"Please wake up Zayyan" Right now I am sitting beside Zayyan on the bed holding his hand while tears are flowing out of my eyes. It's been a total of 27 days, Zayyan is in coma.

That night when Zayyan got shot after shooting Farhan, it was hell on earth for me. It's all because of me. I should had died with my parents but i didn't, that bullet was supposed to be pierced my heart but it didn't. It's all because of me that Zayyan is like this. What a fool was i to start thinking that i am not unfortunate. Truth is i was, am and will always be unfortunate.

We are still in America and Zayyan isn't in the hospital as Baba Jani arranged everything at the mansion itself "Rest well and wake up quickly, I am going to offer 'Esha Prayer" I whispered in his ear lowly and placed a soft kiss on his cheek. This is my routine to kiss his cheek before leaving him. I refrain myself to cry while talking to him but my tears betray me every time.

I offered the Prayer, I recited some Surahs and blowed it on him. After that i started reciting 'Quran Pak' «The Holy Book» sitting beside him. After what felt like hours i closed the holy book, putting the Holy Book in the higher shelf i made my way out.

Mama Jaan and Hayfa were in kitchen preparing dinner as everyone likes to eat the food made by their wives. To think of it, I never made anything for Zayyan. I averted my eyes downward ashamed. I am not an ideal wife whereas he is perfect. Perfect son, perfect grandson, perfect brother, a double perfect husband.......Maybe i am not the one for him.

"Eda my dear, what happened"? Came Mama Jaan's sweet voice "Best friend come here"  Saying this Hayfa dragged me in the kitchen and made me sat on the stool of kitchen island.

"You are again overthinking right"? Hayfa asked as she sighed. I slowly shooked my head negatively. I am not thinking negatively, just reviewing the truth.

"Eda! Meri Jaan, please don't blame yourself, it's not your mistake. You know if Zain got to know about your self blaming then he is definitely going to be angry. Do you want him to be angry"? Mama asked stroking my hairs to the back. I shooked my head in No. She smiled instantly "That's like my Eda and don't overthink anything Eda, I am proud of my son and he is very strong. Just believe in Allah everything will be Okay"? I nodded my head "Why did you came downstairs"? Mama Jaan asked politely with a soft smile. How much they all smile, I know they are fighting their tears back.

"I wanted to help you guys" I replied softly "Not at all best friend. Go to your room and look after my aloof brother" Hayfa said teasingly pushing me outside "He isn't Aloof" I defended because he maybe seem arrogant and aloof but he is a very caring and a very kind hearted person.

"Ohhhhh! Getting defensive, are we"? Hayfa teased wriggling her eyebrows at me "Why are you getting jealous huh? She is not defending, her love is speaking up for him, right Eda"? Mama Jaan also teased. The word love strucked me hard. These 27 days were the reality check of my feelings for him. I am madly and deeply in love with him falling harder and harder with each passing second but i am scared, scared of loosing him. 

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The next morning i as usual woke up from the beautiful voice of 'fajr Azaan'. I did Wuzu and offered the fajr prayer. I recited some Surahs and 'Quran Pak' «The Holy Book» sitting beside Zayyan on the bed.

After placing a kiss on his cheek i went downstairs as everyone came to our room. This is their routine, after 'Fajrprayer' they all come to our room and sat beside him, talk to him. Doctor said that it helps alot for a Coma patient.

I prepared breakfast for everyone as Hayfa helped me preparing it. I made different flavours pancakes as Mama Jaan likes strawberry and Baba Jani likes chocolate. With that i made milkshakes as everyone's preferences. For elders I made tea and grilled chicken cheese sandwiches.

The house helpers setted the table and i went to our room calling them for the breakfast. Everyone left for the breakfast leaving me alone with Zayyan as i always have my breakfast in room while talking with Zayyan.

While having breakfast i talked about random things and finishing my breakfast i sighed when i saw no movement from his side. I miss his voice, his flirtatious talks, his loving soft gaze on me, his hugging me to sleep, I just miss him alot.

Nowadays i am a mess as i can't sleep properly because i keep my distance with him not to disturb his wound. Just as he liked to sleep while hugging me, i too seem to have this habit now. I can't sleep without his securing arms around me.

Just thinking all this, i realized i was crying again. Nowadays i am being a cry baby because there isn't a Zayyan to calm me down, to wipe my tears.
Holding his hands i pleaded "Please Zayyan, come back to me. See i am crying, you don't like me crying na then wake up and wipe my tears......Are you angry with me that I am not an ideal wife? Are you angry that I am not strong enough to protect you as you had protected me? Do you not want me Zayyan? If not then do know i want you more than everything. I want you to wake up and tell your kitten that don't blame herself, her Zayyan wouldn't like it............." My voice cracked at the end. "If you aren't waking up then i am leaving Zayyan. I know you don't want an unfortunate wife"

I was a crying mess right now. I clenched my eyes tightly and turned to leave. But before i would have taken a step forward, I felt like i heard a mere whisper and a firm grip on my middle finger "K-kitten"

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'Ya Allah! Tera shukr hai. Zayyan woke up. Alhamdulilah.

But I don't have enough courage to face him, I am standing beside the sofa as everyone had surrounded him. Baba Jani had called for a team of doctors for a through check up of Zayyan.

They are doing the treatment and asking him some questions. He is answering but his voice is very low and weak. I am feeling his intense gaze on me from time to time but not once i looked towards him.

