Day 73:

The complete and utter lack of motivation is literally killing me. I'll be killing time, relishing the freeness of procrastinating, and decide to just finish the one video or chapter before going and writing the stories I want to write or do some chores or something. I desperately want to be productive, but as soon as I finish, I just swipe to the next chapter, click another video, turn the page once more. I can't stop, even though I would love nothing more than to get out of bed and prove myself useful, especially with this stifling heat making my usually comfortable bed a fluffy furnace.

I keep getting headaches and almost blacking out when I stand up, and my body aches all the time, despite the almost complete lack of exercise due to my hatred of the heat. I'm constantly tired, despite getting at least 9 hours of sleep every night and doing literally nothing with my life.

Before this whole global pandemic thing, I was a very busy person. I worked constantly, maybe getting 30 minutes to myself everyday to sit down and watch a YouTube video or read some fanfic without being bothered and that's a stretch. Now I've been stuck in my own head without much to distract me for 73 days.

This quarantine is killing me, and I don't know if I'll be the same person when I get out that I was when I went in.

(for example, I don't usually vent my problems to random people on the internet)