You know that time when you are dreaming and wish you never woke up?

That something I have been going through for a while. I am such a coward. I can't even face my own damn life.

Which is why I read. And read and read. I sometimes like to ignore the fact that I have responsibilities. Like studying for an important exam.

Procrastination is my middle name. But I always managed at last minute. Somehow. My work was good. But could have so much better. Which sucks after I realize I could have done better.

And now the consequences of my actions hit hard and I am wallowing in self pity.

Even then I feel like just ignoring everything and just sleep or read. But no matter what you cannot run. Try all you want. It's like running backwards in a treadmill.

So I am sitting typing this out when my exams are in less than 48 hours. Why?
I want to vent it out. Cause strangely it helps. Somehow sharing it with somebody helps. I don't know how. Call it attention seeking or anything, I just want to feel better. I'll probably take this down the next day. But it's okay.

Sometimes you just don't want to do stuff that you have to do. And that sucks.

I don't want to write my very important exam. I don't want to wake up early tomorrow. I don't want to study the same thing I've been doing all year. I guess that's growing up. You do the stuff you gotta do even if you don't want to.

I want a break even before I start my work. And my mind is everywhere it shouldn't be.

And yeah if you have to time to read this, you provide have time to change your life into the way you've always wanted it to be. Don't wait for inspiration. That's what I did. You don't have to wait for anything cause Time doesn't wait for us. It keeps moving even if we don't.
( But take your break when you need to.)

Lastly , thank you for wasting your precious time on my meaningless thoughts.

Good day.