Anbenum thoondillai nee veesinaal ....

Meenaagiren anbe. ......

Unnaal thaanada pennagiren ingaagae .....

Muthan muthalaai .....

Mayangugiren .......

These lines from her favourite no , echoed in her ears , once she got up from sleep . She didn't open her eyes yet , but these words came buzzing into her mind ,as the memories of last night fled into her .....esp ...

Mu : ... gold fish aam la ? meen maathri than ,maatikiten awuga Kita .....

A secret smile crept over her crimson cheeks.
Basking in the happenings of last night , she gently let her fingers carress herself at places ,where his lips and fingers had left their marks ....

Shyness and happiness took over her , she didn't even want to open her eyes , didn't want to get up , didn't want to let go those cherishable moments ......him , just thoughts of him had the power now ,  to make her  insane .... Nothing but him !!!

She felt ridiculous for her behaviour then , way back , why was even thinking that she wudnt get womanly desires ???

Except that he wasn't in his full senses yesderday , was a beautiful memory for her .....let alone his roughness !!!

Just then ,her fingers traced and found that the small chain with d heart pendant wasn't there .

She opened her eyes heavily , collected up herself and looked down to see her . She had wrapped herself in a robe .....

As far as she remembered,it was almost around 3.00am ,when she settled for sleep ..

With him slumbering over her ,in the couch itself , she struggled gently to withdraw from their hug without disturbing him ....
She wasn't ready to face him , immediately after theirs , that too ...in that state .

Somehow she stumbled ,into the dresser , got hold of two robes and managed to pull him out into ,the room, and with both of them being still wet , she settled in the cushions and made him lie in the sofa .

After that she didn't remember anything until now .....

Not knowing the time , she mustered her up to see ,the room practically empty !!!

Where was he ?

She rushed into the wash room ,to check him out ,but only to find her tiny pendant and chain tossed in opposite directions ...

Mu : Moraddu . ....she smiled .......

Picking it up , she kept in near the dresser . Looking around for him .....she checked in the nook and corner for him .

Apadiyae un purushan , kolandhai , than tholanchu poga !!!
Panrathelaam pannitu !!!

Maybe he had left early , and she had over slept . But , he snt that type of husband to leave her .....just like that ,that too , after yesderday s night !!!

With confusion , she dressed herself carefully ....

Gosh !!!

Damn these love bites !!!

They were all over around her neck and deep down .

Swollen lips and baggy eyelids were an easy guess for anyone.

The sapphire blue soft silk saree with small crystals sparkling all over the saree , made her look extra gorgeous .
She had contrasted it with a yellow silk blouse , and meticulously plaited her hair ,and wore matching earrings .

Yes. !!

This time she dressed up for him , wearing the combination of both their favourite colours ....took extra effort s on her looks , as well as hoping he wud drop in , anytime !!!

But in vain !!

With little dissapointment she stepped out of their room , to be met by Parvathi first .

Par : Mulla , rajathi ... avlo alaga erukadi....she kissed her daughter ....nethi ,nethu ellaam...hmm santhoshama erunthiya ma ?

Mul :...maa ....poo ma .

Her smitten face , shy smile and the tiny red marks , her candy cheeks .. baggy.eyes answered Parvathi .

Par :...Shanthosham de .... konjam neram muneh than , thambiya paathen.... velila ponaaru.....athan ...awarukita poi epdi nu , summa pesitu vanthen. .... nimathiya eruku ma .

Mul :..that was a news to her ...why didn't he even wake her up ,?...why to leave?

Maybe he wanted an early morning tea ?

The room had instant facilities ..

Or maybe he wanted a walk ?

He didn't want to disturb her sleep ?

She convinced herself with her assumptions and asked her mom s company for breakfast .

Par : ...eru di , varen . Intha manushan nethi , ennathaiyoo oothikitu vanthu ore alapara ....pechu ..thoongitu erukaaru ......eru kootitu vanthren ...nee poitae eru....

Mu :...she didn't feel like waiting for her mom ....her eyes were constantly in search .....

