Eleven.
"Losing the person you love the most always will hurt."

― THE FIELD AND WINDMILL BOTH WERE OUT ON THE FARM AS HORSES WERE RUNNING FROM ALL OVER. But there was a man in a beard and janitor costume as he was looking at the horse asking the farmer, but was threatened with the cops being called as he talked about his past life and how bestoying on honor and wounds he had from battle, but couldn't remember much of his past. Until he saw a man in Stripes as he walked back on the main road and "Starman's squire"; stripsey. As a bus passed him by far. But on that bus was a man with a locket heading into Blue Valley.

He was walking through town heading to an address, to the Whitmore-Dugan house address. Kyra was busy doing her work while Courtney, Pat, and Barbara were talking downstairs and she felt bad for everything that happened as she hadn't heard from Maya, not even Skylar, or anyone else heard from her. When she heard the doorbell she heard Mike go and answer the door calling for her, "Hi, does Barbara Whitmore live here?" The man asked as the two siblings looked at him.

"Yes, she is currently busy...wait who are you showing up at six am in the morning asking about Barbara Whitmore?" Kyra asked the man with a tone as Mike stepped back, "Sam Kurtis, I'm Courtney's father. And I want to know where she is" The man said as Kyra gasped in her head, having a straight face as Mike looked at her as she knew Courtney would disagree but she had a gut feeling about this, "Come on in. I'll go get them." Mike said leaving Kyra upstairs to glare at Sam Kurtis who gave her a gut feeling that she hated and wanted to punch. She knew he wasn't here for anything good.

"So you live here?" The man asked Kyra looking at some photos of Courtney and Barbara along with some of Kyra and Pat when she was younger, "Barbara is my step-mother so yeah. My father is married to her." She said as Barbara came up the stairs as everyone followed them. After Pat talks to Barbara about leaving and taking Courtney, Mike, and Kyra with her out of town, even though Krya wouldn't do it since she has the passion of her parents, and has a grudge against the ISA.

Kyra studied the man knowing that something was off about his personality and how he came out of the Blue after she suspected him in Kyra's speciality way with not trusting too many strange people, because who knows if they could kill you? Anyone can kill anyone it's just a matter of time of studying them when you meet them that you can determine that.

― NOT TRUSTING THIS MAN I SEE BARBARA AND MY FATHER'S REACTION AS I STOOD THERE LOOKING AT HIM. Courtney's father didn't look like that great of a man due to him seeming more about himself than his own daughter as I didn't believe a word of his bullshit. I watched as my father approached him and introduced himself and then Sam introduced himself to my father as I knew Barbara felt uncomfortable due to how she was reacting in body language and just basic reading of Barbara since I moved in with her due to my father.

"This is my daughter Kyra Dugan." He said as I waved a bit and just stood against the wall still not trusting this guy as a great father, or wanting to be Courtney's father unlike my father who is there for Courtney and supports her even through being Stargirl. "Who are you?" My father asked Sam as I just glared at him as Barbara still doesn't move when I turn my head and look her way trying to brighten the situation but couldn't.

"Sam Kurtis. Courtney's father." He said as Pat didn't like the thought of him being Courtney's father as he had the same look as me before I noticed Courtney was behind me and I jumped, "Kyra." My father said as I nodded knowing I should head into the kitchen and wait. As I went to the kitchen I could see Mike, "So how is being a paperboy going?" I asked him as I sat across from him stealing one of his poptarts as he looked like he wanted to murder me; his poptarts are his life. "It's not too bad, other than having to outrun a pitbull down the street." Mike said as I looked at him with wide eyes.

I quickly saw Courtney head upstairs and I decided to follow her as I watched my father enter and then look at me. As I started hearing Courtney explain why the staff works for her, and I don't believe it as she is Stargirl with or without being Starman's daughter. Watching Courtney struggle with the fact that Starman might not be her father is hard for me to watch as I frown at the thought. "If I'm not Starman's daughter. What have I been doing this whole time?" She asked Pat as I looked at her and she then looked at me as she didn't understand and lost everything that made her...her. The belief within her.

"The staff. Putting on a costume. I got Henry killed. And Joey" She said as I shook my head. "You did not get Henry killed Courtney. It was his and Maya's father, it was never you. And Joey's death. Not me, you, or Pat, or hell...even Maya couldn't stop it." I told her as she shook her head not believing it. As my father agreed and Mike entered wondering and my father yelled at him to leave and I could see the pain in Mike and how he feels left out and he doesn't have time with our dad anymore. And he was confused about what was happening and we left him in the dark. How many times I wanted to tell Mike because he is my brother, but couldn't because of his safety.

