The bullet hit the steel door and came back into Jongups direction. I kicked his feet away and he fell down while the bullet hit the wall behind him where his chest was a few seconds before. "We can't win that fight today! We have to go now!" I hid behind a pillar and took a deep breath. "What's wrong with you guys? Are you already giving up?" I looked back and saw Daehyun clenching his teeth while holding his leg when something hit me from the side. "We have to leave Sidney. This doesn't make sense anymore. I ordered Zelo to leave with Youngjae and Yongguk. Jongup is giving us backing. We need to get Daehyun out of this mess." I followed my boyfriend and helped Daehyun to stand up. "Leave me behind guys, you won't escape them if..." "No man is left behind." "Hey!" "I wouldn't leave you behind in a thousand years, you know that." Jongup seemed to struggle a lot behind us. "Can you guys escape a bit faster? I'd like to keep my life." The fight went from the Penthouse to the rooftop and there was only one way to escape. "Don't look down Sidney." "Himchan, I'm afraid of heights. I won't do that. Bring Daehyun down safely. I'll give you backing with Jongup." I jumped off the edge of the roof where Zelo, who was an excellent climber, placed a rope to bring all of us down and tried to jump back to Jongup when Himchan pulled me back. "I told you multiple times that I hate it when you come with us. This is just too dangerous." "One day all of you will die in such a miserably planned shooting. And then I would be standing there without you? No. I will take every opportunity to save your criminal ass." It was a hasty kiss. Something about it felt like a goodbye. I didn't have the time to think about it. "Jongup! Get Down!" The bullet grazed his arm. "Fuck!" So it was only me who was able to defend our gang any longer. "Jongup. You have to go now." "No! You go first!" "You can't pull the trigger with an arm injured like that. Go or we will all die. Do it for the group." I jumped in front of him and fired back a few times. I heard him climbing down, his shoes were scratching on the sand colored façade. I had about 3 bullets left. To the 5 men that chased us came the sixth. He was tall and his grey hair was shining like silver in the moonlight. The 3 last bullets didn't hit him. They just flew through the air, not making any noise. I knew it was over. The men put their guns away and walked slowly towards me. I went down on my knees and started bawling. I didn't hear anything but myself bawling loudly. I was just screaming into my own ears with no one else to hear me. At least I was able to save them. At least I was able to save him. Before the wooden handle of the rifle hit the back of my head I heard a loud animal-like scream. He must have noticed that I wasn't on my way down. He must have noticed that he kissed me goodbye. He must have noticed that I gave my life for his. And I would totally do it again. Goodbye my love. Goodbye Kim Himchan.

"Wake up pretty." I opened my eyes and instantly had a terrible squeak in my ear. The light in the room was bright and I wasn't able to see anything at first until a friendly smiling face popped up. The face seemed similar but I couldn't sort it in. Something was wrong but I couldn't tell what it was. "Wh-where am I?" I tried to move but noticed that my arms were tied to the table I was lying on. I started to panic. "Why am I tied to this table? Who are you?" "Shhh!" The man scurried around the table and unlocked the cuffs that tied me down. "Am I allowed to help you sit up?" I nodded my head in confusion and the grey haired man gently helped me to sit on the edge of the table. "Wait, I'll bring you some water and something against the headache Sidney." "Why do you know my name? Who are you?" "Shhh! Just take a moment. Drink something and relax. You'll get your memory back soon..." I lost my memory? That's not.... Inside of me there was nothing. No single clue from where I came and what I had been doing. All I knew was that my name was Sidney and that I was 23 years old. "What is wrong with me? What happened? Who are you?" The man with the grey hair came back with a glass of water and some meds. "Take them." I swallowed the pills and drank the glass of water. The man grabbed my hand and started to caress it with soft strokes. "It's worse than I thought... I should have looked after you but..." "What is happening here? What has happened?" "We were outside. On this beautiful lake. You know... the lake where I proposed to you half a year ago..." He tapped with his long fingers onto the small diamond I was wearing on my ring finger. "You were so stressed about the wedding and when you heard that you're pregnant... you were so stressed out. I thought we should spend some time alone... but when I was collecting wood for the campfire you wanted to follow me and... you tripped and fell onto this rock. With your neck. It was a terrible noise. I dropped everything to get to you but you were already unconscious..." The eyes of the man I didn't know where filled with tears. "You stopped breathing for a solid minute. I gave you a heart massage and mouth-to-mouth respiration and you finally started breathing again... you were in a coma for 3 weeks... You may have lost your memory but I can tell you everything again. It's not too late..." Tears where dripping down his face and I felt the urge to hug this man. I kneeled on the metal table and wrapped my arms around his chest. So I was pregnant from my fiancé and had an accident. That sounds plausible. At least I wanted it to sound plausible... "You-you are Namjoon, right?" He startled. "You remember me?" "I-I think so?" He turned around, picked me up and started to carry me around. "I'm so glad you're beginning to remember me..." His soft puffy lips on my cheek felt cold but somehow they warmed me. I clutched at every straw that I could get. But he was the only straw.

