Listen to your heart

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It was a hard time for me to accept the fact that when Sarah's parents were out she decided to throw a bash at her residence.

All the pamphlets were thrown from the air so they could reach everyone's eyes.

And I was determined to not go there! Anyways there are only two to three days left until the convocation so I am not compiling any acting in my life.

The fact that Neel was too busy avoiding me yesterday in her home I decided to ignore him today. It would be better if I jerk him off if he cannot explain anything to me.

All were whispering in the husky voices about the bash that Sarah is going to throw and how they are going to enjoy it.

I know what people will do there! Drink until their guts out and rub their bodies to each other just for the fathom of affection but I hardly accept this form of attention.

"So who is ready for tonight!" Tony was smiling showing his teeth that were too bright even brighter than the sun's shine.

"Well. I am not!" I curtly replied to him. And arrogance was dripping from my voice. Though I found it stupid to be arrogant I can't help to behave like this as something is gotten in me.

What is wrong with me?

Why I am behaving like a teenager with hormonal issues?

Maybe you are jealous

Yes. Maybe I am but what should I do with this jealously? How can I get rid of this obnoxious human behaviour?

"Of course, you are going," Sam patted my back and winked at me.
And right there at that moment, I wanted to scream at him.

There is something wrong with me! I am burning from head to toe ready to turn the whole world upside down.

I just gave him a look and walked away. It would be better if I sit alone anywhere to keep my thoughts short and secure.

"What's wrong?" Alisha's voice chimed in.

Everything is wrong with me! The weather is not great, the wind is not moving, the earth is not shining and my heart? It is pumping like a mad creature in my chest.

When she noticed my face she chuckled, very deep laughter and her countenance shining bright on the chilly morning of California.

"What?" I was annoyed.

"Nothing!" She was still giggling. And I was churning my head in all the directions.

"Tell me already!" I glared this time.

"You are jealous! It's all over your face you can't hide it!"

Is it that obvious?

And why do I find it hard to admit?

"No, I am not!" I looked away.

"Keep joking, well jokes suit you anyways!" She sat beside me and we fell silent for a couple of moments.

I think I should ask her about all these things! She must have some experience and she will help me.

"Umm Alisha? How to get rid of this?"
I was still looking at another side of the view.

"Of what?"
Oh, man! She knows everything but she wants me to admit it! This girl will be going to be the death of me.

"How to get rid of feeling like this?" I finally acknowledged it to her.

"Oh yes, I was waiting for this moment just do one think come with us to today's bash at Sarah's as he would be there also and then you can  bang on!"

"Bang on what?"

"Ignore him! Enjoy your night as you will never going to grab this opportunity for the rest of your life. Live the night! Cease everything and just focus on yourself! That's it!"

Then she ruffled my hair as if I was a kiddo.

And when  I reckoned about all the things, maybe it won't be a bad idea to forget everything for a night and enjoy it. she quite explained well that I am not going to grab this opportunity again because this is the last bash where everyone will going be together under one roof.

"Alisha," I called her name.

"Yes, darling?"

"But I don't have any good dress you know?"

It's hard to accept but I don't have any dress except some jeans and shirts.
And if I am going to enjoy the last bash here I want to look good in it.

"Oh don't worry I have a sexy dress for you," she winked at me while giggling.

"Sexy?"

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"You are going to wear this dress so come on put it on!" She was continuously chasing me while having the dress in her hands.

And that dress?

It's the most gorgeous dress I have ever seen in my life but the problem is it is too revealing and I don't want everyone to stare at me like a fresh piece of meat.

That dress was blood red, which is too much already and if that's not enough it has a sweetheart neckline and it Hardly reaches my upper thigh.
it is too tight to hug all the curves that are present in my body.

Can I just die?

Why and in what state of mind did I decide to go there?

She is being herself wearing shorts that are too short by the way and a tank top that was showing her bare stomach.

It's good for her and yes she is looking sexy too! But I cannot wear a dress it's too tight and I have always been underconfident about the curves I have in my body.

"Julia! If you didn't wear this then I will be the death of you!"
She threatened me and jumped on me. She is quite scary when it comes to working on things.

However, I was still busy giving her hard looks!

"Julia, this is your night and this is your time! Seize the moment otherwise, it will be too late and if you didn't let go of your fears you will never!" Then she walked out of her room.

Yes, I was in her place where we decided to get ready just the way it was in starting.

"I will be back in half an hour and I want you to wear this dress!"
Her voice didn't leave yet.

What should I do now?

Should I wear this dress and get out of my comfort zone?
But what if everyone stares at me and makes comments about me?

Then what I will do?

You will fight back as you always do! But don't forget this night won't come back into your life again

My inner voice might be too right so maybe I should go with the flow.

I grabbed the dress and slowly in a cautious motion slipped it over to my body.

Though the dress was hardly covering my body the cloth was comfortable.

I think I have never seen myself this beautiful.

As I looked in the mirror I found a beautiful girl glancing back at me.
With all the flawlessly curves which I was too ashamed to accept.

" so I am coming again,"

"See? Am I looking fine?" I asked her when I was a little nervous and maybe about to keel over too if I didn't get any reassurance.

"Fine? You are looking breathtaking!" She winked at me.

Maybe this night will be going to be the best night for me.
I thought in my mind.

She started doing my makeup. It was just a simple one- she highlighted my eyes as she said my eyes will make everything more captivating then she applied red lipstick to my lips.

I was already burning from inside seeing my reflection which made me realise what if everyone recognizes me? What if something happens and all the rich class of society makes fun of me?

She gently pressed my shoulder and looked at me, " you are not a coward, you are a fighter! Always remember that!"

And then I remembered all the times when it became too hard for me to digest I fought back every time with the same passion as it was happening to me for the first time.

I am not the same girl anymore who came here only to study I am Julia, and I am more confident than ever before.

"So are we ready?" She extended her hand

"Yes, I am ready," and I gladly grabbed hers.

Outside Tony was waiting in his car all dressed up. Well, I have to admit he was looking Like a gentleman, a good one.

"Who are you? And where is Julia?"

I smacked at his shoulder," ouch how idiot I am to not recognise her," and we all laughed.

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As we reached there the place was already full-packed. The music was very loud. one thing to admit I have never been into this type to bash ever before.

Everyone was dancing as if they don't care. Drinking whatever they want. All the garden area was illuminated with the lights and the voices of the students who are enjoying their night.

I ignored all the glares I was receiving because my eyes were busy haunting a particular pair of eyes.
And when I found them sitting on a sofa close to Sarah; too close that their bodies were almost touching,  I gulped, something weird happened to my heart that I stopped thinking sane.
I straightaway went to the bar counter where all the drinks were getting served.

I grabbed whatever came in my hand and drank it all in one go.

After spending some time there when everything went blurry I could only hear is the voice of the music.

It was quite high, making me want to hype my body with the rhythm of the beat. So, I grabbed one last cup again and went straight to the side where everybody was dancing.
I stood upon the empty table and started moving my body with the pace of the rhythm.

My head was empty
And my mind was all black
Now only the music exists for me.

My eyes were closed, and I swayed my hips, to every beat until I heard," Julia open your eyes and look at me!"

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