Song: Hurts like Hell By Fleurie

A week turned into another week. I barely even say hi to Raine anymore. I tried texting him several times but he doesn't reply back. I don't get it, something has to be wrong. I wanted us to think about things, about our relationship but I never meant for him to just disappear like this. I throw on a pair of jeans on and a t-shirt with my converses and head out the door.

 A few blocks later I am knocking on Chase's door. He comes to the door half dressed. "What do you want?" he says rudely.

"I'm looking for Raine; is he here?"

"Hell if I know come on in." He opens the door for me to enter and I look around the small living room area. The house is trashed like they had a kick ass party last night. I watch as he walks to one of the back rooms and then comes back. "Hold on he will be right out."

I debate on if I want to sit on the edge of the couch or just stand, I choose to stand. I am looking around at all the crap everywhere, beer bottles, left over joints in the ash trays, etc. I hear shuffling in the back and voices.

When he walks into the room I turn to look at him. Of course he has a hangover. Guess he is not doing any better. "Hey...Ana...baby....what are you doing here?"

"I was getting worried about you? You stopped texting me; is everything ok?"

He smirks, "Like you really care. Why are you here?"

"I was worried about you. What is going on; I thought you were getting cleaned out?"

"I am!" he laughed it off.

I look around the room. "Are you, because it doesn't look like it?" I see a girl walk down the hallway towards another room, I assume the bathroom. I look back over at him and he has that look on his face and I know in that moment that she was with him. "I shouldn't have came here. I'm sorry; I should go."

"Ana...it's not what you think, she's no one."

"Really," I huff. "This whole time you accuse me of sleeping with someone when you are doing it."

"I'm not sleeping with her."

"No just fucking her....right," I raise my voice hoping that she heard me.

He doesn't say anything so I know I'm right. He tries coming up closer to me and I shove him hard. "You fucking prick, seriously how could you do this."

"Ana...it...just kinda happened...I'm a man...what the hell do you expect from me. It's been two weeks and you gave up on me."

"I did not give up on you. You gave up on me remember, you left."

"You wanted me to go," he yells at me.

 Chase comes back into the room. "Damn...you two keep it down...shit."

My eyes swell up with tears. "No problem, I'm leaving anyway."

 As I am leaving he walks up behind me and grabs my arm pulling me into him. "Raine...let go of me." I look down at him holding my arm. I'm scared to look up into his eyes because I am afraid of what I might see.

"Look at me Ana, dammit just tell me what you want from me?"

I look up and his eyes are glassed over with tears as well. "I don't know what I want. I thought you were getting better. I thought we were going to work all this out between us. I never thought you would find someone else." My bottom lip trembles.

"And you didn't; Ana don't play the blame card all on me. What about that prick, your so called boss. I know he came to the apartment and he stayed awhile. Tell me you're not sleeping with him?"

I look at him dead in the face. "I am not sleeping with him. I have never cheated on you. I loved you; how could you just throw it all away like that?"

He doesn't say anything.

 "I have to be at work later, you should swing by the apartment to get the rest of your things."

He lets go of my arm. "Ana don't be like that. Look she is nothing I swear to you."

"If she was nothing, you wouldn't have slept with her." I reach up and kiss his cheek. "I'll be alright don't worry about me."

"I'm leaving Ana. I'm moving. I got a job offer and I'm taking it."

"Oh! Where to?" Suddenly I feel even sadder. He can't be leaving for good, no way.

"California, I'm not coming back here. It was a really good offer that I can't pass up. But I worry about you."

"I will be fine." I lie because I'm not sure that I will be alright.

"Not if he is in the picture."

"Who...Mr. Moretti, I told you there is nothing going on between us."

"Yeah, keep telling yourself that."

I don't know what to tell him so I wave him off. "Take care Raine. You have my number if you ever need to talk."

"Yeah, I'm sorry this didn't work out. I will be by later to get my stuff."

When I get back to the apartment I gather all his things and place them in the living room. Some of the stuff we had bought together and if he chooses to take anything else so be it. I'm sure I can replace whatever he wants to take. I go through the closet and the dresser drawers, getting all his clothes. I want everything out of here that belongs to him. I finish getting ready for work and head out.

 I text Raine to let him know that all his stuff in is the living room and to leave the key on the table. When I pull up in the parking lot I look in the rearview mirror. My eyes are still red and swollen from crying. I braid my hair and walk in the back door toward the kitchen.

 Marco is already cooking. I don't say anything as I get prepared to work. "You alright Ana?" he asks. Marco is the main Chef. He has been here for over six years and knows everything that goes on in his kitchen.

I look anywhere but right at him. "I'm fine." I just know if I look at him the tears will start flowing again.

Throughout the night he keeps cracking jokes and trying to make me smile but all I can think about is when I get home it will just be me, all alone in this world. I'm lost in my own thoughts. I think of him. I see him with her. Visions of them together, him kissing her, her kissing the places where I use to kiss. She looked nothing like me. She was a blonde, short and average size. I only got a glimpse of her, but for what I could tell she was pretty. I wonder if he hits her too or how long it will take for him to. Will she stay or leave him and then he will be back wanting me. Would I even consider taking him back?

