Avi POV

I sit in what used to be Kirstie and I's room looking through her stuff. Hoping to find anything that she loved a lot. I open one of the boxes she had at the hospital and see it filled with what looks like letters. I pull the top one out and see it was dated a week before we found out she was sick.

Dear Avi,                                                                                                                                 9/14/15

Something is wrong and I can tell. I feel weak and tired all the time and I've been feeling this way for a while. I want to tell you but I'm afraid how you will react. Everyday I see the way you look at me and I would hate to change how happy you are, but I can't go much longer with out telling you. Hopefully if something happens these letters will help you have some form of closure.

                                                                                                                                Love you always,

                                                                                                                             Kirstie Kaplan.

I sigh, she knew something was wrong for a while and never did anything. I pull out the next later and see the date is the day we fond out she was sick.

Dear Avi,                                                                                                     9/21/15

I was right there is something wrong and it's allot worse than I thought. They told me I only have a 4 months at the most with out chemo. When we got the news I'm pretty sure you took it harder than me. The whole car ride home was silent neither of us said anything. I just wish you would say something. Hopefully something will happen and things will get better.

                                                                                                                         Love,

                                                                                                                     Kirst.

I skip to the last letter and see it is dated the day before she died.

Avi,                                                                                                       1/23/16

I decided not to do chemo and I call feel myself getting sicker. The doctors told me I have only a week or two left. But as long as I have you by my side I'll be okay. I want you to know how sorry I am that you got dragged into all of this. I love you.

                                                                                                    Kirstin.

I let the tears fall from my eyes. She was so strong through this battle. I was there when she lost the battle, I was holding her hand and the last thing she said to me was, 'Never forget my love for you'. Thinking about that I grab a blank piece of paper and a pen.

Kirstie,

I am sitting in our room looking through your stuff when I started thinking about the last thing you said to me. I know you'll never actually get this letter but I want you to know I will never forget how much you love me. No matter what I know you love me and that I'll always love you too.

                                                                                              Until I see you again,

                                                                                                           Avi.