back isn't worth it than....... so be it.

I won't give up on her. If for her to be safe and happy means that I have to disappear from her life than I will do it. If for her to be happy and finally smile means that I'm no longer in the picture than it will be worth it. But if I can be in her life than I want to have her anyway I can get her.

I just wish our last time wasn't our last. I wish yesterday wasn't the last time I she would be safe in my arms. What I regret the most is the fact I could've done something to stop this. I could've told her that she couldn't go towards the screaming. I could've kept her in my arms longer. I should've taken her away when I had the chance. I could've done something to stop this but I didn't't. This is all my fault.

I should've protected her better. I should've told her no. How could I have been so stupid? How could I have been so mean. She once told me that the thing she hates most is seeing the people she loves die, but now she is the one dying.

There is only one thing I can do and one thing i will do. I will stay by her side and watch her choose . Either to hold on or to let go. I hope what ever she chooses she will be happy, even if it means leaving me behind. something broke through the silence. Okami's voice." Can her hamster stay with her " she said. " sure " said one of my little brothers.

Okami reached her hand in and took me out. i expected the light to blind me but the room was dark. not pitch black but it wasn't the sun in Assiah either. the room was dim and there laying in a bed was her, Korosu. her small frame is easy to see and her teal hair is sprawled all over her pillow. her face had small streaks of blood and her arms are covered in more streaks of blood.

all of the blood is her's. I know it is. the smell is intoxicating, but fills me with pain knowing that there was so much. she is hooked up to a monitor with an annoying beeping sound. it had numbers and jagged lines. what hurts the most is that she looks pale and lifeless, no movement and it breaks me.

she took slow steps towards her. I can tell it pains her to see her like this too. she finally makes it over to her bed and puts me at the edge of it. I run to the top of one of her legs and ran towards her.once i reached her neck I fell to the side. I climbed her pillow and ran on her hair. I rubbed myself on her face and kept doing that till i fell asleep

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I watched Amaimon fall asleep next to Korosu in his hamster form. I've never seen a bond quite like this. a bond that was there before they even knew they were mates. a bond that couldn't exist with anyone else. apparently Amaimon is suppose to be a stone cold murderer and Korosu is suppose to be incapable of loving but yet there is something there. even if they don't see it, I do. he risked his life for her, but he doesn't even know what he feels.

I felt a tap on the shoulder and turned around. I got the hint and started to walk out the door with them. when we were out in the hallway I decided to speak. " Okay, well we never really introduced ourselves. I'm Okami " I said sticking my hand out. " how can you sound so happy " Rin said venom dripping from his words.

" Rin " his brother warned. " don't Rin me " he warned back. " how can you be so happy when someone is in a coma " he said. " because the is nothing i can do, if she survives its because of her own strength and will. I know that she wouldn't want us being miserable. she would want us to do the thing she couldn't, she would want us to smile " I said my voice cracking in the end. it hurts. it breaks me to have found my sister and then have her be in a coma only a few days later.

" I could've made her smile if I had the chance " Rin mumbles. now instead of being sad I'm pissed. you know when someone says something over and over again and you keep telling them they're wrong, but they don't listen. well you know how it makes you mad, well its in overdrive for me. my eyes turn black and I fight my wolf for control. " you weren't meant to have a chance " I said through gritted teeth.

Rin eyes grew wide and he got mad as well. " what do you mean i wasn't meant to have a chance " he said. " if you could make her happy, they would've chose you as her mate, but they didn't now did they " I said through gritted teeth. " I'm more capable of making her happy than anyone else " he said. " a mate is suppose to be able to protect her, but you're less trained than your younger brother and he was knocked out " I said.

" I can get stronger " he said. " no matter how strong you get you can't protect her or you would've been chosen " I said back. " You're wrong if you think that the demon king of earth is stronger than me " he said. " he is " I said. " no, he isn't " he argues.

