Keeping his hand on his chest sidharth was slowly stepping down the stairs. The stress he just went through had caused pain in his stitches.

He was finding difficult to walk as with every step he was feeling pain in his stitches. Him pulling shehnaaz with force to himself added more to his pain.

His mind was already messed up to think anything properly. The visuals of that video were still roaming in his mind making it difficult for him to think anything else.

With all the thoughts messing up his mind more sidharth kept walking downstairs taking slow steps.

There was none present in the living room to help him at that time. He himself didn't want to call anyone. All he wanted at that time was to be alone.

Holding the railing with his left hand sidharth stopped in his steps on the second last stair. A sudden strong wave of restlessness rushed through him. 

Closing his eyes he stood there taking the support of railing. The emotion of worry got triggered inside him all of sudden. Something was wrong.

His naaz !

His naaz needed him. He could feel that need of hers like always. She was calling him, he could feel inside.

This worry, the restlessness he was feeling inside was only for her, he knew.

The urge to go back to her took over him suddenly. His heart felt the need to go to her right then.

She wasn't fine, something was wrong with her, he knew that. How could he leave her alone when he could feel that she wasn't fine. How could he not feel her need of himself.

"Naaz" mumbling to himself sidharth opened his eyes. The increasing rate of his heart beats were indicating him of her being not fine.

Turning his face back he looked up the stairs restlessly. What happened to his naaz?

Turning back sidharth started climbing the stairs again. Ignoring the pain in his stitches he took long steps to go to her as fast as he could.

His own pain didn't matter to him anymore after knowing that she wasn't okay, that she needed him.

When it comes to her, nothing feels important to him in front of her not even he himself. If she was there with him all fine, he was alive. He needed her to keep breathing.

Walking upstairs as fast as he could he moved towards their room. The door was half opened as he had left sometimes before.

Pushing the door open sidharth stepped inside their room. Parting his lips while his eyes going wide open he was shocked seeing the sight in front of his eyes.

Leaning on the floor on her front with her one hand resting on the floor balancing herself and her other hand rubbing her chest, shehnaaz was moving restlessly trying to breathe while continuous tears were falling down her eyes.

Her lips were parted while her chest heaving up and down in anxiousness as she was unable to take in sufficient air.

Her red teary eyes moved towards him making him gasp in horror seeing her condition.

Stretching her hand towards him she tried to utter something but her voice felt stucked inside her throat making her feel helpless.

The horrific sight it was for sidharth to see her in such a vulnerable condition. She looked too helpless at that moment and that killed something inside him. 

"Naaz" mumbling her name sidharth rushed towards her while extreme worry had taken over him to its extreme intensity making him forget everything around except her.

"naaz" getting on his knees in front of her sidharth held her both upper arms pulling her up as she was almost leaning on the floor.

Sitting beside her on the floor sidharth pulled her in his lap making her sit in between his legs while she loosened herself in his arms letting him hold her.

The pull and push of his were making him feel the pain in his chest again but he chose to ignore it again in front of her. It would definitely cause problem to him later ln but he didn't care.

"Kya hogya baby, naaz..saans ni aa rhi hai..hmm?" holding her close to his chest sidharth rubbed her back trying to calm her while his other hand pushed her hair back from her face.

His voice held extreme worry for her. What was happening to her, he was unable to understand but could see her breathing with difficulty.

"sid..ha.." holding his shirt in her fist she tried to speak but couldn't do feeling lack of breathe in her system.

He could feel panic in her movements as she was moving her hands to him restlessly. She wanted to speak but was unable to form words.

"naaz breathe baby....relax naaz...saans lo.. kya hogya hai..mai hun na yahan" sidharth kept rubbing her back worriedly while his other hand moved to her front opening the first button of her kurta.

Was she getting panic attack? The thought itself churned his stomach making him feel the worst feeling ever.

What made her have panic attack, he couldn't see her like this struggling to breathe. Heart wrenching it was for him to see her so helpless.