Watching as Courtney left with her father felt wrong but I decided to go figure out something instead of staying in time I decided to find something else about my past as I headed to my room and dug out everything as Barbara watched me as I was waiting for school to start as we were going to remember Henry, but I didn't want to be the same Kyra as last night as before I headed downstairs I put on one of my wigs, as it matched the color of my father and brother's hair as I walked back downstairs and Barbara almost jumped at me as I changed into a black leather jacket and clothing.

"What is this?" Barbara asked as I sighed, "You said you wanted to know more and since Mike left I thought I should go through my past to see if I am missing anything. And to tell you the truth about my heritage and why and how I got mixed into this whole thing since my first life." I told her as I opened up my brown wooden box first that had a few photos including one with my parents, one of the nurses from all those years ago, my necklace given by my parents from this life, and an artifact from my first life.

"Pat took me in after my mother's death since my father died the night of the massacre of the JSA. Being five and since Pat was good friends with all the members he decided to look after me, and I became his daughter then and there and changed my name and story as he hid the documents of my real name. He took me in knowing that I would grow up most likely to follow my parent's footsteps since I lived multiple lives." I told her as she looked at me grabbing one of the photos, the one of my parents from back in the 1800s.

"So you're saying that you have lived multiple lives?" She asked as I nodded, "Yeah, that one was from the civil war. I fell in love, and we almost had a normal life or as normal as it could have got but I died before I could tell the nurse my feelings." I continued as she looked at me when I started seeing my past a bit more. "Kyra." She said as I looked at her, "Nobody could change it, being born 6,000 years ago and having multiple lives and being able to see them sometimes when I sleep and close my eyes without me being able to control them. Sometimes I feel weak due to them like I..." I said choking on my own words.

"You're stronger than what you look like Kyra. And even if you're not Pat's daughter, you're still our daughter even if we're not full blood related" She said as I hugged her smiling, "Thank you." I told her knowing I have found the family I never was able to have with my parents in all my life.

After time passed and I put everything back I put on my necklace, then I repositioned my wig and grabbed my bag for school and headed for the pit stop wearing my leather jacket, dark blue jeans, and a t-shirt with the sport of boxing. I also did grab my phone from the coffee table as I haven't heard a response from Skylar since I texted her a few minutes ago, and that is unusual for Skylar even after last night since we talked about it most of the night and how we would meet up at the Pit Shop before school, with Rick, Yolanda, and Beth. Yes, even Courtney was to be there with Maya too. But I highly doubt that Maya will be there.

Heading down a few streets I got some strange looks at me as I knew it was because of my appearance for today. Finally seeing the Pit shop relieved my gut since I hate the looks people gave me, jealousy and dirty looks. Once I stepped into the pit shop I saw the Janitor from the school there as he had a sword. "Who is that?" I asked as they looked at me and I saw Skylar turn to look at me along with my father as I didn't see Yolanda, or Maya.

― AFTER ARRIVING TO THE PIT SHOP WITH RICK I COULD SEE HIS REACTION. For gosh sakes the girl he likes won't even contact any of the other members, as Maya was somewhere and probably grieving. He was worried about her since none of us saw her after her disappearing in the tunnels, and nobody has heard from her or this mysterious Black fighter who went by Black Canary. They both were off the grid and gone. And Maya was just discovering her powers, and none of us are there for her, and I understand the pain she is going through. Because I have a brother, and if he died I would do the same I would grieve for days. But it has only been less than a day, and she can't go home unless she wants to encounter her father.

Beth was currently in the car that was in Pat's shop as she was sitting in the driver's seat as it was a beautiful car. And I smiled at her trying to be bright after what happened last night, "Hey." I told her to walk over to the car hugging her. I did look back and watch my brother take out our father's journal starting to work on it again while probably being worried about Maya.

"I know you worry about Maya, guys we can't control her right now and she just needs time to figure out everything. She did just lose her older twin brother, and learned the truth about her mother's death. Along with gaining her powers with her brother to lose him. But she is alive and we all know that." I told them as Beth even nodded, "Yeah, Maya will show up eventually even if she needs some time." Beth said as Skylar nodded at the friendly girl who was just enjoying her time, but mourning for the loss of a new friend, one who didn't deserve what happened to him.

Pat did arrive at the shop about twenty minutes later as I was meditating due to trying to have peace and focus and an empty mind for when I use the lantern ring to have complete focus. Until the car door slamming got me out of focus when I jumped. As he walked in and opened my eyes...Kyra wasn't in sight as I frowned knowing she must have been busy or was talking to Barbara. And it was sad also that Yolanda couldn't join us, but I understood her about going to church to pray for Henry after last night.

