*Jordan's PoV*

"Hello Jordan how are you," the male doctor asked.

"Umm fine," my voice raspy.

"Jordan we have a few questions we would like to ask you," the female doctor said.

"I have a question for you first," I say the nod, "what are your names?"

"Well you can call me Gabe," one of the male doctors asked.

"I'm Kylie," one of the female doctors said.

"I'm Blake," the other male doctor said as he moved over to Kylie.

"And I'm Kennedy," the final female doctor said.

"Hi," I say back to them.

"Ok on to our questions, have you ever had thoughts of depression," Gabe asked. I nod.

"Ever have thoughts of self harm and suicide," Kylie asked. I nod.

"Did you ever take any pills for depression," Blake asked. I nod.

"Do you take them for the amount of time you are prescribed for," Kennedy asked. I shake my head no, "so if we gave you them you would only take them for a short amount of time." I nod again.

"Hm ok you can go home tomorrow if you stay at a family members house," Kylie said.

"My family doesn't live around here, but my best friends live around here," I say.

"M'kay, is the male tall, and the female short and has brown blond ombré," Kennedy asked.

"Umm I think," I scratch my head.

"Well I think they are here would you wish to talk to them," Gabe asked I nod my head smiling. All four of them walk out, I few moments later Sonja and Tucker walk in.

"JORDAN," Sonja yelled and tackled me into a hug, "I've missed you so much, everyone has."

"Is Tom in LA still," I ask.

"No he left a few days ago," Tucker said giving me a hug I frown.

"When will he be back," I say.

"Umm well haha funny story, so um we told Tom that you were dead, so yeah don't use Twitter, Instagram, Facebook, text him, just don't use your phone," Sonja laughed.

"Um," I'm so confused.

"When he comes here in a few days you will be standing at the front door waiting for him ok," Tucker said.

"You guys are horrible, but I like it," I smile.

"So your coming home tomorrow," Sonja asked.

"Yes I think so but I have to stay with you guys for a while," I smile at them.

"That's ok," Tucker said. I smile. I yawn a little. 

"We should let you get some sleep," Sonja said placing a kiss on my forehead. They walk out the door, I slowly close my eyes letting sleep take over me.

*Tom's PoV*

I sit on my bed still sobbing. I walk down stairs and into the kitchen, I grab a beer out of the refrigerator. 

"No Tom I'm not letting you drink, I'm locking all the liquor cabinets everything everything," Alice yelled at me as she grabbed the beer out of my hands. I sit down and cry again, Jordan didn't like me to drink, I remember one day I went over to his house after I broke up with Kate, I wanted to drink until I died, but as soon as I grabbed a beer Jordan ripped it way from my hands.

"I'm sorry Alice," I sob.

"Oh Tom it's ok, why don't you go to sleep it's almost 12," she said I get up and walk upstairs and hug the bed and instantly sleep.

I wake up, my checks sting. I get up and walk into my bathroom my checks stained with tears, eyes red a puffy.

"Great I have a fucken meeting with the rest of the family for the funeral," I moan washing my face.

"Tom you up," Alice asked ok she's been here for 2 nights or does she just let herself everyday.

"Yeah what time do we need to go," I yell.

"Um well it's 8:30 now so we need to leave in a hour we are having the family viewing then we eat lunch here," she said.

"Ok yeah thanks for telling me I'm having everyone In the family over at my house," I yell.

"You have the biggest house ok deal with it," she said.

"Fine," I hop in the shower.

*Time skip to 8 pm*

"Bye Alice," I give her a hug as she leaves my house.

"Bye Tom be at the funeral home at 9 tomorrow morning got that," Alice said.

"Yes I know," I say.

"You have to carry the casket remember," she said.

"Yes now go home," I said as I push her our of the house. I walk upstairs and plop down on my bed. I force myself to sleep.

My alarm wakes me up to the dreadful day ahead. I get out if bed I trudge over to my bathroom got a shower, did my hair nice, I put my tux on put on some concealer under my eyes that are dark as fuck. I walk out the door at 8 am, it takes 45 minutes to get to ten funeral home.

*Time skip I don't wanna bring my depression back from writing about a funeral sorry and lots of time skips I'm normally not like this sorry*

I walk up to my house after a tear feast of a day I need to pack for another tear feast in 3 days. I walk up to my room not bothering to pack, I don't need to everything I need is in LA. I walk into my office and call Sonja. 

"Hey," she said as she answer the Skype call.

"Hey," I say going on Twitter scrolling threw Jordan's Twitter.

"Was today," her voice trailing off.

"Yeah I'll be in LA around 2 tomorrow," I say into the mic looking at a stupid selfi her took.

"Sounds good," she said.

"Yup, I don't know what to do for the rest of the day," I moan

"We'll play some games have fun," she said.

"Nah that won't happen much for a while," I say.

"Yeah I figured you'd say that," she said Tucker came in the room.

"Tom how ya doing buddy," he smiles.

"Not that great," I say looking at one of Jordan's Twitter puns.

"Well I can't wait to see you," he smiles.

We talk and talk until they went to bed, i realized it was almost 8 in the morning, my dad is picking me up soon, I here a knock at the door, I get off my chair, I walk over to the door.

"Hey dad," I yawn.

"Hey you just get up," he asked.

"Nah I've been up since yesterday," I smile.

"You ready," he asked.

"Yeah let me grab my headphones and charger, tickets and passport," I say and rush I fi the kitchen to grab the things I need, "ok ready."

We pull up to the air port, "see ya Tom," my dad yells. I wave and do what I normally do at an airport. My gate number is called. I bored the plan plug my headphones in and watch Jordan's videos.

Just another flight.

Just another funeral.

Just another tear feast.

A new depression.

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Damn getting deep there Tom

Another update heading your way in a few hours

Prepare yourself for that grind.

SUMMER OUT