{WARNING: Mature Themes Ahead 🔞 and Angst}

           After the war was over against the Galra Empire, We went back home, back to Earth. Now Keith and I had no home in particular, so we had to settle in his desert shack in the meantime until we could save up enough money to buy a bigger home to settle in.

         We had gotten married in the Castle, it was a rather large ceremony as all the rebels from the Blade of Marmora showed up, the Paladins, the Arusians, the Balmerians, and many others came for the wedding. We tried out many of their traditions and they were quite different from the traditions back in Earth. I was gifted with weapons decorated with many exotic flowers from the Arusians. The rebels gifted Keith and I matching necklaces that apparently would send a message if one of us was in danger, Ulaz told me that Keith's necklace could send a message when he was talking to another woman, we shared a laugh and Keith held me closely and shook his head, laughing as well.

           After the wedding, Keith was feeling rather frisky, he watched me with hungry eyes as I stripped from my dress. I looked over at him and he ran his hand through his hair before walking over to me and sending butterfly kisses down my jawline, neck, shoulder, collar bone, and each breast. I gripped onto his dress shirt as his hands rubbed up and down my thighs, small gasps and soft moans could be heard throughout the room. His touch sent shivers up my spine, little shocks of excitement and need coursing through my veins.

        His thrusts were slow and easy at first, but they escalated the more I pleaded and let my nails drag down his bare back, small red marks appearing to become scars as time drags. Grunts, moans, screams, and names could be heard in the room, I gripped the bedsheets as I was close to climax, I felt him go to his high which put me on edge and letting me release. He laid beside me, our small gasps could be heard, I giggled softly and he joined in. "How lucky was I to be with the most amazing woman in the Universe?" He looked lovingly into my eyes and I hugged him, my legs entangled in his. The Half-Galran kisses my head before we drifted off to slumber.

         We walked to the cabin, hand in hand. Keith gave me a reassuring squeeze and I returned the gesture,

                   We were home...

             We were back on Earth...

         We entered the house and saw it completely covered in dust, deserted, and papers strewn everywhere. I picked up one paper and dusted it off, seeing a graph of recordings when Keith had been getting signals from the Blue Lion. I looked up at him and I saw him tear down his pin board, it was no longer needed so he set it in a trash corner. I walked up to him and wrapped my arms around his lower torso, his arms wrapping themselves around my lower waist. Keith leaned down and his lips met mine in a small kiss. We pulled away and we looked into eachother's eyes lovingly.

         "Keith... I need to tell you something..."

                   "You can tell me anything love..."

               "Keith I'm...."

           His eyes widened as the last words escaped past my lips, he felt tears build up at the corners of his eyes as he smiled and hugged me tightly, he cried into my shoulder and laughed.

    
            He was going to be a father

  And you were going to be the mother

       The two of you were going to be parents.

           After announcing my pregnancy and making it official, Keith and I began to work on the nursery for the baby that was to be due in a 5 months. My stomach grew more and more as the months progressed. Until one fateful day...

         It was during the winter, I sat by the window, looking out and watching as my husband worked on a vehicle, repairing the engine. I smiled upon seeing his wipe his face, an oil smear on his cheek bone. Everything was perfect, nothing could take away my happiness, I was the happiest girl alive. I looked back down at my book and read quietly, my hand running over my baby bump subconsciously. I felt no movement, I took a sharp breath.

Glass shattered

A thud was heard as the book from my hand made contact with the floor.

A blood curdling scream resounded in the livingroom.

Blood stained fabric and blood stained wooden floors.

            I screamed out in pain and felt my whole body throb with a numbness, my stomach felt as if someone tore it open. I was in too much pain to realize Keith had rushed inside. Tears were streaming down my face rapidly, I screamed out in devastation and pain. Blood pooled beneath me and I cried harder, why was there so much blood?

"I'm sorry Mr. And Mrs. Kogane... but it's a miscarriage..."

"Mrs.Kogane, you aren't able to produce a baby..."

"No matter how many times you try... the baby will not survive..."

              I sat on the porch, looking out at the nothingness of the desert at five in the morning, I watched the sun rise slowly. My tired eyes barely pried open, dark bags hung from my once full of life eyes. Ever since the news that I couldn't have a baby broke out, I became depressed, knowing that I would never get to fulfill mine or Keith's dreams of raising children of our own blood. My gaze trailed down to the 3 rose bushes, small plaques rested in front of them. Names were engraved into them, the names that would've been my children's...