"Hey Mr.Dugan, cool car." Beth told him she was still sitting in the car as Rick looked at him and I turned my head to face him. "Pat." He said, "Look, I need to talk to the three of you, okay?" Pat said as I nodded standing up and then sitting beside Rick leaning on the table instead of being on the floor anymore. "Uh, where's Yolanda?" He asked as Beth got out of the car opening up the door. "She wanted to go to church before school. To pray for Henry" Beth stated as he looked at me, "Where's Maya?" He asked as I shrugged my shoulders.

"None of us have heard from her since yesterday at lunch. And she hasn't responded to my texts. But I'm sure she will show up sometime today." I told him trying to be hopeful in the dark tunnel the day after his death, we all barely knew him unlike Maya who spent her whole life with her twin except for the time she went to Star City. "I'm getting closer on this, Pat. I've read every dumb chemistry book in school and I.." Rick started as Pat interrupted him and I watched Pat have a proud yet I have to get to a point face, "Rick that's great and I'm sorry to interrupt you. I don't mean to..." Pat said as Beth questioned, "Where's Krya and Courtney?" She wondered.

"Her father's here." Pat stated, "Starman and Hawkman are here?" Beth wondered as he shook his head, "Alive?" Beth asked in shock. "Wait I thought Hawkman was dead too." I said as Rick then stated, "Then he can help." Rick said until we saw Pat get frustrated, "No, One Kyra's father is dead, and except Courtney's father isn't Starman, all right?" Pat said as I was shocked knowing it was written on my face because Courtney had hope and started this because of her thinking Starman was her father.

"Stripsey." I heard looking behind Pat to see our Janitor at our school; Justin. He had a sword in his hand as I was tempted to grab my ring out of my pocket. "Oh that's our janitor." Beth stated as I nodded standing next to Rick and Pat. "Yeah, but why does he have a sword?" I questioned as Rick put an arm in front of me as I glared at him and his protective older brother's behavior since I have the upper hand and have my ring with me unlike him who doesn't have the hourglass close to him at the moment. "My sister's right, Why the hell does he have a sword?" Rick said as I backed up a bit about to grab my ring out of my pocket before I got unfocused and looked back at the Janitor.

"I don't know." Pat said, putting his arms in front of all three of us, "Stipsey." He continued again looking at us all confused and the sword in front of him. "I...need your help." He said until he glared at us like he saw something, something that I believe is not good by his reaction. And how he looked at us like we were somebody else, someone not good by his reaction. "Dragon King." He said as I definitely knew it at that moment that he was not alright. As he tried to hit us with the sword swinging it as Pat put his hands in front of him.

"Whoa. Hang on a second. Just take it easy." Pat said as Justin continued swinging at us as I went fully back to the door of the car about to fall in, as Beth was right next to me backed fully in the car, as Rick looked like he wanted to hurt this guy if needed. "Woah...Woah..Woah. Bad Guy Bad Guy Bad Guy." Beth said as I nodded trying to dig my pockets for the ring. "Stay back." Pat told all three of us as I grabbed the ring as I saw Beth concerned for Pat, as everyone was. I put it on my finger and the lantern lit up as Pat signed me with his hands to stay back as I nodded preparing to say the words.

"It's okay." He told Janitor Justin as I started to think of the words in case something happened to Pat and I needed to stop the Janitor from hurting Beth or my brother from getting hit with the sword. "You will die, you monster!" Justin told Pat, as he still believed that Pat was Dragon King, and I could tell by his body language taught by Maya and Kyra, but also by the tone of his voice and what he said. But it leads me to wonder what happened to him, and how did he get to be like this. Rick stepped forward, "Wait." He told him as he continued, "I know him." Pat said, continuing what he was talking about.

"Justin is that you?" He asked the man who was confused as my brother once again called someone else a freak. He deserves an award for that, even though I know what our Uncle did to him, and how he is different towards me most of the time, but he needs to learn that calling people freaks doesn't make them change their thoughts. Or make them not want to stab you in the gut with a sword. "Yeah. He's no bad guy. Take it easy. Alright? Justin it's me." Pat continued as Beth and I said, "Be careful Mr.Dugan." We said at the same time, "All right? It's your old friend Pat Dugan. Stripsey Okay." Pat continued as Justin dropped his sword and fell on his knees as I felt bad for the man he looks so confused like he doesn't even know who he is personally.

"Who is that?" I heard as I turned my head and looked to see Kyra and I could tell she knew then that Yolanda, and Maya weren't here. "His name is Justin. He's the shining knight." I told her as Rick continued to look at the Seven Soldiers of Victory photo, as Pat only showed us it and told us about his name being Shining Knight so far. She did walk towards me standing on my right side as I was still looking at the photo.

"He's the shining Knight?" My brother asked as Justin was still continuing to look at his roughed up boots tying the laces of them. "The leader of the Seven Soldiers of Victory?" He asked, continuing to look at Justin with questions. "There's eight of you in the picture." Beth says leaning over to look at the photo. Before we could even hear anymore about this other team Pat went over and handed Justin the photo.