" he can protect her and make her happy and you can't get over it " I said sick and tired of this argument. " watch your mouth " he said. " watch your words " I said. " I can say what I want " I said. he slams me against the wall by my throat and looks at me angry. " I won't let you mock me " he said.

" I won't let you mock the mate bond " I said back. " why is it so special?" he said angry. " because its beautiful, its something strong and powerful that I won't let you come between " I said. " Its something you can never have with her " I said. he burst into flames.

blue flames burned me. the flames of Satan!! She said they were demons, but I didn't expect them to be demon kings. it burned my neck and arms and when it was about to get worse it stopped. Rin looked confused and I looked around to see angry Kasai. Rin dropped me and looked in horror. " I'm sorry " he said and tried to help me, but I pushed him away. " I'm fine, don't touch me " I said.

" you need to treat those burns " Yukio said. " I said I'm fine, I have werewolf healing I don't need to treat them " I said. " its the least I can do after what my brother did " he said. he won't give up will he? " fine " i said running my hand through my hair.

we reached my room and sat on my bed. he treated my wounds on my arms like he said and I felt myself start healing. his hands moves to my neck and started treating it. he stops for second. " Okami, H-How long have you had t-that mark on your neck " he stuttered. " what m- oh, you mean my birth mark. well since birth " I said. I started smirking becau'se he knows what it means.

" th-that means " he stuttered." that's right Yukio, I could be your mate " I said smirking but I'm screaming inside. " I-I-I-I-I-" i cut him off from his stuttering " its okay, I get it, you don't have to decide if you like me or not, yet. you just met me. it would've been nice though " I said and fluffed his hair and watched his cheeks flare up.

" come on, Kasai is probably done scolding him by now " I said. he snapped out of the small trance he seemed to be in. he regained his senses and his blush went away. its fun teasing him, he looks so cute blushing. I'll make sure to make him blush again later. OMG I'm a sadist.

I got up and grabbed his wrist. I started dragging him out the door with a sway of my hips. I dragged him down the hall and half way he stopped. I turned around and dropped my hand while looking at his face. his cheeks were very red and he was adorable!

" ca-can you stop doing th-that " he stuttered cutely. " stop doing what?" I said acting innocent. " do-don't taunt me " he stuttered. " I don't know what you're talking about " I said keeping up the act. " I think you do " he said starting to smirk. " oh, but I don't " I said starting to smirk too. " oh, but you do " he said while taking a step forward. I took a step back. we continued that until I reached the wall and he up his hand next to my head on the wall.

" I don't like playing games " he said as his face got close to mine. I grabbed his shoulders and flipped us so he was the one against the wall. I leaned down and whispered in his ear " I love games." I ran down the hall to Kasai's room and heard foot steps behind me. I open the door and stood in the center. " hey Kasai " I said.

he tackled me to the floor and after several seconds of wrestling I won. I technically was straddling him. " I win " I screamed. he flipped us so I was on the bottom. " don't start a game that you can't win " he whispered into my ear. I grinded onto him and flipped him back over. " I'm starting a game I know I'll win " I said. " I'll win because I'm sexy as Gehenna and you know it " I said grinding into him again.

I got up and looked down at my work. he was red faced and panting. He is cute and sexy. secretly sexy huh? " well, let me reintroduce myself. I'm Okami " I said extending my hand out Rin. he took his hand in mine and I felt sparks. HAHAHAHAHA just kidding. I got you, didn't I?

{ mini time skip brought to you by Okami's game with Yukio. who do you think will win? ^~^ }

" so what type of exorcist are you going to be " Yukio asks. " Doctor and Dragoon " I said. I LOVE GUNS and medicine always fascinated me. being a werewolf meant I could always heal, but I know humans can't. It interest me how certain things can help the things that can't heal, well heal.

we heard a knock on the door. I got up and answered it. I opened the door to see Samuel king of time and space, also known as Mephisto. " Hello Samuel " I said with a smile on my face. " Oh no need to be so formal, call me Mephisto " he said smiling back.