"naaz look at me...look at me baby" holding her face in his hands sidharth made her look into his eyes.

The fear of anything happening to his naaz made him feel restless to its extreme intensity.

The moistness brimming in his eyes was clearly visible. Her pain was making him feel the ache in his whole body. How could he see her struggling to even breathe.

The moment her red teary eyes looked into his, a sharp pain he just felt in his chest seeing her condition. She wasn't able to breathe, he felt himself going breathless.

"breathe naaz, theek hai sab theek hai.. breathe meri jaan" whispering to her sidharth placed soft kisses on her face trying to calm her down while a lone tear fell down his eyes resting on her cheek.

"me..e..me..re...p...pass..r.." her hand moved to his bicep restlessly holding him there while she tried to say something but was failing again as she was struggling to breathe.

"haan hun mai, yahin hun naaz..tumhare paas hi hun..relax baby... breathe meri jaan.. please breathe" understanding her unsaid words too sidharth looked into her eyes wiping her tears with his palm.

He just wanted her to be fine at that moment. His heart couldn't take more pain. She needed to be fine for him.

His hand moved to her kurta again opening another button of it. He didn't want her to feel more suffocated in any way.

Opening the last button too of her kurta sidharth slid the neck of her kurta aside trying to comfort her more.

"kuchh ni hua baby, just breathe naaz..tumhara sidharth hai ta tumhare paas..haina" wrapping his one arm around her waist sidharth held her in his embrace while he caressed her hair with his other hand.

His soft words were working for her like always. The visuals of the video, her sidharth getting upset with her, all these thoughts were starting to subside making her slowly feel calm in his arms.

Leaning on him she kept her head on his chest while her left hand gripped his shirt fisting it tightly which he let her do.

Breathing in his chest she closed her eyes while sidharth kept her as close as he could. Keeping his chin on her head he kept placing soft kisses on her hair.

Looking up he tried to push back the tears he just got in his eyes seeing her condition. It was painful to extreme level for sidharth.

He could never see her like this. She didn't deserve to go through any kind of pain and here she was struggling to breathe.

Feeling her breathes going calm slowly sidharth wrapped his other arm too around her embracing her in his arms tightly.

A sudden fear he just grew inside of leaving her alone even fir a moment. What if he wasn't there? What if something would have happened to her?

She was all alone in the room, he himself left her alone. She wasn't able to breathe and another painful part was that she wasn't even able to call someone to help her.

Why? Why he wasn't there before. Why he just left her alone in his anger? He shouldn't have.

Closing his eyes sidharth kept tightening his hold on her sitting on the floor with her in his lap.

Closing her eyes shehnaaz too kept breathing in his chest holding his shirt in her fist. Her home it was in his embrace. Her safe place he was, his arms were.

Pecking her hair again sidharth opened his eyes as the thought of what made her panic took over his mind again.

Was he the reason of her getting panicked? His whole body felt loosing its strength with the thought of himself being the reason of her pain.

If he was the reason of her condition, he would never be able to forgive himself. Did he go too harsh on her in his anger? Did he hurt her to this extreme?

Rubbing her back softly sidharth let her have her time to calm herself more while something took his attention.

The mobile on the floor!!

Another thought made its way in his mind. Did she just watch the video of herself? Was it the reason of what she just went through.

Holding her with his one hand sidharth stretched his one hand leaning on her and making her lean back. Grabbing the mobile sidharth moved back again.

The video was on pause and he had this guess that she might saw this video. What she did was a shock for him but he couldn't forget how she was.

That one impulsive move of hers couldn't change her sensitive self in a harsh one for forever. It couldn't change her reality which was her kindness.

Lost in his thoughts he unknowingly tapped on the play button starting the video again. The moment the voice from the video reached her ears, all her calm ness turned into anxiousness in seconds. She wasn't ready for this again.

