Louis thought that after that day Harry would spend more time with their sons but when he missed three games it only pissed him off seeing Jonah's disappointed face whenever he would look for him only to see he wasn't there. He tried to cheer him up but couldn't do much when he would lock himself in his bedroom not coming out until dinner only to glare at his food as he ate it. Harry would call both of them once in a while when Louis felt like it was because he had remembered or received his text messages yet it wasn't enough for both of them

He had already given up when he showed up inviting them to a carnival that he was quick to say no to but when Jonah and Elijah begged him he couldn't say no to them. That night they ended up walking through the colorful carnival waiting for their sons whenever they would ride one of the rides only making small conversation once in a while.

"You never told me you went back to school." Harry said out of nowhere while they were waiting for Jonah and Elijah who were riding the bumper cars.

"I did like three years later or so when I was sort of financially stable, my parents couldn't take away the money they had saved for my college education so I used some of that." Louis said holding the cotton candy picking at it before he grabbed a small piece and ate it.

"That's good, at least you went back. I saw a few of your designs when you released the clothing line, they were pretty amazing." Harry said unable to tear his eyes away from Louis' lips as he licked the sugar off of them.

"Thank you, it took me forever to finish them and when I finally did I was a nervous mess. Thought people would hate them." Louis confessed feeling like they were back in that cruise when he had been so nervous and Harry had made him feel better.

"That's what you always think but you shouldn't worry, people will always love what you design. You're pretty talented." Harry smiled quickly looking away when Louis returned the smile.

"What's Nick doing now? I never heard from him ever again so I was pretty surprised to see him here and...engaged to you." Louis asked glad that his voice hadn't trembled as he spoke.

"He...he never finished like you did and at the moment he's unemployed. I saw him again a year ago when I was in New York for a case and we started talking. It just went from there and here I am." Harry said keeping his eyes straight ahead.

"He and I never got along, don't know why but the past is the past." Louis shrugged focusing on his sons when they got off of the cars and made their way to them.

"Can we ride the Ferris Wheel, all of us? Please?" Jonah begged cheering when Harry agreed.

They made their way there where they had to wait a few minutes listening to the music playing and before Louis could, Harry had already paid for all of them. He thanked Jonah and Elijah when they let him get in the passenger car first raising his eyebrows when Harry got in next to him and after he had sat down Jonah shut the door after his father.

"Jonah what are you doing? Get in." Louis said narrowing his eyes when Jonah giggled and soon Elijah joined him.

"We're not riding with you, we're adults now and we get to ride on our own." Jonah said before he walked away getting in in a passenger car two cars away from them followed by Elijah.

"Adults..." Louis trailed off then got up intending to get out when the Ferris Wheel started moving forcing him to sit down.

"Hey, its alright. Its just one ride." Harry said getting comfortable next to Louis smiling when he nodded.

Louis looked around wrapping his arms around himself when it started getting a bit chilly then looked around with a smile seeing all the colorful rides and farther away into the city. He never noticed Harry watching him and when Love Me Like You Do by Ellie Goulding started playing his smile only widened loving that song singing along to it.

"Nice view, huh?" Harry asked scooting a bit closer to Louis biting his bottom lip when he felt his hands sweating making feel like a teenager who was about to kiss his crush for the very first time when he wiped them off on his jeans.

He stared at Louis seeing the way his long eyelashes would cast shadows on his cheekbones then would brush against the tan skin. That had been one of his weaknesses back when he had seen him for the first time making his way through that cafeteria looking for a spot to sit.

He remembered having just gotten there looking around and feeling so lost looking for a spot to sit when he saw him walking in through another door. He still remembers how the breath had been knocked out of him for some unknown and foreign reason other that the boy walking towards him was beautiful. He had been too distracted to notice he was indeed walking towards him until he had bumped into him sending him backwards onto the floor. When he noticed it, the boy was already on the floor staring up at him with his bright blue eyes too stun to even talk.

"Huh? Oh yeah, its beautiful." Louis agreed going back to what he had been doing until he felt Harry getting closer forcing him to look him in the eye.

Fading in, fading out

On the edge of paradise

Every inch of your skin is a holy grail I've got to find

Only you can set my heart on fire, on fire

Yeah, I'll let you set the pace

Cause I'm not thinking straight

My head spinning around I can't see clear no more

What are you waiting for?

