"Kyun kar rhe ho aisa?" asked shehnaaz pressing her face more into his chest. Her heart wasn't at peace. Something was happening inside her. She was feeling so helpless to deal with the emotions, the feelings growing inside her. What should she do? She wanted to go away from him but she was crying in his arms. Why everything was so complicated? She was not understanding herself. What was she doing? She had no answers to her own actions. She was feeling that she had no control on herself, her actions. Everything was happening on its own.

Getting frustrated with her own self shehnaaz sobbed again hiding her face in his chest, holder his shirt in her fists. Her sobs made her warm breaths fan sidharth's chest making him close his eyes. Her soft lips pressed on his chest again as she nuzzled in his chest while crying making sidharth keep his hand in her hair at the back of her head. Taking a deep breath to control the strong feelings erupting inside him, sidharth pulled her face out of his chest. He couldn't take it more. His control was loosing as her little actions were creating havoc inside him.

"Rona band kro shehnaaz" said sidharth wiping her tears holding her face softly. She looked at him with her innocence filled eyes. His words felt so soothing. She was crying in his arms because of him only but there was something she always felt in his arms. It was the feeling of sukoon which she always missed in her life. She was hurt but still she felt to be in his arms only. What was this? She shouldn't go close to him but keeping her head on his chest, she felt a different familiarity. A connection she felt with his heart as she heard his heard beats. This was the feeling she always felt listening his heart beats but everytime this feeling was growing deep. She could feel that. What was this feeling?

" U fine?" asked Sidharth looking into her eyes holding her face. She looked into his eyes and kept looking silently trying to find the answers of her questions.

"Shehnaaz" said sidharth softly again as he find her silent.

" Tum kyun mujhe itna affect kar rhe ho?" "You are no one to me. Right?" asked shehnaaz like a small child. Her question had innocence and uncertainty. She herself wasn't sure if he was no one to her or he was something. She herself didn't know what did she want.

Her saying that he was affecting her did something to him. It felt his unknown feelings were being reciprocated by hers. As the thought processed in his mind that she was feeling the same what he was feeling inside, his heart beats raised. He was affecting her the same way she was affecting him. The feeling he just felt at the moment had a different sukoon in itself. But her next question that he was no one to her made him realise what he was thinking. It was wrong.

He was no one to her. It was true but it didn't feel right to him. It should feel right to him because it was good for her but it didn't. Her saying that he was no one to her made him feel that he lost something precious even when it wasn't of his. The feeling just pierced his heart and that somewhere triggered his emotion of anger for being so helpless at the moment. The anger for loosing something which he shouldn't, which he didn't feel right to loose.

"Bolo na tum koi nhi ho na mere liye" said shehnaaz as she find him quiet but her words further triggered his rising anger. Removing his hand from her cheek sidharth closed his eyes clenching his jaw. She needed to stop saying that he was no one to her. Sidharth could feel anger inside and he needed to go away from her before he could do something wrong. He knew if he stopped there more he would end up hurting her.

Placing her on bed sidharth quickly got up to walk away from her but shehnaaz was quick enough to hold his hand making him clench his jaw in anger. Standing on her knees on the bed shehnaaz pulled his arm turning his face towards herself. Sidharth didn't look at her. He wanted to go away from her for the moment as he was really angry. He knew himself well and his anger too.

" Shehnaaz u need rest. Just sleep" said sidharth removing her hand from his but she quickly kept her other hand too on his holding it tightly.

"Nahi tum nhi jaoge aise. I can't take this anymore. Mujhe jaan na hai. jaan na hai k kyun fark pad rha hai mujhe tumse jab tum mere liye kuchh nhi..."

"Shehnaaz" before she could speak further sidharth spoke loudly pulling her towards himself fiercely. Her eyes got closed in reaction of his sudden pull. Sidharth held her one arm at her back holding it tightly and pulled her more into himself. His hold on her arm was hurting her but she didn't say anything as she looked into his eyes. His eyes were red in anger and that fierce look in his eyes scared her. The dangerous intensity in his eyes made her shudder.

" Chup! bilkul chup shehnaaz. Not a word more" said sidharth looking into her eyes breathing heavily. His dangerously authorotitive voice made her look at him helplessly. She could do nothing now. She kept looking into his eyes making his eyes soft slowly. The purity, the innocence in her eyes was melting his anger. Slowly his emotion of anger was converting into helplessness. He felt helpless for not being someone in her life. That someone who he himself didn't know. But why couldn't he? He wanted to but he couldn't. Why this was so difficult. Why this was hurting inside?

Sidharth felt so weak, so helpless at the moment and his eyes reflected that helplessness which she could see. She felt his feeling as she was feeling the same deep inside. Unknown to herself, she kept her one hand on cheek softly making his hold on her other arm loose. He looked at her helplessly and his own hand reached to her cheek moving his hand further in her hair entangling his fingers in her hair softly and next he pulled her face close to himself making their noses touch each other.

"Shehnaaz" mumbled sidharth softly moving his face closer to hers making her heart beats increasing. Her hand moved to his hair at the back as closed her eyes. Sidharth brushed his lips just at the corner of her lips making her hold his arm breathing heavily. His hand moved around her waist pulling her petite figure more into himself. Their warm breaths fell on each other's lips intensifying their want at the moment. Caressing her cheek with his thumb softly sidharth brushed his lips at the corner of her eye making her hold tight on his arm. Breathing heavily sidharth further brushed his lips on her earlobe making her part her lips a little more as she felt she could not breath feeling his lips.

"This is not right" mumbled sidharth pressing his lips more on her earlobe. And the next moment he pushed her away softly and dashed out of the room without looking at her making her open her eyes. Realising what was just happening she hold her head in her hands. What was she doing? and she just thumped on the bed not understanding her own self.

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