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Troy's pov

I'm fucked. Not literally but my life is.
I can't believe it , this is so cliché but it's happening to me in real life.

I hate myself. I'm turning into those possessive best friends that scare away all the guys from their girl.
I literally just did that .

Confused ? Let's give you a little recap.

It started when we both hit puberty , up until then we genuinely felt nauseated from the idea of us being together . But somehow after that things started changing. Hugging her made me feel different. Being near her made me feel different.

I acted like a Cupid between Sebastian and his current girlfriend so he would stop flirting with Ari.

After that I don't know how I became so bold but I kissed her before the party. She just looked so beautiful, she was concerned for me thus she didn't even notice she was sitting in my lap. I couldn't help it . But then I spoke without using my brain and I made her feel like it wasn't a big deal.

The way she avoided me I was sure she didn't feel the same way about me.

Something changed after that kiss. When I dropped her home and I had her in my arms , my brain seemed to stop working . She struggled to pull away. It almost felt like she was mad at me , almost felt like she felt the same way but then I chuckled to myself, that could never happen.

For the next two months she avoided me , I understood she must be disgusted by my presence because I kissed her. So I also backed off and gave her space. Obviously my heart couldn't take it. By the end of those two months I was craving for her to be around me.

If not more , I was happy being her best friend.

On the way to LA, I was getting jealous of all the male attention she received . She was gorgeous , she is confident but she thinks she's average . Let me tell you one thing , she is not just average .

Her big brown eyes , she could make me do anything she wants just by giving me that puppy dog look .

Her brown hair , I love playing with them . They suit her so well.

Her slightly dark skin tone because of her being a mixed child. I remember she used to get bullied but then I told those bullies to back off once I started gaining some muscles.

She's tall as well , not particularly petite and I love that . I love everything about her.

That is why I thought I'd suggest something like a summer romance when we stayed over at Sway House , so if we still had feelings for each other we could continue it back in our hometown.

But hell ,luck is never on my side. Harsh words spew out of my mouth pissing her off even further. After that she was getting close to  Quinton. I hated that at the moment he was able to make her laugh. I hate that she was genuinely happy around him. He looked at her with admiration.

I knew the two talked but it was never anything more than a casual conversation. But now that they met ? They've been stuck together. When we played truth and dare ? Josh made her sit in between his legs.

God I wanted to rip of his arms from around her waist. He whispered into her ear making her laugh.

I left the room, I heard her come in but anger got the best of me and I acted strange.

Somehow , someway we ended up in a position where me moving even a bit would've lead to us kissing for the second time. Guess what ? That Quinton dude ruined it as well.

That was it , I couldn't take this . I went upto Jaden and Bryce in order to prepare to propose to her. I was ready to risk it all .I wanted her to be mine .

So Bryce nudged Josh and Josh casually suggested that we all went shopping , the girls were excited. The plan was to get them busy and buy the stuff we needed for the proposal at that time. But halfway through I saw Quinton and Ari leave the same dressing room at VS .

If this was a cartoon or anime you'd have seen steam leave my ears. I don't know how but Jaden took one look at me and the 'couple' behind me and called off the preparations.

Bryce and Josh who had tinsel garlands around their necks seemed disappointed but rushed everyone to the next store and I left the store to go back to the house.

Maybe they're right . Somethings are too good to be true.

There's no way Ari likes me .

Her face came up in my mind everytime I closed my eyes . Her lips were slightly swollen , she had a hickey right below her ear.

I can't believe it , here I thought ....

Urgh I hate life.

Well oops? 👀Also THIS BOOK IS SO CLOSE TO 400 VIEWS . I HAVENT EVEN BEEN WRITING IT FOR 2 WEEKS I THINK. Why do you guys even like this , I've no idea . But I'll keep on writing coz this makes me so happy ♥️

This was a sad chapter but I'm not gonna make them come together in the 10th chapter just like that. But watch out for some steamy scenes