Chapter 13-  Freak Out

You have never felt more comfortable. 

The mattress under you makes you feel like you are on a cloud, the covers are so soft they make you feel like your under silk, but the best of them all, and the factor for making you feel that perfect in your sleep, is the safety you're  feeling as you have curled up against his chest; your leg is slightly raised forward between his legs, his upper leg is lightly hovering you just under your torso, it's not that heavy to bother you, the amount of pressure it puts on you is welcome.

Your face is hidden at the crook of his neck and one of your cheeks is softly touching it.  Your arms? Well the one your pressing on is between yours and his chest, as it's gripping to the Iron Man shirt his wearing to keep him closer. Your other arm is resting on his hip hugging him. 

His arm, that is on the down side,  is not under him or between your chests, but instead his hand is carefully placed over your head in a protective manner. Your other arm is snaked around your waist, it too holding you protectively. 

You're starting to wake up, you feel like you've already had enough sleep when it's only three p.m. Cody left around eleven and you've been sleeping since then, which means you've only had four hours of sleep. These four hours feel so full and satisfying, though. 

You still haven't opened your eyes, you're slowly drifting away from your deep sleep as your senses very slowly activate themselves. At first you enjoy the safety your feeling with those arms snaked around you but you come to realize that these arms must belong to a person, a male person since they are heavier than what a female one would be.

This isn't right. 

Why are there hands around you? As far as you know you don't have anyone that can hold you like that, your brother is in (home country)  but even if he was here he would have kicked your ass out of your own bed because he likes to spread like a bear on the bed. The next possible person that could ever hold you while you're being so vulnerable to them, would be a boyfriend, one that has done a lot to earn your trust and therefore let him hold you like that. 

As far as you know, though,  you haven't had a boyfriend and you definitely do not have one now. 

So, who the hell is this person that makes you feel so comfortable? 

You start moving your neck and you feel how stiff it is; You've been in this position for a lot of time. As you try to look up to look at the person you shared such a personal moment you hear and feel your neck crack. The sound was really loud, and the impact the crack left relaxed you even more, but you tensed up again, when you saw Jimin's face and his eyes snapping open and looking down at you. 

Both, his and your eyes, go wide once you realize who you are with. For one tiny moment you stay like that,  looking at each other's eyes, trying to read the other's feelings but being unable to do so as the emotions you both are feeling are too overwhelming to focus on anything else.

Your facial expressions change from shocked to frightened and you push each other off so harshly and with so much power that both of you fall from the bed. You on the left side and Jimin on the right. 

You ignore the pain on your back from the impact and start sweating out of nervousness. 

I did not sleep with him, did? 

How is it freaking possible? 

Oh my goodness.

Your heart is beating so fast right now, you feel like it's riding a Ferrari Car.

You find yourself getting up at the same time as Jimin. 

"What the hell are you doing here??" you ask with a raised and shocked voice. 

"Me??? I came in your room and fall asleep here first!! You're the one who came and straddled me!!" Jimin responds in the exact same way. 

"What? No!!! That's not possible. No one was here when I came to sleep!!" you say but as you think about it you're not that sure about how legit your sentence is. 

And then you widen your eyes as there truly was something on that bed when you went to sleep and you were the first one to reach for it. Your cheeks go flaming red after this realization and you stumble two steps back to lean on the white wall. 

"Oh no..."You look dumbfounded at anywhere but him, "I AM SOOOOO SOORRYY!!" You start saying but the shame you are feeling is too much and you dash out of the room. 

You rush to the hallway, hurriedly passing by the living and as you try to wear your trainers you hear Eun-bi from the living room, "OOOHHH,  TAE THE COUPLE WOKE UP!"  she yells at the top of her lungs, you hear her and you freak out even more. 

Couple? What couple? That's not possible.

You need to calm down. As you wear your other shoe you look up to see Jimin, walking out of your room with his hair still messy and his face is confused as fuck at Eun-bi's words. At the sight of him you freak out even more, you can't cope with this, you need to leave to calm down. You grab your keys and you dash out the door, with no coat. Your just wearing your black sweatpants and a gray hoodie. Your hair is more crazy than ever but you don't care, you just want to escape from that place, and escape all those weird emotions your feeling right now. 

Where is a good place to let all that tension off? 

The gym. 

And that's were you start running towards, after you manage to pull your hair in a bun. 

