So I'm really in a bad mood today

I've been crying a lot. I thought maybe I could fight depression but here I am again also in one of my favourite book here "Potter|Sirius Black" something happened which made me cry a lot. My best friend left me cause I use too much wattpad and she says I ignore her when she's the one who ignores me. She says how my online friends are fake and I'm too toxic for them...She always say how I prioritise my online friends over her when she has known me for longer time but girl they actually help me when I'm crying at 2am unlike you who never replies. They always compliment me more than I deserve. Yeah today I felt like committing suicide. That's it sorry for bothering you all I was just upset