maybe i deserve this pain, this hell

not the real world, no, not this one

the one i live in, the one i call home

maybe i deserve this, to be hurt in every way, in every shape

in every dimension, in every aspect

i deserve this, this glass

this glass that shatters me into tiny pieces

and i know, i know, i won't recover

the world is playing with me, making me suffer

the days get tougher and tougher

i know, it will only get rougher

my body can't take this

my will can't shake this

i'll die trying to save this

i'll be forever faceless

so now i know, i deserve this

pain is not an enemy

some kind of sinister energy

now it's becoming a part of me

breaking me like celery

does this have a remedy?

you will get through this, said he

don't you know, don't you understand, i'm trying, but it's just not meant to be?

can you not see?

i'm drowning in the sea

please,

save me.