" oh please come in " I said stepping aside to let him in. " oh thank you " he said as he stepped into the room. If you guys think I like him, you're wrong. When I was little I was taught to respect all the demon kings. I refuse to be so formal with Rin and Yukio because they aren't full demons so they are only half demon king. Even if they were demon kings, what would they control?

Amaimon is the demon king of Earth, Mephisto is actually Samuel king of time and space,Lucifer king of light,Astaroth king of rot, Azazel king of spirits/air, Beelzebub king of insects, Egyn king of water, Iblis king of fire.

there wouldn't be much of anything to control. " I just wanted to tell everyone that I will be checking up on Korosuakuma a few days a week " he said. he turned around and headed out the door. " ta ta " he said as he waved his hand goodbye and shut the door.

we all looked at each other and laughed. " I just realized that Korosu has a hamster but not a hamster cage " Yukio said. " she let's it roam around because it doesn't try to escape " Kasai said back. " but when we found you I didn't see the hamster " Rin said. " she got it while we were out shopping " Kasai said.

" Rin we should get going, we have things to do and its getting dark " Yukio said getting up. " Oh yeah " Rin said getting up as well. " bye guys " me and Kasai said in unison. I walked over to the window and watched them until they disappeared from view.

" you think we should check on him " I said looking at her. " yeah " she said getting up. we walked down the hall and stared at Korosu's door for a second before opening it. when we opened the door we were greeted by Amaimon sleeping in human form right next to her lifeless looking body.

then, something caught my eye. he was holding her hand and rubbing it with his thumb in his sleep. his face looked so peaceful but I know how broken her must feel inside.

it must hurt him so much to see her like this. there bond isn't like many I've seen before. a so called cold blooded murderer mated to a creature that can't love. what I find the most fascinating is the fact that they had created a bond before they knew they were mates. Kasai told me about how they were like before they knew they were mates and they seemed to already have a bond.

It was strange. when I was little, I was told he was a murderer and that he would kill humans for fun, but ever since I've met him, I've seen two sides. the murderer everyone told me about and a mate trying to do what most mates do. make their mate happy.

what I found more strange was that Korosu told Kasai about how she meet Amaimon. Korosu, at the time, thought she was human and so did Amaimon, but if Amaimon kills humans for fun than why didn't he kill her. did he feel the bond, the pull, the connection before he knew what it was.

I was pulled out of my thoughts when I heard a knock ring through the dorm. I ran down the stairs and opened the door. I was surprised to see Rin and Yukio carrying suitcases in their hands. " um, no offence but, what are you doing here " I asked confused.

" Mephisto didn't tell you? " he said equally confused. " no, tell me what? " I said curious. " we are moving into this dorm so I can keep a close eye on Rin and Korosuakuma at the same time " he said. " um, come in?" I said it sounding more like a question then an invite.

they stood right in the living room. when you walk in there is a table ( like when Rin and Yukio are eating at their dorm ) and behind that is a kitchen. next to the door there is a staircase like you would have in a school and there are about 3-4 floors, but we only use the second floor to sleep in.

they just stood there staring at me. " oh, right " I said leading them upstairs. " let me go check which rooms are available, don't move " I said running down the hall. I opened Amaimon's room and took his name off the door. I threw it into his room and locked his room from the inside out.

Korosu didn't want Rin and Yukio to know Amaimon is in our lives, not even that he lives with us. she didn't want them to know for a reason, I'm going to find out what it is.

I find it strange though. when I was little they told me that the demon king of earth was a murderer who killed humans for fun, but for all that I've known him I've never seen him kill anybody. I've seen two sides of him, the murderer I was told about and a mate who wants to do what all mates do. make their mate happy.

what's also strange is that they say he kills humans for fun. Korosu told Kasai about how her and Amaimon met, but Korosu ,at the time, believed she was human as well as Amaimon. he obviously didn't kill her. does that mean he felt the bond, the pull, the connection before he knew what it was?

