Shehnaaz looked down in embarrassment. She regrets not trusting Sidharth enough. Scrubbing her hand over her forehead, she looked up at Sidharth to meet his accusing gaze. She gave a plain expression as she is also not happy with their immature behaviour to marry each other in anger and hurt. She hoped for a grand wedding, not like this. Seeing Sidharth's expressions, she is scared to tell about her fear to him. What if he got angry because of her insecurities?

"Speak Shehnaaz", Sidharth asked politely, Shehnaaz sighed in relief hearing his soft voice which gave her the strength to speak. She looked down again while fidgeting with her fingers. She is trying to attain confidence by fidgeting her fingers and by battling her fear.

"I... can't see... you with someone else", Shehnaaz said fumbling with her words and closing her eyes tightly thinking that Sidharth is going to lash out at her for her behaviour

"You should have told me this. I would have explained my work. You have to see me because that's part of my work. I would have assured you that you are my better half, not anyone else", Sidharth replied to her politely, he got angry hearing about her fear but when he noticed her eyes closed, he realised that she is frightened. He can speculate this easily because it's the first time Shehnaaz is opening up to him, and he doesn't want to scare her with his voice.

"I'm sorry", Shehnaaz apologized

"Share your emotions with me. I am here to hear that", Sidharth said and got up from his chair. Shehnaaz wondered why he got up, when he walked towards her she blushed understanding why he got up. Sidharth passed a smile and sat beside her, he knows that she need his physical as well as mental support to understand him.

They lacked communication, which is very important in a relationship. Communication makes it easy to comprehend what another person wants but if a couple does not communicate with each other about their insecurities, they suffer a lot. Communication is very necessary for a healthy relationship.

Shehnaaz looked at him with tears in her eyes, yes she whimpered a lot today but in front of him, she don't know why tears again escaped from her eyes. Sidharth wiped her tears with his thumb and placed his hand on her soft cheeks. Shehnaaz closed her eyes feeling peace, she missed feeling his love like this. She wants him to show that she is his life partner, not just a friend. Sidharth moved closer and kissed her forehead, he let his lips linger on her forehead for some time and then pulled her into a hug.

Shehnaaz shivered to feel his lips on her forehead and smiled widely getting her reward. She held the collar of his shirt in her hands and closed her eyes feeling peace. When Sidharth hugged her, she kissed his cheeks for trying to understand her, rather than shouting.

They have married now and the way they married each other is called stupidity. If they had to marry, they could have talked with each other. She doesn't know how she will handle her parents because she has to tell them about their unexpected marriage. She doesn't regret marrying him as their wedding was meant to happen but not in this way. She started to like Sidharth when he gave respect to her as well as her family. She dreamt of a husband like that. She tried everything to stay strong but every time her past and present pull her down. Her past always haunts her because she fears, what if her past ruined her present. Her self-respect always questions whether she is right or not.

Comments always question her existence, why she is even alive? Some people pass very vulgar comments which feel her disgust even posting her picture on social media. She never knew that actors have to kiss females in reality, and that scene stabbed her heart very badly. She is still feeling heartbroken to recall that mere scene. Why her heart is so weak? Why she cries every time? Why does she act like a child? She should act mature like many actresses of her age but she doesn't.

"I didn't know that as an actor you have to kiss... I can't see that and Sidharth I...", Shehnaaz stopped in the middle as she felt her throat dry because of crying for a long time. She coughed in middle and felt her cheeks warming with warm tears. Sidharth panicked seeing her going weak and filled a glass of water for her. He held her chin in his hand and helped her to drink water.

"Bass", Shehnaaz said and pushed Sidharth's hand aside after taking a sip of water. Sidharth nodded and placed water on the table and then rubbed her back softly to calm her down. It's hurt to see her like this, especially when he knows he is the reason for her tears. Shehnaaz placed her head on his chest and felt her eyes brimming with tears again.

"Why am I crying a lot ? ", Shehnaaz asked herself and wiped her tears harshly which Sidharth noticed and held her hand, he intertwined thier fingers together and shooked his head.

"Stop crying and listen to me", Sidharth said to which Shehnaaz nodded and looked into her eyes. "No one accepts a crying girl Sana. Stop using your tears", Shehnaaz thought and took a long breath. Her lips quivered and she felt weak again, she looked at Sidharth with her moist eyes. Sidharth kissed her knuckles and started speaking ignoring her tears because he is also trying hard to fight his tears. He doesn't know why but he wants to cry a lot, he wants to shout because of this mental pain. His heart is paining badly because Shehnaaz misunderstood him.

"I'm in a relationship with only one girl that is you. See I married you and if you want me to prove it by announcing our marriage then I will...", Sidharth was interrupted by shehnaaz

"No please", Shehnaaz requested and looked down, she is feeling very weak in his hug right now. Sidharth also tore his gaze from her as he also want to cry. She is not the only one to feel the pain of losing someone, but he also. He was scared and heartbroken because of the words she used for him. Still, he is trying to look normal and act polite because for him she is a child. But only he knows how hard it is to look normal when he is hell angry at her and is very emotional. Seeing her crying, he also wants to cry. He doesn't know if it is because of love or not but he wants to cry along with her.

