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Frozen on his place sidharth kept looking at her.  Looking at him silently shedding tears shehnaaz took a step towards him. He didn't move. She took one more step and stood just infront of him. He looked into her eyes silently.

"Kon ho tum sidharth?" she looked into his eyes. Her voice was breaking. Her head was already aching.

He just kept looking at her. He had no answer or he feared to answer her question. What if she hated him? Why if she never want to see his face again? The thoughts itself were killing his insides. He knew he couldn't tolerate that.

"Sidharth" shehnaaz kept her hand on his cheek making him look at her again. The tears falling down her eyes were making him feel difficult to breath. He was the reason of those tears and wasn't able to stop them.

"Tum koi criminal nhi ho...haina?" the hope in her eyes and the plead in her voice took his breaths away. That was the only truth but she did not want to believe. She had every proof in front of her eyes but her heart wanted to deny.

She wanted to listen from him that he wasn't a criminal!!

He could see that hope in her eyes which he could never fulfill. She still didn't want to believe the truth. The plead in her voice was taking his soul away.

"Please sidharth, please say once that you are not a criminal...u are not some goon...tum nhi hai ho na aise?" she kept her other hand too on his cheek cupping his face. Her tears were rolling down continuously.

Sidharth kept his hands on hers and held them tightly against his cheeks. He feared what if he said something and she moved away from him?

"Shehnaaz" his voice cracked for the first time in his life. He never felt so weak in his life as he felt at that moment.

"Please sidharth" she pressed her lips together suppressing her sobs. Sidharth moved his hands from hers and wiped her tears but a fresh layer again covered her cheeks.

His voice betrayed him to speak something. His silence was angering her now. She was loosing her patience.

"Sidharth bolo na...chup kyun khade ho....i know tum koi bure insaan nhi ho....koi gunde nhi ho...i know...i know" holding his shirt collar with her tiny hands shehnaaz pulled him towards herself. Her voice had anger this time which was more of hurt and pain.

"Shehnaaz stop" sidharth held her hands and softly removed them from his shirt. He kept his voice calm.

She was hating his silence. Why couldn't he just say that yes he wasn't any goon or criminal.

"Sidharth akhiri baar puchh rhi hoon...agar ab bhi nhi bole na to zindagi mai apni shakal mat dikhana chahe mar bhi jaun....."

"Shehnaaz chup bilkul chup....dimag khrab ho gya hai....kya bakwas lga rkhi hai.." sidharth pulled her towards himself holding her arms. His voice was harsh and loud making her shut her mouth in an instant.

" Jan na chahti ho na kon hoon mai...hoon mai criminal..bhut bda criminal..mumbai ka ek gunda..ek murderer"
"suna tumne kon hun mai"sidharth pulled her more into himself digging his fingers in her arms. His red angry eyes were looking into her tear filled eyes.

Sidharth was beyond angry at the moment. Her talking about dying just made him loose his mind in an instant..Why she had to say such nonsense? He could never hear anything such for her even if she was the one speaking.

She stood still in his arms. He broke her last hope!!

Soon fresh tears rolled down her eyes realising everything had just ended. The tears made him loose his grip as he realised what he did in impulse. Pushing her a little sidharth walked a little away turning his back towards her.

He cursed himself for loosing his calm. He shouldn't have said like that. He never wanted to hide his truth from her but still it didn't feel right. It shouldn't have been in this way.

Taking deep breath he calmed himself and turned towards her..

She was crying silently standing there. It was breaking him to see her crying. Why she had to be so soft? Why she had to take everything on her heart? But how it wouldn't hurt her heart when he had taken an important place in that heart.

"Shehnaaz" sidharth took a step towards her but she moved back looking at him. His heart dropped in his stomach. Is she hating him now? He felt fear gripping him again. Was she going away from him? He felt he would die just there. Her going away took his breaths too.

"Shehnaaz" sidharth took a step again towards her. But she again moved back shaking her head while crying. Her every step was hurting him to the extreme.

Not realising that they were on the road she kept moving back. Sidharth was quick enough to realise where she was going. The traffic on the road was not much but the speed of vehicles was too fast as it was highway.

"Shehnaaz stop" sidharth moved fastly towards her. A car coming from their right took his attention. Taking too long steps sidharth pulled her arm with force and dragged her quickly on the side.

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"Shehnaaz kya ho gya hai tumhe..kya kar rhi ho haan...abhi kuchh ho jata to" shouted sidharth holding her shoulders tightly. She was the only person who could make him go through the feeling of fear.

She didn't say anything. She just kept looking at him. How could she believe him to be a bad person? He had always protected her. A protector could never be a criminal..