It was just like all those years ago when he had bumped into him and the first thing he had seen were Harry's bright green eyes looking right back at him with a look of curiosity but now he couldn't decipher it at all. His eyes trailed down to his lips then back at his eyes wanting to look away or the least scoot away when Harry started leaning in wanting him to get closer yet a voice deep inside of him was telling him to get out of there, to run away.

When Harry made eye contact with Louis all he could see were those bright blue eyes and the lights reflecting on them making them look even brighter than ever. He doesn't know what possessed him as he started leaning in and when the music changed into the slow version of Everytime We Touch by Cascada was when he finally felt his warm thin lips against his own.

It was as if someone had frozen time when nothing else mattered for them when they started moving their lips against the other. Harry slowly brought his hand up tangling his fingers in Louis' soft hair while Louis placed his warm hand on Harry's cheek deepening the kiss feeling the millions of butterflies in their stomachs stronger than ever since their very last kiss years ago. It only lasted for a few seconds when Louis abruptly pulled away looking at him with wide eyes scooting as far away from him as he could looking for an escape.

"What do you think you're doing?" Louis asked wrapping his arms around himself.

"I-" Harry started furrowing his brow when he saw Louis' bottom lip trembling before tears pooled in his eyes.

"Y- You can't do that! You're going to marry Nick and you can't, you can't." Louis started freaking out and as soon as the Ferris Wheel stopped with them at the very bottom he got up trying to get out of there tripping over Harry's legs feeling his arms around him stopping the fall.

"Lou, I didn't- I didn't mean it." Harry said in a moment of panic tensing up when he realized he had said the wrong thing when Louis stiffened.

He had meant it, every second of that kiss he had meant it with all he had.

"Let go. Let me go!" Louis pushed him away then got out of there wiping away his tears hearing Harry going after him calling his name.

He had only managed to put a small distance between them when Harry caught him in his arms and turned him around seeing how wet his face was from the tears as he wiped them away with his thumbs. Louis looked around seeing Jonah and Elijah along with a few people looking at them before he looked back at Harry still feeling his hands on his cheeks.

"Louis..." Harry trailed off seeing more tears falling down.

"Just take me home...please." Louis begged looking away when after a few seconds Harry sighed and finally nodded.

He called for their sons who followed without saying anything getting in the backseat while Louis was forced to sit down in the front with Harry next to him. The whole ride was silent and as soon as Harry had stopped in front of Perrie's house the twins said a quick goodbye and left them alone feeling the tense atmosphere around them. Louis reached for the door ready to get out when he felt Harry's hand on his forearm stopping him and it was then that he was forced to finally look at him.

"Louis, I-" He started not really knowing what to say.

"Just don't say anything...it doesn't matter." Louis cut him off still trying to get out of the car getting frustrated when Harry put the child lock on, "Let me out."

"Not until we talk." Harry insisted.

"I don't- there's nothing to talk about now let me the hell out!" Louis finally snapped then started pulling on the handle trying to get out.

"Louis don't be childish." Harry said waiting for him to calm down.

"I'm not being childish!" Louis pulled one more time on the handle before giving up and facing away from Harry with his arms crossed over his chest.

Harry turned the engine off, unbuckled himself and got comfortable knowing he was going to be there a while which surprised him at how well he still knew Louis. It hadn't even been two minutes when Louis started getting impatient but said nothing wanting Harry to crack first and when he didn't he let his hands fall limp on his lap then slowly looked at Harry who was looking straight ahead.

"I'm not a homewrecker." Louis' voice cracked taking Harry by surprise.

"What?" Harry raised his eyebrows not quite grasping it yet.

"I said I'm not a homewrecker. You're going to marry him yet you kissed me...that's cheating and he- he doesn't deserve that. Its not right." Louis refused to look him in the eye.

Harry pondered for a few seconds trying to find the right words to say wishing it was day so he could see Louis but before he could open his mouth Louis beat him to it.

"You said you wanted nothing to do with me and that we were over years ago so why would you do it? Why would you kiss me when you know how I feel." Louis quietly said gathering enough courage to look at Harry glad that it was dark.

"I meant it, the kiss. I don't know why I did it but I meant it." Harry confessed waiting for a reaction but when Louis did nothing he sat there not knowing what else to say as he silently unlocked the doors.