I finished checking all the rooms and decided to give Rin the room next to Kasai. I'm giving Yukio the room next to mine ( evil face ). " okay so Rin here is your new room " I said opening the room next to Kasai's. he walked in and I shut the door behind him and gave Yukio an evil smirk.

" what's that look for " Yukio warned. " nothing " I said smiling and acting innocent. " and here is your room " I said opening the door. " I'll be back, I'm going to change into my pajamas and I'll come back to help you unpack " I said turning around and going into the room right beside his.

I changed into my midnight blue pajama shirt and put on some sweat shorts. I walked into his room as he was talking off his shirt. his back was to me and I stood there admiring his back muscles. " can you look away and stop staring " he said still not facing me.

" why? I had a brother, there isn't anything I haven't already seen " I said. " still " he said nervously. " what's wrong " I asked walking closer to him. " nothing " he said. I hugged him from behind and he stiffened.

" you do know this can't happen right? " he said sighing. " what can't happen?" I asked confused. " this, you and me " he said. " why? " I asked still confused. " I'm your teacher " he said like it was an obvious fact and it would be clear to anyone normal. too bad I'm not normal. " too bad I don't care " I said.

he pulled me in front of him and had a tight-ish grip on my shoulder. " what do you mean you don't care, any normal person would and its against the rules " he said shaking my shoulders back and forth. his words would hurt if I believed him, but this isn't a mate rejection that would tear me apart, no this is him trying to tell me we can't be together because of some stupid rule. I will not let a stupid rule get in the way of me and my mate.

" that's the thing, I'm not normal and I'm a rebel who doesn't care about a rule as stupid as that one " I said getting out of his grip and hugging him from the front. " rules are rules " he said sternly. " I know your secret, you know " I said. " what secret?" he asked confused.

" that deep down inside you feel something for me " I said finally looking up at him. " we can't be together " he said again. " but you didn't deny it " I said. " what if I told you no " he said.

his voice echoed in my head ' what if I said no '. there is only one answer. " then I wouldn't give up, I wouldn't stop till you realize that what you feel exists and I don't care what I have to do. I'll do whatever it takes to make you realize that you feel something for me." I said looking up at him.

" you're my age and the only reason you're a teacher is because you trained early. Give me one good reason this can't happen " I said. " I'm your teacher and teachers aren't allowed to-" he was cut of when I crashed my lips on to his to shut him up. he slowly started kissing back and we both pulled away for air.

" what was that for? " he said out of breath. " your reasons weren't good enough " I said. " you can't just do that " he said sternly. " too bad I just did " I said smugly. " don't do that again " he said warning me. " you liked it " I said smirking.

" no I didn't " he said looking away. " you kissed back " I said turning his head back to face me. he was blushing and I could tell he lied. " you're lying " I taunted. " no I'm not " he said his blush deepening. " really than if I did it again than you wouldn't kiss back " I said challenging him. " you won't do it again, I won't let you " he said facing away.

I pulled him to look at me. I took his face in both hands and looked him in the eyes. " too bad I don't believe you " I said crashing his lips on mine for a second time. he kissed back almost immediately and I wrapped my arms around his neck.

he wrapped his arms around my waist and I jumped and put my legs around his waist, he carried me over to his bed and laid me down. our lungs were burning for air and we separated. his face remained close to mine and his eyes widened and he quickly got off me.

I sighed and sat up as well. " you said you wouldn't kiss back " I said smugly. " this is your fault " he said sighing. " it's your fault for lying, if you didn't lie than I wouldn't need to prove your lies " I said smugly. I finally looked over at him since he sat up.

he looked sexy. his hair is all messy and he has a six pack. his lips are red and swollen from the kiss and there is a blush all over his face. his glasses were off and he is just a heaping pile of sexy. " why are you looking at me like that " he said composed and confused. " because you look sexy " I said.

