I seriously think I have a crush on him. I mean he's the only one that has actually thought about making sure I'm alright. Again, I have really begun to like him but he told me that he isn't interested in having a relationship with anyone. he told me that he's too busy for girls.

He's a busy student at the university... he wants to become a doctor... it's funny how he wants to be a doctor but can't see how screwed up I am...I guess I'm a good actor. or he's going to be a bad doctor

This past week he's been giving me some food and talked to me about stuff. he's the first person to even consider me as a human being. I told him a lot about me... He told me a little about him but seems more interested in knowing about me...I didn't tell him about how screwed up I am or how depressed I really am... I wish I could tell him but... he's a guy and I don't think he would understand... nobody ever does...

The depression is getting worse despite his kindness... I don't understand this stupid depression and why it hasn't been getting better... I've had it for at least a year and nothing is improving. why?!