         I stared blankly at them for a while and the sun rays began to peak from the horizon. I stood up and walked over to the rose bushes, I let my fingertips graze the soft, crimson, petals. I let a tear stray from my eye and I turned towards the house, I trailed to the bathroom and opened one of the cabinets and grabbed a pair of scissors. I looked in the mirror and saw how untamed my hair was, it went past my lower back and it was in knots. I looked at my once youthful face, it had hallowed out, my eyes were sunken in, dark circles decorated my eyes. I examined my frail body before locking the bathroom door and picking the scissors up.

Snip, Snip, Snip

          My {H/C} fell onto the floor as I cut it all off. I cried silently, I was worthless, I was a disappointment, I will never be able to make him happy. He wanted children and I couldn't provide it, I couldn't stand being the unlucky one. He hated me... he didn't love me anymore, he couldn't... he couldn't love me because I couldn't give him what he wanted, what we wanted.

         I looked at myself in the mirror once more and my hair was now in a shoulder length style. I looked at myself in disgust, how could anyone love anyone like me? I was just born to disappoint the ones I loved, I looked down at my hands and clutched them tightly. I looked at the mirror and out of sheer anger.

Shattered glass decorated the bathroom tiles.

Blood poured from my knuckles

         I was breathing hard as I grabbed a shard of glass and brought it to my arm, I applied pressure but before I could break the skin, I felt two strong arms embrace me.

"STOP, LET ME GO!"

"___________ WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING?!"

"FOR FUCKS SAKE KEITH, LET. ME. GO!"

         I struggled in his grasp and he did not loosen his grip on me. I punched his chest repeatedly while sobbing uncontrollably, he picked me up and threw me over his shoulder, I kicked, yelled, cried, and hit his back with curled fists. He put me down on the bed and straddled me down, his eyes were bloodshot and his hair was long and messy, he had a prickly beard and his brows were furrowed. I struggled and he pinned my wrists above my head.

     "Keith... let me go... please..." I choked on a sob and he shook his head. "Not until you tell me what you were about to do in that bathroom." He replied sternly and I felt fear consume me. "I wasn't doing anything, I swear!" I lied, he didn't buy it. "Bull shit, the mirror and your bloody knuckles say otherwise."He glared hard at me and I completely broke under his stare. He noticed and got off of me, he sat on the bed and pulled me onto his lap and hugged me, cradling me close to his chest.

       "Why?" He asked and my eyes met his, I looked down in shame. "Why? Why would you do this __________?" He asked and I sniffled. "I-I will never have a child... we will never be satisfied...." I whispered and he hugged me as more tears traveled down the sides of my face. "I don't care if you can't have a child __________... my only wish is to spend the rest of my life with you, until the day I die... I don't need anything else... that would be enough..."He whispered and I cried more, my heart shattered like glass. I was so unaware that not only I was affected, but my poor husband whom I didn't expect to be affected by the miscarriages.

        I cried and cried until I could cry no more, I shivered and gripped onto Keith's shirt. My eyes were drowsy, I felt myself being tucked in bedsheets and I was now laying down, a soft pillow rested beneath my head. I looked up at Keith and he leaned down to kiss my forehead. "I'm sorry..." I whispered as he exited the bedroom, one last tear rolled down the side of my face before I was thrown into complete tranquility.

                       "I'm sorry..."

~•30 years later•~

          The older man stared down at a rose bush that held white roses, the symbol of eternal love. He crouched down and read the plaque, the other rose bushes beside the white rise bush bloomed with beauty as the morning dew glinted in the sunlight. He set down a necklace, a necklace given as a gift from his wedding ceremony. He smiled and stood back up, looking up at the sky.

     "How's the weather up there __________?"

           The man smiled to himself and felt a tear roll down his cheek, he wiped it away. "Y'know... I miss you alot, you left too soon. Don't worry, I'll be up there with you soon love~" He leaned on his cane and felt a rain drop land on his hand, he tipped his hat down. "How are the kids? Are they a handful?I suppose they get if from you?" He chuckled to himself and sighed, he turned away and began to walk back into his home, "I love you __________..." He whispered as thunder clapped and small raindrops began to fall from the heavens. The wind picked up and as faint as it could, it made a small melody with the leaves and windchimes in the garden.

               "I love you too Keith..."