130 years ago

"He's confirmed dead Kane, Alpha Braum confirmed it himself, he made it as far as his territory."

I snort. "That's fucking bullshit, I want to see his body."

My father gives me a look and I can't help but think the next words that come out of his mouth will definitely piss me off. "They burnt the body son, Theodin was their distant relative by blood, we cannot deny their wis-"

"BULLSHIT! And you fucking know it! The Braums have always been up to something, I've been telling you this for years and now you're telling me you don't see this shit?" I shout out, slamming the desk hard with my palm, making the objects in the room shake and the desk to crack.

I want to throw something, hit something, destroy everything I lay my eyes on.  

Why won't he just fucking listen to me? 

This isn't fucking right, none of it is right, I don't trust the Braum families word for shit, they've had strong relations to traitors in the past, I haven't fucking forgotten history, but it seems like some of us have, how can they be so blind to the obvious truth? 

I'm not about to let history repeat itself, I want to see the fucking body.

"Kane, listen to what I'm telling yo-"

I open the door and walk out, slamming it behind me, hearing it break as I storm through the packhouse. "Un-fucking-believable." I mutter out seething mad.

Theodin.... nobody knows what he's capable of but me, I still remember that day I lost my soul, I thought he was a... friend.. I thought... 

I was stupid to let myself not see the signs sooner, he was wrong, everything was wrong, the words in his mouth, his actions- reasons alone were suspicious, I knew that day.. that day we accidentally killed a human... I knew then what he really was.

The Theodin I know would not die that easily, he was a monster.

Age 13

"Kane, come on- I smell it, it's definiently a bear!" Theodin says grinning, tapping my wolf on the back.

I growl out lowly and start to get excited, bears were rare to find in these forests, to see one.. my father would pass the title to Alpha to me now if I showed how strong I was, I could take any creature, anyone who offers to fight me has always lost.

Theodin starts to chant something that makes sounds louder and it takes me a second to get adjusted to the feeling of hearing every single noise, I feel like my senses as a halfbreed have doubled and I can hear everything if I set my focus to it.

When I hear it, heavy footsteps and its grunting, I sniff the air to capture the scent, once I have it, I leap off the rock down to the ground and break off into a sprint towards the scent.

'It's been a while since we've had a kill' my wolf Dex says happily, I agree with him.

I sense behind me that Theodin had broken off into a sprint to catch up, being a Fae and a Grinmorte, Theodin was more powerful than people his kind, and me being more powerful than my kind, we had formed a bond on those terms.

I sniff the air and the scent is so close, I can practically inhale its scent, which is unlike anything I've smelled before, perhaps it's an older bear? Or a new species of bear? I don't think about it much as I start stalking towards my prey, keeping my movement to a minimum as I hear voices.

I feel something cloud over my eyes and... I feel.. hungry, light, free... but that scent, it was intoxicating, I wanted nothing more than to sink my teeth into its neck and watch the life drain from its eyes.

Lowering my body once I feel the creature come closer, I wait for my opportunity to pounce and confirm my kill, after all, this was a game and I always won, but it was more enjoyable when they fought back, it made the two beasts inside of me happy that I never lost touch with my nature side, embracing life and death.

A crunch of a leaf makes me leap from the ground and attack, I bit into something not hard but... soft... but my eyes are definitely seeing a bear, it's... strange, up close the scnt is all wrong, I can't place it but the uneasy feeling inside of me makes me drop the side of the creature from my mouth.

Almost instantly, like a cloak had been taken off me, I see what it truly was that I bit into with my wolfs razor-sharp large canines.

A human boy.

This is definitely a human, no older than a teenager, perhaps a few years older than me, but this boy was definitely human, and staring at me with wide eyes as he grips the side of his stomach, with tears running down his face and his mouth open.

He's... screaming... I bit a human... I-

"Kane! snap out of it." I feel my wolf being shacked and that's when everything begins to come more clear.

Suddenly the screaming of the boy is loud and I can hear my own heartbeat in my throat. 

Shit, shit, fuck, what do I do? 

I transform out of my wolf and kneel down, not missing the look the boy gave me as he watched me transform, humans do not know about us and we keep our existence secret, but I had no other choice, he can't die, I won't let him die.

"T-Theodin, heal him, do something, we can't let him die!" I shout panicky at him as he stands behind me.

Theodin's eyes are cold, looking down at the human boy with... disgust all over his face, and with a smile on his lips, it confused me to the point of making me feel sick, that Theodin maybe didn't hear me.

What is he doing? 

Why is he just standing there not saying anything!

"Theodin, do something, we need to save hi-"

"No." He says coldly, snapping at me. 

What the fuck? I glare at him. "What do you mean no? Does he look like a fucking bear to you?" I yell loudly at him.

Mindlink.. I need to tell someone, my dad... shit my dad, he's going to be so disappointed in me when he finds out what I did to this boy, to a human.

"Kane, if anyone finds out you can kiss your Alpha title goodbye, we need to kill him, he's already seen too much." He explains, bending down beside me. 

