I just really need to get this off my chest. I don't usually talk about these kinds of things that often because people might accuse me of being an attention seeker or whatever. But, in this case, I really don't care what you have to say. I'm just going to ignore it. I'm not even going to delete it. You really don't have to read this. It's just kinda here for me to get some things I need to say out there. Honestly, I thought about putting this in my rant book because it IS sorta like a rant. But nobody really reads it and it's just kinda there so that people that actually read this don't have to put up with this. But this is kinda serious and I want to talk about this in here because it really honestly made me super upset and pissed off.

I don't know if I ever told you guys this, but I took time off work from July 15th to the 20th because I'm going on a family vacation. And guess what I just found out this morning?

We aren't going. And you wanna know why we aren't going?

Because my step-dad was too lazy to step up and help my mom plan the whole thing.

Now, to shed light on this, I'm going to explain. Whenever we would go on family vacations, my mom would do ALL the planning. She would book the reservations and what not and do whatever else. Last summer when went to Pittsburgh, she booked a room in the hotel that we're staying in and she booked a spot in a kennel where my dog would be staying in while we were there. We had such a fun time and I was really looking forward to seeing what we were going to this summer.

But no, my stupid step-dad just couldn't step up and help my mom with the planning for once.

My mom's pissed, of course. She already took off time and I already took off time and I'm stuck working for the next three days. So it's not like we could do something now because it's so last minute. My parents had this long fight (Well, the fight was mostly just my mom yelling at my step-dad because, as I just found out today, he spends about three to four hours a night playing games on his phone) and my sister, whom of which doesn't really understand the whole situation because she's not six, is piping in and trying to defend my step-dad for what he's done. I swear that I almost went out and punched in the face because my mom is right and he's wrong. But I sat in the living room and listened the entire time. I haven't told you guys this, but they've been fighting more and more these past couple of years. Like I said before, I didn't say anything because people would probably accuse me of being an attention seeker and I didn't really want to deal with that. But this fight just put the entire family (excluding my sister because she is too young to really and truly understand) on edge, especially my mom. I think that my step-dad is going to be kicked out pretty soon but maybe not because I don't blame my mom for not wanting to be a single parent with two kids at 33. She's never even been married and he has had two men (My dad and my step-dad) treat her like absolute shit even though she is an awesome person and I love her. I've always loved my mom and I will love her no matter how mad she makes me or how far she pushes me off the edge. I've never really had a father figure in my life, I've realized. Sure, my step-dad stepped in when I was just three years old and my mom was trying to raise me but he's still gotta continue to do that now. He's got his own kid and he barely pays attention to her or spends time with her at night because of his game (He plays Clash Of Clans by the way, not that it really matters what game he plays in the first place) and he also spends quite some time on Facebook. I knew that it was bad, but I never knew that it was to the point where he's neglecting his family and not putting is at the top of his priory list. Why can't my mom be with men that will treat her right? And why can't the men realize that my mom is an amazing woman that you should treat with respect? And it doesn't go for just my mom either. Just yesterday when we went out to eat, my mom pointed out this old guy that was holding a car door open for his wife. My mom said to my little sis and I, "That right there is how a man should treat a woman. That's how a long marriage lasts."

She ALWAYS points out these things. Before, I thought it was just for teaching my little sis and I how we should be treated. But now I realize that that isn't really the only reason why she pointed it out to us. She pointed it out to us because my step-dad doesn't treat her like that and she wants that. Now, to you guys out there, I'm not saying that you have to open a door for a girl EVERY single time that the both of you are getting into the car but you should do it every once in a while. Show her that you love her and you're willing to treat her with respect because you love her. Go the extra mile. Girls, you should do the same thing for guys. Show him that you care about him by doing nice things. You'll have your ups and downs and your fights and when that happens, communication is the most important thing. You have to listen to each other and avoid yelling because yelling is likely to make the argument go on for much longer than it needs to be and you won't really get anything accomplished in the end.

I'm getting off track. Let's get back to the fact that I'm extremely pissed at my step-dad at the moment. And I probably will be for a long time until he decides that he's going to put his kids and his girlfriend (AKA my mom because she's never been married) before anything, especially his Clash Of Clans. That damn game and whoever the people he talks to whenever he's on his phone for a very long time are the reason why I'm losing money for the time off that I took and the reason why I can't have a nice family vacation. It's fucking stupid and I THINK (I'm not saying this is a fact) that he MIGHT be cheating. He doesn't really share things with us (How his day was at work, how he's feeling at the moment, etc.) and he's very closed off from us. All the better reason to suspect that he just might be cheating.

And back to the whole vacation thing, I swear on my life that I almost broke down crying because my mom came up to me while the fight was going on and my little sis and I were in the kitchen eating lunch and told me that she knows that I'm disappointed that I didn't get to go to Florida (I didn't mention this before, but my dad tried to talk me into going to Florida with him, his girlfriend, and my two first cousins. My mom wouldn't allow it because of all the things that he's done in the past (That's a very long story) and I agreed with her and told him that I didn't want to go because I didn't trust him, which was very true.) and that she's sorry that we aren't going to get to go on vacation because my step-dad couldn't step up and help plan. I told her that it was okay and it wasn't her fault (Because it wasn't). My step-dad later apologized and I just sat there and ignored him while my little sis said that it was okay and she didn't want to go anywhere anyway.
TOTAL. BULLSHIT.
Come on, she's six years old. Of course she wants to go somewhere. But no, daddy's little girl has to stick up for daddy, even though he did all of the pervious things mentioned. I don't why I just didn't punch her when I had the chance.
Sure, I would have gotten in trouble but he didn't deserve to be defended. At all.

Sorry you had to suffer through that. Like I said, you really didn't have to read it. I really just needed to say those things. And if you actually read this, thank you.

PM me/ text me if you have my number (AKA madisonmonak ) because I kinda want to talk to somebody.

Adios!

~Sky~