" I-I what ?" he asked like he heard me wrong. " you look sexy " I repeated. " I've never been told that one before " he said. we both started laughing.

{ time skip brought to you by if you haven't voted on the questions above go do that }

he finished putting his last part of glasses in the drawer and sat down next to me. " I really want to know something " I said. " we're not going back to the topic about the rules " he warned. " we'll go back to that topic later, but not right now " I said. " Rin talked about Amaimon like he knew him. what happened?" I asked.

" well, when Rin was learning to control his flames- " I cut him off with my own sentence " you mean still learning because he almost burned me to ashes without realizing." " did you just interrupt me " he warned. " yes, yes I did " I said smiling. the surprised look on his face........ well.... surprised me. " why do you look so surprised " I asked. " when I give my students that face, they say no " he said. " well again I'm not normal. please continue sorry for interrupting " I said. " well, as I was saying, Rin was learning to control his flames and we were all out on a mission. today you saw all of your exorcist classmates as well as school. while they were doing their exwire exams the demon king of earth sent one of his minions to possess one of my students, Shiemi. he took Shiemi while I fought off his minions and when I got there most of my exwires in training were knocked out and one had a broken arm. Rin agreed to fight the demon king and he dropped Shiemi like a rag doll and fought Rin. Rin managed to win, but not destroy the demon king and he turned into a demon. not like you've ever seen. he lit the forest on fire and the Vatican took him into custody because they were told we were died 16 years before. his sword was cracked and we took it too a sword-smith/ blacksmith. there wasn't any blessed sand so we went to one of my students old temples and ran into a few demons and exercised them. we were able to fix the sword and when we got there the Vatican was being attacked. he tried to kill Rin and we gave Rin the sword and Rin managed to send him back to Gehenna. It would be near to impossible that he would have the power to go back here in such a short period of time. by the time he got enough power to go back here Korosu would be long gone. " he said staring up at the ceiling.

I was slightly horrified about what Yukio told me. I couldn't get my head around the idea that Amaimon could've killed that girl. though I would be lying if I said I wasn't impressed that he managed to break into the Vatican. but the real question is, if Yukio is right than how did Amaimon get here?

" you should get going we have school tomorrow " Yukio said. I crossed my arms and sat there like a stubborn child. " what are you doing " he said confused. " I'm not leaving " I said. " I will carry you to your room " he warned " and I will scream and shout until you put me down " I said in protest.

" what do you want " he sighed knowing I want something. " I want to sleep next to you tonight " I said smiling. " thats's not allowed " he said smirking thinking he won." okay then I'm not moving " I said smirking knowing damn well that I won. he sighed.

" only for tonight " he said with his finger pointed at me. " don't worry, you'll change your mind later " I said smiling. I got in his bed and and waited. I heard his foot steps get closer and felt him get in his bed. he wrapped his arms around me and sighed. " stop acting like that " I said irritated.

he was quiet for a minute. " like what?" he asked. " like you don't want to be here " I whispered/ mumbled. on the outside I'm aways smiling but no one knows how broken I actually am. that's why Caster couldn't tell when we were younger. I was hoping my mate would be able to see past my smile but I guess he can't. he can't see how broken I am, he can't see the tears that I don't show, and he can't see the sobs I fight back or when his words chose to hurt me.

" Its just, I don't know. I want to follow the rules because that's what I do,but I really want to hold you in my arms and tell you what I can't say and its not fair to you. you can read me like a book and can tell when I'm lying and what I want to say and feel. But when I can't return it I see that look in your eyes. you smile but your eyes tell me you're broken. I look away because I dont want remaining pieces to break because of me. you deserve better than that " he said.

one thing he said caught my attention ' you smile but your eyes tell me you're broken'. those words hit me like a brick wall and caused me to cry. he is the only one that can see. he is the only one that's ever seen it. he saw how broken I really was

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