Recap:

She was laughing and smiling like a love sick puppy and there was this tugging on my chest seeing them. I wasn't happy about it so I kind of ignored her the next day.

When Joseph and I fought over her, I felt little and hated myself for that so I apologized the next day and things have been okay between us until now.

I don't know what to do now. Should I apologize to Juliet for kissing her that I couldn't resist her because she was sexy and all or just act as if nothing happened between us?

I think the former is best, I should take responsibility for my action and apologize.

• • •

He's ignoring me! For fuck's sake!

He's acting like nothing happened. Oh see why I hate him?

I fucking deserve an apology! Oh I'm dying! I look over at him and catch him watching me. He quickly averts his gaze and I feel the urge to pull my hair out, how can you kiss a girl senseless in a fucking toilet and ignore her later?

Yeah he really did kiss you senseless because if you had your sense, you wouldn't have—

"Shut up!" I yell and he glance at me. Oh great, I have to fucking shout before you look at me!

He seems to fidget and looks nervous as if he wants to say something but unsure of what to say. "Just say it" I blurt out.

He looks at me like huh? and I repeat, "Just fucking say it Desmond. You wanna say something"

He rubs the back of his neck, another nervous act and clears his throat, "Juliet, I-uh, I'm really sorry for what happened the other night. I just couldn't resist you. I'm sorry, I truly am."

I don't know what to say to what he just said and I also feel my stomach flutter when he said he couldn't resist me. I smile, how do I let him know that I enjoyed it without being obvious?

" Uh, it's okay. It's just a kiss, nothing special. "

Okay, kill me!

Did I just say that?

Fucking Jules.

He flinches and I know that it wasn't just a kiss to him too but I just ruined everything.

"Alright" He says and stands up and walks out of the class.

He didn't come back till we close.

• • •

I've had enough of guys and their drama. I lay on my bed, phone pressed to my ear and recount today's event to Michael. He's the only one I told about the kiss, because I can't see him and he was really ecstatic about it.

"Stop beating yourself up about it Jules."

"I know, but I'm a fool. Why did I say that when I clearly enjoyed it?"

"Then maybe you should apologize" Michael suggests.

"No way. No fucking way!" There's no way I'll apologize to any guy, "You know what? I'm tired. I'm tired of Joseph, I'm tired of Desmond, I'm tired of guys and I'm tired of stupid feelings!"

"Wow. Well I gotta go Jules. Talk to you later"

"Okay"

"Ugh!" I groan against my pillow. Why is everything so complicated?

My phone rings and I pick it up, it's Shay. "Hello"

"Hi, what's up Jules?"

"Ceiling fan" she chuckles.

"You were kinda quiet in school today. What happened?"

"It's nothing. Trust me" I reply in a bored tone.

"Well if it's boy matter, I'm here. Okay?" Lexi says.

"Says the girl who's never had a boyfriend."

"Oh shut up!" she says.

"Well talk to you later guys. I want to read" I cut the call. Test is next week so I have to read but reading is the furthest thing on my mind now.

My phone rings again, "Oh you guys should just leave me al—" I blink as I stare at the name flashing on my screen. Joseph.

"Hello?"

"Juliet."

"Joseph" speak now or forever hold your peace.

"Hi, how are you?"

"Fine"

"How is your day going?"

"How is my day going? Are we just going to pretend like you have not been ignoring me? Why? Because you saw me with Desmond. That's childish Joseph. Grow up." I say angrily. Like what is he feeling like, "And you know what, don't talk to me until you've learnt to stop ignoring people!" I cut the call and slap my phone on the bed.

Gosh!

I actually pull at my hair and wince at the pain. My phone rings again and this time it's an unregistered number.

" Juliet? "

The voice.

Desmond?

Did these guys just plan to call me at the same time?

"What do you want?"

Now that's harsh Jules. Remember you should be apologizing.

No, I don't care.

"To apologize. I'm sorry for—" I cut the call. I'm tired of apologies.

Can't they all just leave me alone?

My phone rings and I resist the urge to throw it across the wall, who the fuck did I offend that's punishing me this way? I ignore it and a text enters. It's from my brother.

Blood💕: Hey beautiful sis. I need your help. Call me.

I roll my eyes, it's only when he needs my help that he knows he has a beautiful sister. I dial his number.

"What do you want this time?"

• • •

Dears, Jules is a feisty one.

How many of you like this Jules. I bet people really do change people.

✌️.