"It doesn't change things." Louis said after a pause then got out of the car leaving Harry alone.

He stayed there until Louis disappeared from view then left going home where he buried himself in work being it the only source of distraction he had. He ended up going to bed at midnight wondering what Louis was doing unaware that he had cried himself to sleep wanting to take his sons and go back to his life. Louis had his arm wrapped around Jonah and Elijah as they slept wondering if it was best to just leave, take Jonah with them and leave.

Part of him wanted just that, but the other couldn't do that to Harry. He couldn't take their children away from him after all the things he had done to him and how much he had hurt him. He closed his eyes deciding to stay longer just for the sake of his sons when Elijah was just starting to get closer to Harry and Jonah needed him.

After that day Louis avoided Harry like the plague for once glad that he never bothered showing up to Jonah's games yet felt bad for his son whenever he would look for him in the crowd only to be disappointed with his absence. As the weeks passed by Louis found himself talking to Anne and Gemma more often and the day Gemma let him hold her son Kyle, he knew she didn't hated him as much just days after he had had a long and honest talk with her and Anne. He had explained everything and even though he knew he didn't deserve sympathy they still tried to make him feel better when they found out his parents had disowned him, packed their things up and disappeared leaving him behind.

The day of Jonah's final football game Louis had made sure to make enough signs to cheer his son on and made sure he knew how proud he was of him. He smiled seeing everybody there then frowned when he couldn't see Harry anywhere knowing he was supposed to be there after he had promised Jonah so many times that he wouldn't miss it.

"Is Harry coming?" Gemma asked from where she was sitting two seats up holding her son in her arms who wouldn't stop squirming.

"He promised Jonah he would be here...but I don't see him anywhere." Louis responded then looked around hoping for him to get there soon.

Half an hour before the game was scheduled to start Louis could see his son warming up and tripping a few times whenever he would look their way searching for Harry. The look of disappointment on his son's face was enough to piss Louis off and when he finally had enough he got up telling Elijah to stay there as he made his way towards a more secluded area.

He grabbed his phone dialling Harry's number hanging up when it went straight to voicemail then a few seconds later tried again getting desperate when the same thing kept happening. After a few minutes of trying he sighed in relief when Harry finally answered.

"Where are you? Jonah's game is about to start and you promised you would be here." Louis said as soon as he was sure Harry was listening to him.

"Harry is busy at the moment, tell Jonah good luck." Nick answered confusing Louis who furrowed his brow.

"Hello? Harry?"

He could hear Harry's voice getting closer to the phone then what sounded like someone trying to grab it and a few seconds later he finally heard his voice.

"Hello?"

"Jonah's game starts in fifteen minutes and you promised him you would be here. Where the hell are you?" Louis almost growled.

"Shit I forgot! I thought it was next friday." Harry exclaimed.

"No, its today and you promised." Louis took a deep breath fighting the urge to go wherever he was and drag him all the way back there.

"I really can't go, I promised Nick I would take him out for lunch and we're already here." Harry slowly said.

"Are you serious!? You promised him and all he's been doing this entire time is look for you."

"I'll make it up to him later."

"The hell you are! I don't care what you have to do but you better drag your ass here and on time. And you better not bring him!" Louis yelled ignoring the people around him watching him with disapproving looks.

"Louis-"

"If you don't show up I swear you'll never see him or Elijah ever again!" Louis threatened then hung up.

He leaned against the fence trying to calm down then walked back to his spot where he waved at Jonah as soon as he saw him looking for him. After what felt like forever he was already thinking about buying three airplane tickets when Harry showed up still dressed in his expensive suit and much to Louis' relief, he was alone.

Harry wordlessly took a seat next to him waving at Jonah when his son saw him, his whole face brightening as he waved back at him. He then hugged Elijah making conversation with him just waiting for the game to start looking up at Louis when he got up and made his way to where the coach was standing. He watched them talk for a few minutes feeling a twinge of jealousy whenever Louis would laugh at something the coach had said and when said coach placed his hand on Louis' lower back getting closer to show him something, Harry finally had enough.

"Son, I think your brother's game is about to start. You should go get dad." Harry said through gritted teeth faking a smile for Elijah.

