“Y/N, do you perhaps want to go and buy roasted chestnuts with me?” he asks you as he turns his displeased gaze from Cody to you.

“Chestnuts?” you ask, your face screaming that  you are aware of the trouble you’re in.

“Yes,” Jimin growls and in all honesty, you have become kind of scared.

The type of scared a teacher makes you feel when you haven’t done your homework and there is no other option but to get scolded. That feeling right before they scold you where they inquire you and tell you to follow them to their office, when you know what is going to happen but you still follow.

“Okay,” You manage to mumble as you put the glass of water on the table, “I’ll go grab my coat,” you mutter awkwardly as you exit the kitchen whereas Jimin stays there now shifting his gaze to Cody, who is still there frozen and he too feeling the tension to the core.

“I’m not trying anything, I swear, I just want to help keep ChaeRin away from you, both,” Cody raises his free hand in defence, while calmly talking to Jimin.

“I don’t care what you want,” Jimin begins, leaning off the wall, his arms still crossed on his chest giving him an strong aura, “All I care about is you staying away from her,” he refers to you and as he finishes with those words he turns around and heads to the living room to inform his parents and him and you will be heading out for a bit.

“But, we’ll be celebrating in about and hour and a half,” his mother, “And you’re ill too, shouldn’t we just send JiHyun?” she asks him and her son gives her a look, telling her that there’s more than just buying ‘roasted chestnuts’ .

She too having been quite confused with the whole, you 'confirming your relationship' a couple of hours ago, she understands that something must be going on, there fore explaining Jimin’s reason to suddenly wanting to be alone with you, so she simply nods her head after grasping the message hidden behind Jimin’s eyes.

Once you enter again the living room, after having taken your and Jimin’s coats, your eyes land on Jimin’s angry ones, and you gulp trying to think of ways to explain the situation to him.

“There you go,” you mumble as you approach him and hand him his coat, avoiding to look into his eyes.

“Thanks,” he mumbles, “We’ll be going out now, we’ll most likely return when it’s past twelve,” Jimin informs the others and like that he extends his arm in front of you, awaiting for you to grab his hand.

You give him a questioning look and hesitantly extend your arm and get a hold of his.

He purses his lips, puffing out his cheeks a little bit, as he first looks at your hands and then his eyes to look at you, mumbling a “let’s go,” before he turns and heads for the door, dragging you behind him.

“Okay…,” you breath out, although you are the only one to hear those words.

This is it.

He is going to kill me.

Then dump me to the sea.

And say I died on accident or something.

You think, as you feel the grip of his hand getting stronger around yours, as you exit the house, after wearing your coats and shoes- where he still did not let go of your hand.

“This way,” he mumbles while pointing to a direction that you have no idea where it leads to.

You start walking down the empty road in silence. Him still not letting go of your hand and even swinging it back and forth.

Whereas he appears to be as calm as a cucumber, which was not what he showed before, you are dripping in nervousness. You are expecting the scolding, or worse the knife to be stabbed into you, in about any moment and his silence is driving you even more mad.

You want to let go of hind hand because your palm has gotten too sweaty to bear and it also makes you feel weird.

It’s too much affection, and you’re not even sure if it’s affection- which doesn’t seem to be it, given the situation- or if it’s a weird habit of his to do before he kills someone.

Come to your senses, Y/N he is not a serial killer.

You mentally slap yourself but at the same time your nervousness can’t help but make your mind create insane scenarios of how this could go.

Mom, Dad, know that I love you.

The fandoms that I’ve been into. I want a coffin with the sign of each fan-

“Stop being nervous, I’m not planning on killing you or something,” he mutters breaking you away from your thoughts.

Startled and having made a little jump at his so sudden statement, you turn your head to look at him and you see that he has turned his head opposite of you.

“I didn’t think you were going to kill me…,” you mumble not being able to read his psychology at the moment.

“Liar,” he mumbles and you bite your lip, wondering how in the world did he manage to read your thoughts.

Are you that much of an open book for him to be able to read?

“I’m sorry,” You tell him after a few seconds of silence.

His calm demeanor was suffocating you too much and made you impatient to wait for him to bring the subject up for discussion.

“Mhhmm,” he hums in response, still not having given you a single look, “What for exactly?” he asks and you can see him clenching his jaw probably picturing you and Cody in the kitchen, like you were a bit ago.

With a heavy sigh, trying to organize the sentences in your mind you begin; “Cody called me earlier today and he told me he wanted to meet up with me and discuss, because ChaeRin has been dedicating herself too much to ‘us’- you basically- and he told me that she believes we are not a real couple, which that she is onto us,” you pause to take a breath,

“ And I suppose he wanted me and him to forge out a plan to make ChaeRin stay away from you and me.”

“And why didn’t you tell me that he called you and asked you of all this?” he questions this time turning to look at you, his eyes staring into yours and aside from the anger that he is trying to show there is a little bit of hurt because you kept it a secret from him, when it was such an important matter.

His insecurities have crushed back in again; The demons in the back of his head telling him that you are using him for your own unknown benefits.

You’ve been doing so good lately, you can’t be fake, now, can you?

You wouldn’t do this him

He can’t believe his demons.

He just needs a valid reason from you, and he will turn those demons away.

The problem is…are you willing to let your pride down and admit that you didn’t want to worry him by telling him any time earlier?

With the thought that honesty in a friendship comes before pride popping in your mind, you open your mouth and the words role out,

“You had already been upset with ChaeRin texting you, adding your ailment to that I didn’t want to make you feel worse,” you say avoiding his eye,

“I wasn’t planning on letting you in the dark either! I have no right to do that anyways. I was just going to wait until you became better so that it wasn’t even more of a burden, but Cody came and…uh…you know…”

At this he stops walking, pulling you back as you had kept on walking.

