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The night seemed too intense! Their growing feelings were getting difficult for them to control. It was all so new.

"Sidharth" mumbled shehnaaz seeing the intensity in his eyes. His gaze was burning her. Holding her jaw he pulled her more into himself.

"Shehnaaz remember one thing no matter what happens, i won't let you go" sidharth breathed on her lips making her shiver.

"It's too late now" he looked deep into her eyes.

"Do you understand?" his voice was laced with extreme possessiveness. Her thinking of going away from him had took over his mind now. It pinched his heart too hard.

She kept looking at him not knowing what to answer.

"Answer me naaz" sidharth caressed her cheek with his thumb. His voice was authoritative. He wanted to hear from her that she won't go away from him. Her words had erupted a deep insecurity inside him.  The kind of feeling it was, he could feel an ache in his chest.

He went too far now. His emotions grew too deep to not acknowledge them. She had taken an important place in his life which he could never ignore now. Every emotion was too intense in their relation whatever it was.

"I don't want to go away from you sidharth but..." her eyes reflected her pain. He saw that. He felt the same.

"Tum mujhse door nhi jaa rhi ho aur na mai tumhe kabhi jane dunga" snaking his hand around her waist sidharth pulled her more into his chest.

Holding her jaw softly he just placed his lips on hers. It was so unexpected that she couldn't process what had just happened.

His rough lips captured her soft ones making her close her eyes. Sidharth kissed her passionately. It was an aggressive kiss she experienced for the first time. He was not showing any softness this time. He sucked her lips possessively making her clutch his bicep tightly. She could feel he was taking her breaths away. His fingers digged in her waist as he deepened the kiss making her open her mouth.

He explored her mouth wildly making her digg her fingers in his bicep. Her little nails were totally digged in his flesh. Realising her going breathless sidharth broke the kiss making her lean herself in his arms. Her head placed on his chest as she breathed heavily.

Keeping his head on hers sidharth too calmed his breaths. He kept his one hand at the back of her head letting her breath in his chest. Her warm breaths were falling on his chest making him close his eyes to control the desires he was feeling inside.

He knew he wasn't in control today. His insecurities which he just felt a moment ago had took him to go so passionate with her. He was always soft but today he couldn't.

"Naaz" sidharth whispered in her hair as she breathed in his embrace. She didn't reply and kept breathing heavily. It was too much for her.

"Calm down" he kissed her hair softly rubbing her arm. She was calm a little later. But she kept herself hidden in his chest.

"You okay?" he tried to look at her face but she buried her face more in his chest. The feeling she was feeling at that moment,it was so strong that her whole body shivered in his embrace. What had just happened? The intimacy of the kiss, it was something she couldn't describe.

His desires were so high at the moment as her lips were almost touching his bare chest. She was breathing on his chest. He felt her body shivered in his arms.

"Naaz! You fine?" sidharth made her look at himself pulling her chin a little up.

"No" she replied making him look at her surprised yet worried.

"Why?" he rubbed his thumb on her cheek looking into her eyes.

"What you just did?" she could feel her cheeks turning red. He looked at her keenly. Did she really question this?

"I kissed you" his blunt reply made her go all red. She regretted asking him but she never expected him to reply her question.

He could see how she was going red. Her eyes!! Her eyes didn't show any regret. She let him kiss her. She didn't stop him nor she ever questioned him. Then why did she question him today? Did she regret him kissing her? The same insecurity started eating him up again.

"Naaz!!" his eyes were red suddenly as he held her jaw a little hard making her look into his eyes.

She didn't understand what happened him suddenly. He looked so restless yet angry.

"Do you regret it?" he asked directly. He needed to know to suppress that irritating feeling.

"What?" she was lost in thinking what had just happen to him that she didn't understand what he asked about.

His jaw clenched. He was suddenly feeling extreme anger inside. The mere thought of her regretting it made his insides burn in anger.

"I am talking about the kiss Damn it!!" his fingers digged in soft skin of her cheek. The strong deep harsh voice of his made her shudder. What happened to him suddenly? Why he was acting so strange?

"Sidharth" she tried to talk as she wasn't understanding his behaviour.

"Answer me naaz!! Just give the damn answer" he pulled her face closer. Her cheeks were hurting because of his tight hold.

"No! I don't!!" her eyes were getting moist because of the pain he was causing her.

His hold loosened as her words soothed his heart. That feeling suppressed for the time being as her words ringed in his mind. She did not regret it! He was relieved.

" Tumhe ho kya gya hai sidharth...why are you reacting like this" her heavy voice took his attention. Looking at her he found tears brimming in her eyes. As his gaze moved a little down he understood the reason of those tears.

He cursed himself for making her cry. Sitting on the grass he pulled her in his lap taking care of her leg. She looked at him surprised.

"Is it hurting?" sidharth rubbed his thumb softly on the marks of his fingers on her cheek. She kept looking at him. What was this person? How would she ever understand him? He was the one who hurt her a moment ago now he was the only one asking if it hurts. What should she do?

She nodded her head like a baby. She wanted him to know that he hurt her. Keeping his hand at the back of her head he entangled his fingers in her hair. Moving closer he kissed those marks which caused her pain. She closed her eyes feeling his touch.

"I can never understand you sidharth" she looked at him with sadness. The sadness she herself didn't understand.

"You do" he placed a strand of hair behind her ear.

"No i don't" she denied. She really didn't understand him. But he knew she does. She always did.

"Don't argue naaz" his stern voice made her look at him with a little pout. Closing her eyes she again leaned on his chest.

She was changing him. He was a different sidharth with her.

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It was more than an hour they were sitting near that river. Shehnaaz was in his lap. The moment they came there, they both were disturbed. They were stressed with the problems of their lives.

The problems were still there but they were not stressed anymore. They had peace for the moment. They always felt sukoon in each other's embrace forgetting everything.

Even then they were doing the same. They were in their sukoon. The sukoon they knew would be lost once they would go away from each other. Why they couldn't have a normal life?

"Sidharth" shehnaaz mumbled in his chest. He was sitting there with closed eyes. He just hummed to her mumble.

"Ye sab kya hai...hum kya hain?" she asked the same question again. It always eats her insides.

"Why do you question the same question again and again" he opened his eyes running his one hand in his hair.

"Because i don't know" she looked at him now. She really wanted to know what he thinks of them.

"I don't know" his feelings for her were deep. It was all true. They both had a deep relationship with each other. It was yet to be named. They knew they were precious for each other. They had always felt a strong pull towards each other.   They always had a urge to see each other, to feel each other. All these feelings were true and intense but they were yet to name those feelings.

"To hum kya kar rhe hain" she wanted to clear her mind totally unaware that her questions were disturbing his peace. She was unknowingly angering him.

His fist clenched as anger started overpowering him again. Why she was questioning them? He hated that. He stayed quiet as he knew he would hurt her in his anger..

"Sidharth.. kya hain hum? I want to ..."

"Stop Naaz! Just stop it!!" the anger in his eyes shocked her. She didn't expect that. His clenched jaw made her scared. She didn't understand what she did to anger him.

"Sidhhh....." she tried to say something.

"Shh....chup!! bilkul chup" placing her on the grass again he got up angerily and moved away.

She set there unaware what had gone wrong. His harsh behaviour always hurts her.

He himself hurts her but can't see her hurt!!

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