If the response will be good like last chapter, we can have one more chapter in this month.

Holding first aid box in her hands shehnaaz moved back to him. Sitting on the bed with his head resting back he kept observing her silently.

Avoiding to look at him she climbed on the bed and folding her legs she set in front of him. Holding his arm she leaned closer to him and started to clean his wound with extreme softness in her moves.

Sidharth kept looking at her with all his attention while she was busy in her work. A slight smile came on his lips seeing how she hissed while cleaning the wound as if it was hurting her.

He himself didn't feel any pain. It was just a little scratch for him but for her, it was hurting her thinking how painful it must be when his skin got pierced with something this sharp that his skin got pierced so deep.

She kept bandaging his arm without making any eye contact with him knowing well his gaze on herself. She could feel him looking at her continuously but she chose to ignore.

She was upset with his behaviour this time. First he went out in the night and didn't even inform her that where was he going. Then he came back with this deep wound on his arm which she was unable to bear.

Her eyes were moist with another layer of tears forming in her eyes. How could she see him harmed? Her heart couldn't take that.

She knew once she looked at him she would end up crying again. That she didn't want at that moment.

The tears she was controlling were converting into anger. The anger was for him. He couldn't do like this every time. She asked him last time too not to go out in night but he did the same again.

She still didn't know how he got this wound. What if something bad have had happened to him? What she would have done when she didn't even know his whereabouts.

He couldn't see even a little scratch on her but didn't care about this deep cut he was having. He couldn't ignore himself like this. She would not allow him.

Bandaging his arm properly she put the things back in the first aid box and closed it. Not even for a second did she look in his eyes. She didn't want to.

Realising she would not look at him nor would talk to him, he felt his heart starting to engulf with restlessness. He couldn't afford her ignorance. It was taking his peace away.

He knew she was angry with him and this time he was really scared of her anger. If she would have punched him, slapped him or beat him up, he wouldn't have minded at all but this silent treatment of hers to him was extremely intolerable for him.

It was just a few minutes of her ignorance and he was already loosing his mind. She had to talk to him, he needed her.

Getting up she moved to get down the bed but his tight grip on her wrist didn't let her go off the bed. He wanted her close.

Standing on her knees on the bed she kept her face on the other side not wanting to look at him but didn't even try to pull her wrist out from his grip.

Seeing her still not looking at him he pulled her wrist making her fall back in his lap. Stretching his one leg he adjusted her in his lap while she quietly set there looking down.

Her one hand was gripping his shirt without her own knowledge. It felt too natural for her to even realize but he did realize bringing a soft smile on his lips seeing the tight grip of hers.

He would make her talk to him. He needed it for himself.

"Naaz, talk to me" wrapping his arm around her waist sidharth pulled her closer while she didn't protest but kept her gaze on her lap ignoring his words. He didn't like that.

Why wasn't she looking at him? He needed to look into her eyes to see that softness of hers, to see that pure love of hers for him, to see her care for him, to see her innocence.

"Naaz baat kro mujhse" holding her chin sidharth pulled her face up making her look into his eyes. His voice was soft but he kept his tone authoritative making her obey to him.

Her eyes!! Finally he could look into her eyes. She looked at him silently but the emotions in her could not be hidden. Not from him!!

He could see the worry in those moist eyes of hers and that worry was for him. Then that thin layer of anger was flashing in her eyes letting him know that he was going to have a tough time with his baby this time.

"baat kyun nhi kar rahi ho baby?" keeping his one palm on her cheek he caressed her cheek with his thumb while asking her ever so softly.

He wanted to hear her voice which could soothe his restlessness. Her talking to him was his need which he couldn't live without. She had to talk to him for him.

That desperation of him to talk to her could be seen in his eyes which she felt in his voice too. He was impatient to hear her.

"Kya baat karun sidharth? baat krne ka koi fayda hai? Na tum ye bataoge k kahan gye the, na ye bataoge k itna time kyun lag gya, na ye bataoge k ye chot kaise lgi.. mujhe aise hi taal doge bss, to isse achha mai baat hi na karun" looking into his eyes she uttered every word keeping her calm.

