Is it safe to say I was confused....
As I stared at the image before me...
A thousands and one thoughts were coming in...
I didn't know how to feel, what to feel....
I had a thousands and one questions....
Which had only a answer!?!

"Oluwademiladeayo..."

Demilade heard that voice call out. That voice. Only one person called him his full name and that was him. Him. He blinked his eyes slowly to meet a face on top of his.

Okay what's going on??!

"Psst....he's okay!," Mr. Wellington sighed. He had been dead sick worried when his son fainted few minutes ago. He had him sprawled on the floor with his top clothings undressed so as to receive proper ventilation. He knew it was nothing too serious, he only fainted because of the shock. To him, it was nothing he couldn't snap out of.

Demilade mumured a thank you as he gulped the cup of water Aunt Tasha had brought to him. He managed a small smile has he handed the cup back to her. "Dad....." He trailed, now sitting up on the bed.

His father looked away and sighed. He knew his son would surely had questions, questions he wouldn't want to give an answer to.

"Where's my mom?" Demmie asked, seeing that his dad wasn't ready to respond.

"She's gone." He gave a simple and plain answer.

Demmie furrowed his brows in confusion, but wasn't she....? "She was here few minutes ago so how...." Before he could continue his dad had interrupted with a snap."DEMILADE...." He snapped. " Your mother he's gone, I had her gone, gone out of her, out of anywhere near you."

Demmie swallowed, he didn't what to say. " W... why?" His voice came out in muffled tones, a sign he was on the verge of breaking down.

His father snapped again, banging his hands on the the small bedside table. " Cause I'm your father and I know what's best for you. You don't question me, neither do you question my authority. She doesn't have or need to be hear you and don't you ever call her name I'm this house." He ordered. "Am I clear?"

Demmie swallowed, he held the tears back."Yes Sir."

"Good, and you're going to school tomorrow, you had better beg your body to be strong. Teacher Matt told me you guys are having your inter school competition tomorrow. And you know what I want? You must badge it, you must emerge as the best, son."

"Yes sir..."

"Great, I'm off, Mr. Gbadamosi is having a retreat and I have to be there. Do take care and you had better be reading until I come back."

"Yes sir...." He watched as his father exited the door and immediately his retreating figure vanished. He did that one thing he wanted to do.

He broke down!

*************
"

I'm not talking to you so don't pretend like we're cool or something." She huffed, as he walked in a faster pace ignoring the boy trailing behind her.

"But.....babe nau." He pleaded as he finally caught up with her and stood in her front blocking her from moving an inch.

"Babe? Who.... who's your babe abeg. Please oh, I know who I'm babyied by." She scoffed, attacking him.

" Ouch!" He faked hurt. "Oya I'm sorry, forgive this your ex-baby nau."

She crossed her arms above together lifting her face up as of thinking of a reply. "No!"

"Di....."

"Abeg don't even go down that lane. How can you Somto? How dare such thoughts trail your mind. How can you think so lowly of me." She huffed, pouring out her mind.

Somto simply stood still, he had no words to defend himself. But he wasn't to be blamed. The sounds he heard were like moans and blame his overthinking! He thought the worst only to open the door and find out she was whining in pain and Deji was simply cleaning the wound.

"I'm sorry bro, but you've got to earn back your trust this time." She rolled her eyes, she still felt pissed though.

He sighed, knowing where she was getting at. "Oya, what do you want?".

She grinned sheepishly as she faked a cough. " Oya, now we're talking. I heard Tasty Fingers launched a new topping for pizza." She wriggled her brow at him.

Somto groaned inwardly. "Okay, I get now. This Saturday after lesson of course."

She grinned widely, " I love you bestie!"

He shrugged off, " we cool?"

*************

Dear Diary,
I hate my life.
I hate me.
I hate you.

Numb.........

That was how she felt. Infact that couldn't measure a quarter of the emotions she felt.

I can never be happy.
It scares the shit out of me. Like how I'm happy this moment and then the voice come remind me this will only last for a short while and kapoom!! I'm back to being sad, lonely and alone all again.

I always wonder what it means like to be loved. To be accepted, to be cherished. I'm tired of being sad but then I'm pretty much used to it. It's that bad that I feel happy when I'm sad cuz I know that is what I deserve.

I cut today. The emotional pains was just too much that I couldn't do it any longer. I deserve this pain. I deserve all the hurt and hate I get. That's the only way I can inflict the emotional pain physically. I'm just....

"Layo!!!!"

She groaned as heard the voice shout louder. Closing the little boom and hiding at the back of her pillow. She sighed as she stripped herself of the spaghetti gown she wore to wear something more covering, to cover the scars. Her scars.....

" Layo!!" This time she heard her mother shout out and she knew at that point better than to disobey.

She sighed. Here was it!

A/N

I did it!!!!! Yesssss༎ຶ‿༎ຶ I actually did. I wrote a chapter. This is the point I say sorry for the long stalled update ❤️ school has been taking a toll lately and my social media life has been a pause. And somedays I want to write but it's like the vibe is no longer there.

I do actually have plans. Plans that scare me also for this book. Trust me this characters are more broken than you think. They're mental health shape is really shitty. And Layo😪❤️ mehn.... I have no words. But trust me, her emotions wasn't even portrayed well.

So something got me today. Never never ever think you're worthless.❤️ Never ever get such thoughts into your mind. You have no idea how much you're capable of. You have no idea how strong you are. Keep on fighting and trust me one day you'll look back at this phase and smile because you scaled through. So excited to carry y'all along on this rollercoaster story obviously laziness will free me😂.

I'm sorry if these chapter appears shitty.❤️😪 Just wanted to drop something before I go ghosting again.😪 yes, all thanks to school. I'd try as much to give another chapter before I go off again so please.❤️ Make your thoughts known.

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