WARNING: MENTIONS SUICIDAL THOUGHTS/VULGAR LANGUAGE

Also sorry for any grammar mistakes I haven't read it over

Jin's POV

The first thing I felt when I regained consciousness was my head pounding like crazy. After I blinked my eyes a few times to adjust my vision I looked around the room and saw that I was sitting in a bedroom tied to a wooden chair. There was a chair next to me and rope on the ground that seemed to be cut. Confused I tried to think back at the last thing I remembered.

Let's see I obviously went to school like the good kid I am..Namjoon dropped me at Mark's apartment to do a project with him....oh my god.

Did I just get kidnapped? I know I'm good looking but they can just walk and stare not abduct me and keep me as a pet. Well it's best not to panic and see if this pretty brain of mine comes up with a way to get out of here. Then I remembered wasn't Mark with me too? Is that why the chair is next to me? Did he already come up with a plan before me and left me here to die? What a good friend. Before I was about to lose all hope the door opened and revealed a bruised up Mark who quickly came over to me to untie my hands.

"Mark are you okay? What happened?" I asked worriedly. Mark looked at me and smiled which confused me a bit.

"You care about me?" He asked.

"Of course. Why wouldn't I? Friends care for each other don't they?" Mark scoffed and rolled his eyes as he stopped helping me and walk away from me clearly annoyed. I felt myself start to shake knowing I trigger something in him.

He had a stern expression on his face as he said "Is that all you see me as? After all I had to do for you to like me? I've been putting so much effort into this and you're completely clueless."

Still confused and scared I asked "Clueless to what?" Angered, Mark walked towards me and closely stood before me.

"That I'm fucking in love with you."

"Oh" was all I could say as I was loss for words.

"Right from the start I had a feeling someone like you could love someone like me who's broken inside. I thought you could fix me you know? But you just keep tearing me up inside Jin. You keep me running around in circles leaving me to chase my own shadow. Don't you know how that makes me feel!"

Now Mark was really getting worked up which terrified Jin even more than he already was.

Trying to calm down the situation or mainly just him Jin asked "Please calm down Mark. Let's settle this in a calmer manner."

Mark just laughed in his face.

"You don't get to tell me to calm down. I planned this for you to fall in love with me! I was suppose to be your hero. I even hurt myself so it could look real but it was all for nothing I guess" Mark sighed walking to the drawer that was besides the window.

Jin felt his mind spinning at the whole situation. He felt bad for Mark but at the same time Mark was also at fault but Mark didn't want to admit it. Jin closed his eyes and tried to trick himself that this was just a dream. He was almost convinced it was until he heard a gun cock. Jin immediately opened his eyes and saw Mark held a pistol in his hands.

"M-Mark please whatever you do I'm sure we can find a way out of this. We can find a way to help you" Jin begged as he felt tears pour out of his eyes. Jin wouldn't die like this. Not now. He still had a lot to live for and so did Mark. Jin knew if Mark did anything stupid he would regret it and ruin his already fucked up life, maybe even end it. Jin had to save the both of them. Thankfully before Mark had made the ropes lose so it would be easier for Jin to get out of it's tight grip. Patience is key.

"You were my help but you rejected me. You left me to watch you be happy as I stayed here and cried for you. You were suppose to make me happy but all you ever did was left me dead inside. I can't let you get away with that. I can't let you take my heart away without taking it back myself" Mark replied as he held the gun directly towards me. Swallowing my fear and taking a deep breath I thought of a way to distract him.

"Okay. I admit it. You were right Mark and I'm sorry. I'm sorry I couldn't love you the way you wanted me too. You really are an amazing person and I'm sad you don't see that. Anyone could love someone like you Mark. I strongly believe that but you are just too afraid of being hurt. I understand that but you cannot force something that is not meant to be. You have you're own happily ever after and it's just not me. He's actually closer than you think. You have just been searching in the wrong person" Jin told Mark as he successfully broke away from the ropes but held onto them not wanting Mark to see his motive. Mark looked down and pondered over what Jin had just told him. Jin took this chance to quickly get up from his chair and swiftly get to the gun that was in Mark's hands. Jin had a grasp on the pistol but Mark wouldn't let go. Both men struggled and pushed each other in the small room. Mark had his hand up and Jin pulled the trigger multiple times to at least get rid of the bullets. Mark finally pushed Jin to the ground and checked to see if there were any bullets left. Jin was quick on his feet to escape but Mark was quicker and beat him to the door.

"All it takes is just one bullet to end it all" Mark muttered closely examining the pistol.

"Mark we can help you" Jin tried again to change Mark's mind. "You don't have to go through this alone. We are willing to stand by your side but you have to be willing to do so too."

Jin could see Mark hesitating. He knew there was still part of him that screamed for someone to help him.

As Mark was still debating on what to do the door flew open with a concerned and tear stained Jackson. Namjoon was behind him but he waited till Jackson was talking to Mark so he could get to Jin and quickly take him out of there.

"M-Mark? Hey are you alright?" Jackson tried to ask in a calmly matter. Jackson took slow steps towards him.

"Go away Jackson. You're interrupting my thoughts right now."

"What are your thoughts?"

Mark was silent for a bit until he spoke up.

"I wanted to hurt Jin so so bad for not loving me back but now I realize I'm stupid. I'm the stupidest asshole to exist and now I don't feel like existing Jackson. I keep making his life a living nightmare when all I wanted was the opposite for him. He deserves someone better than me. He deserves someone who would love him for who he is and all his unique features in his appearance and personality. He deserves someone who would make his day brighter than the sun ever could and have someone to talk to about his deepest and darkest secrets that may worry and stress him. I was jealous that someone wasn't me but it was Namjoon. If I could turn back time the only thing I would of changed is my wrongful actions to Jin and to everyone I hurt but I wouldn't make Jin love me. He's happy with his life and it'll take me awhile to be happy the same way as him but that's the thing that surely is possible."

Jackson had already managed to have Mark in his arms and threw the gun as far away from then as possible. Mark was sobbing uncontrollably into Jackson's grip and and Jackson rocked them back and forth quietly. Jackson didn't care if his love for Mark was one sided as Mark's love for Jin. Jackson just wished for Mark to regain the happiness he once had.

Namjoon quickly rushed towards Jin and hugged him tightly. Jin wept in his embrace feeling safe once again. The other boys quickly came up the stairs and joined their sobbing friends.

Loud sirens were heard all around but they seemed to down out as the love and care that they had for one another overpowered that. They all knew they would overcome this situation together. It may be hard right now but soon they will meet with the sunshine that comes after the rain.

You see, life comes with it's ups and it's downs. Sometimes it might bring you down more often than anyone would like but it's up to you how you want to live your life. Your decisions are a crucial part of your life. They not only effect you but also other people around you. You may think that it doesn't or that maybe they just don't care but you are wrong if you think that way. Every single person on this earth is special and unique in their own way and they each bring a part of life that wasn't there before. You may think that you're 'taking up space' but you're actually filling up the emptiness that someone else was feeling. Learn from your mistakes and always be kind to those around you. Everyone goes through their own battles in life but it's up to us whether we want to keep fighting or give in.

Help is in all shapes and sizes you just have to be willing to want it.

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THERE IS ONE MORE CHAPTER LEFT AND IM SAD

I really hope I could make this book a little bit inspiring as I've grown and learned a bit. Please know you are loved and cared for by so many people. If you went/are going through a tough time please comment to show people how strong you are and that they can get through whatever they maybe be going through. I'll share a little story time in the last chapter :)

I honestly hoped you liked this chapter <3