"Pat." My brother told him as I shook my head knowing where this was going to lead. "Are you sure about this? He almost killed you with that sword." Rick continued as I glared at him as Kyra looked interested in what Justin had to say. "Excalibur." Justin said as my brother didn't believe him as Justin moved to grab the sword, "Yeah right." He told us as I rolled my eyes at his answer. "That's Excalibur." Rick said in his most sarcastic and unbelievable tone to answer Justin.

"Yeah Justin, Remember where you got the sword, okay?" Pat told him as I looked at the shining metal of the sword and then the detail as it did look old. "Tell me the story, okay?" Pat continued as I looked at Justin and then turned back to see Kyra look at the sword and then start to study the features on the so called, "Excalibur." I did look at them as it did seem like an interesting story that Justin forgot who he was by the so called Dragon King who I luckily haven't faced....yet.

When I snapped out of my daze I could see my brother's disbelief in Justin's story about how he got the sword from King Arthur when he was on his deathbed. "He told me.. "Heroes can come from anywhere." Justin told us as I looked at him as he knighted Pat. "Wait, are you from the past?" Beth wondered while holding the photo in her hands as Kyra studied his features as she looked like she was thinking about something.

"From the time of knights and dragons." He told us as Krya looked at him, "Pat, do you seriously believe that?" Rick asked him as I glared over at him, "I believe it." I told them as he looked at me and I shrugged my shoulders. "Yeah I actually do." Pat told him also as he handed Rick the sword as Rick struggled holding it up all the way in front of him. He looked like a true knight for a moment, as I gripped on to the sword as Krya grabbed it from me.

Kyra for once looked at the sword as she could hold it and she swung it a bit and just glanced at it after swinging it. Looking at the reflective part I smiled at her as she looked back at me. "Your wielding excalibur?" I asked her as she shook her head. "Not truly, I'm not worthy. But I can just lift it up using my strength." She told me as I glanced at her then shaking my head. "You're just jealous that you and your human strength can't lift this up." Kyra said back to me as I shook my head once again until she put it down and Justin started to complain about something that would happen to us all from these people. The ISA most likely.

"Where am I?" Justin asked, "You're safe." Pat told Justin as Justin went unsteady again, "None of us are safe here." Justin continued to ramble as he seemed right. Until we continued and Justin started to explain about how Pat's armor is a fine suit of armor. As I could tell Rick still couldn't believe Justin at the moment.

Later on we had to return to school as lunch started but Courtney was late, as Kyra sat down next to me. But there was still no sign of Maya anywhere in the school, at all. She disappeared since the death of her brother. Which I would have done the same if Rick died since I couldn't live with just my uncle. My gosh! I barely even survive with him there. But she should have come...we all would be there for her. Hell! Even my brother would comfort her as he wants to due to me being able to see it in his eyes as he's scanning the lunchroom for her.

When Courtney did finally join us sitting down with a tray of lunch, she looked more sad, and more out of it than all of us. "I'm not Stargirl." Courtney told us as I knew everyone was feeling the same way. But hell yes! She is Stargirl...she will be Stargirl, because that's who she became...it's who she is now. She is our leader, and she is one of the most kind, and very charismatic people I have ever met. Other than Kyra who sometimes can annoy me...but I love her as a friend for that.

"Yes you are." Beth told her as I nodded, "No I not, Beth." Courtney continued as she shot down Courtney's idea. "My dad wasn't Starman. He was just some jerk." Courtney told us not even I was Scott Alan's daughter, I was hourman's but here I am fighting as Green Lantern. "I'm not Wildcat's daughter either, but I am now." Yolanda said as I spoke up. "And even I'm not Alan Scott's daughter, and here I am flying around as the Green Lantern." I told her as we all still looked at her. "This is different Yolanda, Skylar." She told both of us as I shook my head. "How?" Beth, Yolanda, and I asked her.

"I never met Dr.Mid-Nite but I'm the new one." Beth told her as I knew she wasn't listening to us at the moment. We all have been through enough already, but Kyra and Courtney have been through more before this team became a team. "Because the staff won't work for me anymore, Ok?" Courtney continued as I could see Kyra shake her head, and scoff. "Well why not?" Beth asks. "Because it knows I'm not Starman's daughter." Courtney says as I could still see Kyra's reaction. "Courtney, the staff is stupid then." Rick told her as that is one of the things I'm happy to have my brother on the team including now. Since he has opened up more for everyone. "No it...it's not. I used it when I wasn't meant to." Courtney continued as Kyra put in finally.

