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The evening was peaceful. Wheather was a little cold outside. Darkness had started to engulf the jungle past sunset.

Sidharth was sitting on the hanging bed in the balcony. His head was resting back while he was looking at the trees in silence.

His mind was wondering around the old memories forcing him to see the visions of those moments in front of his eyes. The memories which he could never forget, the memories which was all left with him.

"Maa bss aur ni khana" a little baby pleaded his mother who was feeding him with her hands. His tummy was full but mommy's heart was still craving to feed her child more with her hands.

"Ek bite aur khale bache" saying his mother put another morsel in his mouth.

His father was eating in silence observing the two most important persons of his life. He had a contented smile on his face.

His mobile rang taking the attention of all three of them. Giving them a warm smile he gestured them to continue their food while he went out to attend the call.

"Maa abhi aap khao. I am seriously full" the baby took the bite from his mother's hand and put it in her mouth.

His mother caressed his hair while her eyes were moist with the feeling of happiness. This baby of them was a son everyone would wish to have.

At the age of just 4 he was way more understanding and his maturity always amazed his parents.

His father came back a while later. Sitting on his place he started to eat his food avoiding to look at them. His wife looked at him worriedly but changed her expressions the moment her little baby looked at her.

Kissing his forehead she gave her son a warm smile and getting up went to the kitchen. The baby set there silently observing his father. His mother did try to hide her worry but the baby had seen that worried face of his mother and now of his father too.

His father finished the food while the baby stood up and set close to him.

"Kya baat hai baba?" holding the hand of his father, the baby asked being all serious. His father took him in his lap instantly.

"Sidharth you know na that maa baba loves you?" his father asked getting emotional all of a sudden. Sidharth looked at his father observing him quietly. He could see something was bothering his father.

"I know baba and you two know na that you and maa are my life" he talked like a grown up man expressing his emotions so well.

His father took him in his embrace hugging him tightly. He was trying to hide his son in his arms  as the fear of something was eating him up from inside.

"Baba, please tell me what's the matter?" he asked breaking the hug but still sitting in his lap.

His father looked at him keenly. This little boy could understand him so well at such young age. It always amazed him that how good he observes people.

"Nothing baby, you don't need to worry bacha. Just remember always that your maa and baba loves you more than anything" kissing his forehead his father again hugged him tightly.

Sidharth wrapped his baby arms around his father's neck while his little hands patted his back as if comforting his father.

"Everything will be fine baba" sidharth whispered hugging him tightly. A warm smile came on his father's face listening him while his eyes had moistness which he tried to hide.

Kissing his hair his father kept him close in his arms as if securing the moment for forever. Neither the baby nor the father knew that these moments will be left behind just as memories.

The balcony door opened breaking the vision away from his eyes.

She was there. He felt her presence but didn't react. She quietly came and set beside him on the bed.

There was complete silence for minutes. Neither he asked her anything nor she said anything.

He knew she wanted to say something and was waiting for her to speak while his mind was still roaming around those memories he just visualised again.

"Sidharth, i want to say something" she looked at him while her fingers were playing with each other.

"Hmm, bolo" his gaze was fixed on the trees while he was still in daze of that memory yet he asked her to say whatever she wanted.

"I want to quit this web series" she looked at him waiting for him to turn towards her. Her words brought him back from that memory zone. His attention was all on her words now.

"You will not quit this series" his voice was calm yet she could feel the authority in his tone. He didn't look at her but his attention was all on her.

She looked at him surprised. She was thinking him to agree with her. He would definitely not let her work with that sameer now. Then why was he asking her not to quit?

"um.. I can't work with sameer anymore" she said scared of his reaction on the mention of sameer. Getting up she was about to move towards the railing.

"Baitho yahin" he ordered moving his eyes to her finally. She looked at him on his strict tone. His face had the same strong and strict expressions making her obey his words instantly.

"You don't need to worry about that. He is no more a part of this series" folding his arms against his chest he stated calmly. 