"Sidharh.. nhi..b..ban.. band..kro.. sidhar." pushing her face more in his chest shehnaaz clinged on him more while restlessness, her anxiousness could be seen in her movements.

Realising what he just did sidharth quickly paused the video and switched the mobile off. Seeing her reaction to the video, he was sure the video was the reason she got panicked.

"kuchh ni hai baby, kuchh bhi ni hai..mai hun na yahan..hm..bss bsss..kuchh ni hua" hiding her in his embrace sidharth rubbed her back again while caressing her hair trying to keep her calm.

He couldn't see her getting panicked again. It was so painful for him to watch her this vulnerable.

Holding on to him tightly she tried to hide her more in his arms making him feel the stress she was having in her mind because of the video. Why do she had to go through this.

"naaz relax ho jao, tumhare pass hun na mai, calm down..kuchh mat socho.. shant hi jao bass" pecking her hair sidharth tightened his hold on her feeling her need to feel him more, to feel herself safe in his arms.

Caressing her hair sidharth kept whispering soft words in her ears making her go relax again. Her breathes were calm again as his words and the soft touch of his working on her like always.

Minutes later sidharth moved a little back to look at her but she moved her face more into his chest wanting to stay like this only.

"naaz theek ho ab? hmm? tell me" ruffling her hair smoothly he asked her as she wasn't letting him look at her face. Nodding in his chest she rested her head there only.

Pecking her hair again sidharth turned his back towards the table placed beside their bed to find jug of water.

Taking the jug with one hand sidharth kept it beside him on the floor while his other hand was still wrapped around her keeping her close.

Taking the glass sidharth kept it beside him too and then poured some water in it from the jug handling it with his one hand only.

"naaz pani pio thoda sa, theek lagega" pulling her face out of his chest sidharth brought the glass closer to her lips making her take a sip.

He didn't pull the glass back wanting her to have some more and she did take another sip. Keeping the glass aside he wiped her lips with hus thumb.

"Sidharth.. maine.. nhi.." she tried to say something once she was calm. She was still not okay but wanted to talk to him.

"baat mai baat karenge naaz, abhi tum rest karo thodi der, bed par chlo" stopping her from talking sidharth tried to get up to take her on bed but she didn't let him.

"nhi baat karni hai abhi, abhi baat karni hai sidharth" holding his shirt tightly in her fists she looked at him with plead in her eyes.

She didn't want him to stay upset with her. She couldn't take it again. She needed him with her always.

"theek hai, sun rha hun mai...just stay calm okay..sununga mai tumhari baat" the plead in her eyes did make him feel pain inside.

She had to plead to talk to him. He never likes it but sometimes him not listening to her leads her to plead and that makes him hate himself in those moments.

"jab vo..tum..uss .din..vo..goli..maine..tum.." she tried to form a sentence but the desperation to express it to him was making it difficult for her to choose the words and form a sentence.

"naaz abhi kya bola maine, relax raho..sun rha hun na mai tumhari baat..aaram se batao..sari baat sununga mai tumhari" holding her face in his hands he looked into her eyes comforting her with his soft words which were helping her to relax herself.

Keeping her hands on his she leaned her face in his rough palms which felt softest to her to lean on. Kissing her palm she looked at him with her eyes getting moist again.

Shaking her head in no he warned her not to cry which she did obey. Taking a deep breathe she pushed her tears back before they could fall down her eyes.

"sidharth" whispered shehnaaz looking at him to which he just placed a softest kiss on her forehead relaxing every nerve of her.

"jab kal tumhe goli lgi thi na, tum bilkul aise meri baahon mai the.. sidharth tum kuchh react nhi kar rhe the..tum....vo khoon...khoon aa rha tha...to mai" she was trying to express what she had felt in those moments while sidharth kept looking into her eyes nodding his head at her letting her know that he was listening to every word of her.