"You're being a big idiot right now Courtney. I might not know if the staff works. But hell it never worked for you because I thought you were Starman's daughter. I think from theory it chose you because it saw you fit for what it requires. You believed then...but you don't now. I know what it's like to feel like you're not something, but at the end of the day you have us. You have the team. But if you believe not being a hero's daughter doesn't make the staff work for you. Then you need to start believing in yourself. Because that staff again didn't choose you because you were Starman's daughter, but maybe because you had something it needed. And I won't let you end this because of you not being Starman's daughter." Kyra told her then getting up and leaving Courtney with her thoughts as I was tempted to follow Kyra, but I knew I would see her soon. But just seeing her relationship from when I met her with Courtney, to how it is now. I can say she has changed her thoughts on her sister. And I blanked out for the last bit of the conversation knowing that it was her continuing to talk about why she wasn't worthy of the staff.

Sitting down in the auditorium was hard seeing Henry Jr.'s Face knowing that none of us could have saved him. And hearing Mrs.Patterson speaking wasn't making it any better. But still none of us have seen a sign of Maya King since yesterday after she left school and decided to find more about herself then come with us. Which I get when you're trying to figure out your powers, since the ring and I had some time at night for me to adjust in the corn field...until I got a basic control for the Green Lantern power.

But when his father Henry King Sr. entered for a remembrance speech it was that I want to slap him across the face. He needs to be stopped for killing his son. And the Oh shit! Moment when he knows who Stargirl and Hawkgirl are and they're sitting next to us. As I'm next to Kyra at the moment as she grabs my hand. But Henry King's innocent act was just so.....so terrible as I just wanted to slap him at the moment. Or maybe even throw him down with my powers right here, and right now.

He acted like he was sad, and like he cared for a moment. When he literally slammed concrete and rubble on his son killing him. But then the next moment I could feel him in my head as I looked over to Kyra knowing he was speaking in hers too. "You all will pay for what you did to my son." He told me as I scoffed quietly to myself. "Go to hell, Dr.King." I said in my head knowing he might have heard me, as he wouldn't hurt me here and now. But I knew deep down he could get me later if I said something more or thought something more.

― WALKING IN THE AMERICAN DREAM BUILDING AFTER HEARING THE NEWS OF HENRY KING JR. WAS DIFFERENT BECAUSE OF HIS OWN FATHER MURDERING HIM. But I knew I had to continue my job as CEO and hold up the company to the public eye in ways for my brother, and for the ISA. But as we walked in he let me go first through the door, as we were walking to his office, and I know Jordan will direct the plan for the perfect America soon, I can feel lit.

Once we walked in I jumped back seeing Henry Sr. while following behind my brother, "Hello Jordan. Morgan." He said as I glared at the back of his head. "Henry." He said as I didn't want to in this conversation that much. "I'm so sorry." He continued after we heard the passing of his son, but I could tell he didn't feel bad at all for what he did to Henry Jr. Hell none of us even know where his daughter is, I could guess but even I am left in the dark since Maya is questionable since coming back from Star City.

"For what?" Henry asked in a dry tone, "My memory has returned thanks to Dr.Ito. I remember who Stargirl is. Her name is Courtney Whitmore. Her Stepsister is Kyra Hall you might remember her from her parents the Hawkman and Hawkgirl as she took on her mothers name. Her Stepfather is Pat Dugan, you may or may not remember him as Starman's lackey. Stripsey." Henry said as I started to remember something with a star on the chest, and this woman had red, blue and gold on her suit. She had mid-length hair.

"I'm going to go kill them." Henry said as I looked at him with anger in my eyes, "No." Jordan says as for once he is thinking like I am. But I have seen him have interest in Barbara Whitmore who I have been watching, even at dinner the other night, she doesn't know and she doesn't need to lose her daughters and husband. Jordan did move to his desk sitting and looking at the papers on his desk as I was still standing at the door. He did read my brother's mind and mine, but mainly Jordan's. And I could see that he told him the truth about how he likes Barbara.

My brother slams down his pen and it makes me jump as I smile and I have seen and heard things in the woods last night, the sparks were seen from my room. And I knew Maya was stronger than her father since he wouldn't talk about her and his face moved a bit reading my mind and that's what made me know my theory was correct. His youngest child has more powers within her than her brother or even himself and she won't follow him. "I don't want you in my or Morgan's head, Henry." My brother said as I nodded. He closed his file, "Her daughter's death would devastate her." He told us both mostly Henry and even I knew that.

"I killed my own wife and son for you to dream of a new America, Jordan." Henry continued as I smiled not at who he killed but knowing his daughter isn't dead. "And you're hesitating over a woman that works for you? Hmm." Henry continued in his dry yet serious tone as I knew he was pushing Jordan but I seriously wanted to confront him. "I could erase this woman's memory of her daughter and husband, and her adopted step daughter if that's what you want." Henry continued, "I don't want you inside her head either, Henry. You know nobody's really the same after" Jordan said as I knew he truly was obsessed with this woman who I knew never would be with him as long as Pat was around.

