Day 87:

    This weird world is just a new normal.  Turn on the news - riots, protests, police treating innocent civilians protesting for peace like armed opponents, global pandemic, more death, more destruction.  It's hard to look at the news and feel so helpless.  I went to a protest last Friday in my town and I felt so powerful, so united and strong, chanting for justice.  Now I have no clue what to do, I just want to do something.

    The world is a strange place right now.  I don't want to deal with it, but it is constantly shoved in my face, along with my complete inability to do anything about it.  I've spent the past few days in a daze, doing nothing but making bread and binging Avatar.  I watched all 3 books (for the first time) in 5 days.  I don't usually watch TV at all, so this is really weird for me.  I need to get my act together, update this journal regularly, keep my room clean, and get off my phone.  I need to try to keep my life together even when everything around me is falling apart.

    The world is a weird place right now, and I need to work to find my new place in it.