Another day, another fight I get home why do I even try. Nothing ever goes my way and when they do I usually mess them up. I have so many things to do but all I want to do is lay in my room. I can't really hide because my house is always full, I never had the best life and I still don't. I have to do homework, study, take care of my family, and even if I want to brake down and cry I can't. I have to stay strong for my family because when being the oldest you crack or burn, always have to be strong never show weakness because if you do it will come crashing down. That's what I feel every single day of my life, because being the oldest comes with more responsibilities than what I ask for and I never show my dark thoughts because if I do all I have been doing will be for nothing. It could all collapse in a millisecond. So I push myself to be a role model, to be strong, and to never show weakness.

But can I?
How long can I keep it up?
When will I shatter?