He did sit down and I glared at the back of his head as Henry took off his glasses, "I'm about to be in the heads of millions. Reprogramming them all for the better, including Barbara. Project New America will be even more than you ever imagined. When my son died, I felt my powers grow, as if I'd absorbed him into mine. It won't be six states. I will reprogram it to half of the country. Everything you ever wanted, everything your wife ever wanted is about to pass." He told us as I continued to laugh in my head. "We can't let anything stop that." Henry continued as I seriously wanted to say his daughter is what he fears because she could kill him, and she will. I could see the pain I could feel her inside my mind. I walked out the door waiting for him smiling as he came out.

"You know Henry you can act all tough and I know you have incredible powers but you fear your daughter. I could see it and feel it from her. Her powers are stronger than yours and she could kill you, and she wants to. So I want to give you a word of advice Henry choose wisely who you mess with at the moment." I told him walking away before he could tell me anything as I knew when she unlocked something in my head, it was a memory of how I could use my abilities differently. It was an older memory of how someone from behind me was yelling and I changed, and I knew I heard that voice but I can't put the name and face and voice together.

― AS CAMERON KNOCKED ON STEPHAINE'S DOOR HE CAME UP TO ME. As I cried into his shoulder as he hugged me and I didn't want to go to the grief of him because I knew my father would be there and I can't...I won't look him in the face after last night. And Cameron, and Stephaine decided to stay with me since I couldn't go home without pain, because I knew the monster my father was. But I at least had some clothing over at the Lance-Bertinelli House. Since Helena was gone wherever she went to.

From what I heard last night before my brother's last thoughts were about love, and happiness. How he wished he had more moments to know Stephaine more than being with Cindy, and how he wanted to have more moments with me. And how he asked Rick to protect me, but I haven't even seen him since yesterday afternoon at lunch where I got a call from Roy. But the only thing I believe right now is that I killed my brother by not being there. If I was there I could have stopped it, other than running from my problems, and have Stephaine face it herself without them seeing her. He never got the chance to even tell her about how he liked her, and always had. And how he wanted to change so badly, and how he wanted to have a chance with her.

Crying seemed to not help all the way as mentally everything within me was broken, like I lost everything that made me....well me other than Cameron and Stephaine. But for god's sake Henry was my twin brother. He may have been one of the biggest asses these last few months, but nobody saw him...for him. Except for me. Except for me being able to see my brother's sadness, anger, happiness, just everything. I lost the person who has been with me since birth. And never once have I been more alone than at this moment.

All I wanted to do was scream and yell and go after my father, but deep down I knew I was not ready. And I needed more time as I could feel Cameron's arms around my waist as I cried into his shoulder as Stephaine joined the hug as I knew what she felt for my brother made it bad on her too. But not only that, but her seeing Henry's death...doesn't make it any better for either of us. And knowing that Jordan was Icicle made it even worse now since I love Cameron as he is one of my closest friends. But I knew again with this deep down feeling...that I needed to stop Jordan, and possibly Morgan.

1:15, when school was about an hour left I decided to make my appearance as I was wearing my signature black turtleneck sweater with my cherry pins. And then my red with black button skirt. As I put over my red jacket, and knee high boots to play into the outfit more. I could see the stars people gave me but I had to stay strong, I had to try to....as I faced people who were looking at me. As they didn't know anything else than my brother's death. And hearing all their voices didn't make it any better in these moments. Due to the loud thoughts about how he's dead, then where I was during his tribute today. But you know they can go f*** themselves before I tell them.

Heading down the hallways I headed to the backroom of the highschool avoiding more of the crowds as I knew Yolanda or someone would be down here. But what I didn't know or listen to was Skylar's thoughts as when I entered I could see everyone but Courtney and Kyra in the room. Before they could even ask me anything Rick came up to me and I hit his chest a bit before I hugged him letting out everything that I have been holding in as the tears fell down my eyes. And I could hear Skylar, Yolanda, and Beth's voices as all of them were worried for me.

Before I could even comprehend I could feel emotion, I could feel care and I could feel compassion from Rick which was a change from what I saw from him when I "met" him all those weeks ago. Hugging him right now is better than yelling, and screaming. It makes me feel like I have something else. That I'm feeling, as I start hearing Henry's voice again. But instead it's coming from Rick's memories.