"kuchh samjh hi ni aaya uss waqt..sab aise lga jaise sab kuchh khatam ho gya...vo aise ho gyi thi mai k k sab..pta ni dimag sunn ho gya tha..tumhe waise dekh k ...tum..." the tears she was trying to control couldn't be kept inside anymore as the visuals of the night started to play in her mind making her feel the same feeling she had felt in those moments.

Caressing his cheeks with his thumbs sidharth kept looking into her teary eyes while seeing that pain of loosening him in her eyes made his eyes moist too.

Her words were making him realise in actual what she had gone through seeing him in that condition. The pain her voice held, the pain her eyes had was the pain of her for him.

"bhut gandi feeling thi vo sidharth, tumhe waise dekhna itni mushkil tha..itna dard ho rha tha k lga dard se mar jaungi ma..." before she could utter more he kept his palm on her lips not wanting to hear anything such for her. He could never.

Shaking her head in no he denied her to speak something for herself which he couldn't hear. The tears brimming in his own eyes were about to fall down his eyes just as hers were rolling down her eyes touching his palms.

"tum...jab tumhe hospital ke k jaa rahe the hum, to..tum..saans ni le paa rhe the..tum breathes k liye struggle kar rhe the sidharth..vo sab dekh k..tumhe itna helpless dekh k meri jaan nikal rhi thi.." a sob left her mouth with her last words as she was feeling that same feeling again just by thinking him in that condition.

Moving her eyes down she cried in his palms making him bite his lips not to cry himself too.

That worst feeling she had felt, that worst phase of her life she just went through, he could feel that. He could feel all of that in her words, in her voice.

"naaz, shh..chup ..hogya vo sab...dekho theek hun mai...tumhare paas hun ab to.. haina" making her look back at him he wiped her tears pushing his own tears back to give her his strength.

"vo sab kabhi nhi bhul skti mai sidharth, jab doctor ne bola k tumhari condition bhut critical hai to aisa lga k mai saans hi ni le paungi, kuchh smjh ni aa rha tha, bass tum theek chahiye the mujhe..apne paas chahiye the" her hands moved to his face holding it in her palms just the way he was holding hers.

That eye contact of the two was letting them see every emotion of each other, letting them feel every feel of each other.

Her words again make him feel his importance in her life. Her words again made him feel himself the most precious being in her life.

Everytime she makes him feel the best about himself. She makes him feel that his existence mattered to her to this extent that she herself felt loosening herself with him loosing his breathes.

"hun na baby, tumhare paas hi to hun aur humesha, humesha rahunga meri jaan" touching his forehead with hers he whispered on her face while both were overwhelmed with their emotions.

Sobbing in his hold she moved her face more closer to him touching her cheek with his while her hands slowly slid around his neck embracing him tightly in her arms while his arms too wrapped around her waist holding her tightly close to himself.

"mere paas ho tum sidharth, mere paas ho" mumbled shehnaaz to herself in his neck while he heard her every word clearly and that made him realise how she must have felt when he left her alone few minutes before not even listening to her.

"haan tumhare paas naaz" sidharth whispered back placing his lips on the side of her head making her grip tight around his neck.

Rubbing her back ever so softly he let her feel him more as she kept clinging to him like a baby. Kissing his hair she moved back to look at him again.

"theek ho tum, mere paas ho ab..humesha k liye" holding his face in her hands she repeated her words while kissing his cheeks twice making him smile with moistness in his eyes seeing her need of himself, her love for himself.

The way she was confirming to herself again and again was something that touched him deep inside his heart. He could not express what he was feeling at that moment.

"jitna dard tumhe uss dard mai dekh k ho rha tha na, utni hi nafrat ho rahi thi uss insaan se jisne tumhe vo dard diya, jiski wajah se tum apni zindagi k liye lad rhe the" looking into his eyes she said with soft sobs but there was something in her eyes this time.

The anger, her eyes were turning red as she remembered about that rishi again, as she remembered rana's words how he shot her sidharth even when he spared his life.

"naaz relax, naaz" caressing her cheeks with his thumbs he whispered while kissing her forehead. He didn't want her to loose her calm again.