She looked at him shocked. What did he mean that sameer was no more a part of the series? Did he do something to him? Did he....did he kill him?

Her stomach churned with the thought of sidharth taking another life. This was the truth she still wasn't able to take. Her pure heart could never accept this.

"Sidharth" holding his arm she looked at him. His eyes moved to her hold on his arm and then met her hesitant gaze. That gaze had questions which he could see and surely didn't want to answer.

"Did you do something to sameer?" she asked directly looking into his eyes. He diverted his gaze the very next second making her feel fear inside.

This fear was for him only. She did not want sidharth to take any more lives. Either those people were good or bad, God will himself punish them. That's what she believe.

"You don't need to know that" he said as calm as he could. He wanted to keep her out of this in every way. God knows when she could do another stupidity for him and put herself into something she had no idea how to deal with.

Shehnaaz didn't like this thing. He couldn't keep everything hidden from her. She needed to know about sameer. Though he did wrong with her but she had worked with him. She knew him and she had to know if he was alive or.

"I want to know sidharth" she said with certainty this time. His head snapped towards her. She was looking at him with the same question in her eyes.

He didn't like her disobeying his words again. If he said something, she needed to understand.

"Naaz i said something. Didn't you understand?" his jaw was clenched this time as he looked at her. His tone was low but his words were serious.

His eyes showed a very thin layer of anger which was building inside him. She knew he was get more angry but she had to know.

"I understood what you said sidharth but i want to know what did you do to Sameer. Did you..did you kill him?" she asked pressing her hands together out of fear. Nowadays his emotion of anger was overpowering him and she was scared for sure.

"Stop it naaz. Vo mar gya hai ya zinda hai, tumhara isse koi lena dena nhi hai" getting up sidharth said gritting his teeth to shut her questions. Why did she have to care about that sameer?

Her heart was pure but she couldn't worry about every single person around. This would lead her to problems only.

"Sidharth problem kya hai? You cannot keep hiding things from me" she too got up standing behind him. Her voice showed her frustration. She couldn't take him hiding things from her.

Closing his eyes he clutched his fist listening her. Why did she have to anger him? 

Turning to her side he held her upper arm and in a fraction of second pulled her in front of him. He pushed her against the wall while his one hand rested on the wall just beside her hand and the other hand was still holding her arm.

"Why can't i hide naaz? Hmm? Didn't you hide from me that someone dared to blackmail you? Didn't you hide that someone dared to ask you to leave me? If i would not have forced you to tell me the truth, were you going to tell me yourself ever or you would have left me?" caging her in his hold his whispered every word gritting his teeth. His eyes were red letting her know the intensity of his anger.

Tears brimmed in her eyes listening him. He was right. She did a mistake but what could she do? She wanted to protect him only. She had never thought to leave him.

"I know i did a mistake sidharth but i wanted to protect you.. that's the" her cracked voice was silenced by him.

"Shut up naaz, do you understand what are you saying? How did you think that you can protect me?" he asked clenching his jaw while her eyes moved down.

"Tumhe kitni baar samjhaya hai naaz k ye duniya waisi nhi hai jaisi tum sochti ho. Tum bhut saaf dil ki ho naaz, bhut sensitive ho aur tum jaise logon ko ye duniya minto mai kha jaye aur kisi ko pta bhi nhi chalega. Aur tum mujhe protect krne chli thi aur khud ka tumhe kuchh pta bhi tha k tum kis problem mai phas rahi thi?" banging his hand on the wall sidharth shouted on her. His patience was gone the moment he remembered how she was blackmailed.

The tears she was holding back finally roller down her eyes. She kept crying silently while she had nothing to say.

"Rona band kro naaz, rone ki zroorat nhi hai" he ordered her strictly wiping her tears instantly. The affect her tears had him could never be changed. It would always hurt him the most seeing tears in her eyes.