Her head started throbbing again. Everything was effecting her really badly. She needed peace but now she wasn't able to get peace in anything.

Pushing him back she tried to come out of his grip. He didn't move nor he let her go. He could not let her go now. It was too late.

She again pushed him but he did not move. He kept looking at her. He could see she was trying hard to keep her tears back..

"Shehnaaz look at me" sidharth pulled her into himself. His voice was soft. He wasn't able to take her behaviour. Why she wasn't looking at him. It was hurting him.

She shook her head still not looking at him. She wanted to cry. She wanted to cry till the time everything which had filled inside her wouldn't come out. The hurt, that pain she wanted to let everything out. She knew once she looked at him, she won't be able to stop herself..

She knew his truth would hurt her everytime now!

"Shehnaaz meri taraf dekho..Please" his voice had desperation this time. He couldn't take that more. She couldn't do that. Why she was not looking at him?

Pressing her lips together she slowly looked at him. The care, that worry in his eyes made her eyes fill in an instant. What should she do? Why everything had become so complicated?

Sliding his one hand around her waist sidharth kept her close to himself. The tears she was holding flew down her eyes making his heart ache. He quickly wiped her tears but a fresh layer covered her cheeks again..

"Stop crying" his voice was soft. He didn't want to hurt her more. He could see how hurt she was already.

They both knew they had developed feelings for each other and his truth would surely effect both.

Her hands moved towards his chest clutching his shirt tightly in her fists. How much she tried but she couldn't control herself. Placing her head on his chest she let him hold her. His arms tightly wrapped around her.

A loud sob left her mouth making him feel the same pain. She cried..cried in his chest. Her mind was flooded with thoughts but her heart was yearning for him only.

She was feeling protected in his arms like she always felt. His truth couldn't change their feelings but she knew it would definitely effect their lives. She didn't know what would happen next.

Sidharth kept her as close to himself as he could. He didn't know where their lives will lead now but he didn't want her to go away from him. He had experienced that feeling in his thoughts and that only made him feel the pain to its extreme.

"Shehnaaz stop crying" it was getting difficult for him now to see her crying.

"You are hurting me sidharth" sobbed shehnaaz hiding her face more into his chest. Why couldn't he be a simple man with a simple life.  Why he had to choose such way of life?

His hold tightened around her pulling her more into himself. He knew what did she mean. He knew his truth was hurting her but that was what he was. He couldn't change this.

Taking out her face from his chest sidharth wiped her tears again..

"kyun kar rhe ho aisa sidharth" her eyes were red and had swelled badly. Their worlds were so different and she was hating it.

He did not say anything. He had nothing to say. How could he change himself. He was what he was since always.

"Shehnaaz calm down..u are crying too much" Sidharth rubbed his fingers softly on her cheeks. Her cheeks and nose had turned red.

Controlling her tears she took deep breath. Her head was aching badly. She wasn't able to take the pain now. Her continuous crying had added more to it. Her not having dinner and breakfast was making it worst..

"Mujhe ghar jana hai" said shehnaaz softly. She wanted to be alone to understand what was happening in her life.

He did not like that. He felt a pang inside thinking she wanted to go away from him.

"Shehnaaz" sidharth kept his one hand on her cheek. She looked at him silently.

"You don't hate me.. right?" he looked deep into her eyes. He felt so weak at the moment. He couldn't take her hatred. His heart denied now.

She kept looking into his eyes silently..His dark eyes had the same pain. She could see. She could feel the same way as he could feel her pain.

"Speak up shehnaaz that u don't hate me" sidharth pressed her against himself touching his forehead with hers. He wasn't at peace. He wanted to hear once from her that she didn't hate him..

"I can never" she confessed as fresh tears rolled down her eyes. It was true. She could never hate him. But she did not know if she would ever come in front of him or not.

He felt he could breath again! She doesn't hate him!

Keeping his hand on the back of her head sidharth pushed her face in his chest again. He wrapped his arms tightly around her hiding her into himself.

That was their safe place. She let the tears fall hiding herself into his arms. Why couldn't they be just like that always..

"Sidharth" mumbled shehnaaz in his chest. He looked at her.

"Please mujhe ghar jana hai" she mumbled again. She did not have any energy left in her now to understand anything or to think anything..

He didn't say anything this time. She definitely needed time to understand everything. Wiping her tears again he placed a kiss on her forehead. Holding her hand he led her towards the car.

Opening the door he made her sit inside and closed the door. Sitting on the driver seat sidharth looked at her once and started the car. She leaned back on the seat totally to give some relief to her head.

The whole drive was silent. She kept her eyes closed and he kept his eyes on the road. So much had happened today..They didn't know what tomorrow would bring in their lives.

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