You know, I think that you know obviously, I have the bad habits to do useless things. Like keep to write that. I must stop. Now. Or never.

Oui, c'était une référence.

Et oui, j'écoute encore une musique en anglais en écrivant ça ( Five Seconds of Summer "Jet Black Heart" pour tout te dire. Mais du coup c'est plus australien... ). 

We don't change what we're used to be.

Bref. 

Chuis décidément pas douée pour te parler.

Ou pour parler aux gens de manière générale. 

So I will do just another useless thing, like my useless life.

I don't know why I talk about that.

My girlfriend hate you just because I loved you. 

I told her that you are a good person.

I don't think she believes me.

But I don't care. 

What have I to lost ? What have I to win ?

Let me a second to think about that...

Oh, nothing. 

Nothing, at all.

The day you told you were proud of me... I tried to be better. And I don't manage. So I just been myself.  And I was better than me. Because, you know, I am always the same, but I am always trying to change, I am always questioning "Who am I ? Who am I REALLY ?" like I didn't know myself. And it is the tragic truth if you don't feel the same. My heart would fall if someone said my name. But... I know... I know ? I know myself !

Okay, I really must to stop with BTS, One Direction or any other band.

Should I stop ? Probably.

Will I stop ? Never ever.

I think that I have better to play a role. Maybe, in this way, I will be accepted.

Should I do this ? Probably.

Will I do it ? Never ever.

Why ? Just because I am myself. 

Yeah, it is a little bit narcissistic but... I think that I don't care.

"Why are you always.. you ?

- Hmmm... maybe because once, someone told me to follow my heart. And my heart say that I must be myself et don't care about what the people say."

I will do it. One day, I will don't care about what everybody say about me.

You wait, and see.