"Oh, he's telling him something about Jonah, probably that he's really good. They've been talking for weeks." Elijah gave his father a sweet innocent smile.

"What do you mean?" Harry asked looking back and forth between his son and Louis who had his hand on the coach's forearm.

"Jonah's coach is really nice to dad and they talk a lot, he invited us out to eat last week." Elijah informed him missing the anger rolling off of Harry, or at least pretending to.

"Oh, really? And what did they do, what did they talk about?" Harry kept pestering ignoring the looks Elijah was giving him.

"Nothing. Dad told him we couldn't go then we went home but said that maybe some other day." Elijah shrugged smiling at Jonah when he made eye contact with him then gave him a thumbs up nodding at him. Mission accomplished.

A few minutes later Louis sat back down on his spot next to Harry wearing the brightest smile Harry had ever seen on him and instead of asking him about what he had just seen he focused on the game when he heard the whistle. Throughout the game he cheered for his son along with the rest of the family and when Jonah scored his first goal Harry cheered louder picking Elijah up to celebrate. 

Harry's heart warmed up when Elijah cheered along with him wrapping an arm around his neck then set him back down to continue watching the game. When the first half of the game was over Jonah rushed over to them as he wiped the sweat off of his forehead with his jersey.

"You're here!" Jonah exclaimed wrapping his arms around his parents waists bringing them close together.

"We promised we would be here." Louis smiled as he ruffled his sweaty hair making it look odd going into different directions.

"You are doing amazing!" Harry said bending down to pinch his cheeks laughing when his son swatted his hand away then jumped onto Elijah's back where his brother easily caught him.

"Coach Raymond said that if I keep playing like this then in the future I could be a professional player!" Jonah said bouncing up and down with excitement.

"I'm sure both of you can be anything you want." Harry said seeing the way Louis was smiling at them until the coach called him over watching him go.

He went back to his spot staying there just watching him flirt or what it looked to him as flirting even though Louis kept his distance. Once the second half of the game started he tried to focus on watching and cheering for his son yet couldn't whenever he would see coach Raymond glancing their way a few way too many times for his liking. 

When the game was finally over Jonah's team had won three to two and both Harry and Louis couldn't be more proud as they waited for him watching his teammates pick him up as he held the trophy in his hands. He wanted to wait for Jonah with Louis and Elijah but when Louis started making his way to where their son was standing next to the coach he finally snapped.

"Going to flirt some more? You just don't get enough, do you?" Harry said through gritted teeth making Louis stop in his tracks.

"What?" He turned around to face him.

"Oh nothing, just funny how you say you're here only to spend time with our kids yet there you are flirting left and right. And with your son's coach." Harry said looking at him from head to toe almost as if he was disgusted by him but truth was, he didn't want anybody touching Louis the way he once was allowed to touch him.

He didn't like it and he certainly didn't like feeling that way, he had moved on after all.

"If I do or do not is none of your business. I have the right to do whatever I want." Louis retorted.

"Not when my sons are staying with you. What kind of example are you giving them when they see you flaunting yourself to strange men." Harry argued taking a step forward.

"I'm not flaunting myself to anybody and if I do so what. I am free to do whatever I want! You're getting married and just like you I have the right to move on and meet someone...start a family with whoever that is. Now if you'll excuse me, I have places to be." Louis glared then walked past Harry towards Jonah while the rest followed.

Harry stayed rooted to his spot unable to move until he snapped out of it and hurried behind Louis grabbing him by the arm and turning him around. The mere thought of Louis with someone else made his insides twist and for a moment felt himself getting sick at the thought of someone else touching Louis.

"If you want to start your little family then do so but not with my sons, I'm not gonna let you force them to accept someone as their stepfather." Harry tightened his grip on Louis' arm.

"That's a little hypocritical, don't you think? You are forcing a stepfather on them when you clearly know they don't like him and he can't stand them. You have no right to tell me what to do when I sure as hell don't do that." Louis yanked his arm out of Harry's hold wanting to get away but couldn't when Harry only kept getting closer.

"Not with my sons." Harry continued.

"And what are you gonna do with them once you marry Nick and both of you start your oh so wonderful family? Toss them out like you treat them? Like trash." Louis took a step back then shook his head in disbelief when Harry's face only got redder, if that was even possible.

