Chapter Fourteen.

JUSTIN:

            It was spaghetti night at the house for the week and as usual, everything was hectic. Pots and pans were clattering, Mark and Colby were yelling about nothing, and Reina and Casey were talking in the corner about god only knows what. Probably about the wedding.

            Scott and I were busy preparing the meal. I was cutting up the peppers and the onions and Scott was stirring the sauce, also finishing the meatballs at the same time.

            "It's gonna be ready in like fifteen minutes." Scott said to everyone.

            "Can I taste the sauce?" Mark asked, picking up a spoon from the table.

            "Yeah."

            Scott poured a little into a bowl and handed it over to him, Mark carrying the bowl back over to the table so he could sit down. Reina and I haven't really spoken to each other tonight. Mostly because of the awkwardness of last time. That was exactly why I didn't want to sleep with her because I knew this would happen if we acted more than friends. She wanted us to be more and I just wasn't ready for it yet.

            "Shit!" Mark laughed. "Oh my god I'm sorry Reina."

            Looking up from the cutting board, Mark had spilled the bowl of sauce onto Reina's lap by accident. She was wearing white pants unfortunately and she immediately stood up from it being so hot, glaring at Mark before she just let out a sigh and grabbed a napkin.

            "It's okay." She said. "You didn't mean to."

            "It looks like you got your period." Colby chuckled. "Ew."

            "Stop Colby." I muttered, everyone turning to look at me. "Don't make fun of her."

            Reina sent me a small smile and before I could suggest anything Mark gave her another napkin and sent her a sheepish look.

            "Just go upstairs and borrow a pair of my sweats Reina. Okay? It's fine."

            Then my eyes narrowed at him and then I brought my gaze to hers, who was looking directly at me. I shouldn't be jealous. I know I shouldn't be but I was and I can't help it. I don't want her wearing any other guy's clothes except mine. My sweats were the only ones allowed on her body.

            "Thanks Mark." She said. "I'll uh, I'll be right back."

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REINA:

            I haven't been in his room in so long. I was supposed to be in Mark's but instead I was in Justin's room, closing the door gently behind me to block out the laughter from downstairs. Should I be in here? Probably not. I should go to Mark's room but it's been forever since I've seen his room and thankfully it hasn't changed any. It looked the same since I was last in it.

            My plan for tonight originally was to flirt with Justin. After I heard him say what he did to Scott I was going to try and send him little hints that I was ready. I don't know if he was picking them up or not but this seemed like a good place to start.

            Mark I couldn't find any of yours so I just grabbed a pair of Justin's. Is that okay with you Justin?

            Smirking to myself at the genius plan, I started to laugh as I opened up the familiar drawer I've opened hundreds of times and grabbed my favorite Nike ones that I wore to bed many nights. He used to get mad because they were his favorite too.

            My jeans came off and as soon as I went to put the sweatpants on the bedroom door opened and Justin stood there in shock, his eyes growing wide before he closed them and looked away.

            "Sorry. I uh, didn't know you'd be in here?"

            My plan was going better than expected so I turned my back towards him so my ass was sticking out, shimmying into the sweatpants so it shook and I could tell he was watching me again. I wanted him to.

            "Can I wear these?" I asked.

            "Yeah. I was actually coming up to here to grab you a pair... looks like you beat me to it though."

            "You were?"

            I turned to look at him again and he just gave me a little smile, leaning his back against the door as he looked at me. What I wanted to do right now was jump on him and make out like crazy. I wanted to take his damn sweats off and kiss him everywhere. Make him so happy....

            "I didn't want you wearing a pair of Mark's." He smirked. "Not really my cup of tea to share."

            Sending him a smirk back, I started to twirl a piece of hair around my fingertip and started to walk over towards him. He didn't know what to do. He was trying to control himself and he cleared his throat when I reached his body. The funny thing is that he thinks I'm going to give him what he wants right now. Although I'd like that, like I said, it's his decision. He has to make the first move.

            I brought my lips close to his ear and he was trying desperately to not touch me.  He was breathing heavily, his tongue licking his bottom lip, his eyes closing for a split second. He was anticipating it. He was waiting for me to kiss him but unfortunately today wasn't his lucky day.

