Chapter Nine.

            Kissing Lexi wasn’t the same as kissing Reina. I’m not saying I felt anything emotional with Reina but Reina was just an overall better kisser than Lexi and as Lexi and I were making out on this couch, I couldn’t help but think of Reina’s damn self walking away from me completely bawling her eyes out.

            I said what I did out of anger. She pissed me off to no end but when I got back home last Friday after it happened and when I sat in my room for about a half hour by myself I realized I was the one in the wrong because she was right. Why should I be pissed? I knew from the beginning this thing between us wasn’t serious and I knew there was always a chance she’d get a boyfriend so why the hell am I so upset about it? Reina is just a girl but dammit she’s more than that. I don’t know why she’s something different to me but she just is and I can’t get her out of my damn head.

            Lexi started to giggle when I moved my hands down to her ass and that annoyed me because her laugh wasn’t like Reina’s. I don’t know why I keep comparing Lexi to Reina but I’ve done it at least fifty times today. Maybe it’s because she’ll be here soon for spaghetti night with her stupid damn boyfriend that’s keeping me from fucking her and I’m hoping and praying to god that the plan I have cooked up works. If she sees me all over Lexi maybe she’ll miss the way I used to kiss her and maybe, just maybe, she’ll end things with this asshole. A part of me knows there’s a slim chance this will work though because after the things I said to her I highly doubt she’d ever want to see me my face again in fact, I was shocked she even wanted to still come over tonight.

            “Ew.” Colby spat, sitting down on the opposite couch. “Get a room.”

            Lexi giggled again and I pulled away because I didn’t want to keep kissing her after that. Her laugh honestly turned me off.

            “Hey Colby, what time is-“

            Before I had the time to ask, the door opened and in walked Casey, who walked directly towards Scott to give him a kiss, and then Reina walked in with Jonah looking fine as hell like she always did. She was wearing a pair of blue jeans that hugged her hips so tightly and some high heeled knee high boots along with a pink sweater. She looked so sexy right now all I wanted to do was take her upstairs but I couldn’t because of stupid Jonah, who was currently holding her by the waist and kissing her cheek relentlessly. It made me want to puke.

            The sad thing though is Jonah was like mr.perfect. I swear nothing was wrong with him and to compete with Jonah was almost impossible. It’s like comparing a criminal to Jesus and in this case I was the criminal and Jonah was like Jesus. It’s like he never does anything wrong and I’m always the one that has to screw up and now I have to watch Reina with him. It bothered me to no end.

            Instead of Reina walking over towards me, she didn’t even look in my direction as she dragged Jonah into the kitchen to start a conversation with Scott and Casey.

            “What’s wrong?” Lexi asked me. “You seem upset.”

            “I’m not. I’m thirsty though so let’s go get a drink.”

            Rising to my feet, I let her go in front of me and admired her ass from behind. Lexi was gorgeous but if you compared her to Reina she was nothing. Reina was like some sort of model taken out of a magazine and Lexi was just a cute sorority college girl. Even though she was wearing an outfit similar to Reina’s hers didn’t turn me on like Reina’s did. Maybe that’s because Reina’s ass was sticking out so much right now I couldn’t even breathe and as soon as were in the kitchen I put my plan in gear, wrapping my arms around Lexi’s waist when we were in front of the fridge and kissed her gently on the neck as she looked for what she wanted.

            “Justin…” She laughed because I never do this stuff but I was doing it to show Reina that when I have a girl, I treat her good. That girl just wasn’t going to be her.

            “Hm? You’re so beautiful you know that?”

            Reina and Jonah were setting the table and when we turned back around I realized she wasn’t even paying attention to me. Her eyes weren’t even on us, they were drawn to Jonah and as she looked at him I realized in that moment just how much that guy meant to her. She was looking at him like he was her entire world and unfortunately we were just fuck buddies and that’s all we ever will be. I guess I’m fine with that because I don’t like her and I never will.

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            Like always, after dinner we were watching a movie and even though everyone was paying attention to the stupid television I wasn’t paying attention to it whatsoever. I was focused on Reina and Jonah and she was cuddled up to him, her head right on his chest and he kept stroking her hair and every once in awhile he’d bend down to whisper something to her and she’d smile and kiss his hand. I remember when we were like that except she didn’t look as happy I don’t think. Why would she when I’m not Jonah? I’ll never be like him.

            “I’m gonna get a drink.” I whispered to Lexi, letting out a sigh.

            Gently pushing her off of me, I ran my fingers through my hair and went out into the kitchen where it was dark and didn’t get a drink. I just needed to get away from all of them and be alone right now. I swear to god I’m losing my mind and is it normal for someone to take over your mind this way? What does it even mean when you can’t stop fucking thinking about someone and every time you see them with someone else you feel like throwing up or punching them square in the face?

            “Babe.” I heard Jonah whisper.

            For a second I thought Reina was with him but when he walked into the kitchen alone I sunk down behind the island as he paused in the dining room, holding a phone up to his ear.

            “I know. I promise I’ll be there soon, okay? I told you I had a family thing.”

            My heart completely froze for a second and now I’m trying to figure out how it’s humanly possible to want to kill someone in the matter of five seconds? Does he not fucking see what he has right in front of his damn face? How fucking perfect she is? Jesus she treated him like gold and he’s fucking another bitch? My god I’m going to go to jail for murder. I am going to murder him.

            “Baby I promise I’ll see you soon, okay? I love you.”

            He hung up the phone and before he could even get back into the living room I stood up from the floor and grabbed his arm with so much force his eyes widened, pulling him back onto the back patio of our house so we were alone, my face probably fuming and my jaw clenched like no tomorrow.