Jimin,  on the other hand, is confused as fuck at your reaction. He doesn't know how to read your actions. Did you fall asleep with him because you didn't notice him out of your tiredness? He knows it's possible, falling asleep without realizing his surroundings has happened to him many times but a tinie-tiny super small and uncovered part of him doesn't enjoy this theory much. 

What are you doing to him? He's supposed to hate you, not wish for your attention and your kind actions toward him. His stomach does a tiny flip every time you are caring towards him and he has to remind himself all the things he thinks he hates in you, to actually make that tiny excitement go away. 

But...

How is he going to have himself forget all the nice warmth,  safety, and care he felt while you held him and he held you. Just coming up with a few annoying things is not going to work that easily. 

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You punch and punch and punch that stupid bag while you let all your emotions out.

You're so confused. 

Why did you enjoy sleeping next to Jimin? Why does your body relax in his embrace? He has never given you any reason to trust him like that and yet again your subconscious blindingly trusts him. 

Why? 

You're at a war with your subconscious and logic. 

You should not give him a chance. 

You should not try to win him over. 

You should not try to prove to him that you're not as bad as he thinks.
 
But you want to. 

"NO I DON'T!" you yell out loud and throw a final punch at that bag. 

Why are you even freaking out? 

You're not a person to freak out and try to escape like that. You are supposed to stay calm and slowly walk through the crisis. However you're not feeling like being calm. 

You're heart is racing like crazy. 

What's going to happen now?

How should you act around him? Is he going to be cruel? Will it be awkward? Should you just ignore him? Avoid even? 

You're feeling very awkward and tensed up at the thought of seeing Jimin after this incident. 

Y/N CALM DOWN YOU'RE OVERREACTING. 

It's not that big of a deal... It shouldn't be... Two tired people just happened to share a bed and found comfort in each other's arms ​​​​for a few hours. It's nothing important, really, it shouldn't be. 

But why Jimin? Why out of all  people do I have to feel that comfortable with him when I don't even know him. 

This indeed is a good question. A question that is going to torture you for quite some time, until you decide to accept some things and be prepared to face them. 

You growl once more in frustration an punch the bag. 

Jimin is trying to be serious trouble to my life. 

​​​​​​From your prospective this statement seems pretty legit. You angered him, he said he'd ruin you and here he is trying to mess with you and annoy you. 

Will you let him succeed in his plan? 

Hell. To. The. No. 

You're not a toy. He can't go around playing with you,  tossing you around like a barbie doll. You're no softie like a barbie. If someone decides to mess with you badly, then they should know that you won't stay out of the game. 

You growl in pain as you fall on your knees. The period pain has stroked once again in your lower abdomen.

Period-100000
Y/N- 0

This score is legit for everything; Physical pain, tiredness, confusing the way of thinking, making your hormones go high up to the moon and then drop like a bomb and make you overreact over unimportant things. 

You are not match against the Period. 

You wince as sweat decides to pay a visit to you eye and make it burn.

"Perfect" you spit and harshly take of one boxing glove as you stand up. 

"Rough day?" you hear a male voice say. 

You turn around, with your hand rubbing your left eye, and look at the man who spoke. It's the gym owner, BoYoung; he's a forty year old man, really nice and social, and perfect for having deep talks with. You met him the first week you came to Korea, you wanted to sign up to his gym and he was really friendly to you.  With his friendly manner you found yourself super comfortable with him and talked about everything with no problem. He calls himself your Korean father, as a joke of course, but it hides some truth into it. He does have some fatherly gestures like being overly protective as he some times glares at a few boys who can't help but keep their eyes on you when you train on that ring. 

His reasons for that are because he had a daughter once, who acted a lot like you, she was super sweet and calm and cheery but she had that wild side and was not to be fooled easily, however he lost her a few years ago due to a car crash. He's left with his wife and thirteen year old son. Since he could never get over his daughter's death and when he met you he realized you are a lot like his daughter he instantly felt a special bond. 

"Hella tiring and sleepless night with a mixture of a crazy morning" you say with a sigh. 

"Ooh, seems really interesting, I really want to stay and discuss about it further but I gotta go run some errands and probably won't return today" he purses his lips. 

"Ahh, it's okay, I'll leave soon,  as well,  we can have that chat another day" you smile at him and then look down to take off your other boxing glove.

"Hey," BoYoung says and you look up, "Stay focused on what you want to achieve" he advices you and  turns around to leave. 

You slowly nod taking in his words. 

What do I want to achieve, tho?
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