            "How can you share something that isn't yours?"

            With a twist of the handle, I held back my laughter and left without another word.

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JUSTIN:

            She left me breathless, my whole body breaking out into a sweat, my dick hard as a rock and my heart beating out of my chest. I couldn't even breathe and for a second, I felt like opening up the door again and pulling her right back in here. I wanted to teach her a fucking lesson but god, she was right. She wasn't mine.

            Locking my door, I slid down my sweats and briefs, immediately going over to my bed. I needed to jack off. Otherwise I'd be hard for dinner and it's not like it wouldn't be obvious.

            "Fuck..." I sighed, beginning to stroke myself. All I could think about was her when she bit her lip like that and twirled her hair around her finger. The way she always looked like that before we'd fuck...

            I'm so wet

            Justin fuck me

            Right there, baby. Just like that!

            Oh my god our memories were running through my head. All of the times she'd bend over for me and all of the times I'd fuck the shit out of her.  The fantasy that kept running through my mind though was her in this tight little lingerie outfit. She's never worn lingerie for me before but I always pictured her in these crotch-less panties and a corset every time I got off.

            Stroking harder, I couldn't even breathe from how hard I was. I wanted her to come finish me off and put her perfect lips all over me. I wanted her to suck me off and I wanted her to let me come on her tongue. I wanted to watch her swallow. Oh my god.

            Grabbing a sock from the top drawer, I released my load into that after letting out a moan, resting my back against the dresser from how good that just felt. It'd feel a lot better though if she was the one that did it.

            I tossed the sock into my laundry basket after another five minutes or so and slid my briefs and sweats back on, washing my hands in the bathroom before I went downstairs and grabbed a bowl. Reina was looking at me with that stupid smirk on her face. That smirk that knew exactly what I was just doing.

            "What were you doing?" Mark asked. "It's been like fifteen minutes."

            "Nothing." I muttered, sinking down into a chair. "I was just trying to find my charger."

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JUSTIN:

            In English she was playing games with me. I don't know what's gotten into her or why she's acting so different but she's making it so damn hard for me to be around her. I can't even look at her now without picturing her bent over for me. I think that's because it's been so long since we've had sex and I know I need to calm myself down but it seems like it's impossible. It honestly does.

            Every time I kept staring at her she'd get a little smirk on her face but she wouldn't look at me. She never sat closer to me either. She always sat on the opposite side of the room. I've thought about moving my seat but she was right. She's not mine until I make her mine but I can't make up my mind. You'd think by now I'd know but I don't. I can't make up my mind.

            Why does it have to be like this with us? It's my fault and I know that but I just wish we could go back to normal. I wish we could just get back to the way things were but until I'm completely sober this just can't happen between us and I think she knew that too. But damn was she a good tease.

            "Read chapter four in the text and answer the questions on page 104 for Tuesday. I hope you all have a nice day."

            Our professor sent us a smile and class was let out. I gathered my books as quickly as I could and jogged up to Reina, who had just reached the door.

            "Hey." I said, grasping my books a little tighter. "What are you doing later?"

            "Um... I don't know. Why?"

            She wasn't even paying attention to me and that bothered me. Instead she was texting on her phone and I wanted to know who it was. I wanted to know who she was texting.

            "I was thinking we could hang out? Like maybe watch a movie or something?"

            "Are you sure that's a good idea?"

            Finally looking up from her phone, she gave me a small smile and I just rolled my eyes.

            "It won't turn out like last time." I said. "That was a one time thing."

            "Oh yeah?"

            "Um, yeah. It's not my fault you did that. If it were up to me that wouldn't have happened Reina."

            Then it looked like she got irritated for a second.

            "Right." She scoffed. "Of course."

            "Reina I told you that I need time. We're friends for right now and I thought you were okay with that."

            "It's just harder than I thought, okay? It's difficult trying to act like we weren't like that. It's hard to be alone in a room with you and not want to do those things to you. I understand that you need time Justin but you also need to understand that I need time to adjust to this. I'm not used to being just friends. We've always been more than that."

            Putting my hands into the pockets of my jeans, I let out a sigh of frustration and just looked down at the pavement. She doesn't understand how difficult it is for me either but it's so hard. I want to be more but I just need more time. Just a little more time.

