Okay, I understand that as far as I'm concerned y'alls have first amendment rights to free speech, but some of y'alls comments are just... no. Some of them are outright hateful which isn't covered under your right to free speech, but other comments I keep seeing are just making me cringe.

So, here's some comments I keep seeing that I have a problem with.

"Shuichi stop thinking about Kaede all the time it's so annoying!! Get over her!!!"

You have no idea how much that makes me want to just grab you and literally physically attack you, seriously. Do you not understand how trauma works? Do you not understand that Shuichi is TRAUMATIZED?! I don't care if you were "just joking" either, that's not a funny joke to anyone but assholes. Kindly escort yourself off of my profile if you're going to say that because you WILL NOT disrespect Shuichi or Kaede on my profile.

Both of them, especially Shuichi, are huge comfort characters to me and I can't stand to see that people are basically telling Shuichi his trauma is annoying. Like... what the fuck?! He thought he was going to spend the rest of his life with Kaede and she left so abruptly and almost violently, of course he's going to be traumatized and need a lot of time to cope with it! He's going to need at least months, if not years, to get over it! Breakups can be extremely devastating, but broken engagements are even more so. Hell, I've had to be hospitalized after I had a breakup once because I was so depressed that several mental professionals did not think I could keep myself safe if I was left at home. So, I know from personal experience that some people need a LOT of time to heal. Don't tell Shuichi he's annoying because he's still dealing with his trauma, that's fucked up.

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"Kaede's such a fucking whore for breaking up with Shuichi!!"

Again, the disrespect! Yes, I understand that in this story she did something bad to Shuichi that left him traumatized, but Kaede's a person too. As obsessed as I am with Shuichi and even the idea of him being sad will put me into a blind rage, please don't shit talk Kaede for what she did in this story. Although fucked up, she did have her own reasons for acting the way she did and although I didn't explain them very well since Shuichi was the one having the flashbacks and not Kaede, she did have reasons.

Also, once again, Kaede is a huge comfort character for me. To see her receive so much hate just... I can't stand it. It makes me sad to see all this hate towards her. Again, I don't care if you were "just joking" because only assholes joke about that and think it's funny. Shit talking others as a joke isn't healthy and if that's your main sense of humor, you need a new outlet.

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"My lesbian ass reading this like"

Okay, what-

Lesbians are girls attracted to GIRLS. Shuichi is a BOY. If you're a lesbian... why the hell are you reading this? I love seeing that several users of Wattpad are LGBT like myself, but if you're a lesbian why are you reading x readers for male characters? If it was Omasai or Saimatsu or something then it would at least make sense why you were reading this book, but this is a READER INSERT. If you, the reader, are lesbian, that doesn't make any sense because you can't feel any attraction to Shuichi in that way. And if you do... you might be bi or pan and not lesbian. I'm not here to tell you what your orientation is, but lesbians feel absolutely zero attraction towards men, so I just don't understand why you'd read this book unless it was a dare or something.

EDIT {3/27/21}

Lots of lesbians have commented and said that liking fictional characters has no impact on your sexuality. Sorry, but I'd personally have to disagree. Psychology has shown that our brains really don't know the difference between fictional characters and real people, so while you consciously know they're fictional, your brain doesn't "truly" understand that concept if that makes any sense. Plus, when I turn 18 next year I plan on literally getting married to Shuichi {I've looked it up and the USA, aka where I live, does legally recognize marriage to fictional characters}. I've wanted to marry him since 2018. Given those points, I just don't understand how a person could claim fictional characters have zero impact on your sexuality.

If somebody would explain a situation where it doesn't impact your sexuality to be attracted to a fictional character, I'd appreciate that because I literally don't understand. I'm not trying to invalidate or attack anybody, I'm just stating what I understand. What I've been told so far are a lot of claims {fictional people don't influence sexuality} with no real proof or evidence to back it up, as well as people complaining I'm trying to invalidate them. No, I just don't understand your point and I'm looking for a way to understand.

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"OMG READER STOP WITH THE 'CUTE' ACT IT'S SO GROSS!!!"

Damn okay then-? In all seriousness, do THAT many people despise cute acts? I put it in the story because I thought it was... well... CUTE. I know some people kinda have that, "I hate the uwu cutsie people," attitude but I didn't realize this many people apparently found it gross. Well... if you find it gross...