After doctors clarified that he is all fine Alhumdulilah but just a little weak, everyone took a sigh of relief.
Doctors left and as everyone were leaving the room, my anxiety level was increasing higher and higher.

"My silly girl, I told you to believe in Allah and everything will be fine right? See everything is fine. Now don't you blame yourself ever again.......Now go my son is waiting for you in anticipation, you hadn't uttered a single word since he woke up" Mama told me before leaving the room and i smiled in return.

Closing the door i turned towards him just to see his eyes on me. I can't explain how had i waited for his one gaze from a total of 28 days. I headed towards the bed and sat beside him fiddling with my fingers.

"Kitten...." I closed my eyes as tears started to roll out of my eyes. "Kitten..." He called out as he hissed in pain and coughed a bit. I snapped my head towards him "What happened? Water...I will get you water" I stood up immediately panicking but he caught my hand pulling me down on the bed closer to him and instantly hissed in pain.

"Zayyan.....Are you Okay? Where are you having pain? I will ........"? I trailed off when i felt his warm finger against my lips. Quieting my rant down.

"Shhh! I am fine kitten. I don't want water, I want my Kitten's attention and need my wife to talk with me" His voice was low and very weak. I averted my eyes down as i nodded at him.

"Did you cried alot while i was in coma"? He asked as he softly lifted my face up and cleaned my teary cheeks. I shooked my head negatively "Did you blamed yourself for everything that happened"? I again shooked my head negatively. I know i am lying but who wants to be scolded on purpose "Did you missed me"? I nodded my head as I replied in a meek voice "Alot"

"Now finally my kitten truthfully replied" He said as a wide smile spread across his face. MashaAllah! Ya Allah Tera shukr hai.

"I wasn't lying before" I meekly lied again and a beautiful chuckle resounded in the room as his eyes were still locked with mine. A smile also made it's way to my face.

"I want to hug you kitten. Can you lay with me"? He asked innocently pushing my hair strands behind my ear softly "I can but you aren't well...it will be uncomfortable for you" I replied politely because his wound isn't healed properly yet. He got shot just above the heart for God sake.

"I will be fine, I promise if i will feel pain or something i will tell you but right now i need you in my arms" My breath got hitched in my throat. I nodded my head seeing him desperate.

I first made him lay comfortably then only i laid beside him and he softly engulfed me in a hug. As his lips made contact with my neck, a familiar feeling aroused in my heart. How i missed this feeling, how i missed him.

"You know I really missed you. Why did you not hugged me to sleep all these days i was in coma. You don't know how empty was i feeling not having you close" I furrowned at his words.

"How did you knew i didn't hugged you to sleep"? I asked my confusion "I was surely in coma but i could still hear everyone, everything. I could also feel the touch but don't know why how much i tried to move my body, it was stilled. First there was all darkness but slowly a light started to occur and in my conscious mind i tried and started to walk towards it. To you. You know your whispering in my ears helped me alot" He sighed and snuggled a little making himself comfortable.

"It was very difficult for you right"? I asked as my voice came out in an whisper "It was but you were there for me. My light.......Why were you blaming yourself kitten"?

"You remembered....." He looked upwards at me as he pulled me more closer to him. I gasped "Zayyan you are hurt...." His grip wasn't tight as he was still weak but was firm enough to make me still in his arms.

"I also remembered you saying that you will leave me alone if i will not wake up. Just get it straight Kitten, never in your worst dreams you can think about it. I surely want you but more than that i need you the most. I will never let you leave me. Never & ever" I was fighting the urge to smile but atlas couldn't and my lips curled up. Possessive Zayyan was back.

"I am serious kitten" he was looking damn cute in anger "if i had known that my these words will wake you up then i would've said it the very first day you slipped in the coma"

"Very funny.....And what was that not an ideal wife?" He arched his one eyebrow at me "I......." Words weren't forming "Just know you are the best wife and don't you ever shed a tear again. I don't like it, you knew it and yet you cried your heart out this whole 1 month" I innocently nodded my head like an obedient child.

"Now don't give me that look, Don't tempt me to kiss your inviting plumps" Smile wasn't leaving my face "than do it" I don't know from where this unknown confidence came from but i was too happy to hear his voice. I was overwhelmed. "Huh"? A whisper left his mouth and i chuckled.

"You don't need to ask for my consent ever again. You can kiss me" I said and he furrowned "You alright na kitten? You weren't in the coma, I was" I laughed out.

"You can kiss me but after you are purely and totally healed" I told him and a smirk got plastered on his face "What"? Thank God he can't hover over me as he wasn't pressuring his arms.

"I may seem weak right now but my lips are totally fine. Thank you for the consent Kitten" with that he slammed his lips against mine. I felt my heart stopped beating the second his lips met mine. My eyes were widened in shock but soon i relaxed under his feathery touch.

His lips were moving slowly against mine taking his pleasurable time to savour my lips. The kiss was slow yet it was getting steamy as he seemed desperate asking for more. My hands automatically made their way in his hairs ruffling and pulling him more closer.

After a minute what felt like hours i pulled myself away as he was still weak and needed rest. I was truly left breathless whereas he was scrunching his nose as a 5 year old whose candy is snatched away.

"Not fair kitten. You don't know for how long i have waited for this moment" His voice was coated in the dark filled river of desire. I smiled still breathing heavily.

"Yeah yeah smile at my helplessness" with that his lips also curled up. I want to tell him my feelings but not now. Insha'Allah very soon.

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