            "So you don't want to hang out then?" I asked.

            "No we can. I mean, I guess so."

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            When we got to her dorm room she turned on the TV and plopped down onto her bed. Normally, well, back when we were together, we'd get underneath the covers and she had this thing where she just had to lay on my left side. It could never be the right. Now I'm standing here awkwardly on what to do. I don't know whether I should sit on Casey's bed or on her bed with her.

            "Why did you want to hang out?" She asked.

            "Because I wanted to spend time with you?"

            She blushed and looked down at her fingertips.

            "Oh."

            Crawling onto her bed beside her, I kind of took her by surprise I think. I didn't try to touch her or anything, I just put my back up against the headboard and grabbed the remote to try and find a movie to watch. We've done this so many damn times. Why is it so awkward now?

            "The Grudge." She smirked when her eyes scanned the screen. "C'mon, it's a classic."

            "No. I hate that movie."

            "Because you hate all scary movies. Pleaseeee?"

            Batting her eyelashes at me, I just rolled my eyes and started to scan through the other titles. That movie scared the shit out of me. No way in hell was I going to watch it.

            "I do not hate all scary movies." I muttered.

            "Oh right, my bad. You're just scared of all of them."

            "I'm not scared!" I laughed. "Fuck you Reina."

            She could tell I was joking because I was trying not to smile. I didn't look at her, I just continued to scroll through the channels and she remained silent.

            "What? Are you mad now?"

            She still didn't say anything.

            "Reina." I said, nudging her with my elbow. "C'mon. You know I hate when you do that."

            Before I could think of what I was doing, I crawled on top of her and immediately froze when she was on her back and I was staring down at her, her eyes all wide-like. This is just what I used to do and now this was completely out of context. I shouldn't have done this.

            "Do you want to watch it that badly?" I asked breathlessly, trying everything to not kiss her. "Reina?"

            She nodded her head, currently unable to speak.

            "Okay... then we'll watch it."

            Crawling off of her just as quickly as I crawled on, I selected the movie and just stared at the TV screen to try and calm my heart down. She wasn't saying anything either. We were both just staring at the movie in silence.

            "Are you mad at me?" I asked her. "I'm sorry for doing that. I know I'm giving you mixed signals and I'm trying not to play with your head."

            "I'm not mad. Like I said, it's just hard. I get that."

            "Well can you lay with me then? You don't have to be so far away. I don't bite."

            "You said-"

            "I know what I said." I sighed. "Just come here please."

            Without another word she moved a little closer to me and laid down, almost so her side was touching mine.

            "Closer." I whispered, pulling her directly on top of me. Now she was staring at me, her stomach on top of mine, our hearts beating at a rapid speed. I know what I'm doing is unfair to her. I know and I can't stop it.

            "Justin." She smiled, brushing her fingertips against my cheek. "Do you know how badly I want to kiss you right now?"

            Running my hands down her back, I stopped when it reached her lower and sent her a smile back.

            "I know." I soothed, tucking a strand of hair behind her ear. "I'm trying Reina. Please believe me when I tell you that."

            "But friends don't do this... this isn't what friends do."

            "Reina I'm taking baby steps. Okay? This is what I'm starting with. It's hard enough trying to control myself right now but I wanted to do this."

            Letting out a sigh of defeat, she brushed her thumb across my bottom lip and turned around so she could sink in-between my thighs, her head right on my stomach. I missed cuddling with her and when my hands went around her neck she took my breath away and held onto them. She hasn't done that in so long. It reminds me of when she first did that back at the frat house last year.

            "I love that." I blurted out, instantly regretting it.

            "Love what?" She giggled. "When I hold your hands?"

            "Yeah. I love that. So much."

            "Well I-" Then she stopped herself, letting out another sigh. "Love doing it. I uh, I love doing it."

A/N:

Okay so I combined two chapters... to make a longer chapter.

I was shocked by the comments about how i've been slacking lately. I'm sorry if you guys feel that way... I just thought by splitting the chapters up so it would be longer you guys would like that but note taken. I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter.

I've been trying to take a little time off since school just ended. I just needed a break and i hope you guys can understand that. I'm trying to keep up with everything but it's just been difficult.

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