"Rick promised me, you'll protect and love Maya. She'll need it. Even if she acts tough." Henry told Rick as he nodded at Henry. For a moment I could see the scene play out again. "Maya?" He asked me as I looked at him, but everyone else was gone. It was just me here. But how? "Why did you have to die? Why wasn't it me?" I asked him as I could see him shake his head at me. "You're more important than what you believe, I might have not been a full on hero yet. I might have died saving the JSA. But don't think for once I didn't do it, because I trusted that you or even Stephaine would be alright. That any of you would be alright." He told me as he grabbed my shoulder and I could feel the tears falling down my eyes.

"I'm lost without you Henry." I told him, "You'll find your way someday. It might take time, but you will someday Maya figure out how to find a path that suits you without me." He told me as the scene started to fade and I was back with Rick, and the other in the weight lifting gym. I continued to cry in his shoulder as I could feel everyone's mourning over my brother, including Yolanda when I let go of Rick's arms and moved over to Yolanda hugging her as I knew she was confused but I could feel the understanding starting to come to her. As she cried on my shoulder also.

I will avenge my brother's death, even if it makes me evil at the cost of it. My father will pay for what he has done to my brother, my mother, and everyone else that he has caused pain to or killed.

― LOOKING IN MY STORAGE UNIT I KNEW THE ISA STEPPED TOO FAR AND STEPHANIE MADE A MISTAKE AND COULD BE COMPROMISED ALONG WITH MAYA. I knew I had to take it into my own hands as I dug through everything until I saw the display in the back and saw my suit and crossbow, along with my motorcycle and helmet as I knew what must be done and kept low as I don't need the JSA or the ISA on my trail since I'm outside Blue Valley borders after sneaking out late enough last night heading to the bar and casino acting like normal Helena to the public eye; who treats herself to playing poker all night and winning enough, and then losing some.

Heading back into Blue Valley on my motorcycle I glanced around to see the gym to find Crusher, as the gym was closed today I rode by and used my crossbow shooting into the building as I took off my helmet to put on my mask as I entered the gym to see Lawrence Crock as he looked at me, "I always thought we were friends." He told me as I laughed, smiling, "I thought so too until you threatened the JSA. Man you know I'm not really big for committing crimes or killing children that just pushed the line," I said knowing my dagger was in the back of my leather pants put in my confinement belt.

We did throw weights at another, "You guys got all my friends killed, and then when some kids threaten your plan you decide to kill more innocent kids. Plus you kill like what four coaches. At least I don't go killing. And even when I was a petty criminal I only left one person injured with an arrow to the foot." I told him as he smiled as I jumped back and did a few back handsprings. I then tried to hit him with an arrow, but he was able to dodge it as he hit me with one of the dumbbells. I fell over as I clutched myself dodging his next attack wondering where in the hell Tigress was. Since the two were a duo.

After a few more rounds in the gym as I got thrown in one of the weight lifts as he threw a weight on my chest I could feel the pain as I knew I would have a better chance getting out of here and surviving then here since Lawrence has a better chance than me in his turf. Mine was back in Star City and even Gotham at a point. But now I need to use my survival instincts to see if I can make it to protect Maya, Stephaine, and maybe even well Cameron. Finally getting outside I finally head to my motorcycle.

As I hopped on my motorcycle I could Tigress running on some of the roofs of buildings as she was trying to shoot me with one of her arrows from her crossbow, as one of them hit my right shoulder as I snapped the top of the arrow knowing I would need more medical attention than me trying to take it out, or get Stephanie worried. I continued to speed with my bike thankfully not many people were around when I almost flipped around off my bike thanks to Lawrence, but I'm able to stay on it as I stop my bike and park it dodging him and grabbing my crossbow loading it.

After kicking and swinging at him a few times, and him hitting me a couple times on the ribs with his bat I knock him down then shooting at Tigress, or Paula whichever one she wants to be called and I hit her in the leg with my arrow as I started to see some spots in my eyes as Lawrence got up and hit me in the head with the bat and I throw a few more punches to his body and once more take him to the ground as I ride away knowing I needed to get somewhere.

The last thing that happened before the world became spotty and dark, was me getting off my motorcycle and heading into the hospital to see Dr.Chapel and some of the other staff before my body felt numb and everything went dark. All I could see is black, I couldn't feel pain anymore all I could see is the darkness void that used to be lighter. If only I hadn't been any more suspicious.

― AFTER HEADING BACK HOME AND PACKING A BAG ALONG WITH MAYA I RECEIVED A CALL FROM THE HOSPITAL. And I checked first to see if it was a spam number, but it wasn't. And I hadn't seen anything from Helena since yesterday after she headed to the casino and usually that was for her to check on her storage unit when she said she had a night out so nobody suspected her as she would check it in the morning and would be back by now. When I picked up it took a few moments before I heard someone speak after heavy breathing.