"I still remember how we first met. It was a stormy Friday evening and I was about to close the doctor's office when you came running towards me and waving both hands. 'Mr. Kim, Mr. Kim I think I broke my leg!'" "How was I running when I thought that I broke my leg?" "You were jumping on one leg. That actually looked quite funny... So I turned the lights on again and looked after your leg. I was incredibly tired, but you seemed to be really in pain and... actually I just let you in because you were looking hella fine." I hit his arms softly. "Namjoon! You can't say things like that!" "Your leg was really bad sprained but not so bad that you would have had to visit me every other day to change bandages. But I called you in every other day because that was the only way to see you as often as possible at that time... But when your leg was all good again I just had to ask you out and now... look at us. We're about to get married and our first child is on its way!" I smiled and Namjoon laid his arm around me. "I have to leave you soon. You know... I work at the hospital tonight and stuff and pff. Please make sure that you take your meds, yes?" "Why do I still have to take so many pills? The accident was about a month ago and..." "Who's the doctor? Me or you? You have to take a lot of vitamins and stuff. Please just do it, okay?" I nodded my head and swallowed the pile of meds on my bedside table. "See you hun!" He was about to leave. "Namjoon?" "Yes, my love?" "Why do you never kiss me?" "You don't like that a lot." "What...? I mean you're my fiancé, of course I'd like to kiss you!" "You didn't like it a lot before the accident and so..." "Kiss your future wife goodnight Joonie. Please." Namjoon gave me a sweet smile and sat down on the bed next to me. His lips felt cold on mine. But they were soft and... and I felt something coming up from deep inside of me. The feeling of missing someone. I pulled Namjoon closer and deepened the kiss, but the feeling just became stronger. "I already miss you babe... See you later." He softly caressed my hair and locked the door behind him. At that point I began to realize that something is going terribly wrong.

I was right. Every time I kissed him it gave me such a weird feeling of missing someone. I had trust issues. And I felt like someone was watching me the entire time. I was getting more and more anxiety attacks and Namjoon was giving me more and more meds. Until I decided to stop taking them. I always pretended to swallow them but kept them under my tongue till he looked away and pat them out and flushed them down the toilet. It was 2 weeks ago when I took the last pill. Namjoon couldn't be my fiancé. I was quite sure about that now. His stories didn't match at all and he was getting more and more nervous. I was getting flash backs. Especially flash backs about fights and... there was this one man. He looked like an angel in my head. His hair was black and his face proportionate and... It gave me feelings. It was that one lonely night when Namjoon was 'at work in the hospital' when I was lying on the bed that wasn't mine and tried to get my memory back. In my dreams always were these 3 men and fight and even more sides. But there was friendship and love too and... something knocked against the window. I startled. I lived in a penthouse with Namjoon. Maybe a bird...? It knocked again. I jumped off the bed and pulled the curtains aside. The man had lavender pink hair and a silver nose piercing. He was trying to open up the window with a long knife. I looked at him. He wasn't looking at me. But when he looked up he almost fell down. I opened the window and grabbed his hand. He wasn't able to speak. He just grabbed my hand and jumped into the room. He grabbed my head with both of his hands and I looked up to him. "Z-Zelo? You are Zelo, right? I saw you in my dreams..." The tall man in front of me started loud sobbing and pulled me into a really tight hug. "We thought you were dead. We thought he killed you. Himchan hasn't slept in the last weeks. He was just searching for a way to take revenge on you and... we all missed you so much and now you're alive and everything will be okay again... I missed you so much." I started to sob. "I don't remember anything, I lost my entire memory and I don't know what's right or wrong anymore... But I dreamed of you and the other 5 guys and... take me with you!" "They watch the entrance and everything... it's not that easy. We can't make any more mistakes..." I felt a