Her words were strong this time with no softness in her voice. Her voice felt emotionless. But her eyes! Her eyes were still telling him her every emotion which she tried to hide in her voice.

He wanted to hear her but not what she said. She was right. He wouldn't tell her any of the things she asked. She didn't need to know anything. She had nothing to do with it.

"Isliye nhi batata naaz kyunki u don't need to know. Tumhara kuchh lena dena nhi hai iss sab se. Mera kaam hai ye, chhoti moti chot lgti rehti hai. You don't need to worry naaz" holding her face in his both hands he looked at her softly wanting her to understand his words.

His words didn't go well with her this time. She felt that thin layer of her anger growing wider listening to him.

"Why do you think that I don't need to know sidharth? Tum raat ko kaam krne chle jaate ho and i don't need to know that where you go? Abhi chot lagwa k aaye ho aur mera koi lena dena nhi hai. aise to phir mujhe bhi chot lag jaye to tumhara koi lena dena nhi hona chahiye" removing his hands from her face harshly she looked at him with her eyes showing her hurt.

She never got angry with him for herself. She never needed that. He didn't give her any chance to get angry with him when it came to her but him ignoring himself, him not telling her anything was hurting her, it was angering her.

He was quiet listening to her. He was repeating the same thing he did before too. She deserved to know everything about him just like he deserves to know about her.

He was wrong. He had to share everything with her but knowing it would only worry her, he couldn't reveal anything to her. She could nothing in this instead of getting worried.

What if he again had to go out like this, if he told her everything she would stay in stress all the time without him being around her.

"Kaam se gya tha naaz, baat krni thi kisi se kuchh important uske liye gya tha aur apni place par gya tha jahan tum gyi thi ek baar" remembering her standing in the centre of the place filled with goons all around looking at her with lust and suspicion in their eyes, his eyes went red in seconds as the scene flashed in front of his eyes.

He still feels rage in his body with the thought that his naaz went on that place. She should not have gone there. She was too pure to enter in such place.

That's the reason he doesn't not want to let her know more about his work. He doesn't want her to involve herself in his work in any way.

She knew about his work now but she didn't need to go deep to know how he actually do his work. That wasn't required. Moreover this new problem was already stressing him, he didn't want to involve her in his stress too.

"Achha to baat krne gye the to chot kaise lagi sidharth? Aur baat to call par bhi hi skti thi na. Aur puri raat lag gyi baat krne mai? I know tum jhuth nhi bol rhe ho but sach bhi ni bta rhe ho. maine pehle hi kaha tha k baat krne ka koi matlab ni hai" looking into his eyes she let him see the hurt he was causing her by hiding things from her.

Fisting his palm he closed his eyes. She wasn't understanding him. Why was she behaving like this? He was all fine and back home with her then why she had to ask the questions he didn't want to answer.

Seeing him silent she looked away not wanting to get upset more and pulled herself up from his lap. He didn't make any effort to stop her and kept looking at her in silence.

She was getting upset? Should he tell her everything?

Getting off the bed she went to keep the first aid box back on its place and then moved to wardrobe. Taking out a t shirt and shorts for him she went back to him and kept the clothes beside him on the bed.

Getting up he was quick to hold her arm not letting her move away. Turning her to himself in a swift motion he cupped her face in his hands looking into her eyes.

"Naaz bina wajah hi gussa ho rhi ho tum mujhse. mai apna kaam kar rha tha, itna jaan na kaafi nhi hai?" looking into her eyes he asked her keeping his voice soft.

He came back all tired and now his naaz was angry with him. It was somewhere pissing him off of her not listening to him. Why couldn't she understand like every other time she do.

Shehnaaz looked at him in disbelief as he still was not telling her anything and was expecting her to understand him. Why couldn't he understand her this time.

"Nhi hai itna kaafi mere liye. Mujhe jaan na hai k ye chot kaise lgi. kisi ne attack kiya tha tum par? kya hua tha i want to know" keeping her hands on his which was holding her face she asked softly really wanting to know. She could keep her anger aside for him but he needed to share everything with her.

"Haan kiya tha attack kisi ne. ab bhi upset rahogi,ab to bta diya na tumhe jo jaan na tha" he wanted to end this conversation to keep his calm.

