NO LONGER APART OF THE MAIN STORY. BUT I DON'T FEEL LIKE DLETING IT

England POV
Useful, something that has a purpose and can be used for many things can benefit a person later or aids someone in a current ailment, If you asked me for the Antonym of useful I'd say it this meeting.

I look up and see the frog flip through another one of those entries, I honestly don't see the point to this all it'll do is being up painfully useless memories.

Ugh the frog is speaking again and interrupting my inner moneloug something about Russia wanting more friends.
I don't really care I have a major headache from all of their tom foolery normally Germany would stop them but he left to deal with 'family issues'. I look up and see almost everybody is or if not slightly amused by this situation. How long is this book?

I gesture for someone to pass me the book and America chucks it at me
"Could have some manners you wanker" I say half-heartedly before flipping through the book, there's maybe 100 pages or something
"How many have we read?" I ask in a bored tone

"Maybe 7 or 8" Canada answers me, I always have a appreciated how respectful and well-manered he is, enough so that I'm not always on his case I'm afraid he thinks it's because I don't care it's just he never needed the attention I was always busy with Australia or America.

"7 or 8, we're really on 7 or 8 it's been an hour or two by now, you all know there's maybe 100 pages in here?" I reply they all send back semi irritated stares. Guess they didn't know that. I might as well read a page.

I flip to where America dogeared the page and pass it to China who had asked to read next

" 'In a perfect world there would be no wars' pshhh that's bullshit we've all been fighting since the begining of time. Some of us can fight better and now we rule the world, I can say that as I actually now rule the world. My navy is the strongest it's ever been and now that the Spaniard is defeated no one can stop me. Britannia rules the sea and that's it.

Finland brought France and myself to a land in the new world claiming he saw a young personification. Imagine my surprise when there actually was one, he's so small and innocent, I can't wait to see the man he grows up to be, for now I'm just calling him British America but that's no name for a child, I'll have to come up with one.

Ha! I've decided he'll be called Alfred it's great I'm a genius

I left back to England for about a year so I could mess with the diplomatic problems of taking France's colony and combining it with my own creating British North America, his name is Matthieu but that's what France calls him so I'm changing it to Matthew, so it's similar but not French. But as I was saying I left to sort out problems with France and when I returned to Alfred place he was all grown up.

Alfred has tried to declare his independence as the United States of America, and I said no, he doesn't seem to understand there's many things about being nation I haven't taught him yet. He claims I'm taxing him too much money, but that's because I'm now broke because I had to defend him in the dumb conflicts he keeps getting into.

I can't believe that git he's declared war on me for not giving him his independence.

He won I can't believe it... there was so much I never got to teach him, and I've been ignoring Matthew this whole time too, I've been terrible. I wonder when the last time I cried was before that battle, century's I think if I remember correctly it was when thousands of protestants were killed in my country by Mary in 1553.

It's 1961 and it's official I'm all alone they all left me, why do they always leave me. To add on my navy isn't even the strongest anymore America's past mine, it's no longer 'Britiania rules the waves' it's 'Americanized is the sea now losers' it's almost funny I used to be all powerful and now my colony has surpassed me.

Ignore that last entry I believe I was drunk and the frog found me crying on my floor writing it, that was odd of me and will never happen again

The frog says he thinks I'm an alcoholic as he dragged me home from the pub yesterday I told him to shove it up his arse. I'm slightly afraid he might be correct

Would other nations look down on me if they knew I was an alcoholic, a former super power really shouldn't be an alcoholic it's just whenever I remember how alone I am, if I drink it all disappears and it's nice. And besides it's not like I can die from alcohol poisoning that's a benefit if being a nation I can drink as much as I want and not die

France said I should go to an AA meeting but I told him only if he pays me a million pounds you should have seen his face!

These are a collection of England's journal entries over the years, documenting his growing alcoholic problem' " China read as I tried to bury my head in the table of embarrassment. I swear about halfway through France rested his hand on my shoulder in an attempt to comfort me.

No matter how much we fight I still trusted him to not tell anyone about my problem, and he tried to help me with it.

I felt all the nations eyes in me burning a hole into my lowerd head

"You should tell them mon ami" France said quietly
"It's time" he added

There's no hiding it I guess

I look up at all of the rest of the nations and instead of what I expected they all bad sympathetic looks in their eyes.

I looked around and locked eyes with America he smiled and said

"It's okay dude"

Yeah I guess it is I have a problem that I need help with so I should tell them

"I'm an alcoholic" I said output for the first time I've written it down before but I've never said it

I closed my eyes and when I opened them I was in the original meeting room, and infront of me was Prussia reading a letter he looked up at me

"Oh hey, welcome to the original meeting room umm. I think you get sent here when you accept your problems but I'm not too sure" he said completely unlike how he was when he slumped out of the meeting room earlier it was nice too see we were pretty close back in the day

"Oh that's okay, how are you?" I asked

"Oh I'm well" he answered
" I'm happy to feel like my old self again, haven't really been feeling it for a while" he continued after stopping for a moment

This was nice, it was come here and I knew I could help myself now and the others knew. I guess there really was point to this meeting then

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Thanks for reading. I don't know why it took so long to get this chapter out I just really didn't know what to write.

It's my headcannon that England drinks to forget that he's alone I don't know why it just sorta came to me one day and I was like that makes sense.

Also I'm so thankful to everybody reading this I never thought it would get more then like ten views but now there's over 2000 and I'm like wow.

Anyways have a lovely day and don't forget that in 1553 Bloody Mary burned 300 protestants to make England Catholic again
( I don't know why I added that I just felt like it)

Also would you guys be interested in a chapter heavily including every thing about Canada's history I just finished a whole semester where we only learned about Canadian history and I was wondering if people would like a chapter really getting into Canada's history and what affects it had on him?