This reaction of hers and the pain she went through was slowly making him realise the reason behind her act of beating rishi.

"rana bhai ne bataya usne kya kiya tha, pehli baar zindagi mai kisi ko marne ka mann kiya, itna gussa bhar gya tha mere andar k mujhse bardash hi ni ho rha tha, mujhe usse punish karna tha sidharth, tumhe chot pohnchane k liye punish karna tha usse aur maine kiya..maine kar diya vo sidharth" biting her lips she tried to subside her sobs while tears refused to stop falling from her eyes.

Nodding his head at her he silently agreed to her understanding her, understanding her feelings, understanding her mental trauma she went through last night.

He could understand her act now. He could understand her anger, her every little move. If it was him on her place, he would have killed the person right and there who tried to hurt his naaz whereas she just beat him.

"mujhe ni pta maine galt kiya ya sahi..khud ko ab waise dekh k bhut dar lgta hai par abhi bhi jo maine kiya vo galt nhi lgta, mai kya karun..maine kabhi zindagi mai kisi se jhagda ni kiya aur ab kisi ko itna mara ye soch k dar lagta hai par usse marne ka guilt feel ni hota sidharth, nhi feel hota mujhe koi guilt" another layer of tears rolled down her eyes as she sobbed in his palms making a tear roll down his eyes too.

Yanking her to himself he pushed her face in his chest holding her as close to himself as he could, holding her as tight as he could.

Hiding her petite figure in his giant body he kept  her safe in his chest while she cried in his as holding his shirt tight.

Parting his lips sidharth exhaled a deep breathe while a fresh layer of tears rolled down his eyes getting lost in her hair.

Pressing his lips he tried not to make any noise while his hold kept tightening on her crushing her in his embrace.

He couldn't feel any pain in his stitches anymore as the pain his naaz went through felt way more deep to him.

"mujhe ni pta sidharth, nhi pta maine galt kiya ya sahi par tum mujhse upset ho k ek pal k liye bhi mujh se dur jao, vo manzoor nhi hai mujhe, kabhi ni hoga sidharth, nhi hoga" mumbling in his chest she cried more making his heart ache for her.

"shh bss hogya naaz, aur ni rona..chup..bss, theek hai sab, mai kahin nhi jaa raha tumse door" rubbing her back he whispered back to her while wiping his own tears.

Pulling her face out of his chest he wiped her tears too while she kept weeping slowly.

"meri baat suno ab dhyaan se, hmm aur rona ni hai" holding her face in his palms again he looked into her eyes while she nodded her head at his words and stopped crying slowly.

"mai samjh gya naaz k tumne aisa kyun kiya aur kaise kiya, sab kuchh smjh gya. Agar mai tumhari jagah hota to uss insaan ko hi khatam kar deta jo tumhe hurt karne ka soche bhi" sidharth kept looking into her eyes wanting her understand his every word as he understood her while she slowly nodded her head at him again understanding him.

"tumne jo bhi kiya vo sahi tha naaz par tumhare liye nhi...tum ye sab k liye nhi bni ho, tumhara dil utna hi saaf jai jitna ek chhote bache ka hota hai, tumhare andar bhut reham hai, bhut paak ho tum naaz kisi ko hurt karne k liye" he whispered looking into his eyes while his voice held extreme softness for her.

"maine humesha tumhe apni uss life se dpor rakhna chaha hai jahan tum safe nhi ho, jahan mujhe tumhe kuchh ho na jaye vo dar humesha, har pal lga rhega, jahan tum jaise innocent logon ki koi jagah nhi hai" his thumbs kept caressing her cheeks ever so softly while she was listening to his every word attentively understanding him.

"tumhe mere liye dard hua, gussa aaya uss insaan par aur tumne usse mara mere liye par iss sab mai sabse badi galti tumne ye ki hai k tum meri zindagi k uss hisse mai chali gyi jahan mai tumhe soch bhi ni skta, jahan mai tumhe kabhi jane nhi dena chahta tha" his eyes showed the stress her this move has brought in their lives for forever.