Raine:

The moment I left I knew I wouldn't be back. I knew she would replace me in no time. I walk by the apartment everyday just hoping to get a glimpse of her, making sure she is alright. I saw that jerk checking up on her and he has been in that damn apartment for over an hour. What the hell could they be doing up in there. I would go check it out but his little guard dogs are outside waiting by the car. I don't bother going back to Chase's place instead I head to one of the local bars.

 A pretty little blonde sits next to me. "Hey, can I buy you a drink?"

"Sure," she says already two sheets to the wind. We have a few more drinks and then ask what her plans are for the night."Nothing...why?"

"You could come back to my place if you want." We barely make it to the door and continue to stumbling along to the guest bedroom, my room now. I fuck the shit out of her but I'm not thinking of her, I'm thinking of Katana.

It's been over a week and somehow this girl Crystal is still in my bed. I'm not in love with her; she is just there to take the pain away for now until I get back with Ana but I don't dare tell her that.

We are in the bed sleeping when I hear a knock on the front door and then at my door. "Dude...she is here...she wants to see you."

I groan and make my way out of the bed. I see Crystal still sleeping and I try not to wake her up. Maybe she will stay in here while I talk to Ana.

When I see her standing in the living room I try to straighten up myself. God she is beautiful. "Hey, Ana...baby....what are you doing here?"

She turns to look at me with that sad worried expression of hers. "I was getting worried about you? You stopped texting me; is everything ok?"

I laugh, is everything ok. No, why in the hell would everything be ok. "Like you really care. Why are you here?"

"I was worried about you. What is going on; I thought you were getting cleaned out?"

"I am!" I tell her but I know she doesn't believe me. I hear the bedroom door open and I know she sees her by the look on her face. All the color drains from her cheeks.

"I shouldn't have came here. I'm sorry. I should go."

"Ana it's not what you think; she's no one."

"Really!" I hear the hurt in her voice. "This whole time you accuse me of sleeping with someone when you are doing it."

"I'm not sleeping with her."

"No just fucking her...right."

I try to reach out to her to bring her close to me and she pushes me away.

 "You fucking prick, seriously how could you do this."

"Ana it just kinda happened. I'm a man; what the hell do you expect from me. It's been two weeks and you gave up on me."

"I did not give up on you. You gave up on me remember, you left."

"You wanted me to go."

 Chase comes back into the room. "Damn...you two keep it down...shit."

God, I always find a way to hurt her more. She is freaking crying and so upset. I can't let her go like this. "Raine...let go of me." She is crying.

"Look at me Ana, dammit just tell me what you want from me?" I would do anything for her.

"I don't know what I want. I thought you were getting better. I thought we were going to work all this out between us. I never thought you would find someone else."

I tell her about me seeing that dick with her. I know they have got to be sleeping with each other but when she tells me she hasn't I believe her. Shit, I always just assume the worst and this time my head gets me in more trouble.

"I have to be at work later. You should swing by the apartment to get the rest of your things."

I let go of her arm. "Ana don't be like that. Look she is nothing I swear to you." When she doesn't respond I tell her, "I'm leaving Ana. I'm moving. I got a job offer and I'm taking it."

It was a payoff to get out of her life but I don't tell her that. He offered me a job on the west coast along with a great lump of money to move on.

"Oh...where to?"

"California, I'm not coming back here. It was a really good offer that I can't pass up. But I worry about you."

"I will be fine."

"Not if he is in the picture."

"Who, Mr. Moretti. I told you there is nothing going on between us."

"Yeah, keep telling yourself that."

"Take care Raine. You have my number if you ever need to talk."

"Yeah, I'm sorry this didn't work out. I will be by later to get my stuff."

I watch as she leaves and I am so freaking frustrated that I punch the door. I should tell her the truth, that prick will do anything to keep her safe from me. And maybe that's a good thing me out of the way. I do tend to hurt her but I don't mean too...I never meant to hurt her. I look back and Crystal is staring at me.

"So that's Ana; she's really pretty." I don't say anything as I go back to the bedroom and throw some clothes on. "Are you going after her?"

"No it's over." I haven't told her about the payoff afraid that she will rob me blind while I'm not looking. I haven't even told her that I'm leaving. I'm not telling anyone. I'm just moving on with my life. I'm sure I will make new friends once I get out to California.

"Good now we can move on, make love to me Raine. I will treat you the way you should be treated."

"I'm not in the mood right now." She wraps her arms around me and I push her to the side. "I told you not right now."

"Why do you care about her. She doesn't give a shit about you. She just left you and I am here for you, me. Let me love you."

I feel the anger build up inside of me. I want to punch the shit out of her but I don't instead I walk out the door. I get a text from Ana saying she is already gone. So I go by the apartment. She piled up all my stuff so I have no reason why to go through the rest of the apartment. I don't bother taking anything else she can have it all for all I care.

 I really messed up this time. As I leave, I place the key on the coffee table.

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Author's Note: Sorry so long...but hope you liked it. Please feel free to commit and vote.