Realising she wouldn't stop asking this time and would stay upset with him, he just let it out that he was attacked thinking she wouldn't ask further.

His words took away all her anger leaving her with extreme worry for him. Her sidharth was attacked by someone. He was all alone. What if he would have gotten any serious injury?

Her gaze moved to the wound on his arm and fresh tears formed in her eyes for him. She shouldn't have gotten upset with him when he already came back after getting attacked by someone. Why he had to go out, she have had enough now.

"Sidharth tum par kisi ne attack kiya tha. kuchh ho jata to. pehle bhi bola tha k raat ko bahr mat jaya kro, tun phir wahi krte ho. This was the last time sidharth. next time se kuchh bhi ho jaye tum raat ko bahr nhi jaoge. chahe kitna bhi important kaam ho" keeping her hands on his cheeks she cupped his face while her tears rolled down her eyes making him fist his palm to control the anger he felt on himself for telling her about the attack.

"ye kya lga rakha hai naaz, kuchh nhi hua hai mujhe. rona band kro tum pehle" wiping her tears with his thumb he asked her sternly but her tears rolled down against. He was seriously loosing his patience now.

Holding her arm he yanked her to himself making her hands rest on his chest. Wrapping his arm around her waist he kept her closer and wiped her tears again.

"naaz stop crying. isiliye nhi batata tumhe kuchh bhi mai.. tumhara dil nhi hai itna k tum sun sako..bhut sensitive ho tum. chhoti chhoti baat bhut affect kar jaati hai tumhe. ye chhoti si chot se hi 50 baar ro chuki ho to kya bataun tumhe aur ye kya hai k mai dubara bahr nhi jaunga. mera kaam hai ye naaz. jab bhi zroorat padegi mai jaunga bahr aur ye baat tumhe samjhni hogi" pushing her back lightly he moved towards the door.

Walking out sidharth banged the door loudly making her flinch on her place and next she was crying again.

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Moving downstairs sidharth ran his fingers in his hair getting irritated with everything. He was feeling anger building inside him, to avoid hurting his naaz he chose to move out to give himself some alone time.

Reaching living room he found raghav pacing there with worry written on his face. He was too busy in his thoughts to sense sidharth's presence.

Sidharth was not in a mood to talk. He was already angry. Avoiding raghav sidharth moved towards the door but the voice of his steps broke raghav's thoughts.

Raghav turned his face towards sidharth and found him walking towards the door without his shirt on and the bandage on his arm while his face looked stressed.

"Sidharth kahan jaa rha hai?" raghav quickly moved towards him stopping sidharth.

"Raghav baad mai baat karenge" sidharth said without looking at him and was about to open the door.

"Nhi bhai abhi baat krni hai, chal tu mere sath" holding his arm raghav pulled him towards the sofa making sidharth sigh thinking if sharing this with raghav could help him.

He needed to let go of his anger before going back to his naaz to talk to her.

"bta ye chot kaise lgi?" raghav asked seriously as they both stood near the sofa. He didn't want sidharth too suffer like him.

"tere attackers ko mujhse bhi pyaar ho gya hai" sidharth took the jug placed on the table and gulped some water down his throat.

The cold water helped him to calm himself down a little subsiding his anger while his words caused worry to raghav.

"Saari baat bta bhai. mujhe jaan na hai, kya hua tha exact" raghav wanted to know if sidharth was getting involved in this because of him. If raghav anyhow was causing threat to sidharth, he would not stay with them any more. He didn't want sidharth and shehnaaz to suffer because of him.

"Ek banda pakda tha 2 din pehle. vo unme se ek tha jisne tujhe first time attack kiya tha. rana ne bhut try kiya par muh ni khola sala. ussi se baat krne gya tha mai" keeping the jug back on the table sidharth walked towards the sofa to sit while raghav followed him sitting opposite to him.

"To kya bataya usne. tune puchha hoga to pkka muh khola hoga usne" raghav was impatient to know now that who was behind all this.

"Mujhe puchhe ka moka hi ni mila. Mujhe dekhte hi sale ne rana ki gun chheen k khud ko goli marli " sighed sidharth resting his head back. They could have got some clue of that man wouldn't have killed himself. Sidharth was frustrated with his act.

