Snowflakes were falling down when I ran out of the university. It was the time before Christmas and I was done with my first two month of my English and Philosophy studies. University was really fun and I met a lot of new people and had not much time to get bored. But on the other hand the tuition fees were high and my savings wouldn't last any longer and so I was searching for a part time job and actually got a job in a café near my campus. Today would be my first day at work and I was really excited to find out how work would be for me in the next few months. I jumped onto my bike and rode over to my new workplace that was around ten to fifteen minutes away from the campus and parked my trusty bicycle in front of the coffee shop and entered it. "Hi, you must be Sidney." I nodded my head at the blonde woman that was standing right behind the counter. "Great. I'll call for a co-worker of yours and he'll show you everything. You're getting paid minimum wage and the tips are mine, alright?" What a charmless woman. "Alright mam." She did not even look up from her Instagram feed while talking to me. Hopefully my co-worker will be less frosty. Or else this will not go well. My boss took out a brush to straighten her lightly bleached hair and put on a new layer of lipstick before calling for my co-worker. "Wonho? Would you please come over and say hi to our new employee?" What was that? Does she have a split personality? I did have no time to think about that because a few seconds later a man came out of the kitchen. His hair was chestnut brown and parted in the middle. He was tall and had a sweet smile on his face while he was wiping his hands on the black apron that was wrapped around his waist. He walked straight into my direction and we shook hands. "Welcome! Finally I'm getting some help! I'm Wonho but... don't we know each other already? Your face seems somehow familiar to me..." "Wait. English Miss Warren?" "And Philosophy Mister Thompson?" We both started laughing. "Well, looks like we will be a good team. Come with me, I'll show you the kitchen." He chuckled and dragged me into the kitchen while I could literally feel my bosses' deadly gaze in my back.

"Do you understand what Epikur wants from us? I do not understand this whole 'empty opinion' thing." "Really? I mean it is quite logical. He tells us not to believe in faith or stuff like that. There are no gods that control us and we have to deal with our own lives." "I do get that but... our own death doesn't concern us?" I sat in the cafeteria with Wonho. 2 months ago I started to work with him and we were connected to each other from the first second on. We became friends really quickly and my boss, her name was Natasha by the way, didn't like that too much. I sighed. "Listen. If you die you do not feel anything. Cause you're dead. So being afraid of the death is being stupid, yes?" "Yes..." "But if you would die I would be hurt. But that wouldn't be your problem. So..." "Yeah but that would scare me. I do not want to hurt you and my dead would hurt you and that's a reason to be afraid of death, isn't it." "Aaaah. You're too much for me. I'm trying to teach you about Epikur but you're depending too much on your own feelings!" "I do understand what Epikur means. But I do not agree." My head hit the table and I let out a sigh of stress. "I don't know how we will survive the exams next week." "I do not know how we will survive work in 2 hours." I looked up. "I thought you like our job." "Of course but... I never realized it but she's really treating us differently." I looked down onto the table. She doesn't just treat us differently, she lost her mind. She hated me from the first day. "I think it is because she loves you." Wonho spilled his coke. "Why the hell... how can you say something like that?" I laughed ironically. "Maybe you like her too. I don't know." "I could never like a girl that treats you like that and it is shocking for me to hear that you're thinking that I could like her potentially." Wonho grabbed his stuff and walked away without looking back. My heart kinda dropped onto the ground and stopped working. He wouldn't like me to run after him now. He needs time on his own. I know that I should not have said this but I was just too jealous. Wonho always got the nice tasks. He could bake and decorate cakes and talk to the customers while I had to clean the dishes and scrub the toilet. That I wasn't allowed to keep my tips was totally unnecessary to mention because I literally never got the opportunity to actually get to serve customers. Every time I was done doing some shitty task Natasha found another stupid one. She literally stalked Wonho. Every time he tried to talk to me at work she ran over to us and separated us. Honestly that wasn't bearable enough. I didn't care that I had to do all the scutwork but I did care that she was constantly taking Wonho away from me. I sighed and got up. One hour Philosophy lecture without having Wonho sitting next to me. How was I supposed to survive this? Resume: The lecture was deadly boring and I couldn't see my friend anywhere. I think he even skipped that class. We talked one hour about Erich Fromm's book "The art of loving" and that made me think about him even more. I wasn't able think clearly anymore and left the lecture fifteen minutes earlier and decided to drive to work directly after that. Maybe Wonho wasn't there yet. But he was. Standing in the corner chit chatting with Natasha. I was still not emotionally stable and just ran into the changing room right away to put on my work clothes when I heard the door opening. It was my best friend Natasha. "Aww. Did the cute Sidney get in a fight with her crush? What a pity!" "What the hell do you want from me?" "Nothing my dear. The only reason because I haven't fired you yet is that Wonho wouldn't be really happy about that. But as soon as he's mine you can go and fuck yourself. I thought that you would go if I'd just give you some dirty jobs but you did literally not care. I can't tell you how frustrating that was... But now you're destroying your boundaries with him on your own! That's so nice of you! It can only be a matter of time till he's going to be my boyfriend and they you have to admit that you lost. But till then: have a nice day." She happily waved her hand at me and left the room. I stand there with my jaw dropped wide open and let myself fall down on my knees. The only person that could hear me crying in there was Natasha and I literally wasn't able to care about that at this point. I just kneeled down on the floor and covered my face with both of my hands and bawled my eyes out of my head for several minutes until I heard someone energetically banging onto the door. "I do not pay you for crying. Get the fuck out of this cabin and go wash the dishes. Automatically I stood up, opened the door and walked over to the sink to clean plate by plate for hours without doing anything else but staring at the dish water that was getting dirtier and dirtier.

