Okay, so I know this is really out of the blue, but I want to touch on an important subject. A subject that you all might not handle too well, so trigger warning because I'm gonna talk about suicide.

And also be warned because I'm sharing my own opinion and if you get offended, that's not my fault. I'm only sharing my personal beliefs towards this heart-wrenching topic.

So, to me, suicide is...is a weird way to go. Like, I know it's not that uncommon, but...I don't know. I've become sort of dull to it by now, though that doesn't mean I still won't cry over things like that. But, this is mostly due to media: ya know the whole "oh this man committed suicide after he murdered his family," or "the main character's old school friend committed suicide and left a mystery to be solved". Just stuff like that.  And even when people threaten suicide, it gets to a point where it becomes a ridiculous shenanigan. You all know what I'm talking about and don't pretend you haven't come across this situation before, yo.

And, as insensitive as this sounds, suicide is a very intense form of just giving up everything. The scary thing about it, though, is that suicide is a decision. You don't choose to die by homicide, and you wouldn't know you'd die when that random car that wasn't supposed be driving just came and slammed you into the pavement. Suicide is something else. It's a conscious choice when you're at the end of your rope and you've reached the edge of an abyss. You choose, you plan, and if things come to it, you complete it. It's scary.

I'm not saying that suicide isn't serious, nah mate, it's pretty fuckin' serious. As much as I don't like it, no one should ever make fun of someone who killed themselves. It's disrespectful and disgusting. Even a joking "kill urself" is fucking rude and I'll hate you for many millennia to come.

Yet, even with this, I will still believe that suicide is not any way to go. Yeah, dying isn't something we want, but it's gonna happen whether we like it or not. We just have to make the most of life and appreciate the little things that help us become the person we truly are.

Back to what I said about suicide being a form of giving up...it is. Honestly. In most cases, people make that decision and desperately act on it. That shouldn't be an option. No matter how shitty your situation is, you can get out of it, you can fix it. Don't even try to tell me you can't, because you're a human being and you're capable of great things. Never let suicide be one of them. (Or homicide for that matter. Don't do genocide either. Just don't do bad shit, alright?) Whatever your demons, you can expel them.

Life isn't easy, everyone knows that by now. Hell, little kids are already going through existential crises'. If that doesn't speak volumes, I don't know what will. Life is gonna engulf you, constrict you, shoot you out onto the dirt, and drag you back into the hell that is itself. It sucks. But, that's not all it is. Life can be beautiful, too, and people have to live to see all that it has to offer.

Suicide is a terrible way to go. It shouldn't be the way to go. People suffer from illnesses like the infamous cancer. People suffer from mental problems like depression, anxiety, PTSD, bipolar, the works. People suffer from their own disabilities: born with vitamin deficiencies, stuff like hemophilia, weak immune systems, being born paraplegic, autism and other things they can't control completely. People suffer from self-harming a lot. Yes, you can die from cancer. Yes, you can't die from your anxiety and depression. Yes, you can die from your disabilities. Yes, you can die from your self-harming (pretty much suicide). But, suicide is saying that you aren't willing to try to fight through all of that.

Don't say you have no other way out. Like I said, it's a choice, but not the choice. Fight through your problems, regardless if you think you're about to fall. And it's not like you're doing it alone, there are people to help you, whether it be friends, family, parental figures or specialized officials. Never lose hope. Everyone has a journey ahead of them and they have to experience it in all its glory.

If one my best friends ever committed suicide (and I hope to every god that humanity had to offer that that never happens), yeah, I would be devastated. More than devastated, I'd be completely shattered, ruined, broken from the inside out until I was nothing. But I would never, ever take my life in that sadness. It's a crushing feeling and one that never truly leaves, but I'd fight through it. I'd want to remember that friend for who they were in life and not as they are in death. I'd want to remember the good times and keep them to heart, and I'd keep in mind that they would never want me to go the way they did. I'll be damned if I ever, ever lose to anything or anyone. I want to win and experience life, even if it's pretty fucking shitty. I want to fight for my god damn happiness, even if it means I have to suffer for it. And I will especially never, ever lose to myself. I'd rather die fighting for my life than giving up on it. I think that people should try to think this way, at least for some time.

Don't worry much, also. Nothing happened to trigger me, I'm fine. The subject just came to mind and I felt I needed to get this off of my chest.

If you are feeling suicidal, or have ever attempted it, please seek help. I know many people probably tell you that, but it's for a good reason. There are people out there that have dedicated their lives and careers to helping those who suffer from suicidal thoughts and anything else that might induce them.

You can fight your demons. It's a little rough and you'll get tossed around, but I know you can win and be free from it. You're strong and capable, and you need to tell yourself that as much as you can until it's everything you believe in.

Thank you, and have a good day/night.

See ya.