"That means we still don't know anything" raghav too sighed. How would it go like this. He couldn't stay there all his life. He needed to join his duty back soon after finishing this matter.

"Hmm kuchh hath nhi lag rha hai. wahan se bahr hi nikla to 4 log khade the meri car k paas.  ignore krke mai car unlock krne lga to ek ne peechhe se chaku ghusa diya baaju mai, mai muda usko pakadne k liye to dusre ne chaku ghusa diya aur bhaag gye sale. mere ko smjh ni aaya k ye hua kya tha sala. mzaak hi kar gye attack k naam par" chuckled sidharth making raghav chuckle too but next moment he was serious again.

"Ye jo bhi hain, aise chhote chhote attack kyun kar rhe hain..na to marna hi chahte hai...kuchh smjh ni aa rha" raghav said with worry laced in his tone.

Sidharth stayed silent. Keeping his arms behind his head he leaned back looking at the roof. His mind was sharp to understand the things and he was understanding very well.

"They want to create fear within us. Fear to live peacefully. they want us to fear everytime we move out. they want us to fear death but they don't want to kill us" keeping his gaze on the roof sidharth said calmly making raghav widen his eyes getting his words.

"Tujhe follow to ni kiya sidharth unhone" raghav asked worriedly while sidharth shake his head in no.

"Mai jab bhi kaam se vapis aata hun to route change kar kar k aata hun. No one can find this place ever" raghav bosses at him knowing sidharth would never let his naaz alone if the place was not safe even a bit.

"to kya krna hai? kya lgta hai tujhe?" raghav looked at him wanting to know if he had planned something.

"to vo chhod abhi k liye. pehle proper rest le aur apni injuries theek kar" sidharth said getting up dismissing the topic there only which raghav understood and didn't ask anything further.

He had noticed sidharth being stressed when he came down. Thinking if something happened between the two he thought to ease out the situation for sidharth atleast.

"Achha sun sidharth" getting up raghav walked towards him while sidharth too stopped in his steps and turned back towards him.

"Maine suna hai k tu cooking bhut achhi krta hai....chef bna hua hai apni biwi k liye.. haan?" raghav gave him a teasing smirk making sidharth look at him with bored expressions.

"Raghav chhod de try krna. na mai tease hone wala hun aur na hi mujhe koi embarrassment hogi...biwi hai vo meri to krunga uske liye" sidharth said calmly wiping off the smirk from raghav's face.

"to tujhe mujhe kyun tease krta hai. payal bhi to meri wife hai" raghav asked irritatedly as everytime sidharth fails his plan but never leave any chance to tease him.

"mai to karunga, tu mat hua kar tease" sidharth said plainly.

"to phir mai bhi karunga" raghav too said determined.

"Krta reh tu, mai ni hone wala" giving a last look to him sidharth moved upstairs leaving raghav sulking behind.

He had thought to ease sidharth's mood but now his own mood was spoiled. Sulking he too moved upstairs to go to his wife.

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Standing infront of the door of his room sidharth took a deep breath. He was being too rude while talking to her. That was the reason he moved out before getting more rude knowing well his anger.

She was already upset and he added more to it. Cursing himself for making her upset he pushed the door open to apologize from his naaz.

Getting inside he closed the door behind and turned towards their bed to see his naaz but found the bed empty.

Frowning he looked around to see where she was but she wasn't there. Finding the lights of balcony on he knew she was there. She couldn't stay in darkness.

Moving towards the balcony door he pushed it a little and went outside in the balcony. His gaze directly went to the hanging bed and he could see his naaz sitting there keeping her head on her knees.

Signing he moved towards her and set beside her on the bed. She sensed his presence but didn't move his head up.

He knew his baby would not talk to him easily this time. He had to make much more efforts than any time before.

Shifting closer to her he pulled her in his arms while she still kept her head on her knees. He wasn't liking it. Why wasn't she looking at him.

"Naaz please look at me baby" calling her with extreme softness sidharth pulled her face up himself and next he felt a sharp pain inside seeing her swollen red eyes.