"It's okay human, this won't hurt a bit." He says softly, raising his hand to put on the boy's forehead.

I stop him before he could touch the boy, grabbing hold of his arm roughly and moving it away. "STOP IT! What is wrong with you? You are not harming him, he's alive!" I snarl out, standing protectively over the boy with my canines showing.

Was he about to burn him alive? Surely not... he's still alive.

Theodin looks down at me disappointed. "Kane." He breathes out and stands back up. "He's seen us, if we don't kill him, someone in the pack will, technically.. you bit him, the pack is already afraid of you, and now you're a killer." He says amused, hinting to the boy, listening to us as we argue with tears staining his face. The words make my heartbeat speed up as I ponder what he just said.

Killer...

"It's only a filthy human, it's his fault for entering private property, don't humans read signs? This is his fault." He says smugly and I feel like I can't breathe.

Theodin knew he knew it wasn't a bear, he played a trick on me, that's why he is so calm right now, he was messing with me, he's acting like we are playing a children's game but this is real life and this is not funny to me.

"You used magic on me." I say lowly, not missing how his face turns stoic, without emotion. "Why?"

"WHY THEODIN?!" I snarl loudly, my wolf coming to the surface, making the trees around me shake and the floor to rumble as I breathe heavily, trying to control myself.

He chuckles. "Think of all we could do together Kane, this is just a taste of our power, when we get older we will be the most powerful duo in this world and the six realms in our world, you can take over the throne, w-we can both rule together, like...brothers." He says dreamily, coming closer to me with his hand raised out to touch me.

I push him away from me, disgusted by his words. "You've lost your mind Theodin!, you used me for what? Show and fucking tell? I would never use this power to harm willingly!" I shout out, feeling my wolf come to the surface once again, it wants to kill him at this moment.

The human boy starts coughing up blood making both our eyes snap down to him, I kneel in front of him and try to stop the bleeding on his side by applying pressure to the wound, but it's not enough, the blood keeps flowing out of him and the boy is losing his color.

"Shit, fuck, fuck you Theodin!" I shout out, applying more pressure to the wound.

The boy's eyes begin to close then open, he's lost too much blood, he's... dying."Come on! Don't- keep your eyes open!" I tell him, my voice breaking. "S-Shit!" I feel a tear roll down my cheek.

Then..... nothing.

I don't hear his weak heartbeat anymore, it's just... gone.

He's gone.

My hands... are covered in his blood, the blood of an innocent, I've killed someone who didn't deserve it, someone who has family, he could've had a mate, a girlfriend... he had his whole life ahead of him and I took it away from him, I killed his future, all because I didn't see.

I didn't see what Theodin was trying to do, I didn't notice what he was capable it, I let it go... because I was lonely.. I trusted him and he used me, and now an innocent is dead.

I hear the echoes of voices talking around me but all I can see is the empty nothingness in the eyes of the boy laid in front of me, the wound on his stomach and the blood on my hands, there's so much blood, I'm covered in the stench of it, I can't feel or think, I'm numb...

I'm... a monster.

That was the last time I saw Theodin, I had rejected his insane ideas and I had refused to look or even speak to him, what he made me do... it destroyed every shred of thought I had of him, he was nothing to me, he was nothing but a manipulative dark sorcerer.

I didn't see him leave the pack and no one had heard anything from him as he left.

I told my father what had happened the same day, what Theodin did, and what I had done to the human.

It was the first time I had ever seen my father look at me with disappointment in his eyes, yet he did not say anything to me, he just wrapped his arms around me and hugged me as I let the tears fall from my eyes, ashamed of what I had done

I didn't want to be a monster, but he made me into one.

Since that day... I have never been the same, I don't think I will ever be the same ever again. Trusting those around me can be hard, and I don't let anyone get close to me- I couldn't let something like that happen again, so I distanced myself from the pack, from everyone, even my family.

Until I met a wolf my age, my father had brought him home, he had lost his parents the same way I had killed that boy. A part of me wanted to ignore this boy- Lucas, because I didn't want him to know what I had done, he would follow me around like a puppy, saying how amazing I was at everything I had done.

It pissed me off.

It made me sick until he told me the story of his parents. That night I told him, the first person besides my parents about what I had done that day in the forest with Theodin. There was no judgement or disappointment in his eyes.

It was like he knew something I didn't, almost like he could see right through me.

He became my best friend and Beta, he was the only one I could trust.

I learned from Theodin that just because someone relates to you and keeps you company, it doesn't mean they have their best interests for you, they are the ones that will stab you in the back and betray you at the end of the day.

Theodin needed to be stopped... and if he is dead, good. Because the evil people like Theodin didn't belong in this world, I swore to myself that day I would never harm another that didn't deserve it, like that boy who died choking on his own blood.

I would protect my pack from such evil, even if it meant my soul would become darker than night. I needed to redeem myself, to have a chance... a chance at a life worth living, in hope that I can still be blessed with a mate and a happy ever after.