His warning did its work. Biting her lips she tried to control her sobs while he diverted his gaze seeing her biting her lips. If he wouldn't have moved his eyes away from her lips, he knew he will not control himself.

"Kab tak saza doge mujhe?" she asked looking at him. Her eyes were still moist while her voice came out just as a whisper. She couldn't take his distant behaviour anymore.

Sidharth looked deep into her eyes. What did she mean by punishment? Was he punishing her? He was not. He never did. He was being strict just for her so that she wouldn't do anything for him again specially she will not dare to hide anything from him.

Holding her face in his hands he wiped her tears again. She looked at him just like an innocent small kid.

"Saza nhi de raha hun tumhe. Jo bhi kar raha hun, tumhare liye kar raha hun. Tumhare paas hun aur humesha rahunga" he whispered every word just on her lips. His voice was soft this time yet she could feel that authority in his voice.

"Mere liye saza hi hai ye sidharth" she said looking down while he removed his hands from her face.

"To jo samjhna hai samjho" he clenched his jaw again. How was it a punishment for her? His care for her was a punishment for her? He was definitely being strict yet he was letting her feel his care, his love too. Wasn't she feeling that?

"Mujhe andar jana hai" she said looking away. His words did hurt her. She just wanted to be alone for sometime. She didn't have the energy to talk more. She needed some peace in alone.

Sidharth took a step back and removed his hands from beside her. She quietly walked inside the room.

Leaning against the railing sidharth kept looking at the door. Taking a deep breath he rubbed his hands on his face.

He couldn't bring himself to that soft side for her again. His insecurities were too deep that he couldn't throw them out of his life. He had his own reasons. She was the only person he have in his life.

How could he take a risk of her getting into some mess again? If anything happened to her ever, it would be end of his life.

She was ruling his heart to such an extreme extent that he couldn't breathe without her anymore. These were not the mere words, this was his truth.

The day he had lost his everything, his life was nothing except destruction after that. After years of loneliness he had got one person to love, to get loved from. There was no chance of him letting anything happen to her.

It was his belief that keeping her away from his world would keep her protected and with him too.

His father used to hide every small thing from him which could affect him, could hurt him, could harm him. It was his way to protect them.  Sidharth had got the same belief and this would be his way too.

His mind was starting to revolve around his past memories again. Breaking the chain of his thoughts he moved inside before getting lost into those memories again.

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It was 10 at night. Sidharth had prepared the dinner for them. Since the moment they had argued, there was extreme silence in the house. Neither he went to her nor she came to him.

She was in their room since then while he was sitting in the living room after preparing food. Switching on the t v he was shuffling the channels uninterested.

He kept waiting for her to come down and have dinner knowing well that she wouldn't come. Her health was his priority. Sighing he got up and went upstairs.

Entering inside their room he found her sleeping covering herself with duvet from head to toe. That meant she wasn't sleeping.

Shaking his head at her baby acts he walked towards her and stood beside her side.

"Naaz, get up. Dinner krlo" sidharth called her calmly but didn't get any response which he knew already.

His one strict tone and she will be out of bed but he didn't want that for now.

Keeping his one knee on bed he bent towards her and pulled her duvet off her face. Her eyes were shut tightly trying to show that she was asleep.

Holding her wrist he pulled her up making her stand on the bed. She glared at him angerily which was rather cute for him to get scared.

"Khana khalo chlo" snaking his one hand around her waist he put her down.

"Mujhe ni khana" turning back she tried to get onto the bed again but sidharth was quick enough to stop her.

Wrapping his hand around her stomach from behind he held her up against his waist and walked outside the room. She kept wriggling in his hold throwing her legs which didn't affect him at him.

He kept walking downstairs holding her with one hand. Placing her on the sofa he walked towards the kitchen.

"Don't you dare naaz" sidharth warned her strictly as she tried to get off sofa to ran upstairs. His tone made her sit there quietly while her lips made the saddest pout.

Preparing two plates of food he came back in the living room and set beside her.