"Naaz" pulling her in his lap sidharth held her closer while a sob left her mouth making his stomach churn.

"Naaz i am sorry please. I know i shouldn't have talked to you like that. I was too rude.. please stop crying baby" wiping her tears sidharth kissed her forehead and looked into her eyes restlessly.

He made his naaz cry again. Why couldn't he just keep a control on himself even if he feel angry. She didn't deserve his rudeness even a bit.

"mujhe baat ni krni tumse" sobbing she tried to move out of his lap but he held her tightly wrapping his arm around her waist.

She really didn't like his behaviour this time. She wanted to stay away from him for some time. It was hurting her so was with him. It was hurting him to see her hurt but he didn't want to stay away from her.

"Kyun ni baat krni baby. I said sorry na. I am really sorry naaz. Aage se kabhi ni dantunga tumhe..pkka" cupping her face in his hands he kissed her eyes sucking away her tears making her close her eyes.

He kept kissing her eyes while she couldn't stop the tears brimming in her eyes again making him feel so helpless. He should not have hurt her.

"Naaz sorry bola na, bss ab stop crying" his stern voice made her look at him with hurt in her eyes. He wanted her to stop crying but she wasn't in a mood to take his strict ness this time.

Pushing him with all her strength she wriggled in his hold wanting to go away from there. He kept looking at her holding her tightly while she kept trying to get out of his grip.

"Stop trying naaz, you can't" sidharth looked at her calmly stopping her efforts as she knew she couldn't get off his grip if he didn't want to.

"Mujhe jana hai sidharth" she looked into his eyes wanting him to leave her but he couldn't.

How could he let her go knowing she would cry again in alone. He was responsible for her tears, he couldn't let her cry more.

"Maafi maang to rha hun naaz, maan kyun nhi rhi ho" keeping his hand on her jaw he asked her softly. The restlessness inside him was killings him.

His naaz was still upset with him. How could he stay calm. His patience was giving up slowly. His naaz had to forgive him before he loose his patience completely.

"Kya karun tumhari maafi ka sidharth. Tum ab sorry bol rhe ho aur fir yahi kroge. abhi bol k to gye the mujhe k fir jaoge dubara agr zroorat padi to, to fir maafi mangni hi kyun hai..kro jo krna hai tumhe" shehnaaz looked at him with all her calm making him loose his calm.

"Naaz stop this. kitni baar bolun k mera kaam hai ye. time paas k liye nhi jata hun mai, smjh kyun nhi rhi ho tum" his voice was strong and stern again. He wasn't understanding that why wasn't she understanding him.

"Mujhe ni samjhna kuchh bhi, jana hai mujhe" she pushed his hand off herself angerily this time making him take his hand back.

Getting off his lap she got off the bed too and wore her slippers. She was angry now. He still wasn't listening to her. So was with him too.

She should not have pushed him to get off him. If he didn't want to let go she shouldn't have tried again. Her denying to his want made him feel rage inside. She had to sit with him, listen to him.

Wearing her slippers shehnaaz moved towards the door. She just wanted to be alone now. Moving her hand to the door knob she was about to pull it but his strong grip on her arm from behind stopped her.

Turning her towards himself in a swift motion he pinned her against the closed door. Holding her face in his hands sidharth looked at her with his eyes getting red.

Before she could react, sidharth pulled her face closer and took her lips in his making her gasp with his sudden move. She wasn't expecting this, not when they were fighting.

Pressing his giant body against her petite form he caged her in between himself and the door while kissing her harshly.

Her hand moved to grip his hair but he was quick to hold her both wrists and pinned them above her head on the door taking her under his dominance completely.

The more he kissed her hard, the more she could feel the urge to hold him, to grip his hair leading her to wriggle her hands in his hold. He was too angry to leave her hands and let her feel him.

He kept kissing her biting her lips hard making her wince in his mouth but he least cares this time.

How dare she tried to go away from him. He didn't give this right to her. If he needed her close, she had to be there. she could not go away from even for a second if he didn't want to.

Sensing her struggling to breath he gave a hard bite on her lower lip letting go off her lips. Breathing heavily he kept his head on hers leaving her hand while she rested her head on his chest panting hard.