She moved in the dining room for the breakfast , a couple of people were there . .. amongst the family members only Dhanam and Kanna were seen .

Mu : ..akka ....awugala paathigala ?

Dh ;..paara ....kaalaila vanthutu oru good morning sollala , awuga enga nu madam kekranha ......hey summa sonnen Mulla ...epo thana Kathiru tea kudichutu ponnan ....

Kannan : ama ,Anni .anne epo than car parking kita pochu ... innaiku enga poroom theriyuma Anni ?

Kanna was only speaking to the air .

She had already reached the car parking !!!

As she went inbetween their cars , she saw Kathir , sitting in nearby lobby....

He had tucked in an off white shirt and jeans and was leaning on the chair.... looking....

A causual attire though , he took away the breathe of her heart .

It skipped and slipped.....

Could someone so naive ,change over this much over night .

It was the secret of LOVE & LUST !!!

She really stopped and admired him for a few minutes and in slow baby steps ....walked towards him .

Wait ....

What was there in those looks ?

Was he staring at the ceiling or aimlessly somewhere ? ....

As strode near , she realised , he wasn't connected with the world around !!!

Why ???
................

It was around 5.30 am , earlier that day when Kathir woke up , along with a throbbing headache .
He didn't realise at first where he was ......then came the memories .....in flashes !!!

He had boozed last night ....

Well ...a heavy one !!!

He well remembered coming in the room and settling a nap

Well ...then he pucked bad .....Mullai was at his help ., in the wash room !!

And then ?

And then ?

God !!!

He slammed himself , when the memories came flooding in .

He was drapped in a robe now , but .... then ?

He rushed in first to the wash room .....

Their piled up clothes were the first thing that caught his eye .. her dress. .....that crappy thing.

He felt herself again , on seeing it !!!

And everything else too.... automatically played in his mind !!

The jaccuci was disturbed .....petals thrown all over the floor ....a messy room !!!

Gosh !!

They had did it . !!!

Well , he remembered it in flashes and glances ..

But her ?

Wasn't she scared looking at him ?

She appeared shocked ?

He could remember her words echoing in his mind

" . ...vendaanga .... please ...kudichu erukinga ...nga. ..please .....'"

With the same words repetively echoing in his mind he rushed into the room , to look for her .
.

She was cuddled ,in the cushion next , pulling on the robe and sleeping like a kid .

Blissfully a sleeping beauty , he hated himself for having forced it ,upon her.

Her child like face , got him angry over himself ...

Ka : Muttal ...enna kaariyam da panni vachruka ? Naa paathupen , porumaiya erupenu sathyam vera panni kuduthutu. Chee .......asigingam panni erukada Kathiru . Chinna ponnu ....avlo kenjina ....mirugam maathri nadanthukitu erunthu erukoom .

He dwelt in disgust and self hatred and anger with his ownself . Guilt wrapped him with octopus hands .

If only she could forgive him ?

If only things didn't go out of hand ?

If only she too had been equally willing ?

He scanned back in his thoughts as what happened yesterday , he tried hard to remember whether she told any thing or accepted him , or any traces of willingness !!!

Of all he could recollect was her teary eyes and scary face !!!

But in a way his thoughts didn't defy him . She didn't openly admit to him , in words , nor her gestures .

If he had been in his senses , his eyes wouldn't have missed those dreamy eyes when he spread over her , wouldn't have skipped her mild whimpers or soft groans ....she was passive ,which his intoxicated mind failed to register .

Instead he blamed himself , for everything that happened .

Unable to withstand it nor left with any hope to face , he took a quick bath and had left well before she woke up .

He was waiting outside their room , in gloomy mood as well unable to leave her all alone in that unknown place .
It had dawned well , and after seeing Parvathi coming out , towards their side , he left after having a word without her .

From then onwards he was left in utter confusion as to how to face her , having no interest in having a breakfast ,with a throbbing headache , he left with a hot tea , to settle in the lobby besides the car parking.......

His thoughts still hovering over her itself !!!

He was staring aimlessly at the ceiling , when on an instinct he turned sideways only to see his angel walking towards him in slow steps .....

His heart raced fast ......when ......