two: texting you

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'7 January 2024'

Lavanya Daate
From: [email protected]
Subject: 3

Dear Lavanya,

I finished 'Brooklyn 99' today, and the first thing that popped in my mind after watching the last scene was to text you. So, I took my phone, opened our chat and typed out a message. But, as I was about to click the 'send' button, my mind shrieked and panicked.

All of a sudden, I became conscious of a message. I stared at it for a good fifteen-twenty minutes, then edited it. I even switched on my grammarly keyboard for grammar and spell check. I also switched off my phone and restarted it a couple of times.

After I texted you, our conversation was really nice. It made me feel stupid for hesitating to send you a text. I mean, it's you- It's Lavanya. It's totally me who's making things weird on my end, while you have zero clue. Or do you feel me getting weird because I have heard that women have a great sense of intuition.

I miss you Lavy, I am around some great people, but obviously I can't compare them to all my school friends and society friends. Everyone feels the same way around me. I feel too homesick these days, especially because of whatever feelings I have for you. I miss our daily recaps, I miss pulling your leg with Aarav and Shaurya. I miss you and Swanandi messing up my feed by sending me the worst reels, spamming the group chat with gibberish.

I miss texting constantly during our online lectures. I miss exchanging notes. I miss cussing our colleges in 11th and 12th. Life's great over here, I'm living the dream, yeah? But I can't deny that I miss you. I miss the warm smile you would give me after I had a bad day. I miss the memes you would send me to cheer me up.

Okay bye (:

I'm cringe, yaar 😭

Yours,
Vedang

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