From that moment on my days became instantly brighter. I was with Jack everyday and everyday I felt love. And then, I felt things were getting different. Everyday we used to meet during lunch behind a building in school just so we could be alone. And I loved being alone with him. It gave us time to talk and... Other things... (Ew kissing gross lolol) but I thought it was normal. Then one day when we met, I felt things starting to go too far, things I would never thought he would do, he would slowly start doing. I'm not gonna go into detail, but if your trying to find out what I'm talking about, don't let your imagination go out of the box. It was nothing bad now that I look back, but for my first relationship,  I was more scared than ever. During lunch I would no longer go to the spot we had and he noticed right away. Vanessa helped me out and I told her everything. I think the way I handled everything was bad, cause I just stopped talking to him. I had tried to talk to him and tell him how I felt. He would say he understood, and the next day it's as if we never spoke of it. So I avoided him and til this day I still regret how I took the situation. I could have sat down and really tried to talk to him or something else but I guess this was what I thought was right. So when I stopped talking to him, he thought I broke up with him. If you broke up with someone wouldn't you tell them?  Exactly. I think he should have asked me what was wrong, in my opinion.

When did this turn into me trying to figure out my problems??  Idk. 

Anyways, one morning I went to go tell him I was sorry and apologize. I walked up to him and told him I needed to talk to him. He ignored me and continued to talk to his friend. I poked him on the shoulder and tried again. He shrugged me off and continued to talk. I started to walk away when Vanessa tried to stop me to try again by grabbing my arm. I told her to let me go and when she wouldn't,  I screamed "VANESSA LET ME GO HE DOESN'T CARE!!" I yanked my arm away and walked away. And like the sad trash I am, I walked into a corner of the small gym and sat their. And as if God knew what happened, it started to rain. I put up my umbrella and started at the dark clouds in the sky ahead of me. I avoided everyone that day. A night or two later, I got a text from him.

J: I'm sorry, maybe its better that we're not dating. Honestly I liked it better when I was single. I just don't love you.

I fucking broke. I don't think I've cried so much in one sitting that month. Oh yeah, there's more. After a few days, winter school dance came around. I decided to go with Vanessa. I had had so much fun that night, and yes Jack was their. I just ignored him and danced my night away, AKA until 9 when we had to leave. Well nine o'clock hit, and the beginning of When I Was Your Man started to play. He almost cut it off, but everyone wanted to end the night with that song. It started to play and everyone got with their friend, bf, gf, literally anyone. I ran outside and sat on a bench holding back my tears. I missed Jack. I wished he had noticed I was sorry. I ran back inside and went to find him to try one last time. I looked around and saw him sitting on a bench alone. I went up to him and was about to saw something. When he looked up, and walked out the door next to him. I thought he saw me and hated me, turns out that a friend of his was laughing at him behind me and he got mad. Whoops. Anyways, my night ended on such a bad note that when I got picked up and taken home, I fell onto my bed and just cried. The next morning, I turned on my laptop webcam and hit record. I talked about my current relationship with him, unedited, full of tears and apologies. The whole point of that video was to apologize to him even though I knew he'd never see it. It was made to get my real feeling out when I knew he wouldn't listen. I posted it to my channel cause I knew my friends watched my videos and I didn't think I could talk about it in person without dying. I went to school that Monday with my head held high and for a few days I felt like I was floating on air. One night, I was watching Youtube when my phone started ringing. I didn't look at the name and answered it. It was Jack, in tears. I don't remember much, but this is about the gist of it.

T: Hello?

J: I'm sorry.

T: ... Your not the one who should be sorry. I fucked up, so don't feel sorry.

J: I just saw that you made a new video, I saw the title and panicked.

T: It's okay, I told you its not your fault. I'm fine, really.

J: Okay, I need to go. Bye.

T: Bye.

So that was about it. I ended up taking down the video cause I felt bad. 

Fast forward after nothing interesting straight to Valentines Day. Ah yes, the day where I go grab a horror movie from my shelf and eat out a carton of Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream. That day wasn't going to be any different than years before. My aunt decided to take me over to Michael's house to hang out that night. We were all gathered around the TV watching some horror movie when my phone dinged. I walked out t check it and it was a text from Jack.

J: Can I have another chance?

Oh holy shit, REALLY DUDE?? OF ALL NIGHTS YOU CHOOSE TO RUIN YOU CHOOSE VALENTINES DAY???  I sent him back.

T: I don't know.

J: Please, I just want another chance. I just want to talk again.

I didn't know what to say, my family didn't have good relationships with second chances, not getting into it. Like an idiot, I ended up doing it. But he had a condition. He wanted to keep it a secret. Again, I did it. So like before, we met in private to do whatever. Even sometimes after school. It was about March or April, when one day we met up and he wanted to talk. 'Good job Taylor, you done fucked up again.' Nope. We met and he started off by saying he didn't want to break up, but save our relationship for High School. He said with finals and everything happening at the end of the year he wanted to put all his time into me when he could. So, again I said I would wait. By that point we had already been found out by Vanessa and Michael. So after our conversation, we kissed (Ew I know) and we parted ways. I told Vanessa what happened and she said I'd be fine. So instead of understanding and letting me be alone, what does she do? 

GOES OUT AND FINDS ME A NEW BOYFRIEND.

She decides, hey I'm gonna hook you up with my lonely friend Mark. So she gave him my instagram and we talked. Now, I wasn't looking for someone to date. Like I said before, I was waiting for Jack. So when he asked me out, I said no, or I wanted to wait but I wasn't sure. The next morning while I'm sitting under the table we sit at at breakfast (Don't question me there was never any room to sit) I see something I didn't want to. Jack. Rubbing Tiffany's inner thigh.

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Now you can probably imagine me in shock wondering why I'm not tabling flipping this shit and calling him out. But no, I walked out with my cheeks angry red and everyone wondering why I was leaving. I didn't look back. I made a promise that I wouldn't go their for lunch or breakfast anymore. I couldn't bare to see that again. The day went on in a blur, and I got home to see one of my friends messaged me. She asked if I was okay. I told her I was fine. And forgetting that she didn't know about me and Jack's second relationship, I told her I was not going to wait around and I was going to date Mark. She knew Mark very well, they were friends and so when she heard the news, she was very happy for us, even though I hadn't even talked to him about it. She got so happy in fact, when she got to school the next morning, she told everybody their. Including Jack and Tiffany. Tiffany didn't know any better, but I'm pretty sure he was upset. That night when Mark tried again to ask me out, I said yes. What else did I have to lose. I got to school the same morning my friend told everyone about me and Mark. I walked inside, only cause I had to meet Vanessa their, and my friend ran up to me going "OMG YOU AND MARK ARE SO CUTE YOU HAVE TO MEET HIM ON FRIDAY" Obviously people over heard so they got all curious. But I didn't tell anybody, I didn't want everyone to hear it from me. It was set. I was to meet him on Friday and I was terrified.

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I didn't realize I was typing so much lol. Okay I'm gonna work on the next part rn. OH! I'm so sorry I've been gone for so long, I kinda forgot I had a Wattpad even though I read some at least once a week... Okay, hugs, kisses, love ya!