"Khao" placing the plate infront of her he said calmly.

"Mujhe ni khana" she denied looking away from the plate. She was still upset and didn't feel the appetite to have food.

"Dimag mat sadao naaz, chup chap khana khao" sidharth ordered her strictly while his pich was loud too. She looked at him and his one hard glare made her quickly take the plate.

Both of them did their dinner in extreme silence. For the first time they used different plates. It didn't settle with both of them.

Taking her plate she shifted close to him and transferred her food in his plate and then  started to eat from his plate and took the bite from the same roti which he had. He didn't stop her and kept eating in silence. This little moment gave them some peace.

They were angry on each other, they were upset with each other but still they needed each other in every moment.

Finishing the dinner sidharth took the plates and kept them in sink. He was about to wash them just then shehnaaz came and stood beside him to wash the dishes.

"Mai karlunga, leave it" taking the plate from her hand sidharth said politely.

"Tumne khana bhi banaya tha, mai saaf kardungi" she too replied politely. She already had this guilty feeling inside that she couldn't even make food for him. Now atleast she could wash the dishes.

There was this thought too in her mind that she will surely cook for him one day. It was her wish she wanted to fulfill anyhow.

"Koi zroorat nhi hai, i will do" he denied straight away making her irritated now. What was his problem with her washing dishes? Couldn't she do even this.

"Kya hai sidharth? Dishes to krne do atleast. Mar nhi jaun...." she felt a pull on her arm before she could complete her sentence.

"Bakwas mat kro naaz. Dimag khraab hai? Samjh mai ni aata k kya bol rahi ho?" glaring her hard sidharth shouted at her. Why she had to raise his insecurities by talking nonsense.

She looked down like a school kid after getting a good scolding. Leaving her arm he ran his hand in his hair calming himself.

Keeping the plate back in the sink she quickly ran upstairs making him sigh. Why he was getting so angry nowadays? He could feel his control loosing on himself.

Something caught his mind as his mind went into deep thinking. Inhaling a sharp breath he controlled his emotions before they could make him weak.

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Closing the door behind sidharth walked towards their bed. She was sleeping on her side covered with the duvet. Again the same acting. No doubt she was a god actor in front of the camera but not in front of her husband. He could catch her acting effortlessly.

Getting on the bed he laid down on his side. His one hand was under his head while the other one was on his chest.

Both were awake and both knew that they couldn't sleep without each other. Taking the lead this time sidharth turned towards her.

Stratching his arm he wrapped his arm around her stomach and pulled her petite figure back into himself. She didn't protest nor she did she react.

Pulling her more into himself sidharth hugged her tightly spooning her into his strong arms. His one arm was under her head while his other hand was wrapped around her shoulder.

She knew she couldn't stop herself now. She wrapped her hands around his pulling his hands more onto herself while he too embraced her more into himself.

Keeping his one leg on both of hers, he caged her completely into his hold.

Sliding her shirt down her shoulder he kissed her shoulder making her inhale sharp breaths. Giving soft kisses on her shoulder he let her feel his warmth.

His lips moved to her neck. He kissed her neck softly as if comforting her while she liked the feeling to the extreme. His kisses were so soft yet passionate. Giving her his warmth he relaxed her letting her mind shut all the thoughts. Atleast for the night.

Kissing her hair he closed his eyes while her lips curved into a soft smile. This was their home to be in each other's arms.

The next day went with sidharth dropping her back on set. She had agreed to him but they were again on silent mode.

But there was something wrong with sidharth today. He was lost somewhere. Shehnaaz had noticed him being zoned out for moments in the morning. She didn't understand the reason of his mood but she could feel that he wasn't okay.

He didn't even had his breakfast. She told him to have his breakfast but he denied saying he will eat after dropping her off. He didn't have any work today.

The drive to her set went in extreme silence with him talking to her only once that too to warn her to take care of herself.

"Iss baar set se bahr jaane ki galti mat krna naaz. I will seriously not tolerate this time" he had warned her ever so strictly making sure she won't do any stupidity again.