"Hello is this Ms.Lance?" They asked, "Yes, this is Ms.Lance" I said into the phone as I started to question why the hospital was calling me, "This is The Blue Valley Hospital, and your aunt Ms.Bertinelli has recently been brought in and I wanted to call and tell you. That you should come in Ms.Lance." She said as tears started falling down my eyes. Something is terribly wrong, "I'll be there soon." I told her to hang up the phone as Maya came back into the room and hugged me as I fell, "I keep losing people I'm close to too Maya." I told her as she probably knew by reading my head, she probably knew now and she already had so much loss, but Helena she is the only person in my life. And if anything happened to her...she is a fighter and a strong one.

"We have to leave soon, but I could sneak you into the hospital to see her to the best of my ability. You deserve to hear what happened Steph." She told me with pleading eyes as I continued to hug her, "I'm more concerned who did this? Who did Helena piss off? Wait if she went down to Carson City she has a storage unit with her huntress supplies. What if she found out something and went after them? Because she was protecting me, like my mother wanted her too." I told Maya as she looked at me, "Well if it was anyone she could have figured out who Sportsmaster and Tigress were. And I might be able to be sure if I can have you consent to see her previous thoughts from the past few months." She told me, "Helena would want you to so we could help her or bring her Justice." I told her as she nodded.

On the way to the hospital tears were falling down my eyes as I couldn't even think anymore, after Henry's death it was hard on me because for a moment I could feel his emotion and love he had for me, and how he knew I cared for him the same, but he died before he could tell me. And then my parents died for the job, so for Helena to be hurt, maybe even on her death bed is hard because I will be all alone then with nobody taking care of me but Maya and even she wouldn't go home. As we looked outside we knew her father wasn't there or she told me that as he was busy starting the project New America.

Once we entered the hospital we saw Ms.Chapel at the door as she had a frown on her face when seeing me, and then Maya as she lead us back to the ICU, "When she came here she barley was able to stand she was so badly beat up and shot in the gut that she fell down and never got back up. We suspect the coma was setting in before she arrived, but your aunt is a fighter Ms.Lance." She told me as I nodded, "Will she ever wake up?" I asked her as she looked at me with sad eyes, "I wouldn't get your hopes up, but if she is the fighter that people claim she is. Then maybe there's a slight chance she could." She said as I prayed here at this moment for her to continue fighting. Dr.Chapel left us a few moments later as Maya stood at the door as I went closer to her, as Maya then closed the door.

"I have to go to Aunt Helena. The world needs me to be the next Black Canary, but I sure as hell know you know I'm ready to fight. You will wake up someday, I don't know when, but someday you will." I told her as Maya came up to her, "Are you sure Steph that you want me to try?" She asked me as I nodded and she closed her eyes and touched Helena's temple. When her eyes opened a few minutes later she looked at me.

"She fought hard, but Tigress and Sportsmaster were too much for Helena to take on because she was so focused on drawing them out and capturing them both that she didn't even care if she was hit or shot at with Tigresses crossbow. She did get Tigress once in the leg. But she fought, but couldn't even stop the two because they somehow knew. Probably due to my father." She told me as I nodded, "We should go Maya, before we run into anyone from the ISA." I told Maya as we both exited Helena's room as I would be back after we defeated the ISA. We finally arrived at her car as she started it as we headed out of town by about twenty or so minutes, finally finding the location of Pat's cabin in the woods.

― AFTER JORDAN SEEING EVERYTHING BARBARA DID WE COULDN'T TRUST HER AND NEEDED HER DEAD. Part of me said to use something within me, the personality that hides within my core, the one who is truly more rude, and evil, the one who doesn't care and will kill for the project and family if anyone gets in the way. And currently I wanted to go after the heroes myself but something within me from being Morgan in my flashes of memories I can't it won't allow me to kill them all the way. It just reminds me of something I can't put together yet.

Looking in a glass shard I could see myself smile at me, but it wasn't me controlling my body anymore it was someone else it was her it was the one they once called Killer Frost. As she tried to take over my body but couldn't she was just a memory I believe after seeing her face disappear. I continued to walk with my brother to the ISA round table in the meeting room as I saw Henry looking at the mural of the ISA from all those years ago when Killer Frost lived half my life for me. But Jordan wanting to kill the kids wasn't with my full mind, but I knew it had to be done for the mission, but why did it feel so bad?

"I'm glad you both made the right decision. We'll take care of it. Hawkgirl, Stargirl, and her sidekick. And their mother." Henry continued as I knew Jordan wanted them all dead after him telling me what he found earlier. "Henry. The boy, too. Mike. We can't leave a legacy running around." Jordan told Henry as I knew he would send Tigress and Sportsmaster, "Of Course." Henry said walking up the stairs heading to call the two. And the timer started ticking and had 12 hours, 43 minutes, and 16 seconds remaining until Project New America was complete as I watched the timer.