Being forced by his grip on your hand that pulled you back, you turn your body and find yourself stopping in front of him, face to face, but with decent distance between you.

“What?” he asks.

His eyes are much softer now.

He is feeling relief.

Relief that you gave him a fairly good reason so as to help him ignore the demons that were spreading bad ideas in his mind.

“What?” you ask a little bit confused.

“You are not using me, are you?” he asks, getting straight to the core of the matter that is worrying him.

“What? Why would I use you? What good would I get out of that?” you ask knitting your eyebrows in confusion.

“Just…It seems weird to me that you are so considerate of me when we,” he pauses for a moment, “are in the situation that we are…,” he finishes and you sigh understanding what he means.

Were you too straightforeward?

Maybe being this honest was too soon...,

Perhaps you should have figured out another reason to tell him instead of the truth, since it  seems to be more troublesome, but then again what type of a friendship will you built if you lie to him?

“Aah…, I-I’m sorry, maybe it was too soon to act like that, I should have told you straight away,” you lightly shake your head, feeling ashamed that you got carried away with how much you care.

Even if your intentions were not bad, it doesn’t mean that they will be received with the same opinion on them.

“Well, maybe, but I don’t think you are lying so I’ll believe you and say that I’m grateful to be having you by my side as a friend,” he smiles and you become startled for a moment.

As you look into his eyes you see that he is being honest. Your facial muscles relax and you only blink one or two times, still being taken aback by his unexpected reaction.

“A-are you sure? Wasn’t I being too much?” you ask.

“Well…I don’t appreciate the fact that you didn’t tell me, but I understand your reasons behind it and I’m thankful that you are taking care of me in such manner,” he smiles and you become even more taken aback.

You still are stuck looking at him, kind of shocked at these sudden words. Not receiving any response from you in the time span given to you, Jimin turns a bit more serious and continues on giving voice to his thoughts, “I know that up till now, I’ve put you into an unnecessary situation -for you- and you have actually helped me through a lot not complaining one and don’t think that I’m not noticing any of this.

I, in fact, am aware of all the kindness you’ve shown towards him and I’m not ignorant to the ways you have helped me with, and be rested assure that I’m going to be there for you whenever you are in need and whenever you are not.”

He just blew my mind.

You are at a loss of words, his words somehow made you sentimental and you can feel your eyes starting to become watery.

You know there is no reason to cry, yet again your eyes decide that’s it’s time to clean themselves.

Stop! Tears are totally unnecessary!!! Don’t make a fool of yourself, please stop!!!

You tell yourself thinking that this is going to help, but it all comes with no avail.

“Hey, hey, hey!,” Jimin says noticing your watery eyes that shine a little bit under the light from the streetlight,

“Are you really going to cry?” he asks in disbelief, yet he can’t seem to hide that tiny smile that tugs on his lips.

“I’m sorry,” you say covering your eyes with your hands to hide them,.

And just then without even realizing how this thiught reached your mind, it smoothly rolls out of your mouth,

“You’re the first person to ever tell me such thing after I came to Korea and it made me kind of sentimental.”

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Before we get to yelling at me for not updating in so long,

LET’S WISH KIM NAMJOON HAPPY BIRTHDAAAYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!

(It’s still 12th September for me, so I’m not late xD)

Our amazing leader celebrates his birthday today :D

I’ve got no words for this amazing God Of Destruction.

He has got the brains, he’s got the looks, got the rap skill as well as the singing skill, he’s got the dance skill (not really, BUT HE TRIES AND I FIND HIM AMAZING!!!)

He is perfection and he should love himself, just like everyone should. :’)

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Now, onto our stuff.

My little family.

I have gone back to hell.

By hell, I mean school.

I started yesterday (Monday 11th)

Till then, the previous week I had private lessons, and I studied for about eight hours per day.

Which is whyI haven’t much active in my accounts; Quotev & Wattpad.

I didn’t even have time or strength  to respond to comments.

ON TOP OF THAT!!!

My computer has a ‘problems’.

Basically it won’t connect to the internet. Not by Wi-Fi connection, neither with a cable.

I have to take it to service and who knows when I’ll find the time to take it there *sigh*

going back to writing a chapter on my phone is…. Not nice

I’m sorry, but I’m not being a lazy person, I’m just swarmed by life (school basically,)

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Now, I’m going to have to warn you about something.

Because I’m in my last year of highschool and the exams of it determine whether I get into University or not, I legit need to study my butt off,

Which means, I won’t have time to update frequently. Especially after January.

I most likely won’t be able to keep a schedule ( as if I ever did)

Basically, I’m saying there are going to be rare updates because of school.

I’ll try to do my best and not take more than a week and half but I can’t promise you it.

When I began this fanfic on December last year I had a plan of finishing by maximum 25 chapters.

Clearly it did not happen since it’s nearly a year later and we at the moment are on chapter 77.

I guess what I’m trying to say is that things didn’t go as planned, but that isn’t necessarily a bad thing, personally I’m glad I didn’t bring this fic to an end after 25 chapters, because the support you have shown me has helped me through a lot and I could never be grateful enough.

Also, I am not abandoning this fanfiction nor my other ones.

They all will come to an end.

Just…in a slower pace xD

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This became a huge author’s note… but I had to explain a few stuff and you now my mania with overanalyzing….

Yeah…

Again, Happy Birthday to our dear Rap Monster, I wish I could have gotten him a piece of the moon like other’s have xD but at the moment all I can give him is my support from an international country and my love <3

HWATIIIIINNNGGGG :D

Aaaaaaaandd,

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