soft kick in my stomach and stopped crying. "Since when am I missing?" "7 weeks." "The man with the black hair... the handsome man with the soothing voice... I don't know his name but... What is our relationship? Is he Himchan?" "Yes, yes, god, yes! You guys are going with each other for years now... what the fuck did they give you?" "They?" "My god, what a mess..." I shook my head. "I'm pregnant. In the third month. I haven't had sex with the guy who told me that he's my fiancé." "Oh my god... You told us that your period is late and actually you and Himchan wanted to get a pregnancy test when this shit happened.... Ahhh." "We got a phone call. And then we... we were in a fight. And the man with the blue hair... Jongup. I saved him from getting shot but the man with the mole... Daehyun! Yes! A bullet hit his leg and..." Zelo looked at me with his eyes wide open. "Zelo? Can you kiss me?" "What?" "Just to help my brain." He just started at me but I grabbed his collar and pulled him down. His lips felt warm and soft and full of live. His taste seemed familiar. "You drank that cheap grape juice. I once bought the expensive one for you but you wanted the cheap one. You said that it reminds you of the day we met each other in middle school. The day we went to the theater and watched that gangster movie." "That was the day I introduced you to Himchan, too. I still remember how shiny your eyes where when he asked you for your name and..." "I remember that too. And I just feel disgusting because I forgot all about these things." Zelo grabbed my head. "Listen. I'll go now and inform the others. We will be back as soon as possible. We need time to arrange everything. But we will come back. I promise you. Take your time and try to get your whole memory back. I have to go now... or climb to be exact. Is there something I should deliver to Himchan? A message?" "Just tell him that his two loved ones can't wait to see him again." Zelo hugged me tightly. "Everything will be okay again. It's not your fault." He jumped out of the window and walked down the façade. How long will he be gone?
I heard them fighting outside. I was sitting on the bed. I was nervous. I needed to escape this nightmare. Was that even real? How would I react to Himchan? Have I really gotten all of my memory back? The window shattered and a black dresses figure jumped into the room. I didn't hesitate for a second to jump off the bed and rip his mask down. I knew it. I felt it deep inside my heart. My hands were buried in his coal black hair and his arms were wrapped around me. "I couldn't believe him. I had to see it with my own eyes." "He gave me drugs and he told me stories and I lost my memory and I forgot about your existence and I feel so dirty and..." "And I will take you home now. You will take a hot shower. I will wash all that dirt away from you. By the end of the night you will lie down next to me in bed and there will be no one around you but me. You and me... you and me and our baby, yes?" He pressed my head onto his chest and made sure that I didn't see anything. I heard that the door got opened. I heard that Namjoon yelled at us, I didn't understand what he said. It became silent in the Penthouse. Himchan just shot him right into the head. I heard his corpse falling down. I heard Jongup clapping his hands. Himchan guided me outside, still pressing my head to his chest to keep me from looking at all the blood and disgustingness. On my way outside I tripped over a corpse. I tripped over his corpse. I couldn't hold it anymore and vomited all over Himchans sweater. "Ahhh... I'm so sorry...." "Hun, you're pregnant. I will deal with you puking around for the next six month. I don't mind at all." "Take me away from here..."

"Ahhh! Jackson! Don't be mean to your sister! Give her the book back!" "Should I look after them for a second?" "Oh please! Listen! Jackson, Momo: If you behave well now uncle Zelo will buy you some ice cream later, yes?" "Yaaaah!" I sighed and put the spoon with that I was stirring the noodle soup. "Jagiya?" "Yes?" Himchan ran into the kitchen and smiled at Zelo playing with the kids. "You asked for me?" "Can you please come and hug me?" Himchan came and picked me up to sit me onto the counter. "Aren't you feeling well today?" "You know... Joochan is making mommy struggle a lot these days..." "Oh and I'm sure she will do that in the future too..." Himchan caressed my pregnancy belly and kissed me softly. "I told you. In the end everything will be fine again."