He closed his eyes to gather the courage to talk further and talk about thier future but felt his eyes wet. When he opened his eyes he felt tears escaping from his eyes, he closed his eyes again and pressed his lips together to control himself from crying.

"One second. Where is the washroom?", Sidharth asked without looking at her

"Go inside and the brown colour door is the washroom", Shehnaaz replied, Sidharth, hummed and left from there. He entered the bathroom and let his tears fall from his eyes. He was feeling her pain when she said she can't see him with someone else. He felt pain when he recalled her calling him a cheater when he never looked at any girl rather than her. He washed his face but couldn't stop his tears. He screamed mentally because he don't want to disturb anyone there.

Closing his eyes shut tightly he broke down in tears again as he felt his heart heavy to handle the pain of thier misunderstanding. The cheater word hurt him a lot, that particular word pinched his heart so badly. Boys also feel bad and they can also cry, they are also a human with the same feelings as a girl. Relationship issues hurt him also the way they hurt Shehnaaz because he is equally involved in the relationship with Shehnaaz and her views regarding him matter a lot. He cried for some time due to the pain inside his heart and when got the courage enough to face her, he went back.

He noticed Shehnaaz resting her head on the headboard waiting for him. He drank water from her glass and placed his hand on hers which was on the arm of the sofa.

"You took a long time", Shehnaaz said to which Sidharth hummed and caressed her hair softly to shower her with love. He noticed tear marks on her cheek and understood that she was crying again.

"Shehnaaz try to understand me. I'm an actor and that was JUST AN ACT ", Sidharth said stretching the word "just an act" to make her believe that film and actresses have nothing to do with him. He leaves those issues and acts there only.

"How can I when you don't come near me? You can kiss others but you never kissed me, you express your feelings boldly there but in front of me, you keep quiet. Why? Am I not beautiful? Or it is something else? Tell me the reason ", Shehnaaz complained going weak again but this time Sidharth held her tightly in his arms and hugged her.

"I'm near you Shehnaaz and I always want to be with you. There is a big difference between reel and real. You are my real-life partner and I respect you and your choices a lot. I don't want anyone to make fun of you in the industry. I don't want you to think I used your body if we broke up", Sidharth explained himself

"We will never break up understood?", Shehnaaz asked to which he nodded with a smile. He rubbed thier nose together realising finally that they are solving thier issue.

"Understood but let me clear your confusion first. Shehnaaz for me reel word is fake and all actors who work with me because I know thier reality. You always say my reputation is not good and I don't want to be the reason for our insult. I will never be able to handle that Shehnaaz. When someone says something to you, that directly hits here", he said pointing towards his heart with plain expressions

"If you are comfortable with me then I will decrease our distance but only at home because that's the safest place where nobody will judge you. I can't see someone insulting you", Sidharth said to which Shehnaaz smiled widely, his reply took her heart. How can she misunderstand him?

"Initially you said you need time and you let me concentrate on work that's why I continued and if you don't want me to work in web series then I'm ok with that I will never work in a web series after completing this one", Sidharth said

"No, you can. Just you need to assure me every time that you are just mine", Shehnaaz said and then looked down with a blush realising her words. Sidharth also blushed to hear her and made her look into his eyes by holding her chin

"You are possessive for me aww. I'm just yours", Sidharth declared and joined thier forehead

"I and Karan were in a relationship from college. We were friends from school...", Shehnaaz was about to tell her past to Sidharth when he interrupted her

"Don't explain anything. I trust you baby", Sidharth said and kissed her cheeks

"No, I have to tell you this today", Shehnaaz said and placed her head on his chest again by removing his hand from her chin

"We meet in school and he was a very cool guy. In college, he proposed to me and we stayed in a secret relationship for a month and then he gave me a dare to propose to him in front of the college. I was in love with him that's why I accepted his date and proposed to him and he accepted wholeheartedly. But after that many things started to change, he started flirting with girls but stopped me to meet any guy. If by chance I talk with anyone he used to either beat that person or create misunderstanding between us. Initially, when my friends used to tell me the same, I never believed anyone because I trusted him but one day I noticed him saying I love you to a girl which stabbed my heart.

The next day when I confronted him, he called me characterless in front of the students and told them that I was forcing him to stay in a relationship with me. When he got to know I am going to be an actor and sang a few sad songs that directly hit his ego and he stepped his feet in this industry for fane and to push me down. Whenever I used to talk with boys he used to tell those guys that I'm characterless...", Shehnaaz said but Sidharth interrupted her

"No, you are not that. People are fools to believe him. You are best and a gem of a person ", Sidharth said and kissed her forehead as well as cheeks

"But why are you telling me this today? And why you came here and called me here? ", Sidharth asked scaring Shehnaaz again. What she will tell him? That she told thier personal issue to someone else? How he would react?
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Hoping to get reviews. Hope you are satisfied❤️. Hehe felt like I should interact with you all and let you all know that I will take suggestions (if you have any) without getting angry.