"Gosh. Today there are so many customers. They ate all the red velvet cake and now I have to make a new one while there are still waiting guests outside... could you please help me?" I turned around to Wonho and nodded my head. He dropped a carton of eggs but didn't even look at the mess he just made. He just looked at the mess in front of him. "Si-Sidney? What happened to you?" I shook my head without saying anything and kneeled down to pick up the egg shells when Natasha came to destroy me once again. "Sidney! Be more careful with the eggs! I'll take the price of them and deduct it from your salaries." "Natasha it wasn't her. It was me." "There is no reason for you to protect her Wonho. That makes you a beautiful human but I can't tolerate her sabotaging my whole café." Natasha left before Wonho could even take another breath of air and I let myself fall to the side on the floor and started to whine. Wonho kneeled down in the egg shells and tried to make me stand up but he failed. "What did happen to you?" "I can't do that anymore." "What can you not do anymore?" "This job." "Why all of a sudden?" "Natasha is trying to take the only thing I love away from me." "And that is?" I stood up. My legs and upper body were covered in raw eggs and shells but I didn't care anymore. "You."

"What will you do after you have finally graduated?" "I don't know. I really don' know." "Oh! Look over! There is the boy you always hung out in your freshman year." "That's impossible. Don't play with my feelings that is a no go. That is not funny. Stop." After I proposed to Wonho I quit my job and he quit college. I talked to him a few times after that as we met in the city but we never talked about the thing that happened that one day on the ground of the kitchen. I did never get over him. After 3 year I still thought about him every day and I wasn't able to carry on living the way I did before I met him. Everything would remember me of him and the wounds that he left without knowing never healed. Natasha had to close her café after Wonho quit work one month after me. The last time I met Wonho was two years ago at a café. He told me that he was doing pretty fine and that I shouldn't worry about him. He told me that we would see each other again in the future and that he would be there for me when I would need him. He also told me he would come back if he would be worth it. Worth what? I needed him but he wasn't there the last 2 years. So he wouldn't be there now. "Sidney?" Under one thousands of voices I could have still find out his. It was him. No doubt. I turned around and there he was. It was like he never left me. All the feelings came up again and he smiled at me with flushed cheeks. "Congrats on your graduation babe. I can't tell you how proud I am." "Where have you been?" "Improving." "For what?" "For you." "I needed you and you weren't there." He looked down onto the ground. "Can I just take you somewhere for a moment? I have a present for you." I just nodded my head and followed him. I followed him through the whole city to where Natasha's café was. "I have a key. Do you want to go in?" I shrugged my shoulders. "Okay, then come in please." Everything was still the same like two years ago. He dragged me to the kitchen were a carton full of eggs was standing. He walked up to the place he was standing 2 years ago. He dropped the eggs. "Don't do this to me. Not again." "Say it again. Please." "What? 'You'?" He nodded his head and I started yelling and crying. "You want me to tell me that I love you? You leave me for two years and then come backing wanting to hear that I love you? I'll tell you something! The last two years without you I was going through hell. I didn't know if you were alive, I didn't know what you're doing the entire time. Every fucking day I had to think about you. Every fucking day the wounds broke off again and I felt how much I still missed you." "Say it. Please." "I love you. I loved you always and I still do. And I hate myself for that. You're a horrible person Wonho. Making me say all these things right now..." "That's why I'm back. Because I was a horrible person. I made you wait three years. I quit college because I couldn't face you anymore. I never had the confidence to tell you how I felt. That's why I had to go. I do not know if you still want me but..." I stopped crying for a moment. "Can you come over and kiss me? Can you tell me that everything will be fine from now on? Can you promise me that you'll never leave me again?" "I can and I will." Wonho kissed me and everything was over. My anger was gone. My sadness was gone. My disbelief was gone. I fell too deeply in love with this man. I had full trust in him because I know that it wouldn't matter if he'd break his promises. He broke me three years ago but he also was my super glue. He made me whole again but if you repair a glass after it is broken you can only do it once. Otherwise it wouldn't stick together anymore. And I knew that that was the last chance for me to become happy.

"Sidney! I told you not to carry these heavy boxes! Give them to me!" "Babe, I'm pregnant, not disabled!" Wonho ran over to me to take the box away from me. I sighed and sat down on a chair in our café. Wonho bought this place. Natasha's café was now our café. It was a place for people to come together and talk about everything cause he and I knew that talking to each other is really important and that we would have been both happier in the past if we would have done that. But it wasn't only a place to talk, no. We had a lot of shelves with books to read for people to think about life and to do things better in life than we did. "Oh, look. Erich Fromm: The art of loving. What a nice book..." "We talked about this book in university but you quit that lecture. After that lecture I decided to tell you the truth." Wonho put the book onto the shelf again. "Are you still happy that I came back to you?" "Wonho... I married you two years ago and I'm having your child. You are my sun and my moon but..." "What is it?" "In our next life you will have to be there earlier, yes?" Wonho kneeled down and kissed my pregnant belly. "I promise."