"I don't treat them like trash!" Harry yelled catching the attention of everybody near them including his sons who were watching them with wide eyes.

"Oh really? Then why the hell did Elijah showed up all alone in my apartment all the way to London when he was supposed to be here with you? Because you made him feel like he wasn't worth your time and that's exactly how you made Jonah feel all those years." Louis yelled back having had enough of it.

"Look who's talking, the father of the year. The father who abandoned his son because he was a selfish brat who only cared about himself and didn't even think twice before leaving him behind." Harry yelled right on Louis' face and where everyone could hear him.

"I regretted my decision and admitted to it. I tried to make it right. I tried to find you but you were long gone and then you made sure I could never find you. You...you on the other hand for years have treated him like he's not worth your time! I would drop everything in an instant for our sons. You on the other hand have to be threatened in order for you to come to your own son's soccer game!" Louis spat with tears in his eyes.

"Don't play the victim here when you're the one who ruined everything we had." Harry said fighting his own tears not wanting to give Louis the satisfaction of seeing how hurt he still was.

"I may have screwed up and abandoned Jonah like an idiot, but I never once neglected Elijah. I always made sure he felt loved and wanted just like I do with Jonah, I make sure he feels loved and wanted. And that's more than I can say for you." Louis wiped away his tears then walked away.

"Louis...Louis!" Harry went after him one more time catching up to him only to be harshly pushed away by small hands.

He looked down in shock seeing Jonah glaring up at him standing in between him and Louis, he moved to walk around him to get to Louis but was once again pushed by his son. Feeling all eyes on him he took another step forward noting the way Elijah hid behind Louis wrapping his arms around his father in a tight hold while Jonah stood protectively in front of them.

"Don't touch him! Don't talk to him!" Jonah yelled as his green eyes filled with tears that quickly rolled down his cheeks and he was quick to wipe away.

"Jonah..." Harry trailed off not knowing what to say when it was the first time seeing Jonah crying the way he was.

"Its your fault he could never find us! Its your fault and I hate you. I hate you!" Jonah yelled completely breaking Harry's heart.

"Jonah no, I didn't-" Harry took another step forward trying to place his hands on Jonah's shoulders only to be pushed away once again.

"You never cared about me, all you care about is yourself, Nick, and your stupid job. I hate both of you! I only wanted to spend time with you and you were never there, you never spend time with me and if you do its because dad forces you to." Jonah sobbed taking a step back when Harry knelt down in front of him trying to grab his hands.

"I do care about you, you have no idea how much I care about you." Harry said still trying to grab them even when Jonah kept pushing him away.

"No! You let Nick make fun of me and Eli and you don't even care, Eli said he was going to send me away and I know you're gonna let him just so you don't have to spend time with me. I don't want to live with you anymore, I want to go live with dad and Eli. At least they love me and want me unlike you!" Jonah sobbed, even more when he saw the way Harry was crying.

"No, baby please." Harry begged trying to wrap his arms around Jonah but was pushed away with enough force to send him down to the ground landing on his bum.

Jonah looked at him for a few seconds before he let out another sob then turned around to look at Louis speaking and taking a step back away from him as soon as his dad took a step forward, "You left me." And with that he ran out of there ignoring Elijah calling his name.

He kept running wanting to get out of there until he heard Louis' broken voice calling for him, he stopped and turned around staying rooted to his spot watching his father until he was standing in front of him. They looked at each other for a few seconds before Louis took a step forward and wrapped his arms around him as he cried hiding his face on his chest.

"You left me. Why did you leave me..." He repeated once again against his father's chest feeling his warm comforting arms around him then let go when Louis knelt down in front of him.

"I'm so sorry baby, I promise I looked for you. I never stopped looking for you. I love you so so much, always." Louis said looking him straight in the eye then hugged him rubbing his back. "I was so stupid but I promise I did everything I could to find you, I never stopped. I'm so sorry, I'm sorry."

"Can we go home?" Jonah mumbled against the crook of his neck feeling him nodding.

"Yeah, we can go home." Louis said trying to get up only to be stopped by his son.

"London. I want to go home and that's in London." Jonah firmly said waiting for his father to say something.

"Soon." Was all Louis said before grabbing Elijah's hand then left never looking back leaving Harry behind.

Thoughts? :)