It wasn't that he wasn't capable to keep her protected. He was and he could but when he himself don't know from where his enemy would attack him, how would he save her.

This world of his was too dangerous for her amd somewhere she was still not understanding this. Her innocent mind still doesn't let her think of the possibilities of her getting harmed.

"mujhe bhut takleef hui thi tumhe waise dekh k kyunki pta tha k ye sift tumhare liye, humare liye problems hi layega par mai ye bhi samjh rha hun k tumne aisa kyun kiya naaz, sab samjh aa rha hai mujhe" he kept expressing what he felt while she was understanding everything clearly and the realisation was also taking over her that her sidharth will stay stressed after this and that she never wanted.

"Sidharth mujhe ni pta chla k mai...k ye sab..." she tried to say but was unable to choose the right words.

"it's okay naaz, koi baat nhi..bass ab jo hogya vo hogya but promise me naaz, zindagi mai aage jaa k kuchh bhi ho, tum kabhi aisa kuchh nhi krogi, mere liye wada kro" forwarding his hand to hers he asked her for the promise not wanting her to involve herself in anything more dangerous.

"wada" keeping her hand on his palm she promised him. She was still scared of what she did and that made it easy for her to promise but it would only depend on the situation.

"sidharth maine...tum... tumhe hurt kiya na aaj, mujhe daant do par kabhi aise chhod k mat jana, bhut akela feel hota hai, jab tum chale gye the to bhut takleef ho rhi thi, dubara ni bardash kar paungi mai..." the tears in her eyes were unstoppable and that made his eyes moist too again.

He needed to make her feel that he would never let her feel that feeling of being alone which she just felt today. He would never do that again to her.

The condition he saw her today in, he would never want her to through the same ever again.

Sliding his hand in her hair he entangled his fingers in her hair pulling her face closer to his. Closing his eyes he took her lips in his making her eyes close too.

The kiss, they both needed for their peace, for their sukoon.

Pulling her face more closer he sucked her lips in extreme need to feel her, to make her feel him while her hands too slid in his hair gripping them tight as she too kissed him with the equal need.

His hand around her waist pulled her more closer making her wrap her legs around his waist. The more he pulled her closer, the more they could feel every inch of each other while loosening themselves in the kiss.

Moving his hand inside her kurta he let her feel his cold fingers on her soft skin making her moan slowly in his mouth feeling his touch.

Gripping his hair more tight she kept kissing him with extreme passion while he was too dominant taking her breathes away sucking every corner of her mouth.

Her chest heaving up and down with their passionate kiss was making him feel her curves against himself.

Pressing his hand on her bare back he pulled her more closer to himself feeling her more while she too was getting lost in the intensity of their intimate moment.

Both were going breathless, they needed to break the kiss but both did not want to break. The need to feel each other more and more was just intensifying with every passing second.

Leaving her lips to let her breathe sidharth rested his forehead on hers while wrapping her a around his neck she panted in his arms.

Holding her more closer his hand kept roaming on her bare back inside her kurta making her feel the need to feel him more growing.

The extreme restlessness they had felt today made their want to keep each other intensified.

Understanding each other more made them fell for each other more deeper if it was even possible.

The more they were true to each other, the more their relationship was growing in the best way. Understanding the hidden layers of each other, their love was deepening for each other.

"kabhi door nhi jaunga tumse naaz, kabhi bhi nahi" keeping his palm on her cheek he whispered on her lips keeping his forehead attached with hers while her words made her smile with fresh happy tears in her eyes.

Pulling her face up he took her lips again in his to kiss her with all his passion, with all his love while she too loosened herself in his arms letting him kiss her, letting her feel her more.

The kiss was of their need for each other, their love for each other, the breathes they were taking for each other.

NOTE

Hope i did justice to both the sides !