My dad is here for one more day and we're hanging out with fam on his side today.

He's picking me up at 5:30. It is currently 4:58 as of writing this. Probably different when I post this.

I love that side of the family so much because I feel like I can be myself around them. They're okay with me liking Pokémon. I even told my grandma that I post stories and I told her about "Breathless" and its read and she was really happy for me.

I just have to hide one thing.

I've said this before when I got into a huge fight on Lifeboat over this.

I am an atheist.

I just feel like I have to hide it from them. We went to a restaurant the other day and they were praying for their food and I just awkwardly joined in. Not hating on you guys who believe, I was just raised differently. I never went to church (Haven't been to this day), never been to Sunday school, none of that. I'm not baptized either.

My dad knows that I don't believe and he's okay with it. I don't want to tell the others because I kinda feel like they'll never want to see me again or something.

My own mother thinks that I'm only questioning this stuff because "I haven't felt like He was truly there for me quite yet" and "You never fully experience life if you don't feel that He's there for you."

It seems like atheists get tons of hate. I dare someone to walk around with a shirt with that word on it and see how many people give you dirty looks. Wear it in a church if you have the guts even.

I just want to be accepted by my family even if I don't believe. I know that "the best atheist is the silent atheist" but why should you have to believe in God? We have freedom in this country. We have rights to our own opinions.

I'm sorry, I just really needed to get that out. My own grandma thinks it's sad that I don't believe either and I'm just sick and tired of my family saying that not believing in God is so wrong. It's like me saying that YOU believing in God is wrong (I don't think that. I'm just trying to make a point here. Believe what you want.).

I don't want to be silent about this anymore. I trust you guys to respect my beliefs because I think that most of you understand that everyone thinks different things and that not everyone is the same.

Thanks for suffering through that. Like I said, I really just needed that to come out.

Adios!

~Sky~