UwU tee hee I'm secretly one of your so hated cuties♪~ So get the fuck off my profile, 'kay★~? I don't take kindly to being oppressed, directly or indirectly ♥

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"Omg I'm a boy why does it say she/her"

Because you make up literally about 2% of my reader base. Hey, guess what? I'm a boy too. Guess what? I read fanfic with she/her in it too. Guess what? I don't give a shit about the pronouns. If you feel uncomfortable or you're trans and it's making you feel dysphoric, then stop reading. Don't force yourself to read something if it makes you feel uncomfortable.

I could technically replace everything with they/them and make the reader gender neutral or I could change all pronouns to be she/he/they but I'm too lazy to change ALL the pronouns in this book referring to the reader to be something like that. Plus, since I've been writing female readers for years, I'd probably miss several of them on accident.

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"Omg author-chan don't talk bad about this book!! It was awesome!!!"

First of all, don't call me "author-chan." I have a name, and it's Shaun. Calling me 'author' because you don't know my name honestly makes me feel kinda hurt. Like... at the very least use my username if you don't know my name? Damn.

Anyways, I've never truly shit talked this book. Yes, I've stated that I'm unhappy with this book and that there's several things wrong with it, but it's not shit talking my book. It's being TRUTHFUL about it. And people who just say, "I liked your story so don't talk down about it!" are annoying to me. The truth is negative and I can't change that. Deal with it. The truth is this book was poorly written because I wrote it so I could get more reads. It was never made with quality in mind, and it shows.

If I was truly shit talking this book, I'd say something like it was a complete mistake or a waste of time and nothing good came out of it, which is an outright lie. At the very least, it accomplished its goal of getting reads. That right there is something good, which therefore makes the statement 'nothing good' a lie. That also therefore means it wasn't a mistake or a waste of time because IT ACCOMPLISHED ITS GOAL!! Plus, I learned lessons from trying to write a book purely for reads, such as: if you want quality then DON'T DO IT FOR THE READS YOU IDIOT!!! DO IT BECAUSE YOU FEEL PASSIONATE ABOUT IT!!

However, being really positive is also a lie. Yes, there's a lot of good things that came from this story, but that doesn't mean I'm happy with the story itself. There's good AND bad that came with this story, but on this occasion it happens to be mostly bad. There's some stories where mostly good came out of it, but unfortunately this story is not one of those.

I don't shit talk my stories and neither do I give them more praise than they're worth. I'm truthful about them because kind lies and negative lies aren't my thing. One leads to false ideas of being one of the world's greatest writers and the other leads to false ideas of being one of the world's shittiest writers. Neither of those are true. I'm bipolar {which has been professionally diagnosed by two different people}, and the more I feed either my depression or mania with exaggerated positivity or negativity, the more likely I am to fall into an episode of the respective side. So please stop trying to give this book more praise than it's worth, it could trigger a manic episode and I can become seriously dangerous to others during mania. That's why being truthful about my own work is so important to me and why seeing empty praise or empty hate makes me so pissed off and annoyed. If I let either of those sides get to me it can cause some serious damage, either to myself or others.

I don't mean to use my bipolar as an excuse or something, it's actually a safety concern. Seriously. While mania might seem like a good idea to outsiders who know like nothing about bipolar disorder... it's not. It's true I'll only seem to have good things to say about myself and literally anything I've done, but that in turn creates a false imprint in my mind that no matter what I do I am a perfect human being and therefore consequences do not apply to me because I'm perfect and nobody would get in the way of someone who was perfect because they're always in the right. This quickly turns dangerous, and I don't think I need to explain why. As far as depression goes, well... nothing good can possibly come out of it unless for some reason some sadist wanted to see me suffer. So, do me a favor and don't feed me false praise or false hate.

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"My 12 yo ass reading this like"

You're literally breaking Wattpad's terms of service for being younger than 13 and I will be obligated to report you. Wattpad collects data on its users and Wattpad, along with literally every other website and social media site, is not allowed to collect data on people that are younger than 13 in order to protect their privacy. So... basically if you're 12 or younger and using Wattpad you're also putting Wattpad at legal risk because they're collecting data on someone younger than 13. Since you claimed to be at least 13 when you signed up they have at least that to legally back them up a little, but if they learn you're not actually at least 13 they will have to delete all the data they collected on you as well as ban your account so they remain compliant with the law. Sorry, I didn't make the rules.

By the way, for those of you who are curious on if I'm following the rules myself, I turn 17 in April 2021. Pretty sure 17 is greater than 13... wait, maybe it's not. Oops, better go ask 1chi.

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Well... there's some other comments that bothered me but I don't see them chronically or there's no real reason for me to be bothered by them {such as incorrect predictions about the book} so I didn't include them.

That's all♪