            “You little fucker.” I sneered, pushing him back with my hands so we were on the grass now. “You thought you’d get away with that? Fuck with her behind her back?”

            “It’s not what it looks like.” He replied, his eyes widening. “I’m gonna end things with that girl I swear I just haven’t had the time.”

            “You haven’t had the time? You are such a little fuck. Do you think she deserves that? You think Reina deserves that?”

            He was speechless just like he should be and as much as I was fuming right now I was relieved that he wasn’t perfect. I was relieved but I know that when Reina finds out she is going to be devastated and picturing her with tears streaming down her cheeks made my stomach twist up. I was trying to push the thoughts running through my mind because the one sentence I have been in denial about for so long was about to become a reality but I wasn’t ready for it to. I wanted to hold it back as much as possible.

            “Dude, c’mon. Just put yourself in my position. Two fine ass girls and I get the best of both worlds right?”

            I punched him in the face right after he said that and when I started I couldn’t stop. I punched him again and then again, him falling onto the ground, as I never let up. He was such an asshole. He was an even bigger asshole than me.

            “Are you fucking blind? There isn’t a girl that can compare to that girl you have right on your arm right now. You’re lucky you stupid son of a bitch. You have a girl like Reina yet you cheat on her? You make her feel special and then you just destroy her like that? Do you know how she’s going to feel when she finds out or how devastated she’ll be? God, you’re such an idiot. You can’t even see what’s right in front of your face when you have it because she’s fucking perfect. In every damn way possible.”

            He was groaning beneath me and I’m sure I’ll have to explain myself when we get back inside but he deserved every hit he just got.

            “Oh my god!”

            I whipped my head around to find Reina who had just found us and rushed to his side, her knees falling onto the grass and her hands grasping the sides of his face. I wanted to hurl right then and there but I just sat where I was, my jaw clenched and waited for him to tell her what an ass he was.

            “Baby.” He whimpered, my eyes narrowing. “I-I was getting you your drink and he just… he just dragged me out here and started to hit me. He wouldn’t let up and my god it hurts so bad.”

            “You’ve got to be fucking kidding me. Reina he’s lying. He’s cheating on you and I caught him. He was on the phone with-“

            She smacked me across the face before I had the time to finish and I just sat there in shock as she re-focused her attention back on him and kissed his forehead. Why the hell am I continuously trying to stick up for her and why the hell am I continuously trying to fight for her when she clearly likes someone else? I’m fighting for someone who already has her heart taken and even though I just said the truth she wouldn’t believe me because of the things I said to her. Of course she’s going to believe him over me but at this point what she just did was unbelievable. I cannot believe she’s not at least going to let me explain myself.

            “You’re a piece of work.” She said in disbelief. “Just let me be happy Justin! Stop trying to ruin every god damn thing I get! We aren’t fucking anymore and we never will. Get that through your stupid skull already.”

            “Wait you fucked her?” Jonah asked. “You guys have a history?”

            “Reina he’s cheating. I know what I said and I know that it sounds bad but he was just on the phone with a girl and he told her he loved her Reina. Come on. You have to believe me.”

            “It was my mom babe. I told you when it started to ring in the living room it was her. You saw the contact.”

            “I know.” She whispered to him, brushing his bottom lip with her fingertip. “Justin and I do have a past and I know I should have told you but we haven’t done anything since we’ve been together I promise. It’s over with now for good.”

            “Well now it makes sense.” He chuckled, looking up at me. “Now I get why you gave me that long damn speech.”

            “What speech?” She asked. “Babe what are you talking about?”

            I punched him before he had the time to speak again and Reina put both of her arms around my waist to pull me off of him but it wasn’t because she wanted to protect me. She wanted to protect him and no matter what I said she wouldn’t believe me. I was hurt beyond belief.

I was hurt beyond belief because I fucking like her.

“You know what? Fuck you Reina. Fuck you both. Fuck every damn thing I’ve ever told you and fuck everything I said about her Jonah because you deserve each other. He’s cheating on you Reina and after six months of getting to know you and after six months of doing what we did you’d think you’d give me a little more credit than to believe this asshole you’ve only known for a month now over me. I’m out here punching the shit out of him for you Reina. I was sticking up for you but you have your head shoved so far up his ass you’re too fucking blind to realize it so you can sincerely go and fuck yourself. The both of you can.”

Standing to my feet, they were both speechless and I didn’t even bother to go back inside. I didn’t care about Lexi right now being in there alone and I didn’t care about what anyone else thought. What I wanted to do was be alone right now so I walked around the side of the house, beginning to walk on a street that hopefully didn’t have an end.         

My whole chest hurt and it felt like it was going to cave in. Tonight didn’t go the way it was supposed to because this plan that I had so stupidly come up with in my head was supposed to result in her kissing the shit out of me because she was going to get jealous of the way I treated Lexi. I knew she liked this Jonah guy but I never thought she’d be so infatuated with him to not believe me. She didn’t believe me and the sad thing is that it hurts ten fucking damn times worse because Reina is the first girl I’ve ever fallen for and man did she have me falling hard. That’s the worst part.

            I was falling for Reina even though I didn’t want to while she was falling head over heels in love with someone that wasn’t even me. 

A/N:

AHHHHH OMG DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA.

I HOPE YOU GUYS LIKED THIS CHAPTER. HE FINALLY ADMITTED IT TO HIMSELF. 

I'm really enjoying doing a different story where the girl isn't the one falling in love but my biggest fear is that you guys will not like Reina because of the things I have planned but you just have to keep in mind that she's extremely independent and isn't the type to get attached. I hope you won't hate me by the end of the story or anything but that's just how I view this to go and in this case, Justin is the one who is getting attached verses the girl and it's just different but also interesting :)

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