His one hand was resting on the door with her leaning on him breathing in his chest while his other hand rested on her hair from back.

Once both were calm sidharth pulled her face up cupping it in her hands making her look into his eyes.

"Don't you dare naaz. don't you dare try to go away from me again" looking deep into her eyes sidharth uttered his every word keeping his calm but the authority, the dominance could be felt in his voice.

She stayed quick while his gaze moved to her swollen lips. He could see his bite mark on her lips. He was too wild this time.

Keeping his palm on her cheek he traced her lips with his thumb ever so softly making her lips shiver. She had never seen him this wild.

Leaning his face closer he took her lips again and kissed her again but this time with utter softness soothing her.

"Maaf krogi?" touching his forehead with hers sidharth asked looking into her face making her feel his warm breaths on her face.

"Kar diya" she looked at him calmly while her words were soft. A slight smile came on his lips making him peck her lips.

"meri naaz" pushing her face in his bare chest he engulfed her in his arms holding her as tight as he could while she too wrapped her arms around his bare body embracing herself in him.

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Holding his naaz closer sidharth moved back in their room. Walking to their bed shehnaaz took his clothes and passed them to him silently.

He was observing that she was still not okay. Thinking to talk to her later he took the clothes from her and moved towards the washroom.

She stood there in extreme silence looking at the closed door of the washroom. A tear rolled down her eye which she quickly wiped and moved out of the room.

Getting freshen up sidharth came out of the washroom within 5 minutes. Seeing the room empty he frowned thinking where did his naaz go.

Throwing the towel on the couch he was about to go out to the balcony to see if she was again crying. The door opened making him stop seeing shehnaaz coming inside holding a glass of turmeric milk in her hand.

"Ye pilo sidharth, chot jldi theek ho jayegi" walking closer to him she forwarded the glass to him without looking at him. He didn't feel good but took the glass from her and gulped it in one go.

Keeping the glass on the side table he held her arm taking her towards their bed.

"Neend aa rahi hai, lets sleep" taking her in his arms he made her lay on the bed and quickly climbed himself too.

Turning her back towards sidharth she closed her eyes making his heart ache. She never do that. Was she still hurt?

Shifting closer to her sidharth laid beside her and pulled the duvet over them covering themselves.

Snaking his hand around her stomach from back he pulled her closer making her back crush with his chest. She didn't react and kept her eyes closed.

"Abhi bhi gussa ho naaz?" leaning his face in her neck he asked her softly not wanting to upset her more. If she was upset, he couldn't stay calm too. He would do anything to make it up for her if she wasn't fine still.

"Neend aa rhi hai" avoiding his question she mumbled softly while he could feel her voice getting heavy. He didn't want her to cry again.

Holding her arm he turned her towards himself making her look into his eyes which had restlessness and worry for her. She could feel that.

"I promise naaz, aaj k baat raat ko kabhi bahr nhi jaunga" he said the exact words which she wanted to hear. Another layer of tears formed in her eyes looking into his and next she hide herself in his chest sobbing in his arms.

She didn't want him to go out at nights, not after seeing his wound. She wasn't angry with him for herself, she was angry with him for him.

She wanted him to stay safe just the way he wanted her to. She knew it was his work and he would never leave his work but she could atleast make him agree not to work at night.

Nights seems more dangerous to her. The darkness outside and the thought to him being in such a situation where there was no security, she could feel her heart getting heavy with restlessness. She didn't want that. He had to be safe for her.

"Ab to gussa nhi ho" rubbing her back softly sidharth asked kissing her hair while she nodded her head in no still weeping in his arms.

He knew that was the only promise which could make her mood okay. He didn't want to promise her anything which he couldn't fulfill but seeing her so upset he couldn't stop himself.

He could do anything for her. If she wanted this, he would do. He couldn't make her cry more.

Kissing his chest she tightened her hd on him making him smile. Finally his naaz was back in his arms. He got his sukoon back.

NOTE

Finally managed to write one more chapter amidst exams.

I know story is not proceeding much but i can write only these scenes for now. Will give my 100% after exams.

Those who asks about my exams, my exams are going very well and that's the reason i am able to write thoda bhut in khushi khushi 😁