Maybe it's better the cup stays empty

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In the cold icy corners of
repetitive breakdowns

I sat; another night, same thoughts
clouding up my foggy mind -

Why did you leave?

I think I knew, partially,
the monster inside of me still keeps brewing,

tugging at my heartstrings,
threatening to spill another time, another day.

But maybe, this once,
I'm not so afraid.

You see, if the monster's unleashed
you start showing your bad side first,

and its easier;
easier to let go when they hate you,

than when they start escaping
reality with your fragile heart.

Its easier to let go,
when the seed hasn't been sown,

when things appear normal still,
and not bright or frilly or fair,

and you still smile;
only when necessary.

Thank you for reading.
Take care.
Love, Hacs