Why are all my friends ignoring me? Is it because I self-harm or am I not good enough? They probably all hate me and want me dead. My girlfriend is even ignoring me. My bestfriend told her something I trusted in her. I want to die. I feel horrible. Hopefully no one from my school reads this. I am scared. Scared of the past and future. I'm not living in the present. I'm just letting go by, in lightning speed. I have been slightly starving myself, eating only a switch and chips for lunch. No one knows why though. God I hope none of my friends read this. I scratched my skin so hard it bled, my friend had to take me to the consular's office because I would stop. They probably all want me dead, maybe I should die, they'd be happier. I want them happy.