"Hmm" she replied looking at him. He was looking straight on the road waiting for her to get down the car.

"Sidharth tum theek ho?" she asked what she wanted to ask since morning. He was definitely not okay and she was restless for him.

"Hmm, jao tum. Apna dhyaan rakhna" he said softly while she could feel his voice cracking at the end. Him turning the face towards window increased her restlessness. What happened to him? Was he upset because of her? Did she hurt him?

"Sidharth tum...." she was about to ask him but he interrupted her in between.

"Go naaz, late ho raha hai mujhe" his said strictly. Unwantedly she opened the door and walked out. He waited for her till she entered inside the set.

Starting the car again he took the u turn and drove off excelerating the speed. His hands gripped the steering tightly while he took sharp breaths focusing on the road.

Within a minute he could see his vision getting blurred. Handling the steering with one hand he quickly wiped the moistness in his eyes. Rubbing his one hand on his chest he tried to calm himself down while taking deep breaths.

He needed to control himself but he could feel himself getting weak.

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Reaching on set she got to know that sameer had himself quit the series and the shocking news for her was that he had quit his acting career.

Taking his mom with himself he moved back to London selling all the shares of his father's company. He was going to start a new life in London with his mother who was the happiest person with her son's decision.

She had told him about his father's deeds which she couldn't tell till now because of her husband's fear. Her life was a living hell with that man who used to disrespect her every single day. For the sake of her son, she never dared to open her mouth. Finally she was out of that life which she hated but was tolerating for her son.

Sameer had asked for apology from sidharth before leaving India and even thanked him for sparing his life. He wanted to apologize to shehnaaz too but sidharth had warned him not to show his face to his naaz ever in life.

The day went well for shehnaaz. She was happy that Sameer's chapter was finished from their lives and he was safe too.

Her new co star was a popular actor known as Karan Deol.  He was a charming man with good sense of humour. He did entertain everyone on the set but shehnaaz had noticed him maintaining a distance from her. He would talk to her politely but will keep a respectful distance too talking with her in a limit. She didn't understand the reason as he was very open with every other person on the set but she was relieved too as she herself liked professionalism. Moreover after sameer's case she had developed this fear inside to trust anyone.

She was busy in shoot for the whole day but her mind was thinking about sidharth only. She wanted to talk to him to know if he was okay or not but didn't get time. There was an unknown restlessness inside her which was eating her up and she knew it was related to sidharth only.

She kept waiting for the shoot to end so that she could go back to sidharth.

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"Sidharth theek ho tum?" shehnaaz asked the moment she set inside the car.

"Hmm" humming sidharth started the car and drove off. She wasn't convinced with his answer but thought to talk to him once they will be home.

The drive to home went in silence again. Entering in their house he closed the door behind.

"Sidharth.." she called him as he walked upstairs. He was behaving too distant from her today and she was not liking it.

"Naaz am tired. Baad mai baat karenge" saying plainly he went upstairs followed by her. Walking upstairs she saw him going to another room instead of their room. Before she could calm him he entered inside and closed the door behind.

She was worried for him. He was trying to be alone and she could see that.

It was 6 in the evening. She thought to let him be alone for sometime and will talk to him after some time. She knew he would do what he want so she had to wait.

Sighing she went into their room. Freshening up she changed into a comfy night suit directly. Lying on the bed she kept tossing restlessly.

He could have been stayed in the same room atleast if he didn't want to talk. She could have been more relieved that he was in front of her eyes atleast.

Tossing and turning for more than an hour she finally got up. Enough of his alone time. She couldn't handle the increasing restlessness inside.

Getting up she walked out of the room and went to the room he was in. She knocked on the door once but didn't get any response. She pushed the door a little and fortunately it was open.

Sighing she pushed it open and entered inside but the very next moment shock took over her. She wasn't accepting this.

Her heart felt a sharp ache inside in that moment.

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