I never thought it would end like this, I always thought I would go with my mate, like my parents and their parents before them, gone together in each other's arms.

I can't move anymore, I'm bleeding out and I can't move any of my legs or arms, I stopped feeling my legs a while ago, I don't know when but I can no longer move them.

That's not the worst of it,

I have a large pipe in my chest that has gone straight through my chest and it's pinning me into the ground, but it's the only thing keeping me alive right now, with not being able to regenerate, I'm a ticking time bomb until someone finds me.

Sora... my beautiful mate, how I long to see her face right now, just one last time before I go, just to touch her and tell her how much I love her, and thank her for a life I once dreamed of, she's made me the happiest wolf in this world and the next, being with her had made my life worth something.

Life with her was beautiful, I was happy, I am happy, happiest I have ever been was the day I found her.

It felt like yesterday that I first laid eyes upon her, like a deer caught in headlights, she was such a shy human back then, stuttering and avoiding my gaze like a small weak creature.

How wrong I had been back then, humans weren't weak, and neither was Sora.

I cough out blood as the building around me shakes, coughing the rumbling above me to shake the ground as I try and spit the remaining blood from my mouth onto the rocks beside me.

I'm too weak to mindlink anyone and I'm struggling to breathe, if no one finds me soon, I fear I might never get out of here alive.

Theodin died a few minutes after being buried alive with me, my wings could only protect him and myself for so long before the crushing of the building had pinned us down, resulting in him being crushed to death from the rubble.

I count myself lucky, even with a giant hole in my stomach, I'm lucky to still be breathing as I managed to roll myself away from Theodin as the rocks dropped on us, I'm in a safe space right now but for how long I don't know.

I don't know how long I've been down here, I have drifted in and out of consciousness a few times now, the ground is wet with my blood and I don't know how long I can keep this up, but I have to try, I don't want to die here, not here and not now.

Did Lucas and the team make it out alive before it all came down? Or did I get more of my family killed? My mind is racing with so many thoughts that it hurts more than the hole in my stomach, draining me of life every second that passes, the thought of anyone else dying because of me makes my soul feel like it's being crushed until it turns to dust.

Shit.

There's still so much I never got to say, to do with my mate, with being retired there's so much I still promised to do with her, things to see, a world full of promise for us to explore together, it was all we talked about while I was King, it was talk back then but I want to make it happen, I want to see her face light up and hear her voice, her laughter and beautiful long hair swaying in the wind as she looks at me with love in her eyes for the rest of my life.

Fucking Theodin.

He got what he wanted in the end, and what did I do? I couldn't get justice for Larson, for Emma, for the child that is left behind without parents, all because of me. 

Theodin did this all just to get to me, to shake me so hard that not even I could take revenge for their deaths, but he knew I would come here, he knew I would kill him, he was counting on it, he hasn't changed and neither have I, we are two different people but some things never change.

He planned to blow the building, even with him inside, he would die just to take me with him, to get his revenge for the rejection of her mate, blaming me for her death had driven him over the edge of no return.

I do not even know if this she-wolf had accepted the bond, but I know he did, all Theodin wanted was something or someone to cling onto, even if the feelings weren't reciprocated, he was always relentless in getting what he wanted, even if he got hurt in the process.

I'd laugh if I could, but it hurts too much to even move anymore.

I can no longer hear my own breathing and smell anything, the only thing I can do is taste my own blood on my tongue, it's bitter and makes my throat sore every time I try to spit it out so I don't choke on my own blood.

I see the building shift above me but don't hear it, I know now that my hearing is shot and my chances of survival are next to nothing.

Sora, fuck baby, I don't want to go like this, I'm sorry, I'm so fucking sorry.

I shouldn't be here, I should be with her, with my family.

I deserve this, it has to be my punishment, everything fucked up thing I have done in my life, the past has finally caught up with me and Theodin was just my grim reaper to deliver my punishment, he had to be.

I knew it was too good to be true to live a long happy life without paying for the things I have done, the lives I have taken and destroyed, but most of all for the things I didn't do. 

I wish I did more, tried harder to control myself, to be a better man for my mate, I was young and stupid and wanted to be strong, even if it meant I got a black stain on my soul, I didn't want to be known as weak.

I don't want to die, I don't want to die alone, id gives anything just to see her one last time, to see my family one last time.

I should be used to death, but it never brought me enjoyment, it only numbed whatever I was feeling and couldn't control, the beast inside of me fights hard to keep me alive but I can no longer hear it or Dex, they've left me now.

It's time, I can't keep this up anymore, it hurts, everything hurts, in reality, I couldn't even save myself, never mind those closest to me, they deserved better than me, everywhere I go death follows, people die and I live.

I deserve this, you deserve this Kane.

The thoughts comfort me, with the image of my mate's arms around me, at least I have some comfort in my final moments, if she's here with me, I can go peacefully and only hope for forgiveness for the chaos I cause.

Closing my eyes I feel at ease as a bright light covers me in warmth, blocking all the pain I'm feeling from being stuck down here, from being away from my mate, from everything I regret, all the pain that is suffocating me is drifting away.

I fight my hardest but everything goes black the moment I open my eyes, and then nothing, I'm drifting and I can no longer taste my blood in my mouth, I can't taste, feel, hear or see anything anymore.

I'm hollow, hot nor cold, here nor there.

...I'm just... gone...